Fixation And Desire
Chapter 6. Devotion
Starscream lay awake, restrained to the berth. In the tiny room that he had been concealed in for the past two earth months. For the past week or so, he had hardly had any contact with his captor. Sure, Knock Out would always stop by to give him his daily ration of energon, and in the early hours of the morning, if Starscream himself were awake. He would hear the door to the room open, feel the shift of the berth as weight settled into it, and know that Knock Out was beside him.
But nothing compared to how it was in the beginning. When Starscream first had awoken in this room, all those weeks ago. Knock Out gave the seeker undivided attention. Only leaving the room if absolutely necessary. But, it seemed as though the medic had less and less time for him these days. The former commander began to ponder why, until a thought it him. ",perhaps he is tiring of me, just like everybody else.","He realized just what kind of a slag head he was dealing with, and now he's running for the hills, before he has to get any more involved with me", Starscream said aloud, his optics beginning to tear up without his permission. In truth, the seeker had gotten used to the attention from the other mech, and if he were completely honest with himself, he liked it, and now that it seemed knock out was tiring of him. He began to miss it.
No one in all his years, had ever loved him like Knock Out had. No one had ever shown him so much care, devotion, affection, attention.. No one had ever been so utterly fixated on him. No one had ever found him this attractive before, and if they had, they kept it to themselves. They didn't go on and on for hours, as Knock Out did. Starscream's optics began to shed even more tears, despite how much he wanted them to stop. The former commander was starting to suspect, that being locked in this room for so long was turning him soft. Ever since he had been stuck in here, He had been more open with his emotions than he ever had when he was commander Starscream. this thought terrified him. What if Megatron were to find him now? A sniveling, cowardly, Emotional basket case of a mech. Why, he would be so easy to pick off now.
This thought brought even more tears to his optics. What if Megatron did find him? What if he decided to terminate him, right here and now? What if Knock Out couldn't save him, like he promised? What if Knock Out really wasn't planning to kill Megatron at all? What if he only had said that to gain Starscream's trust? 1 million questions raised through the terrified seekers mind. He was so caught up in his emotional roller coaster ride, but he almost didn't notice the The Milyer sound of the door being unlocked. Knock Out was back. Quickly, he stopped crying, Wishing his arms were free, for nothing more than to wipe his own optics. he prayed to primus above, that Knock Out wouldn't see the obvious tear stains he knew would be running down his faceplates.
At last, the door, having finally been unlocked, swung open, revealing a silhouette of Knock Out, shrouded in the bright lights of the med bay. Starscream turned his face away from the open door. Both to shield his optics from the bright light, as well as to hide his tear stained face. "Starscream, I'm finally back", said Knock Out in his gentlest voice. "Ah, So I see", Starscream replied, pretending not to care, but secretly, in the deepest depths of his mind, he was thrilled that Knock Out had returned. "Aw, come now, at least pretend you're glad to see me", said Knock Out cheerfully, as he closed and swiftly locked the door behind himself. "I know it's been a while since we've actually spent any time together. But don't worry, I'm here now, and I brought some things for you that I know will make up for the fact that I've been gone for so long." Knock Out then placed what looked like a giant leather satchel down onto the berth at Starscream's peeds.
"what, pray tell, do you have there, Dr.?", asked Starscream, slightly amused. ",you'll see, darling", knock Out replied, reaching into his bag of tricks. ",first things first", knock Out began. "I find this room to be a bit too dark and depressing for either one of our liking. So, I managed to find these." Knock Out then held up a long string of small, ornate, stain glass lanterns. Each one was a few different colors, and had a different design. Knock Out wasted no time hanging them from the ceiling. As soon as he was done, the entire small room was alive with color and light. Starscream stared up at them, amazed, and wonderstruck. Out of the corner of his optic, he noticed that Knock Out was staring, too.
"Aren't they beautiful,star?","they're wonderful", Starscream admitted, because it was true, they were. Starscream could have just brushed the gesture off. Pretended like it was no big deal, pushed Knock Out away once again. But he just couldn't. A gift this extravagant, this meaningful, needed to be shown the proper respect. It was obvious to Starscream, that Knock Out had worked very hard to obtain these. It was then, that Starscream noticed something in particular about them. Each one, on the underside, baird the symbol of Voss. The seeker couldn't believe it. Not only had Knock Out managed to get his servos on these beautiful lanterns, but they were Vosian made, as well.
"Starscream, have you been crying recently?" The question tour the seeker out of his transfixed state. He realized too late that he had been failing to keep his helm turned away from Knock Out, to hide his tear stained face. "no", Starscream lied. "I do not cry", he continued, turning himself away from the medic, as best he could while restrained. "that's a load of bull scrap, and you know it", came Knock Out's low, Sultry voice, whispering directly into Starscream's audio receptor. Making the former commander jump. "for Slags sake, Knock Out, don't do that!","can you tell me what's bothering you, love? I'm sure I can make it better.","it's nothing", Starscream growled, wanting for Knock Out to just drop it. "my star, you know I'm not going to except that answer.","all right, fine", starscream relented. ",it's just that, you had been gone so long, and you only came to see me every once in a while, and I, I was just thinking that, you might be, getting tired of me."
"oh,my Silver Star. I could never, ever get tired of you. Not in a lifetime, not in 1 million years, not ever. I love you, so, very much, and there isn't a thing in any universe I wouldn't do for you. I want to make that very clear, and yes, I know that I haven't gotten to spend as much time with you recently, and for that, I am so very sorry. But I'm here now, and no matter what may happen in the future. I'm never going anywhere." Knock Out closed the space between the two of them, wrapping his arms tenderly around Starscream. Enveloping him in a warm embrace.
"I have one more thing to show you, my dearest spark", knock Out said, reaching into his satchel once again. "but first, I'll need you to close your optics." Starscream complied, closing his optics, and wondering just what Knock Out had in store for him. ",very good, darling. Now, don't open them until I say to." Starscream nodded. "One, two, three, open." The former commander opened his optics, and gasped in shock at what Knock Out was holding in front of him. A disembodied optic of shockwave. "to say that Starscream was shocked would be an understatement and a half. "Y-you, you,You,","yes darling, I did", knock Out responded, completely calm. "The big jerk was quite annoying, wouldn't you agree? Didn't you always used to rant to me about how much you hated him? I did it for you, darling. He disrespected you today, and that was unacceptable. So, I took care of him. he is no more, and thank primus, too. He was getting on both of our nerves. After all, he was the reason I wasn't able to spend as much time with you lately. Now that he's gone, I shouldn't be having that problem. But if my schedule does appear to be piling up, i'll just have to, clear it again." Knock Out said all this, a disturbing, although beautiful smile dawning his faceplates.
Starscream was absolutely shocked. Knock Out had killed shockwave, all because he apparently had disrespected him. This was an all new level of devotion. Of course, Knock Out had said in the past that he intended to get rid of Megatron, for Starscream. When he had first heard Knock Out say this, he had refused to believe it. Knock Out didn't seem like the type to want to get his servos dirty on someone else's behalf. But now, The proof that Knock Out was quite willing to do literally anything for him, was staring him in the face. In the form of shockwaves lifeless, unmoving optic. "if Knock Out did this to shockwave, just imagine what he could do to Megatron", Starscream thought. "I know what you're thinking, darling star. Don't worry, the big M is still very much on my to do list. Unfortunately, there are a few others that must fall before he can, and there is still much prep work that needs to be accomplished. But trust me, my dear. He will, eventually, fall, and once he does, you and I will have the run of the place.
"so, how did you kill him?" At this point, Starscream had gotten through the initial stage of being terrified, and was more oddly fascinated than ever now. He found himself wanting to hear every last gory detail. "I poisoned a cube of energon, and gave it to him. I came up with some half hearted excuse that he needed to make sure he was refueling in order to be in tiptop shape for Lord Megatron. "So, he just, drank it? Just like that?" Starscream was incredulous, there was no way shockwave could've been taken down that easily. "I suppose the Almighty shockwave wasn't as, logical as we all gave him credit for.","you've got to be kidding me! What an idiot! He didn't even look to see whether or not it was tainted? That has got to be the dumbest thing I've ever heard someone do", Starscream laughed. He laughed, and once he got started, he couldn't stop. Big tears of mirth ran down the corners of his optics as he smiled. Knock Out always loved it when the seeker smiled, and it warmed his spark to know that this time, he was the cause of it.
Casting the giant optic aside, Knock Out clambered up on the berth, automatically wrapping his slender arms around his seeker.
Starscream lent into the touch automatically, before he even realized what he was doing. "Awww, did someone miss me that badly?", knock Out cood, wrapping his arms tighter around Starscream. "Maybe", The seeker admitted. "You weren't entirely bad company, you know?","I wasn't, was I?" Knock Out smiled, knowing that would be as close to an I missed you as he was going to get right now, and with Starscream, he took what he could. "no, you weren't", Starscream affirmed.
A few minutes of silence stretched on between them. Not awkward, not uncomfortable, just, natural. They lay there, Starscream wrapped in Knock Out's arms, until. "K-Knock Out?","yes suites park?","I was wondering if you, oh, never mind.","no, what is it, darling?","I,I,I, Was wondering if you could sing to me again? You know? Like you did the one time I had a nightmare. That one song you sang. It, was beautiful.","i'd be happy to, my darling. See? That wasn't so hard, was it?" With that, Knock Out began singing, with his low, melodic voice. It didn't take long, before Starscream was fast asleep, lost in recharge. "Good night, my silver star", knock Out whispered, as soon as he was sure Starscream was asleep. He then kissed the very top of his fourhelm, and he to, fell asleep.