A/N: Hullo! This is a slight rewrite~

TRIGGER WARNING: Another attempt of suicide! You've been warned!

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Erza walked through the dark, empty guild, past the curious members that situated themselves outside of the infirmary. She ordered them to not eavesdrop on them, or they will be punished. They easily complied with a trembling nod and took a big step backward. Erza wanted to speak to Lucy alone, fearing that her conviction may be real. The last thing she needed was the members screaming at Lucy for reasons why she had done it.

When she opened the door, she saw Lucy sitting up, her bangs shadowing her eyes. And Erza could feel an angry aura…she could feel how angry Lucy was. Why was Lucy so angry?

She gently closed the door and faced Lucy. "Lucy?" Erza called out with a gentle tone.

"…" Lucy did not move, she only frowned more and trembled slightly.

Erza stepped closer to her, noticing how she was trembling. Was she trembling from anger or from her health? Erza couldn't decide on which it was.

"Lucy." Erza called out again with her authority voice.

Lucy turned her head away, away from Erza, clearly not wanting to talk. She clenched her fist around the blanket that covered her.

Erza gritted her teeth in frustration of not getting any response. "Okay. I'm going to talk, and you can listen."

"…"

Erza sighed and begun to talk. "Today, you never came to the guild, so the rest of the team decided to check up on you…only to find you in the bathtub. You almost died."

"…"

Erza waited for a few moment before speaking again. "You were out for an entire day. Right now, it's night time. And we have a lot of questions for you."

Erza waited for a few moment, studying Lucy's behavior and actions before speaking again. "My one question that I want to ask you is…Did…you try to kill yourself?"

To this, Lucy responded by lifting her head to look at Erza in the eyes. Erza observed that Lucy's eyes were void of light, it was dim, it was distant, and there was some emotions that Erza was not familiar with.

"And my one question for you is…why did you save me?" Lucy glared unemotionally at Erza.

Erza's eyes widen a bit when she had said that.

Lucy lowered her head and let her bangs cover her eyes. "I have nothing to say to you."

"…You don't mean that…please tell me you don't mean that." Erza pleaded that she was only dreaming, that Lucy really didn't try to kill herself.

But it was real. Lucy really did try to kill herself. She tried to kill herself. But why?

"Lucy…please tell me…why did you do it?" Erza trembled, only on the inside. She couldn't show weakness in front of her broken friend.

Lucy turned her head away, indicating that she did not want to talk.

Erza gritted her teeth harder. "Lucy. Tell me. Now. I want to help you." It was an order. Erza was desperate. She didn't want to lose Lucy. Her family.

"…"

"Lucy. I'm your friend. Your family. Please let me help you." Erza started slowly, walking closer to Lucy.

"You're not a friend. I never considered any of you a friend." Lucy said, with venom in them.

Erza paused, with wide eyes. Was she deaf? She hoped she had heard wrong. She stared at the blonde who was still looking away, eyes still shadowed by her bangs.

"L-Lucy. Why would you say that?"

Lucy did not respond for a moment before speaking. "Why? Because you're just an accomplice. Nothing more."

Erza couldn't take it anymore. She was angry. She was afraid. She was confused. She was conflicted. She was unsure. She was frustrated. She needed some fresh air.

Trembling, Erza stormed out of the room without any other words, ignoring the concern looks of the other mages as she left the guild in a fit of rage.

The mages stood in place with fear and confusion in their eyes. Wondering why Erza was ran out of the guild with anger in her eyes. They peeked through the door to see Lucy sitting up, her eyes shadowed her bangs, and had a frown.

Master Makarov was the first to walk in, gesturing the other mages to stay outside, hoping to break the tensed sensation that lingered in the air.

"Lucy? Is everything okay?" Makarov asked, standing in front of the bed.

"…"

Makarov studied Lucy for a moment. "What did Erza say to you?"

"…"

Makarov sighed. "Are you okay?"

"…"

Makarov sighed again, only in frustration. "Get some sleep. We'll talk about this tomorrow." Makarov said, looking at Lucy who still had not made any sound or movement. He turned and exited the room.

The mages was still there, staring at him, for any reassurance or answers.

"Go home. Lucy will be fine." Makarov ordered.

After Makarov had left, Lucy stared at the door, hoping that no one else would enter. She didn't want to talk to anyone else. She was too angry. Too disappointed.

She thought that Fairy Tail would mind their own business. So why? Why did they decide to save her? Lucy didn't want that. She wanted to leave…and see her mother again. The biggest disappointment ever…Fairy Tail should've minded their own damn business.

She looks at her arm which was covered neatly by bandages. Angrily, she ripped it off, only to see her cuts was almost healed. It didn't take her long to know that Wendy had done it.

Lucy begun to tremble with anger and tears threatened to escape. "All I wanted…was to leave. Why do this?" Lucy mumbled while looking around for anything sharp.

She wanted the feeling back. She wanted the familiar pain back. She wanted a blade on her skin. She wanted to see her blood. She needed it.

She wanted it.

Looking around, Lucy eyes a letter opener on a table not too far from where Lucy's bed was. With determination, Lucy took off the covers and sees that she was still in the clothes before she had cut herself. Guess they hadn't discovered her scars on her stomach yet.

Lucy attempted to stand on her two feet, only to immediately double down to her knees with a soft thud. She held her head in one hand, see doubles everywhere, her head spinning widely. Stubbornly, Lucy crawled on all fours and slowly made her way to the desk where the letter opener was and reached for it.

Having it in her hands, she examined it for a second only to be extremely disappointed. The letter opener was too dull to be able to cut her skin. Frustrated, she threw it across the room and opted to lay down on the cold floor and stare at the ceiling.

Couple minutes later, Lucy was becoming desperate now. She really wanted a blade. Something sharp. Something that could give her pain and blood.

Lucy sat up and scanned the room. Nothing. Nothing worth mentioning or nothing sharp enough for Lucy to cut herself with.

The kitchen.

Lucy knows that there are many knifes in the kitchen…and she gambled on finding one in there.

Blinking couple more times to get rid of the dizziness, Lucy struggled to her feet and used the wall as a guide to help her get to the door.

She opened it, and thankfully, no one was at the door, considering how annoying those Fairy Tail mages could be.

She stumbled and tripped along the way to the kitchen while seeing doubles.

Stumbling into the kitchen, and into the darkness, Lucy could see so many varieties of knifes that she could use to cut herself with.

There were big ones. Small ones. Medium ones. Lucy decided to situate herself with a small knife. Seems easier to cut herself with, as she had been using small knives to cut herself.

Lucy finds a small knife and sat on the floor, her back leaning against the counter. She eyes the knife, then at her wound that was almost healed.

Anger soon flared inside of her at the sight of it. She takes the knife and made a deep cut over her old wound. Relief and desperation clouded Lucy's judgment as she went to create another cut on her other wound below it.

Lucy's paused to stare at her wrist, blood spilling over, creating a pool of blood underneath her. She was elated with relief and a small smile formed on her lips.

It felt right. It felt…like it was meant to be. Her only salvation. Her only friend. She'd gladly accept death, and forget everything. Everything since her mother had died. She wanted to forget her so called father, and she wanted to forget Fairy Tail, as much as she loved them, she wanted to leave them.

Lucy became lightheaded and did not have enough strength to lift her arms. Lucy sat on the floor, in the pool of her own blood, leaning against a counter, and stared at the floor, stained by her blood.

The color of red begun to dim, the light begun to dim, her legs and arms begun to blur. Lucy closed her eyes slipped into unconsciousness.

Still in a fit of rage, Erza forced herself to walk back to the guild to try and ask Lucy some more questions, only to see the mages walk out of the guild in silence and with an aura of uncertainty and desperation.

Makarov was the first to spot her and walked over to her. "Erza. What did Lucy say?" Makarov was concerned and worried for one of his children and wanted to know what happened between the two.

Erza looked away and whispered, "Lucy tried to kill herself."

The mages circled Erza for more answers, visibly concerned for the blonde. Questions was thrown at Erza, repeatedly, one of another.

"Why?"

"Is there a reason?"

"Why didn't she come to us?"

"I'll kill the bastard who tried to make her kill herself!"

Erza stayed still, letting questions overflow her brain, because those are the questions that had ringed in her mind after learning about Lucy's condition…Does she really know the full story?

Erza looked at each of the mages with sadness. Why would Lucy see them as an accomplice and not as a friend? Lucy…why are you so…distant?

"I'm going to stay with Lucy and make sure she's fine." Erza stated, not wanting any objective, and tried dodge the urge to tell them what Lucy had really said. She was sure they would bother Lucy until she answers. And she knows that Lucy needed some space, but couldn't and wouldn't leave her alone.

Makarov understood and nodded. He turned and left to go to his place without any other words.

"I'll come too!" Natsu declared, pumping his fist as he walked back to the guild.

"A sleepover at the guild seems nice." Gray said, striping his clothes as he walked back to the guild.

"Aye!" Happy agreed, following his dragon slayer friend.

"Hope you don't mind I come along as well." Wendy said, turning to Erza to see if it was okay. Erza smiled and nodded, making Wendy smile and running to catch up with Natsu and Gray.

Carla stayed behind and stared at Ezra with a concerned look.

Erza looked at her questioningly. "What is it?"

"Do you love her?"

Erza blinked. "Huh?"

"I had a vision. I heard those words come out of your mouth when you said it to Lucy. Do you love her?"

Erza stared at the cat. "Maybe it was in a different meaning?"

"Perhaps." Carla said before running to join her dragon slayer friend.

Erza sighed. Love? Hah! As if love would actually let her be happy. It had failed with Jellal and countless other men. Jellal was a criminal and refused to be in a relationship, and all of the men would cower from her. Erza had been caught thinking…that she was never meant to have love. So she never really tried to go after men, or to search for love again. So it was interesting to what Carla had just mentioned.

Erza didn't let her hopes go too high. She learned that the hard way. Love is not easy. Erza doesn't even need love. She didn't need it to be happy. All she needs is friends.

Friends.

Friends…Lucy…Why would she say those things? Erza was hurt when she had said those words. She had considered Lucy to be one of her closest friends. What happened? She'll fish out the answers from Lucy one way or another.

Erza joined the others and made their way back into the guild. Natsu then stopped dead in his tracks, fear clouding him instantly, trembling all over.

"Natsu?" Gray called out, already scared.

Erza was the first to move, already understanding what Natsu was thinking, and ran to the infirmary, only to find it empty. Lucy was not here. She was gone.

"Where's Lucy?!" Erza cried out, hoping that the others would start looking for her.

Wendy gasped, gaining the attention of the mages. Wendy followed the scent that she smelled. Before she knew it, she was in the kitchen, and the sight before her horrified her.

Lucy was leaning against a counter, the knife on the ground, already covered in blood. Her old wounds are recut more harshly and blood was still spilling out.

Erza gritted her teeth angrily as she moved to kneel next to Lucy and summon couple of towels and tried to stop the bleeding. She quickly turned to Wendy, "Help me stop the bleeding!"

Wendy snapped out of her horrified trance and quickly moved to kneel on the other side of Lucy and started healing Lucy's cuts, trying to close them and to stop the bleeding.

The silence horrified the mages beyond their comprehension. They were afraid. They were angry at themselves. They were shaken to the core. They felt…helpless. They felt helpless…allowing Lucy to feel suicidal. They hated themselves for this.

Another 30 minutes had passed, and Wendy stopped, dropping her arms tiredly. "Lucy-san should be fine. If… she loses any more…I doubt she'll even live."

"…Why did Lucy do this?" Gray asked to no one in particular.

No one responded.

Natsu turned to Erza, "What did Lucy say to you?"

"She…has a hard time accepting the term 'friend'." That was the best way she could say it. Erza doubted she could tell them that Lucy never saw them a friend. Only as an accomplice.

"Why?" Wendy asked.

"I tried asking her…but she wouldn't tell me." Erza murmured.

Gray sighed. "Well, we need to move Lucy and clean her off."

"I'll take her to my place. I can keep an eye on her." Erza offered. She turned to Wendy and Carla. "You two are welcome to come and help me care for Lucy."

Wendy happily obliged. Carla huffed and nodded.

"What about us!?" Gray and Natsu exclaimed in unison.

Erza glared at the two. "You two can clean up this mess, and the one in Lucy's place."

"But we want to watch and help Lucy too!"

"Too bad." Erza spat, picking Lucy up bridal style. She turned back to the boys. "You have a problem with it?"

The boys immediately clung onto each other. "Nope! We'll clean up the messes!"

Erza narrowed her eyes before turning to leave the guild with a bleeding Lucy in her arms, and Wendy and Carla walking next to her.

Erza felt like a failure. She failed as a friend. Her closest friend was suffering and she never knew it. Well, she saw the signs and she tried asking, but she should've pushed Lucy and really help her. Lucy almost died…twice.

"I'm sorry Lucy."

A/N: Hoped this wasn't too bad

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