Hey Guys, first and foremost can I apologise for the lack of uploads recently, I've had some personal stuff going on and starting uni. I'm going to try and upload more frequently from now on since I now know where this story is going and my writers block gone. I hope you enjoy this chapter!

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Chapter 14

Harry waited until the door closed before he lied down on his bed and swore loudly into his pillow. Why was he so stubborn he was only trying to help? You're not stubborn, you are just pathetic and worthless, you don't deserve to live, why carry on, there's nothing here for you said the voice. Harry wasn't thinking straight so he got off his bed and headed towards the window. He opened it as wide as he could and swung his legs over the side, letting the sun hit is face and the wind blow through his head. He made his was towards the edge and breathed in the clean air, what would it be like to let himself go? Let it all end? No one would miss him, he was the same freak the Dursleys called him and he was weak, at least Tom wouldn't have his wish granted…

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Harry felt the wind rush through is hair as the sun beat down onto his pale skin, he leant forward but caught himself quickly when he heard a knock at the door.

"One minute" Harry replied as he swung his legs back to safety and sat on the sofa which was right to the side of the window just in time as the door started to open. It was Remus, he looked oddly at the wide-open window and continued towards Harry, cautiously as if Harry was on fire. Remus finally took a seat by Harry and started to speak

"Harry… are you ok?" he asked. Harry nodded his reply "Can I ask you something?" again Harry nodded. "Can you tell me why that window is open so wide?"

Harry heart jumped and his stomach hit the floor. It took a while for him to answer rand wen he did it came out edgy and sarcastic. "Um… well… I was warm, and I wanted some fresh air" Remus looked at him in concern

"Are you sure Harry?" he asked, harry nodded in reply not wanting to speak, he was about to break down, he was digging his nails into his hands trying to keep his cool. "You know I'm here when you want to talk" as Remus put his hand on the shaking boys shoulder, stood up and went towards the door. For a moment, he thought Harry was going to say something when he raised his head but he didn't, so he walked out and shut the door behind him. Moony had a 6th sense about Harry, he always seemed to know when something was wrong.

When Harry heard the footsteps of Moony die away he decided that it was too risky to end it all, that he needed to be here to defeat Voldemort and if he was killed on the way he didn't care, as long as no one else died for him. Harry decided to try and hide how he was feeling better than he was before and hopefully everything would return to normal, then he could do it when people were least expecting it. All of that commotion made him too tired, so he laid down on the sofa after applying a silencing charm as the warmth of the sun coming through the open window as well as the breeze, Harry drifted off into an uneasy sleep…

Harry was back in the graveyard, Wormtail came out from the house. "Cedric, get back to the portkey!" he yelled. But it was too late again, "Avada kedavra" said a high pitched voice, no mercy within. Then his scar burnt as Wormtail placed the thing in the blanket into the human sized cauldron. Harry felt as Wormtail cut his arm before a black thing rose from the cauldron. Voldemort had returned.

Voldemort looked around, his eyes met Harry, the pain worsened…" Crucio!… the pain was immense…so immense he felt a thud.

The next thing Harry knew was that he had fallen off the sofa and was on the floor, his scar still prickling. He got up and made his way towards the bathroom and locked the door. He added another three cuts to his sore arm and sat there watching the blood drip onto the white and blue floor. He quickly cleaned himself up before making his way back to his room to get changed.

Knowing he had an apology to make to the worried Marauders downstairs, he slowly made his way down the stairs and carefully opened the kitchen door.

"Hi Harry" greeted Sirius gently

"Hi Sirius, Remus" Harry took a deep breath preparing himself to lie to the two people who cared most about him "I'd like to talk to you about something"

"Of course, pup, take a seat" replied Sirius, pleased that he will finally know about what as going on with his godson.

"I know I've been well, not myself recently and I wanted to apologise for being so angry with you guys, it wasn't needed, it's just the change of environment that has shocked me and having two people who are always there, thank you guys" lied Harry.

"That's ok Harry, thank you for telling us what is wrong. Anything we can do to help?" asked Sirius

"No, its okay" said Harry, "want a game of exploding snap?" trying to change the subject. Sirius smirked at Remus who smiled back, glad that Harry had told them something, he would keep an eye on him for the rest of the summer though, he knew Harry wasn't being entirely truthful. This also had made up his decision to take the position as a teacher at Hogwarts again this year. Harry needed him.

The trio had a few games of exploding snap before Remus had to leave to talk to the headmaster. Harry and Sirius continued to play on as Remus started to spin rapidly in the emerald flames of the fireplace.

"So how is your holiday homework going Harry?"

"Not too bad, I'm nearly done" he lied smoothly, in reality he had not touched a single piece of work.

"Do you want me to check it through?"

"No, its okay Padfoot. Whilst on that note, is it okay if I look in the library for some more information about transfiguration?"

"Yes of course you can Pup, you don't need to ask, this house is yours as well as mine" replied Sirius. "You know it's the full moon tonight?"

"Yeah, I do, what is Remus going to do during the full moon, is he going to be staying here"

"Yes, he will be but don't worry we've been working on a safe way for him to spend the full moon, he hardly is awake, he sleeps after his potion"

"Sounds good… say you never told me the story about you finding out Remus was a werewolf?"

"Haven't I?" replied Sirius "Well this is a perfect time to tell it, Moon Moon gets a little embarrassed when we tell it" joked Sirius "You ready?" and so Sirius began the story of how he and James had found the young werewolf in his friend….

NOTE: I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I know it changed attitudes very quickly but I assure you the truth will come out to Remus and Sirius eventually. Harry is still struggling immensely but is getting better at hiding it. Please rate and review