Natsu put one foot in front of the other as he let Lucy drag him along by the arm.

"You know you look crazy right?" It wasn't really a question. He was slowly becoming more and more aware that she knew. Caring however was another matter.

Lucy shot him a glare then looked back to where she was walking.

"Nobody is even paying attention anyway and besides, it's your birthday and I have an entire day planned out for you. If you would follow me a little more willingly this might be easier."

"When you said you wanted to celebrate I didn't think you meant for the entire day you know. This is so unnecessary." He groaned and rolled his eyes but started walking a little bit more willingly.

"Well I think it is entirely necessary actually."

"Are you at least going to tell me where we are going?"

"No need." Lucy giggled as the pointed to a sign for an amusement park. Natsu had never been to one before but he couldn't help the feeling of anxiety that bloomed in his chest and stomach.

"Ahh Lucy, I don't think this is the best idea." He mumbled as she continued to pull him toward the entrance.

"Nonsense." She replied as the walked to the ticket booth. "Two tickets for entry and unlimited rides please." She smiled at the teenage boy with dirty blond hair who was working as she grabbed the money from her purse and put it on the counter.

"Ahhh two?" The boy looked at her and looked around her with a confused expression. "If you are planning to meet another person in there I will need to get a password off you to ask your friend when they come to collect the ticket."

"I'm not meeting anyone in there, why would you think that?" Lucy raised her eyebrows at the ticket clerk before a look of realization crossed her face. "Sorry for the confusion, ahh, just one ticket please." The boy handed her the change and ticket then Natsu followed her inside.

"So what do you want to do first?" Lucy smiled at him, her cheeks looking slightly picker then they normally did.

"I dunno" Natsu shrugged his shoulders. How was he supposed to know what to do at one of these places? He hadn't exactly been to any before. Not even to collect a soul.

Lucy furrowed her brow thoughtfully before her lips grew into a large smile. "I know, let's go on the roller coaster! That'll be fun right?"

Before Natsu could respond she grabbed his arm and started dragging him toward to ride. He could see on her face that she was excited and couldn't help the smile that found its way onto his lips. If Lucy thought that it would be fun, then he trusted her judgement on the matter.

"Hey what are you doing? My friend is sitting there!" Lucy raised her voice at the man standing to the side of them. Natsu didn't know what his job was called but he could guess it had something to do with helping run the ride.

After about half an hour waiting in line they finally got onto the ride. Natsu had sat down in the seat next to Lucy but found that he couldn't lock himself into the ride. Lucy had pulled the safety bar down and done up all the buckles for him.

"Miss, the line for the roller coaster is very long, it is important that we fill up every seat." The man spoke in a tired voice.

"This seat is full, my friend is sitting there!" Lucy argued as she held Natsu's safety bar down so the man couldn't undo it.

"Miss, I am going to have to ask you to let go so I can help this person into their seat." The man gestured to the middle age woman standing beside him.

"It's not her seat, it is my friends seat." Lucy said through clenched teeth, still not letting go of his safety bar.

"Lucy just let it-" Natsu started before the man interrupted him.

"Miss if you don't let go I am going to have to ask you to exit the ride completely."

"Fine! We don't wanna ride this crummy roller coaster anyway." Lucy undone her belt and safety bar, then undone Natsu's before grabbed grabbing his hand and pulling him out of the seats with her.

As they walked away Natsu could hear the people behind them talking about Lucy. Some of them called her crazy and others speculated about what could be "wrong" with her.

"I'm sorry that guy was such a jerk. We will find an even better ride, don't you worry." Lucy mumbled, ignoring the mean things being whispered about her by ever person the passed who heard what had happened.

After a few hours of walking around and trying to get on some different rides, the same thing kept happening. Each time Natsu became more numb to the fact that nobody could see him and Lucy became more frustrated. The only ride they managed to get on was the spinning tea cups but by that point Natsu just wanted to go home with Lucy, lay on her bed and pretend that he could sleep.

His chain of thought was interrupted by a boy standing in front of him. No. Standing in front of Lucy.

"Can I help you with something?" Lucy asked in an impatient voice, still not letting go of Natsu's hand.

"I was just wondering if you wanted to go on a date with me?" The boy smiled at her. For some reason it didn't sit right with Natsu, seeing this person smiling at her like that.

"No thankyou. Have a nice day." Lucy smiled at the boy but it didn't quite reach her eyes as she tried to step around him but he stepped in front of her again.

"Why not?" He asked with his smile slowly turning into something at mote closely resembled a scowl

"Because I don't know you." Lucy spoke as if her reason should be completely obvious. Natsu found himself agreeing with her on that.

"Well maybe you could get to know me if you let me take you on a date."

"I don't want to go on a date." Lucy moved to step around him and again he cut her off.

"Why not?" The stranger raised his voice.

"Why do I owe you a reason? I don't know you!" Lucy raised her voice back.

"She said no, leave her alone!" Natsu stepped in front of Lucy but was completely ignored.

"You're a bitch you know that right?" The boy crossed his arms and glared at her.

"Don't talk to her like that." Natsu growled. He should have known better than to try and talk to the boy in front of him. It was just that sometimes, Lucy treated him so human that he almost forgot he wasn't.

"You're an entitled idiot. Get out of my face and out of my way." Lucy tried once more to walk away from the stranger harassing her but he blocked her path again.

"Or what?" He grinned.

His smile quickly turned into clenched teeth as Lucy kicked him straight in the stomach.

"Or that." She smiled sweetly before walking away, Natsu's hand clenched tightly in her own. Despite the fact that he could feel her warmth against his palm it did nothing to ease the strange sensation he felt in the pit of his stomach.

The walk home was silent, which was fine by him. Natsu didn't want to talk. He felt so useless. Lucy had gone to so much trouble for him and he couldn't even stick up for her against some jerk. He should have been the one who kicked that guy. All day Lucy had been kicked off ride after ride, all because he was literally invisible. She had been called names by everyone who looked at her, and what had he done? Sweet fuck all.

The worst part was, she wasn't even mad at him for ruining their day. She didn't get annoyed with him or irritated. She didn't even stop holding his hand when onlookers whispered cruel things about her. She just kept her hand around his and continued walking forward.

As they walked through the doors of the mansion everything remained as quiet as it always was. Natsu didn't know if Lucy's dad was in the house or away for work. Whenever he was there he didn't exactly make his presence known. The servants were had probably either gone home for the day or retired to their own rooms.

He wasn't the only one who felt invisible in this house. Lucy was just as unseen as him. Completely ignored and unnoticed. He followed her up the stairs. It felt strange for him to not be climbing in through her window.

When they got to her door Lucy cleared her throat and Natsu looked at her with furrowed brows.

"Can you close your eyes for me? Please."

Natsu shrugged and did as he was told as Lucy guided him into her room.

"You can open them now."

Natsu gasped. The room was completely decorated with balloons and streamers, a large and clearly handmade banner hung over the window that read "Happy birthday Natsu" in rainbow letters.

"You done this for me?" He whispered and Lucy smiled at him softly.

"I had help." She replied.

"Who?"

As if to answer his question, other his colleagues started appearing through the room. Lisanna, Bickslow, Gajeel, Erza and most surprisingly Gray all stared at him.

"What's a party without friends?" Lucy smiled.

"Friends?" Natsu whispered. He couldn't say he had ever thought of his fellow personifications as friends. They annoyed him to no end at the best of times. The nagged him and scolded him and laughed at him when he made mistakes and... They showed up to his first party and helped Lucy in whatever way she meant. Did friends do that kind of thing?

"We figured you deserved a fun night. You do know what fun is right." Lisanna smiled.

Theoretically Natsu knew what fun was, he just wasn't exactly certain that he had ever put it to practice. He knew about the concept of fun even if he wasn't sure what it meant to have it.

"Hey flame brain, are you just gunna stand their blubbering like an idiot or are you going to enjoy the party?" Gray shouted from across the room indicating that Gajeel's new nickname for him had apparently caught on rather quickly. Well two could play at that game.

"Shut up ice princess, I'm just a bit surprised." He called back but even he could tell that his words lacked any venom beside them.

"Ice princess?" Gray looked at him sceptically.

"Yeah well you are a cold hearted sook so I figured that name fits you well." He replied with a smug grin.

Gray smiled back at him.

"I'll let that slide because it's your birthday fire face but don't go thinking I can't beat your arse."

Natsu paused for a moment. Gray was a lot older than he was so in a fight he probably could beat him but in insults? Natsu was going to have to think of a few new nicknames.

Out of the corner of his eye he could see Lucy looking at him with an amused expression and her arms crossed. Under the heat of her gaze his felt something, though he wasn't really sure what it was. It made his throat and chest feel kind of strange. He wasn't sure what it meant but he did know that he liked seeing her smile at him. He wanted to see her look at him with pride in her eyes.

"Gray. Fight me you silly popsicle!" He didn't know where the words came from but they slipped from his mouth before he could think about it.

"Okay, nothing like a fun spare between friends right?" Gray shrugged and removed his shirt.

"I said fight me, not have a stripping contest." Natsu mumbled, feeling suddenly less confident.

"I'm not a stripper. I'm taking it off because I don't really want to get my clothing torn."

Shrugging his shoulders Natsu decided that wasn't exactly a terrible idea and opted for also taking his shirt off. He paused for a moment before deciding to not go so far as to remove his pants. He really didn't know why but he had the feeling that it would be taking things too far and besides, they were not likely to get ripped.

"You ready yet?" Gray said, snapping him out of his thoughts.

"Oh I was born ready." Natsu grinned not realizing how silly the phrase sounded coming from him.

He didn't notice how Lucy's expression changed when he took off his shirt or how it changed again when Gray's punches started connecting with his face and stomach. He just noticed that they actually hurt. He tried to block but he wasn't quick enough. He managed to land a few well placed punches but Gray seemed unaffected. The fight came to a complete head when Gray picked him up, and slammed him through the drinks table, breaking the table and spilling the liquid over the floor.

"Gray what the fuck!" Erza, the female with dark red hair and a look that could frighten a bear plastered to her face shouted. "That was not fair and you know it!"

Natsu looked stood up and looked at the damage. How the fuck was that even possible?

"Come on lighten up. Kid had to learn some how right?" Gajeel interrupted and Erza shot him a scowl.

"Going solid against a personification who has not reached that level yet is bad form."

"What the fuck is-" Natsu started at the same time as Lucy spoke.

"What's is going solid?" She sounded nervous confused.

"When a personification reaches a certain rank they develop the ability to effect the world around them. It is normally forbidden to do in front of humans and can take hundreds of years to learn. Gray, Erza and Gajeel are three of the only personifications who possess the ability." Lisanna smiled and when Lucy still looked confused, continued. "They can make themselves solid and touch things. Like pick stuff up and moved stuff around. It also can make you visible to humans if you are really good at it, hence why it is forbidden to do in front of them. It takes a lot of practice and you have to be taught the ability by someone who already knows it and deems you as ready."

"What? You mean that I could be able to pick stuff up and-"

"Not in your life. You didn't even know what it was so you clearly still haven't read that fucking book. Not only that but you are irresponsible and have poor judgement. You won't be learning it for a few hundred years yet." Gajeel interrupted Natsu.

Natsu was about to retort when Lucy walked up to him and placed a cold, damp hand to his face. In her other hand she cupped a few melting ice cubes and small drops of water fell from between her fingers onto her floor. Natsu leaned into her hand and let the coolness sooth him.

He had never felt cold before but somehow it felt nice having her cold hand touching him. Natsu thought it felt good because it soothed him after the fight with Gray. If he had thought a out it more he would have realized that any injuries were already faded and that the coolness wasn't the thing that soothed him at all.

He could hear everyone else whispering to each other but couldn't make out what they were saying so chose to ignore it. The rest of the party was completely u eventful. Lucy seemed to get along better with everyone than he did. Natsu wasn't sure how to feel about that.

After everyone left Natsu looked at Lucy. She looked at the floor and then back at him.

"I'm sorry if it wasn't exactly a good day. I really wanted you to have a good birthday." She mumbled, playing with her hands.

Natsu didn't know how to respond. He didn't understand how she could possibly blame herself for the day not going as planned. She had clearly put a lot of thought into everything she had done. Even the decorations. She had money, lots of money. She could have gone and gotten decorations from the store and that would have been perfectly fine. Instead she had made them herself, with her own two hands. The only thing she had done wrong was forgetting that he wasn't human. He was death.

To him, her forgetting didn't seem like a bad thing at all. It made his chest throb and his cheeks feel hot. He had never felt any sort of temperature before he met her but now he was experiencing all sorts of knew feelings and sensations that he didn't understand. He didn't think that seemed like a bad thing either.

"Lucy, all you done was treat me like a regular human being." He tried to sooth her but she flinched.

"I know, I'm sorry Natsu. I didn't think.. I was just... Never mind. I was stupid."

"I like it." He whispered low enough that he wasn't sure if she heard him until she replied.

"You like me being stupid?"

"No. I like it when you treat me like I am normal. Like I am just a regular human." It wasn't until the words left his mouth that Natsu felt the brutal honesty they were laced with. He wanted to be normal. Wanted to be a human so desperately it made his throat feel tight.

"Well then I promise I will always treat you like you are just a regular human if that is what you want?" She spoke slowly, the last few words sounding more drawn out then they needed to be.

He could never really be normal, he knew that much. That's why he was selfish because -even though he knew what he was- he decided in that moment that he was going to cling to his wish of normality. If Lucy was the only way he could experience even a small taste of his it, he would cling to her just a tightly.

He snapped away from his thoughts and noticed that Lucy was already laying down in her bed, so he walked toward her to lay at her feet looking up at her even though she wouldn't meet his eyes.

"Lucy?"

"Yeah?

"You make me feel." He said the words not knowing the weight behind them. Not even realizing as he head snapped up from the pillow and she looked at him.

"What do you mean? How do I make you feel?" Her eyes were wide and full of something he couldn't quite distinguish.

"I mean you make me feel. I don't know how you do it. You make me feel and it's confusing for me because I don't know what it means. I've never had to think about these kinds of things before." His face was tense and his throat felt oddly itchy, as though the words did not what to come out.

Lucy smiled at him, a large smile that took over her face and caused her eyes to crinkle. It was his favourite expression to see on her face.

"It means you're normal Natsu, it's normal to feel things and it is normal to feel confused about them. If you ever want help figuring it out tell me okay?"

"Thanks Lucy. You really are the best you know?" Natsu felt weirdly drained after the days events. He knew he couldn't sleep but he still felt almost devoid of energy. So instead of waiting for Lucy to reply he close his eyes and let his imagination take over for a while. He let the pictures play in his head behind his closed eyes and pretended that was what a dream was.

In his weird dreams that were not quite dreams he could be anything or anyone. He was many things all at once. They varied through the course of the night and grew more fantastical with each one. There was really only one constant in every single of them. A constant he didn't even notice or think to much of.

Lucy was always there, smiling her big smile with crinkled eyes. Some times she was a princess he needed to rescue. Other times she was a powerful mage that battled along side of him. In all of them, not matter how different the not quite dreams were, she was always Lucy.

When he opened his eyes he noted that it was still dark outside, however the light given by the moon shone through the window and made the room just light enough to see. He looked at his only friend in the world thinking about how peaceful she seemed in her state of unconsciousness.

"I wonder what your dream about. What images flash behind your eyes and make you frown in your sleep." He whispered so softly that she wouldn't be able to hear him, even if she were awake.

Her lips looked soft, even in a frown. He shook his head to clear it when he realized how dangerously close he was to finding out for himself if they were as soft as they looked. He didn't know where the urge to touch her in any way came from, so he pushed it to the back on his mind and ignored it. Still, he didn't push them away quick enough and one last thought brushed through his mind.

'If she can make me feel the warmth and coolness of her touch, I wonder if I could also feel the sense of taste if it came from her.'

A/N

Hello everyone! I am so sorry that I haven't been updating for a while, I just got a new job and the hours I have been working have been making me feel rather exhausted. I don't wanna just throw chapters at you if they are poor quality or if they are just for the sake of it. I feel as though I owe it to each of you to pour my heart and soul into each chapter. I don't want to produce writing that feels empty just for the sake of updating

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