She's Worth It ch. 13
I've been working on this show with the band, making sure that everything's tight and music is coming together amazingly while working at the diner to be able to pay my portion of the rent with whatever's left over going into my savings. I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to use it for but it's better to have it and not need it then to not have and need it later because shit happens as I just wanna be fuckin' prepared ya know. Things have changed around the apartment since Rachel blur it out that she and Quinn are interested in dating me which is fuckin' mind-blowing because I didn't think that they would be interested in being with someone who's broken. Don't get it twisted though because I'm out here trying to put my life back together but things in my past really did a number on me and my self confidence as I don't know if I am worth the hassle since I come with a lot of baggage.
I have to admit that the Dwarf and Malibu Barbie have been amazing the last couple of weeks and I'm most definitely in a better headspace than when I first got here but I'm still a work in process and I just want to live my life the way that I want. They insist on moving me into their room but I decline because we only just got together and sleeping in the same room is moving a bit faster for me which they understood as a part of me feels like they would've been upset but they assured me that it was okay and that there was no pressure. We're taking things a bit slow but luckily they're being so understanding and patient with me before reminding me that once things calm down with my upcoming show and the munchkin's opening night approaching that they're taking me out a date.
Rachel refuses to tell me where we're going on this date other than it's going to be a night to remember and that I should be prepared to be romanced to the fullest before making a joke about her doing it to get into my pants. I laughed my ass off as she quickly turns red in the cheeks before smacking me on the shoulder and telling me that I shouldn't be so crude but I did see a hint of a smile so I know that she knows that I'm messing with her. I want to be someone that Mamì can be proud of and who she knew that I could be as occasionally my heart aches thinking about her at times because of how I left things and I regret cutting her out of my life. I should've listen to her when she warned me about but I was too blinded by love to see the dancer for what she was but there's nothing that I can do about it now other than move the hell on with my life.
For the first time in the long time, I feel content in the direction that I'm heading in but in the back of my mind, I cant help thinking that things have been going a little well with me as Brittany hasn't tried anything to get back as she was so possessive. She hated every time that I walked out the door for minor errands like going to the mail box or going to the store to grab some milk as she would accuse me of cheating on her or that I was planning to leave her before it turn into an argument before hitting me. The dancer would apologize before promising to never doing it again and at first I had believe her but it started to happen more and more as she stopped apologizing, saying that I was provoking her and that it was my fault for making her do it. Now I see that it wasn't my fault that she was so abusive but she was too insecure in herself and where her life was heading as she took it out on me but I won't let her control me anymore because I deserve better and I found it.
Working diner is a pain in the ass as some of the customers are shitty ass people with one of them making comments towards or random idiot hitting me on my ass as I walked by and it took everything in me not to turn around to dump his milkshake on his head. I'm not willing to lose my job over this fucktard as I try my best to ignore as best I could which is really saying something about my self control and I think that Rachel would be proud of. The only thing that's making this job somewhat bearable are my coworkers Dani and Elliot as they're fellow rock stars like myself as Gilbert goes by the stage name StarChild and I have to admit that he's amazing. Dani is a beast on the guitar and easy to get along with as I think in another life, we would have been great together but I'm perfectly happy with my Barbie and Munchkin and I wouldn't trade me for anything.
The duo came to New York when they were eighteen as the guitarist left home because her parents didn't like the idea of her being a lesbian after finding her making out with a girl in their basement. The rocker left because of school, auditioning for NYADA but they rejected him which is a total loss for them since he's so awesome before applying for NYU which makes wonder if he and Quinn know each other. I'm wiping off the counter as today's a slow day so not a lot of costumers are coming so I have a lot more free time than normal but I'm not complaining when Gunther asked me to take out the trash which I hate doing but it's not like I had much of a choice. I take the trash out before coming back into the diner to finish cleaning the counter when the little bell on the door rings, meaning a customer just walk in and I was about to ask them what they want to eat but the words never past my lips.
My eyes widen in shock, my heart was pounding so hard that I thought it was going to come outta my chest and I feel myself shiver involuntarily when Brittany walk into the diner causally looking around. No one was around as the cook decide to take a smoke break and I had no idea where Gunther was but I could use someone in here with as the dancer sits down at the counter, picking up a menu like she was interest finding something to eat. She sets the menu down, folding her arms on the counter with a sickening sweet smile but I could see the old anger behind her blue eyes as I back up until my back hits the wall behind me but it still doesn't feel it was enough distance between us.
"What do you recommend, San? What's good here?" Brittany asked smiling.
"W-What are you doing here? How did you find me?"
"What are you not happy to me, baby? You should know by now that I will always find and that it's useless to try to find hide from me. You cant get away from me because I'm the only one that loves you despite you being a dirty little slut bag but that's what I love about you. I hope that you had a nice little break that you've been on but now it's time to come home" Brittany said holding out her hands expectantly. "Lets go home baby and I'll look past this little incident"
"N-No"
"Excuse me, what did you say? I don't think that I heard you correctly" Brittany said raising an eyebrow.
"I-I said n-no. I'm not going anywhere you, Brittany because you hurt me one too many times and you're too possessive. I refuse to back to that place with you because you're not going to change and I'm finally starting to be happy again without you trying to control my every move. I can't do it anymore and the only reason that I stayed is because I thought that I loved you but not anymore" I said frowning.
"You say this like you have a choice in the matter. You're my property, San and I don't like my property running off to whore themselves out to anyone and everyone that shows them a little bit of attention but I should've known since you've always been a bit of slut for attention" Brittany said shaking her head. "I guess that's my fault since I spoiled you too much and now you gotten too full of yourself. I'll have to correct that attitude of yours when we get home so lets go"
"I told you that I'm not going anywhere with you, Brittany. Just leave me alone"
"I can't do that San because I love you too much" Brittany said smiling slightly.
"You don't know what love is" I said frowning.
"I know that you and I are endgame and I'm never letting you go" Brittany said standing up.
She walks around the counter that was separating us until she's standing in front of me with an intense look on her face, placing her hand on my cheek as I shiver runs up my spine as she moves her hand down to my neck before flexing her fingers tightly. I was finding it harder and harder to breathe as the dancer looks down at me with an evil glint in her eyes as I start to remover her hand from my throat, tears swelling in my eyes because the girl that I loved is once again causing me harm. Parts of our relationship where we were younger and in love flashes behind my eyelids before the hand on my neck disappears and I could finally breath, taking in large breaths of air to see Quinn standing behind me and Brittany looking ready to pounce. Rachel was asking me a bunch of questions but I nod my answers while trying to catch my breath as the dancer looks surprised for a moment like she's trying to figure out what's going on before a look of recognition flashes over her face.
"So these are the bitches that you been fuckin' on the side" Brittany said looking between Rachel and Quinn for a moment. "You couldn't do any better than them"
"I got your bitch right here. Stay away from Santana if you know what's good for you" Quinn said angrily.
"Or what? You'll hit me? Do it, I want you to if you think that you can" Brittany said amused.
"Quinn, don't. If you hit her then she can call the police, saying that you slugged her without probable cause" Rachel said frowning.
"But she-"
"I know baby, I want my shot at her as much as you do but we have to be smart about this and I need you not in prison if the both of us are to protect Santana" Rachel said glaring at Brittany.
"Fine if you come anywhere near Santana, I swear that I'm going to punch her light out" Quinn said through gritted teeth.
"Don't worry San, you'll be back at my side soon enough and we'll be happy together again" Brittany said with a wink.
Without another word she walks out of the diner and I feel like I can finally breathe again because this was the last place that I thought that I would see Brittany but I should've known that she would find me. The dancer has always been relentless when she wants something and she wasn't about give up on me that easily as Rachel gently brush the pads of my cheeks was when I realize that I was crying. This encounter is the scariest moment in my life as both women held in that moment, allowing me to cry because I'm honestly afraid of what my ex girlfriend might do.
~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off
End of ch. 13