A/N: Before reading this chapter, just know that in your life, you will meet people who are the shittiest of the shit. People who are fcked up and those that had hurt your feelings. So I'll tell you this... Ignore them. Damn them. They aren't worth your time. Erase them out of your life! Imagine them drowning in a sea of fire! Imagine them suffering for all eternity!
^.^ Anyway, Please enjoy?
You are your own person, you should be able to do whatever you want. No one should tell you otherwise.
When stars falls, they have the right to get back up, where it belongs.
They deserve every right to be its own person. Let it be known, that they are capable of discerning what's right and wrong.
But in a larger sense, individuality cannot compare to the concept of what it serves for. Individuality only serves for a greater purpose to give one purpose in life. To live its life to a fullfillment with desire and pleasure.
But to Lucy, her individuality was destroyed long ago, and she had struggled to build up a new one, where she will not be haunted by her past. But her foundation was weak.
Foundation made of sand, easily destroyed with a gust of wind or a wave passing through.
And she had enough of it.
Erza refused to let Lucy do what she wanted. She refused Lucy to do what was her own business. Plain example that her individuality was already lost.
Lucy silently sobbed as she leaned against her cabinet, burying her face in her knees, wishing it all to be over.
She want it to end.
"Lucy?" A voice rang out in the silent, as opposed to the silent sobs heard.
Erza walked in with alarm when she heard a large crash and noted a drawer out of place on a ground. She looked around until she sees Lucy huddled against the cabinet, visibly shaking.
And she immediately knew why.
"Lucy." She called out.
A slight hiccup was her only response as Lucy continued to cry.
Erza wondered what she should do in instances of anyone crying like this. Is the method the same when someone is depressed?
She doesn't have time to look through books to know what she should do. She needs to act fast.
With a deep breath, Erza walked forward cautiously as sat next to Lucy and stared at her beautiful blonde hair. "Lucy."
"L-Leave me alone", The blonde sniffled, leaning away a little.
Erza sighed a little. "Is everything okay?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because I love you."
...What? Erza frowned. Where did that come from? But it did gained Lucy's attention.
Lucy turned her head to look at Erza. "What?"
Erza silently swallowed and looked at Lucy. "I said I love you."
"I know what you said, but why?"
Eras frowned at Lucy, wondering why she is trying so hard to reject her and her other friends. "Because I enjoy out talks. Your company. And you are never afraid of anything... Except for spiders. But you're brave."
Lucy scoffed and looked away. "Lies."
Erza looked at Lucy for a couple second before asking, "Why were you crying?"
Lucy didn't respond. She kept still and hugged her knees tightly.
"Are you okay?"
"..."
Eras sighs and moves closer and carefully and cautiously wrapped her arm around the blonde and gently pulled her toward her chest to comfortably hug the girl. Lucy offered no resistance, as she gave up hope when dealing with the armored mage.
"You can talk to me about anything."
"..."
Erza was growing impatient, but she decided to keep her mouth shut and held Lucy closer to her chest, trying to give her a sense of security.
5 minutes later, neither girls had moved an inch, and Erza was getting sleepy, but her grip never waned.
Lucy on the other hand, although harboring anger toward the redhead, she finds the embrace to be soothing.
The same feeling of when she was embraced couple nights ago, she felt again.
Lucy couldn't tell if it was the position they are in, or if it was the arms that was wrapped securely around her. Or the fact that her head was basically resting on Erza's chest.
To this revelation, Lucy realized that Erza had not worn armor around her, not even once. Marginally smiling, Lucy leaned more into the redhead and closed her head and drifted off into peaceful slumber in seconds.
Erza smiled when Lucy scooted closer to her. As much as remaining unvocal and just embracing the girl was a risk, the gamble was sure worth it.
As Erza drifted off into slumber with Lucy, one thing remained in her thoughts: why did she say that she loved her?
She felt that it was meant to be more than a friends thing, and be meant for something much more. But... what?
...
The night went by without much trouble, and the air hung with soothing atmosphere with a comforting silence as Lucy slept, leaning on the redhead, her arms managing to wrap around the redhead amidst her sleep.
Erza opened her eyes a little, yawning a little and tried to shift to a different position until seeing that she was bounded. Frowning, she turned to see that Lucy had her arms wrapped around her waist tightly.
Chuckling silently to herself, Erza moved her hand and stroked Lucy's cheek softly and stared at her. And only one thing was going through her mind: She's beautiful.
Erza leaned in slowly, and softly landed a small kiss on Lucy's forehead. The latter shifted a little at the contact, leaning more into the redhead.
The knight mage smiled at the action and moved her hand to Lucy's arm and stroked it while watching the blonde sleep.
Couple minutes later, Erza stopped what she was doing, realizing that she was being creepy while staring at the blonde. She decided to get up, scooping the blonde into her arms in the process, and walked to her room. She gently laid the blonde on the soft padding, and covered her with the blanket.
Stepping away from the bed, Erza sighed. She needed a distraction to not stare at the blonde. She walked into the kitchen and looked around. Perhaps she should cook the blonde something?
"Hmm... Maybe Lucy would like some cake."
Erza walked to the fridge to see if all of the ingredients were present. After gathering all of the required ingredients needed, she began the first step.
...
Making a cake was harder than she thought. After couple of attempts and failures of mixing the batter, she was able to cook the batter. Now she just needed to but some icing on it, and some strawberry toppings. She can't wait to eat it!
Wait, she was making them for Lucy, not for herself. Erza must not get ahead of herself. She resolved to make her own batch later on. The blonde girl was her priority.
She reached into another cabinet to grab the icing until she heard a voice she wasn't expecting for another hour or so.
"What are you doing?"
Erza jumped a little and turned to see a fatigued looking blonde standing in the doorway of the kitchen. "M-Making a cake?"
Lucy gave her a look as she scanned her kitchen. "Looks like a bomb was dropped as the ingredients was running away from you."
Erza drily chuckled. "I'm not that good at cooking, but I wanted to make a cake for you."
"A cake? Could you had chose something...I don't know...simple?" Lucy raised an eyebrow.
"I don't know any other recipe..." Erza nervously chuckled as she set down the icing next to the cake.
"Well... I am hungry. So I'll guess I have desert for breakfast." Lucy grumbled.
Erza smiled a little and got an idea. "Wanna decorate the cake with me?"
Lucy took a few seconds before sighing, nodding as she stepped forward.
The knight mage beamed before equipping a dull butter knife and handed it to the blonde before equipping her own. "I'll take this side, and you'll do the other half."
Lucy sighed before applying the icing to the cake.
The redhead stared at the younger girl with a small smile before adding icing to the cake.
Halfway through the cake, Erza looked up, seeing that the celestial mage was still in a grumpy mood. She wanted to lighten the mood. So she tried to be daring and flicked some icing at Lucy, landing on her cheek.
"Hey! Why you do that?" Lucy scowled, wiping the icing off.
"Thought I throw something sweet at you, to make you sweeter."
Lucy narrowed her eyes before flicking some icing at Erza, landing on her hair. She laughed at the reaction of Erza's when the icing wouldn't come out.
"Oh, now it's on." Erza declared, throwing some more icing at the blonde.
Lucy laughed and did the same.
It was a sweet war between the knight mage and the celestial mage.
...
"Man we ran out, now we can't finish the cake." Erza pouted, looking at the half-finished product.
"Just put some strawberry on it, and it'll be fine." Lucy said, putting some strawberry on the cake. "I'm hungry... and tired."
"Good idea." Erza agreed.
Lucy turned to Erza. "First, you're going to pay for the damages that you broke while throwing icing around, including that wall. And second... I need a knife so I can cut the cake."
Erza stared at the blonde for a second. She wondered if she should trust a knife to the blonde. She knows that Lucy wanted to cut herself last night. Maybe today is different?
"And no, I won't hurt myself. I'm hungry." Lucy voiced her reasoning, knowing what the redhead was thinking about.
Erza decided to trust the blonde and equipped a cutting knife and reluctantly handed it to Lucy.
The blonde grabbed it and quickly cut the cut in six pieces and took out two plates and put one on each.
Then she went to find forks, but couldn't find them. So she turned and glared at the older woman who had stars in her eyes as she stared at the cake that was presented before her. "Seriously? Even the forks?"
Erza looked at Lucy when she heard the tone of her voice. "I didn't want to risk it. Forks are sharp." Nonetheless, the equipped two forks and handed one to Lucy.
The two young girls ate their slice of cake in silence, enjoying the taste that the cake had to offer, despite the lack of icing.
When Erza was finished with her slice, she was tempted to grab another slice, but she restrained herself. She made them for the girl that sat on the other side of the table. She stared at the blonde beauty as she took another bite and asked the question that she had been wondering for awhile. She is worried that Lucy will shut her out again and start cussing at her. But she needs to know.
"What was the nightmare about? From the other night?"
Lucy paused and swallowed what she had in her mouth and looked at the redhead across the table. "Why are you so nosy?"
"Because I care."
"I don't really remember what the dream was about." Lucy spat out, only half of it being the truth.
"Something must had drove you to the kitchen when I found you there. You can tell me." Erza pressed on.
Lucy heavily sighed before setting the fork down and looked down on her lap. She recalled the dream that made her so afraid, so lonely.
And she hated feeling lonely. So she quickly retorted to a blade a knife that she had called friend for the past few months. What else is there to deal with the loneliness?
"Lucy, I'm here for you, please tell me." Erza spoke up again when Lucy kept her glaze to her lap.
"The... The nightmare was more of a recalling... I think."
Erza nodded for the blonde to continue. "Go on."
"I remember... feeling lonely."
A/N: Imma stop it here
Please tell me... Was this developing too fast? Please tell me. Was it too OCC?
Please comment and review on your thoughts. I don't bite~
Toodles!~~
A/N: Before reading this chapter, just know that in your life, you will meet people who are the shittiest of the shit. People who are fcked up and those that had hurt your feelings. So I'll tell you this... Ignore them. Damn them. They aren't worth your time. Erase them out of your life! Imagine them drowning in a sea of fire! Imagine them suffering for all eternity!
^.^ Anyway, Please enjoy?
You are your own person, you should be able to do whatever you want. No one should tell you otherwise.
When stars falls, they have the right to get back up, where it belongs.
They deserve every right to be its own person. Let it be known, that they are capable of discerning what's right and wrong.
But in a larger sense, individuality cannot compare to the concept of what it serves for. Individuality only serves for a greater purpose to give one purpose in life. To live its life to a fulfillment with desire and pleasure.
But to Lucy, her individuality was destroyed long ago, and she had struggled to build up a new one, where she will not be haunted by her past. But her foundation was weak.
Foundation made of sand, easily destroyed with a gust of wind or a wave passing through.
And she had enough of it.
Erza refused to let Lucy do what she wanted. She refused Lucy to do what was her own business. Plain example that her individuality was already lost.
Lucy silently sobbed as she leaned against her cabinet, burying her face in her knees, wishing it all to be over.
She want it to end.
"Lucy?" A voice rang out in the silent, as opposed to the silent sobs heard.
Erza walked in with alarm when she heard a large crash and noted a drawer out of place on a ground. She looked around until she sees Lucy huddled against the cabinet, visibly shaking.
And she immediately knew why.
"Lucy." She called out.
A slight hiccup was her only response as Lucy continued to cry.
Erza wondered what she should do in instances of anyone crying like this. Is the method the same when someone is depressed?
She doesn't have time to look through books to know what she should do. She needs to act fast.
With a deep breath, Erza walked forward cautiously as sat next to Lucy and stared at her beautiful blonde hair. "Lucy."
"L-Leave me alone", The blonde sniffled, leaning away a little.
Erza sighed a little. "Is everything okay?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because I love you."
...What? Erza frowned. Where did that come from? But it did gained Lucy's attention.
Lucy turned her head to look at Erza. "What?"
Erza silently swallowed and looked at Lucy. "I said I love you."
"I know what you said, but why?"
Eras frowned at Lucy, wondering why she is trying so hard to reject her and her other friends. "Because I enjoy out talks. Your company. And you are never afraid of anything... Except for spiders. But you're brave."
Lucy scoffed and looked away. "Lies."
Erza looked at Lucy for a couple second before asking, "Why were you crying?"
Lucy didn't respond. She kept still and hugged her knees tightly.
"Are you okay?"
"..."
Eras sighs and moves closer and carefully and cautiously wrapped her arm around the blonde and gently pulled her toward her chest to comfortably hug the girl. Lucy offered no resistance, as she gave up hope when dealing with the armored mage.
"You can talk to me about anything."
"..."
Erza was growing impatient, but she decided to keep her mouth shut and held Lucy closer to her chest, trying to give her a sense of security.
5 minutes later, neither girls had moved an inch, and Erza was getting sleepy, but her grip never waned.
Lucy on the other hand, although harboring anger toward the redhead, she finds the embrace to be soothing.
The same feeling of when she was embraced couple nights ago, she felt again.
Lucy couldn't tell if it was the position they are in, or if it was the arms that was wrapped securely around her. Or the fact that her head was basically resting on Erza's chest.
To this revelation, Lucy realized that Erza had not worn armor around her, not even once. Marginally smiling, Lucy leaned more into the redhead and closed her head and drifted off into peaceful slumber in seconds.
Erza smiled when Lucy scooted closer to her. As much as remaining unvocal and just embracing the girl was a risk, the gamble was sure worth it.
As Erza drifted off into slumber with Lucy, one thing remained in her thoughts: why did she say that she loved her?
She felt that it was meant to be more than a friends thing, and be meant for something much more. But... what?
...
The night went by without much trouble, and the air hung with soothing atmosphere with a comforting silence as Lucy slept, leaning on the redhead, her arms managing to wrap around the redhead amidst her sleep.
Erza opened her eyes a little, yawning a little and tried to shift to a different position until seeing that she was bounded. Frowning, she turned to see that Lucy had her arms wrapped around her waist tightly.
Chuckling silently to herself, Erza moved her hand and stroked Lucy's cheek softly and stared at her. And only one thing was going through her mind: She's beautiful.
Erza leaned in slowly, and softly landed a small kiss on Lucy's forehead. The latter shifted a little at the contact, leaning more into the redhead.
The knight mage smiled at the action and moved her hand to Lucy's arm and stroked it while watching the blonde sleep.
Couple minutes later, Erza stopped what she was doing, realizing that she was being creepy while staring at the blonde. She decided to get up, scooping the blonde into her arms in the process, and walked to her room. She gently laid the blonde on the soft padding, and covered her with the blanket.
Stepping away from the bed, Erza sighed. She needed a distraction to not stare at the blonde. She walked into the kitchen and looked around. Perhaps she should cook the blonde something?
"Hmm... Maybe Lucy would like some cake."
Erza walked to the fridge to see if all of the ingredients were present. After gathering all of the required ingredients needed, she began the first step.
...
Making a cake was harder than she thought. After couple of attempts and failures of mixing the batter, she was able to cook the batter. Now she just needed to but some icing on it, and some strawberry toppings. She can't wait to eat it!
Wait, she was making them for Lucy, not for herself. Erza must not get ahead of herself. She resolved to make her own batch later on. The blonde girl was her priority.
She reached into another cabinet to grab the icing until she heard a voice she wasn't expecting for another hour or so.
"What are you doing?"
Erza jumped a little and turned to see a fatigued looking blonde standing in the doorway of the kitchen. "M-Making a cake?"
Lucy gave her a look as she scanned her kitchen. "Looks like a bomb was dropped as the ingredients was running away from you."
Erza drily chuckled. "I'm not that good at cooking, but I wanted to make a cake for you."
"A cake? Could you had chose something...I don't know...simple?" Lucy raised an eyebrow.
"I don't know any other recipe..." Erza nervously chuckled as she set down the icing next to the cake.
"Well... I am hungry. So I'll guess I have desert for breakfast." Lucy grumbled.
Erza smiled a little and got an idea. "Wanna decorate the cake with me?"
Lucy took a few seconds before sighing, nodding as she stepped forward.
The knight mage beamed before equipping a dull butter knife and handed it to the blonde before equipping her own. "I'll take this side, and you'll do the other half."
Lucy sighed before applying the icing to the cake.
The redhead stared at the younger girl with a small smile before adding icing to the cake.
Halfway through the cake, Erza looked up, seeing that the celestial mage was still in a grumpy mood. She wanted to lighten the mood. So she tried to be daring and flicked some icing at Lucy, landing on her cheek.
"Hey! Why you do that?" Lucy scowled, wiping the icing off.
"Thought I throw something sweet at you, to make you sweeter."
Lucy narrowed her eyes before flicking some icing at Erza, landing on her hair. She laughed at the reaction of Erza's when the icing wouldn't come out.
"Oh, now it's on." Erza declared, throwing some more icing at the blonde.
Lucy laughed and did the same.
It was a sweet war between the knight mage and the celestial mage.
...
"Man we ran out, now we can't finish the cake." Erza pouted, looking at the half-finished product.
"Just put some strawberry on it, and it'll be fine." Lucy said, putting some strawberry on the cake. "I'm hungry... and tired."
"Good idea." Erza agreed.
Lucy turned to Erza. "First, you're going to pay for the damages that you broke while throwing icing around, including that wall. And second... I need a knife so I can cut the cake."
Erza stared at the blonde for a second. She wondered if she should trust a knife to the blonde. She knows that Lucy wanted to cut herself last night. Maybe today is different?
"And no, I won't hurt myself. I'm hungry." Lucy voiced her reasoning, knowing what the redhead was thinking about.
Erza decided to trust the blonde and equipped a cutting knife and reluctantly handed it to Lucy.
The blonde grabbed it and quickly cut the cut in six pieces and took out two plates and put one on each.
Then she went to find forks, but couldn't find them. So she turned and glared at the older woman who had stars in her eyes as she stared at the cake that was presented before her. "Seriously? Even the forks?"
Erza looked at Lucy when she heard the tone of her voice. "I didn't want to risk it. Forks are sharp." Nonetheless, the equipped two forks and handed one to Lucy.
The two young girls ate their slice of cake in silence, enjoying the taste that the cake had to offer, despite the lack of icing.
When Erza was finished with her slice, she was tempted to grab another slice, but she restrained herself. She made them for the girl that sat on the other side of the table. She stared at the blonde beauty as she took another bite and asked the question that she had been wondering for awhile. She is worried that Lucy will shut her out again and start cussing at her. But she needs to know.
"What was the nightmare about? From the other night?"
Lucy paused and swallowed what she had in her mouth and looked at the redhead across the table. "Why are you so nosy?"
"Because I care."
"I don't really remember what the dream was about." Lucy spat out, only half of it being the truth.
"Something must had drove you to the kitchen when I found you there. You can tell me." Erza pressed on.
Lucy heavily sighed before setting the fork down and looked down on her lap. She recalled the dream that made her so afraid, so lonely.
And she hated feeling lonely. So she quickly retorted to a blade a knife that she had called friend for the past few months. What else is there to deal with the loneliness?
"Lucy, I'm here for you, please tell me." Erza spoke up again when Lucy kept her glaze to her lap.
"The... The nightmare was more of a recalling... I think."
Erza nodded for the blonde to continue. "Go on."
"I remember... feeling lonely."
A/N: Imma stop it here
Please tell me... Was this developing too fast? Please tell me. Was it too OCC?
Please comment and review on your thoughts. I don't bite~
Toodles!~~