Authors Note
Hey I know it's been a long time I've just been super busy with school and everything. Anyway I wanted to do a brief recap of what just happened since it's been so long since I've updated. Basically it was Valentines Day and Tomoyo wanted to give Kanou chocolates but as you know she burned them. Realizing that Kanou looked sad she gave him her burned chocolates anyway which cheered him up. At the end of Valentines Day her Middle School love happens to show up which means trouble. So that's where we left off and I hope you enjoy this chapter.
"Hey Tomoyo long time no see." The figure says and my eyes begin to shrink up from shock.
"Oh come on don't tell me you forgot about me. How rude of you to forget about the person you confessed to in middle school."
Why him why now out of all times?
How could the guy I had a crush on in middle school suddenly show up at the most inconveniencing time of all.
"Hi...Kazuma." I said looking away from him. Why couldn't I look him in the eyes like a normal person. The one I was in love with was Kanou after all...Right?
If that's the case then why is my heart feeling like it's beating out my chest as I think about Kazuma and his golden blond hair and the way his eyes stare ever so softly.
"So here's the deal, I know I rejected you before but I realized that dating Yukino was the biggest mistake I have ever made. Tomoyo you are the one I want to be with and that's exactly why I took all this time to find you." He says grasping my hands tightly.
I blush right away and am forced to look him in the eyes.
"W-What are y-you saying?" I said barely making my words come out.
"I'm saying I want you to come with me to London to study abroad." He says with a determined look in his eyes.
For years I have dreamed for Kazuma to come after me but thing is, is this still my dream right now?
Before I could respond I feel warm arms pull me back into what felt like somebody's chest. I look up and see Kanou with a really serious look in his eyes. He looks like he could kill someone. I then focus back on him pulling me tightly into his chest as if he is protecting me as he stared at Kazuma.
Kazuma stares at Kanou with the same expression.
"Oh I see you're busy with other people, I'll talk to you some other time. Just at least think about what I said Tomoyo." Kazuma says adding emphasizing the word other people before walking away.
Kanou still has me in his warm grasp so I begin to speak.
"U-Um Kanou I can't breathe." I barely make out and he finally realeases me.
"S-Sorry." he says looking away with his cheeks red.
"So I see you met my old friend Kazuma." I say trying to break the awkward-ness.
"A friend huh? Well I think you should stay clear of him I don't think he can be trusted." He says in a serious voice. I just nod my head in agreement and walk away.
As much as my heart believes this is true I know that I can't make assumptions though.
Is Kanou jealous right now?
When I arrived at home I explained to my brother what had happened. He gives me this really weird smirk before speaking.
"Oh Tomoyo I think they're both jealous." He says nudging me in a teasing tone.
"What no not Kanou, me and him are friends there is no way he can like me." I state trying to hold back that I was blushing at the moment.
Takashi rolls his eyes at me before he begins to talk again.
"Gosh Tomoyo are you really that dense how do you not get it yet? No you know what I'll let you figure it out yourself." He adds and it makes me irritated that he won't tell me what's going on.
"Come on Takashi just tell me." I whined in frustration.
"I'm sorry but I can't say but the only thing I will say is that Kanou has something he really wants to say to you and he is probably going to say it pretty soon." he says before heading up to his room.
"That didn't help at all!" I yell after him but I hear his bedroom door close.
I plop on the can't my brother just tell me I think. I begin to drift away to sleep when suddenly I hear a knock at the door.
That's weird I wasn't expecting any company today? I was hesitant before finally opening the door.
I open it and immediate shock fills my face.
"K...Kazuma! How did you know where I live?" I asked.
"Oh one of your friends told me, I believe his name was Yukimura or something like that." He states.
It's all starting to make sense now he probably tricked Yukimura into telling him my address.
"Well you're probably wondering what exactly i'm doing here. Well to answer your question i'm here to finish what I started." He adds making me even more confused and flustered by the moment.
"W-What are you talking about." I add trying my best not to stutter on every word.
"Come to London with me already.I know it may sound like some cheesy romance line but truth is I don't care, I just want you to come with me." He pleads.
I stare at Kazuma's beautiful chocolate eyes once more. I can feel my heart beating out my chest.
My whole life I've waited for this moment. For Kazuma to chase after my heart. The only thing is my heart isn't chasing after his anymore.
My heart now is yearning for Kanou. Ok now I sound like some cheesy love poem.
Even so what should I do? It's like that time with Eito and Kanou.
I have to decide.
"Kazuma i'm sorry but I just can't." I say honestly.
"I knew it, it's because of him isn't it?"
"What are you talking abo-"
"Don't play dumb with me Tomoyo! You're in loved with that blue haired guy with glasses!" He yells at me surprising me a bit.
"I don't know what you're talking about even if that's true there is no way that could happen. I mean there is no way Kanou can feel the same way about me."
"Are you seriously that blind? Open your eyes Tomoyo do I have to spell it out! That guy is in love with you and once he finds out you love him too..." Kazuma says trailing off.
Kanou can't be in love with me right? I mean that's impossible. The more I think about it the more I'm starting to feel it might actually be true.
But if it's true then that must mean I have been dense to his feelings the whole time.
"I'm sorry I had to be the one to tell you but the point is I can't just stand here and watch some other guy take you away!" Kazuma says grabbing my face to his so I'm staring deeply into his eyes.
He then begins to lean in closer to my face until his lips are centimeters away from mine.
I wasn't in any condition to pull away the only thing running through my mind the whole time was.
Kanou loves me?
By the time I am snapped back to reality I can feel Kazuma's lips pressed firmly against mine.
I then try to pull away.
"K-Kazuma no..." I make out as he kisses me while I struggle to get out his grip.
He doesn't stop he keeps kissing me and kissing me.
"I said stop!" I yell and then I slap him dead across the face.
He rubs his face where I had slapped it there is a red hand print on his right cheek.
We don't speak at all there is just dead silence. The hand I slapped him with begins to tremble.
I can't believe I had slapped him. In all my life I never thought I'd have to slap my middle school love.
"I see your choice but just promise me this Tomoyo."
I don't say anything I was still stunned by the whole encounter.
"Promise me that you will at least think about going to London with me." Kazuma adds.
I still stare at him in dead silence until I finally find the courage to speak again.
"I promise." I was barely able to say and Kazuma smiles before he leaves.
The next day at school I try to get the thought of Kazuma kissing me out of my mind.
No matter how hard I tried not to think about it it somehow knew how to pop up back into my mind.
"Hey Tomoyo." Yukimura says startling me. Yukimura was walking up to me with Megumi.
Ok I just have to act as if nothing ever happened between me and Kazuma starting now.
"Hey guys!" I manage to say in a believable tone.
"Hey are you OK you look a little pale?" Yukimura asks.
"No I'm fine really." I state.
"Are you sure you're not pale because Kanou isn't around." Megumi adds teasing me.
I blush at that thought suddenly the thought of Kanou actually loving me flashes through my mind.
"Oh, well Kanou had some things to settle before first period." Yukimura says and I nod my head ok.
"Good morning Tomoyo." I hear a familiar voice say so I turn around to face Kazuma.
I can't look him in the eyes after what happened. What's even worse is the thought of my friends finding out.
"G-Good morning." I barely make out looking at the ground.
I can tell that Megumi might notice that something is up based on the way she is looking at me in the corner of my eye.
When I finally make it to first period I sit down in my normal seat next to Megumi.
Megumi looks at me as if she wants to say something but she never ends up saying anything.
Before I am able to leave class the teacher had asked me to deliver papers to the principals office for her.
I begin to struggle to walk to the principals office with the big stack of papers my teacher had given me.
I was about to drop all my papers when suddenly I see another hand hoist them all back up from falling.
"That was a close one." The familiar voice says. I cringe and I can feel the hairs begin to stand up on the back of my neck.
It was Kazuma that helped me from dropping all my papers.
I begin to blush remembering him pressing his lips against mine over and over again.
Why was it that I was waiting for him to kiss me again?I am in love with Kanou right? But why every time I see Kazuma I can't even look him in the eyes?
"Tomoyo have you thought about coming with me to London?"
"Actually no I haven't yet." I state honestly looking down at the ground.
"I thought you might say that so I came up with a little deal." He says leaving me puzzled at the end of his sentence.
"Just for today and only today I want you to allow me to take you out somewhere after school. That way you will come to a decision on if you want to come to London with me." He adds.
I think for a second. I guess it wouldn't hurt to spend one day with him. At least it will answer my question on if I'm still in love with Kazuma or not.
"Um I guess that will be ok." I stated which makes Kazuma smile.
"Just you wait Tomoyo I'll make sure you are defiantly going to go to London with me."Kazuma said joyfully smiling at me before walking off.
I then turn around and surprised to see Kanou standing there. He stares at me with his beautiful beating violet eyes. Oh no there it goes again my heart begins to beat faster and faster by the minute.
What is going on why do I feel this way when I am around Kanou and Kazuma?
"K-" I try to say to Kanou but he walks dead past me as if I wasn't even there. I didn't feel his warmth from his body as he passed me anymore. Why did Kanou just ignore me like that?
After the whole incident I could't concentrate on anything. I didn't even notice that school was practically over. I begin to walk home and I slouch on the couch.
Who would of thought that my life would be so confusing ever since I came to Seika High. I then hear my phone buzz so I sluggishly open my phone up and answer.
"Hello?" I answered to a familiar sounding voice but I still didn't quite know who it might be.
"Hey Tomoyo take a look out your window." The voice says. At first I was hesitant but I then decide to look out the living room window.
My eyes go wide as I stare at Kazuma sitting in a carriage with beautiful brown horses. Kazuma waves over at me with a big smile. I then rush outside still in shock from all this.
"So what do you think?" He says to me and I stare at the beautiful carriage before I finally snap back to reality.
"I think I should change my number." I say to him and he gives me this look of disappointment.
"Well anyway I thought that the most beautiful girl should have the most beautiful ride." He states holding his hand out to pull me up on the carriage. That's right I did promise that after school I would go somewhere with him.
Once I'm on the carriage we begin to ride along passing all the houses and streetlights.
"Tomoyo for the last time close your eyes." Kazuma says to me and I finally reluctantly closed my eyes. It seems like forever when we finally make it where Kazuma wanted us to go.
"Ok open your eyes." He says and I open them. I don't react at first but once I stare out at the horizon for a little moment I begin to stare at it in awe.
I see as the sky lights up from a pink to a very deep beautiful orange. Just watching this made my cheeks start to go red at how beautiful the sun looked.
"Tomoyo I wanted you to be the first person to ever see the sunset with me because you are really special to me." Kazuma says to me in a gentle voice.
"Kazuma I don't know what to say...other than it's truly beautiful. I've been seeing the sun everyday but I never bothered to take time and actually watch it set. Thank you." I say and I continue to stare out at the horizon.
I then notice Kazuma staring at me still with his chocolate brown eyes.
"What is it?" I finally ask noticing all the staring.
"Nothing it's just you're beautiful." He stated and I blush still staring into his eyes.
"...I love you Tomoyo." He says and at that moment I nearly felt my heart stop I never had a guy say he loves me before.
"W-What are you saying?" I said looking down at the ground covering my face from embarrassment.
"No it's true Tomoyo...so please please come to London with me."
"I-I" I make out before I feel lightheaded and dizzy.
"Tomoyo are you ok!" Kazuma yells concerned.
"I'm fine but I think I should get home. I feel dizzy." I state.
"Kazuma then crouches down in front of me with his back facing me.
"Hop on my back." He says to me.
"What?"
"Just hop on."
"I can walk by don't we have that horse carriage" I say stubbornly.
"Do you not see the state you're in! What kind of guy would I be to let sick girl walk on her own!Besides a Carriage would only make you more dizzy, it's better this way." He practically says in a strict voice but I know it's probably because he's worried about me.
I then hop on his back and he carries me on a piggy back ride all the way home. The whole trip I never forgot the scent of Kazuma's beautiful blond hair.
The next day at school went by like a breeze I was on my way home when I noticed Kanou standing out by himself in the courtyard.
I decided to go over by him and see what was going on.
"Kanou are you alright?" I asked but I get no response. I then take my hand to get ready to tap him on the shoulder when he immediately grabs my wrist.
"Kanou what are you d-" I try to say but he gets up and turns around, staring deeply into my eyes with his violet ones. He still was grasping tightly to my wrist.
"Kanou my wrist..." I barely made out. He then forcefully pins me against the wall. I wonder if he can hear my heart beating out of my chest right now.
He begins to lean his face closer and closer to mine but stops just inches away from my lips.
"Tomoyo..." He says and he hangs his head low before finally releasing me.
"Tomoyo...I won't let him have you! I won't let him steal you away from me!" He yells and I blush even more now.
"Kanou I-"
"Just don't go to London with him ok? I don't want to lose you!" He interrupts looking down at the ground.
I first just stare at Kanou his cheeks where all red then I smile at him.
"I understand." I state and we both just stand there looking at each other before we both part ways.
"Tomoyo there you are! I've been looking for you all over the place!" I hear Megumi's voice say.
"Oh sorry I had to do something. You ready to walk home?" I ask and in response she nods and we begin walking.
About halfway through our walk I begin speaking again.
"Hey Megumi you know who I'm in love with right?" I asked her and she makes this face at me.
"Kanou right? Why do you ask?" She states puzzled.
"Well what if I told you that I was actually in love with two people now." I state and words can't describe the look on Megumi's face right now.
Everything is just complicated...