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Antonio was an excellent lover, one who made my legs spasm when I came. But there were no romantic feelings. It was all just lust between us both and I didn't mind that. I had a lot of practice when it came to sex. I enjoyed exploring a man's body and figuring out what he liked. Antonio was pretty easy to read.
I was on top, grinding my hips hard and fast into his, his hands had a vice grip on my hips. The room was filled with panting and moans as I leaned back some to watch as his head fell back in utter bliss.
"Oh fuck!" He growled as I moved my hips faster, heavy pants escaping his lips. He was beautiful when engulfed in pleasure. His body was tightening as he was trying to fight the urge to cum. My eyes fluttered closed as my head fell back as I was in my own blissful universe. I feel my body being swung to the bed and my eyes opened swiftly as Antonio was over me thrusting his hips into me. I let out a hitched moan as his lips find mine and my legs wrap around his bottom. His arms wrapped around my back and after a few more thrusts, he groans hard, shivering hard as he cums. I don't cum however, but it does not mean I am dissatisfied. He rolls off me and lies on his back.
I merely rolled on my stomach as he tosses his condom in the trash.
"Okay… you can't say that just lying here would be better than hanging out with us at the bar." he says as if exhausted, his eyes glancing down at me. I hummed gently.
"Well I had something to do, but plans were cancelled." I replied. He arched a brow and he turned a bit to face me.
"A date?" he asked and I shook my head.
"No. Just catching up with an old friend." I replied and he nodded before suddenly frowning lightly and shaking his head.
"You know I don't get you… I mean you've been with us for a year and a half and none us can get a read on you. I mean are you afraid to open up or something?" he asked. I stared at him blankly for a second before leaning on my pillow in thought.
"I guess I have nothing to really share." I replied. "I mean Hank has my file I'm sure you can ask him."
"But I don't want to ask Hank… I want to ask-" he paused as we both noticed the frustration in his tone. "Look, I'm sorry. It's just I've never met a person so… closed off."
"And it bothers you because you can't truly get a read on me. Look this is how I have been since day one. And I knew that being this way you all didn't feel you could trust me because I came off as secretive. But I have my reasons for it." I replied with a shrug.
He gave a soft pout.
"Guess that's all I'm going to get huh?" he asked and I shrugged.
"You've been in my home multiple times when we do… this. I'm sure you can put some pieces together." I replied. He gave a quick smile at my words before nodding.
"Well you live alone and you're single. You had siblings but something happened to them… Maybe you're hurting and you don't want to admit it?" he asked.
"Antonio you are ruining this little moment of ours." I told him as I just rested my cheek on my arm. He nodded.
"Okay okay. I'll let it go. I won't pry anymore." he said. I nodded.
"Yes, you will. All of the team will." I said. He looked down some not replying meaning he was not denying it either. We laid here in silence for a moment, his eyes remaining on the ceiling and my eyes on him.
"You planning to stay or…?" I trailed off and he smirked and nodded.
"Yeah I should get going." he said sitting up slowly and rolling his shoulders. "Or I mean I could stay if you want me to." I tilted my head at his words. He always wanted to say, that much I knew. He wanted me to stop him and ask him to stay with me always. But I would not be the first person to cave and let this go anywhere past lust. I sat up slowly and smiled at him before kissing his shoulder softly. He nodded and smiled.
"Yeah I thought so." he said lightly. He got up and got dressed and I moved to grab my robe off the ground. I felt his fingers graze my bottom and I leaned up to look at him to see he looked mildly disappointed.
"Your vaginal muscles usually tighten up around me when you cum… I didn't feel that this time." he said. I looked away some and nodded.
"That's true, but I still enjoyed it." I replied moving to put my arm through the first sleeve of my robe. He looked away hiding his frown before nodding.
"You should have said something." he said.
"Why?" I asked closing the robe.
"Why? Because I'm not doing my part if you don't cum." he said and I smirked now.
"I still got all the pleasure in knowing you came." I said, and he just huffed some and moved passed me after he was fully dressed. I walked him to the door and after a quick goodnight he was gone from my home. I took a shower washing his scent off me before returning to bed.
The next morning, I was at my desk trying to hide my frustration on the fact my leads on the new heroine distributor had gone cold. My CI's had nothing for me and couldn't even point me in a good direction. Hank's door opened and he came out with his coat in hand.
"Listen up, we got a homicide down at Windmill Apartments on East and 4th street." he said and my head snapped up as I stood up and looked at him.
"Windmill… how many dead?" I asked.
"Two, looks like a home invasion gone horribly wrong. You're with me let's move out." he demanded. I put my gun in my holster, grabbed my badge and coat and followed Hank out. Windmill Apartments where it all started. I followed Hank out to his car and got in. My stomach was forming knots and I looked down rubbing my stomach to calm it.
"Levi, you good?" Hank asked and I looked up at him almost stunned, but I nodded.
"Yes." I replied firmly and he squinted at me before nodding and taking off. "You know anything about Windmill Apartments?" I was quiet for a moment but nodded.
"I grew up in those apartments." I replied. Many of us did. He nodded.
"Something I should know before we get there?" he asked and I shook my head.
"Nothing at all." I replied and he gave me a look over before nodding.
"Alright then." he replied. Took us fifteen minutes to get there. Yellow tape and paramedics were there. Windows were open from all the other homes as people were looking out them. Hank and I stepped out and I immediately froze as I looked around at the white apartments. Red rooves, red stained clothes, red falling over scared faces. I shook my head as Hank walked around the car and over to the other officers. I followed him as we walked up the pitch-black steps and headed over to the red door with golden numbers 102. We moved beneath the yellow tape.
"What do we got here?" Hank asked as we now saw the two bodies lying flat on their stomachs side by side.
"Donnie and Su Yang, both in their late sixties. Single shot to back of the head. Execution style." she explained and I winced as I walked closer to the bodies and examined them. Both their eyes were closed and I remember Su bringing me some soup when I was sick as a child.
"Was anything taken?" Hank asked. Adam shook his head.
"No and get this, there was on forced entry anywhere. Whoever the shooter was, they knew them and let the person in." he said. I moved back up and inhaled and looked at my team before walking over to them. Hank stared at me carefully and I looked up at him.
"You knew them." he said and I nodded.
"Yes. They had five children, lost four of them to a murder themselves." I explained, the emotion gone from my tone. "The only child alive is Remy. He was a good kid, but changed after his siblings died. I don't know what he's doing with himself now." Hank nodded.
"Okay we need to find Remy Yang and bring him in, see what he knows, see if maybe he snapped." he ordered. I was looking at Mr. and Mrs. Yang with lifeless eyes. No emotions, no feeling, it's the only way to maintain your sanity.
Kevin moved up beside me with concerned eyes.
"Ay… you good?" he asked and I looked up at him now, blinking some as I nodded.
"Yes I'm fine." I replied lightly before an officer came in quickly.
"Hey we got a man an Asian male on a ledge at the abandoned Manchester construction warehouse!" he said. My entire body tightened as I looked at Hank.
"We used to hang out there when we were younger, it's considered his safe place!" I said.
"Let's move people!" Hank demanded and we hurried from the apartment and over to our vehicles. We got in our cars and took off. I gripped the handle of the door hard feeling the adrenaline build in me.
"What all do you know about Remy Yang, Levi?" Hank asked his sirens blaring over my head. My chest was heaving now he swerved around cars, speeding through the town.
"He was a kid I played with. He was sweet and innocent and that all changed when his brothers were killed. That's all I know!" I replied looking at him sharply. He only had seconds to glance at me before looking at the road.
"Why do I get the feeling you're not telling me everything?" he asked firmly.
"I can only tell you what I know!" I said. But he was right, I was not telling him everything. It was not his business to know and it was not my trauma to tell. I could see the brown building of the warehouse and the numerous cops swarming the front of it. Hank pulled up quickly and parked. We got out just as the rest of the team was arriving. Hank and I walked over to Lt. John Spellman who had a bullhorn in his hands.
"I've tried everything to get him down, it's like talking to a brick wall." I looked past them all and saw him standing on the edge.
"Remy." I whispered as he just stared down at the ground below in a white t-shirt and jeans. The wind blew his choppy hair over his eyes but I knew there'd be no fear in them, there'd be no emotion in them.
"So what he murders his parents and then decides to off himself?" Jay asked confused.
"We gotta get him down." Antonio replied. Lt. Spellman shook his head.
"He's completely gone. We can't get eyes on a weapon he's too high up." he said and I looked at everyone.
"I'll go to him." I replied. Hank looked at me quickly.
"What?" he asked and I nodded.
"He will remember me and I can try and talk him down." I said.
"Levi he isn't all there, and if he has a weapon-" Hailey started but I shook my head.
"He won't hurt me." I replied.
"And how do you know that?" Hank asked and I just looked at him for a long moment before removing my gun and handing it to him.
"I am the only one who can do this." I replied and Hank stared at me firmly, but he took my gun.
"If I see anything pointed at you, I will take him down." he replied in a dangerously low tone. I nodded and looked over at the warehouse and began to approach it. Slowly and calmly. Everyone watched me and Remy, but my eyes were only on Remy. As I got closer to the building, I stopped and raised my hands some Remy knew I was on armed. I see his head move a bit more.
"Ashta?" he asked with relief and I nodded.
"I'm here, Remy!" I called up to him. Finally, I could see his body shake as I heard him sob.
"Ashta… I've become unhinged!" he said. My body stiffened at the word he used and I shook my head more.
"Don't say that! Don't you say that! Come down and we can talk about it!" I called up to him but he just shook his head.
"We can't fight it anymore, I couldn't fight it! It was all their faults! None of them protected us!" he screamed. I shook my head.
"They didn't know Remy! You KNOW they didn't know!" I yelled and he pulled at his hair some and shook his head.
"I'm only the first! But it's going to happen to all of us! I know you think about it too!" he said. I kept my hands out so he could see them.
"Remy… did you kill your parents?" I asked and he shook his head sobbing some more.
"I had to. I tried so hard not to give in, but the more I fought the crazier I was becoming!" he said and winced some at his words.
"Why didn't you come to me?" I asked.
"YOU'RE A COP! A FUCKING COP WHO WOULD HAVE ME LOCKED UP FOR MY THOUGHTS!" he screamed. I shook my head more.
"That's not true! I could get you help!" I yelled. He nodded.
"Face it Ashta… I've…become…unhinged." he said each word carefully and I shook my head at his words.
"We all promised we would never use that word unless it were true. You're not a killer Remy! Please come down!" I replied and he shook his head, the emotions leaving his eyes.
"It's done, Ashta." he replied. I shook my head quickly.
"No. No I don't believe you!" I replied. He nodded slowly looking out at the rest of the policeman with a distant gaze.
"Yes you do." he said and I watched as his body moved forward and my eyes flexed some as he fell to the ground and landed with a thud. I stared at him for a moment, tilting my head some as I watched the blood pour from his eyes and mouth. I let out a gentle exhale before turning and walking back to the group as paramedics ran past me to try and save him.