Bella briefly awoke to Esme kissing her head and tucking the covers tighter around her. "Sorry Bella, me and Carlisle have to run an errand in the city I forgot about. It's still early you go back to sleep."

Bella rolled over mumbling a quick okay, wanting to call the woman Mom but there was a layer of embarrassment to the idea she couldn't figure out.

When she woke up it was to Rosalie next to her reading a book, which she promptly put down when she noticed Bella rousing.

"You know for a vampire you sleep a lot" Rosalie commented, "Maybe it's because you're not getting good sleep. Esme said you mumble and move around a lot."

Bella spoke, "I never met another vampire who really slept, and my interactions were always short. What's all your sleep like?"

Rosalie mused for a second before responding, "If Alice is having trouble with her visions she'll sleep like a day really hard and Jasper usually will sleep if she is. If we've been around large crowds or just a lot of intense emotion he'll sleep for a day too. The same with Edward, but he usually doesn't sleep like at all. Emmett sleeps like a rock when he does and he usually does once a week. Esme and Carslie are the same. Me too, unless it's been a hard day and then I can sleep for a while."

Bella spoke quietly, feeling shy in front of the beautiful vampire "What do you mean bad days?"

Rosalie gave her a sad smile, "That's actually why I'm in here, the boys went out hunting and Alice wants to get a few things together. But I wanted to tell you my story." Bella nodded and pulled her knees up towards her. So Rosalie told her of her life before, and how it ended and Bella felt her eyes filling with tears at the cruelty Rose faced. Rosalie went on to tell her about her anger at being changed without a choice and anger over the whole thing how desperately she wanted kids. But how with Emmett she felt better, and understood Carlisle changing her. Letting Emmett die would have felt like such a waste of a life.

As Rosalie finished Bella thanked her but spoke up, "I understand that you were angry and still are about not getting a choice. And it's not fair Rosalie it's really not of it is. But at least someone changed you out of love and compassion, and they stayed with you." Bella felt her eyes pricking with tears, it always hurt to remember. She was so alone and it hurt. Why did she have to remember it? Why couldn't she just listen to Rose's story without freaking out?

"I was changed by complete accident, because I was supposed to be a meal but I wasn't. And then I was alone, and a complete freak." Rose tried to reach toward her but Bella was shaking and crying and Rosalie didn't know what to do she could tell this was no longer about her. She wished anyone else in her family were here, where the hell was Edward. She needed her mate.

"I was an accident Rosalie! I'm the reason my parents got married, and then it all went to shit. And then I got turned into a vampire by accident. My life is an accident, and no one wants me. My own mother doesn't even want me." Bella sobbed harder, "No one wants me."

Rose spoke, "Oh Bella we want you, I want you to stay."

But Bella was to far gone, Rosalie could practically see the pain radiating form her. Then the boys burst through the door, Edward immediately going to Bella taking the details from Rose's mind. While Emmett came over to hold Rosalie against him.

He started rocking her humming the lullaby he wrote for her, trying to soothe her crying. His heart broke as she kept mumbling that no one wanted her.

Alice had come to the door, taking Jasper's hand and brining her over to where Edward was holding Bella. Jasper was just overcome with her pain and feelings of abandonment.

"Bella" Alice spoke softly and firmly causing the young vampire to look at her, "We want you. Edward wants to be your mate, and we want to be your siblings."

Bella shook her head, her past experiences telling her different; everyone left her.

Emmett spoke up, "Bella we do want you. Who's going to help me beat Jasper in video games?"

Jasper smirked, "And you don't even know how moody and broody Edward was before you came along."

Bella sniffled a little he tears slowing as she snuggled more into Edward.

Rosalie spoke next, "With you the girls are finally even. We need you for our baseball team. It'll be fun Bella."

Alice spoke again in the same firm but kind voice, "It sucks that your mom doesn't want you, but she's a fucking idiot." All her siblings nodded, "We love you and want you to stay. Okay? Just think about it."

Bella tried to nod but she was already slumping against Edward, exhausted from her episode he kissed her hair still humming her lullaby as he took her back to her bed.

Jasper spoke, "I know she's not blood thirsty like a new born, but her emotions. They're so intense and they just overcame her. I think a lot of them just came over from when she was a human. She just feels so alone, and confused."

Emmett spoke, "Do you think we can help Jazz?" He looked sadly at the little vampire in Edward's arms.

Jasper nodded, "Edward's already helping her, she feels more settled and I think she might actually get a restful sleep if he stays with her. But I think if we just continue to tell and show her around she'll understand."

Edward spoke, "I know she's already starting to see Esme as her mom. She called her mom yesterday before we came back. I think she needs time, honestly we all did for the most part"

Jasper spoke up next, "Becoming a vampire is traumatic and that's not even on top of all her human trauma which she remembers. I think she just got trigged hearing about someone else's change, it could have been any of us telling her."

Rosalie nodded then spoke, "I think we should let her rest, she obviously needs it." The siblings nodded and headed out of Bella's room while Edward stayed humming to her.

Bella woke up groggy and confused; she hadn't slept this well since she was a kid. She looked up to see Edward smiling down at her as the memory of before washed over here.

She hid her head in Edward's chest as he pet her hair, "Love, what's wrong?"

Bella looked up embarrassed, "I had a full breakdown in front of everyone."

Edward shrugged, "We've all been there. I know Rosalie told you how angry she was. Once she threw my piano at me while we were fighting. So you screaming and crying is no big deal."

"Okay" Bella spoke

Edward smiled down at her, "Do you want to get dressed?"

Bella nodded, "Can you help me?"

Edward immediately lost breathe; "Um-"

"Oh! No. I'm not ready for more than kissing, I just meant picking out an outfit." Bella spoke

"You want me to pick out your clothes?"

Bella shrugged, "There's too much in there. It makes me anxious. Usually Alice just picks it out for me."

Edward nodded, "Okay well what do you want to be today?"

Bella thought for a moment, "Comfortable and cozy"

In a flash Edward had pulled out a blue boy friend style sweater and some leggings. "Can you wait here well I get changed?" Edward smiled and nodded before she was back in flash gripping her hand in his.

"Okay I'm ready"

Carlisle and Esme had returned while Bella was asleep and their hearts broke as their children told them about Bella's breakdown.

She came down holding Edward's hand, the sweater was big on her making her look like a small child. And Esme immediately wanted to take her in her arms, but Carlisle beat her to it giving the girl a hug.

"We're so glad you're here Bella." Bella nodded softly and hugged him back whispering a thank you.

Bella stayed glued to Edward as they sat around the living room doing various activities. Jasper and Emmett were playing some complicated version of chess, Alice was doing some shopping for some things she thought would suit Bella's room, Carlisle was reading a journal, and Edward was reading next to her. Rosalie was working on an electronic version of Bella's trucks engine, she had explained to Bella that she loved working on cars and she had assured Bella that she wanted to fix it up for her. Esme was working on something in her lap with a needle and Bella found herself looking over with curiosity.

Esme noticed and smiled at her, coming over to sit on her other side. "It's embroidery, would you like me to teach you?"

Bella nodded and smiled as Esme gently showed her the steps, she found herself really enjoying it but she was also flashed with a thought that her mother had never offered to show how to do one of her hobbies.

"That looks lovely Bella!" Esme praised her practice flower as Bella beamed and showed Edward who beamed at her and gave her head a kiss.

"Would you like to try it on a handkerchief?" Bella nodded eagerly as Esme mussed, "At one point I taught both Alice and Rose, but you seem to actually enjoy it. Though they both made Carlisle their fare share of handkerchiefs."

Carlisle chucked, "They did. I still have all of them, they're all wonderful."

Alice and Rose rolled their eyes at him, and Bella found herself smiling and laughing as the sunset and she got to work on the piece of cloth Esme had handed her. Already planning in her head a design for a tablecloth her and Esme could work on together.