Chapter 7
I Caught Myself
"Something's wrong….I can feel it in my gut...or… am i just going crazy? No? Can i really be going insane?" Alvin tossed and turned. He couldn't sleep. He knew something was wrong. Jeanette only being inches away could hear him toss and turn. "How much longer can I keep this secret. All these weeks hanging out with Simon. Going behind Alvin's back. All I had to do was tell Alvin the truth. But...It hurts me just as much." She shed a tear. Silently. She didn't want Alvin to know that she was awake, let alone crying in the middle of the night. Alvin silently sighed and got out of bed heading to the couch. Jeanette kept her eyes opened turned away from him watching him leave.
Meanwhile Simon and Brittany were having a fight. "Seville that is my pillow." "And what does it matter Brit, It's going to end up on the floor anyways." "SHUT UP SIMON!" They both stood quiet staring at each other. Simon's expression changed from anger to annoyance. "Whatever Brittany I'm gonna go sleep on the couch goodnight." He picked up his pillow and a blanket. Looking at Brittany one last time and then shutting the door. Simon sighed and walked to the couch. Brittany put her hands on her face and began to cry. "I'm so sorry, Simon."
The next morning Alvin woke up by the sun hitting his face. "Damn it it's so fucking bright" He got up and and yawn as he headed to the bathroom. After brushing his teeth he checked the room to see if Jeanette was there. There she was asleep. Alvin was kind of shocked. "Why is she asleep it's almost 11 in the morning." He closed the door and headed to the kitchen for some breakfast. He looked around his fridge and grabbed some orange juice. He really wasn't in the mood for eating breakfast so he kept it light eating a peach.
Brittany was awake earlier than expected. Guilt was keeping her up not letting her sleep peacefully. She headed to the living room where Simon was at. Watching sleep peacefully her guilt rose. "Shit...I don't know how much longer I can hold on to this feeling." She headed back to her room and began to cry once more.
Jeanette finally woke up putting her glasses on heading to the kitchen. She opened the fridge and noticed the orange juice box missing. "He got breakfast." "Hey babe." Jeanette gasped and fell backwards. "Alvin you scared me." Alvin raised an eyebrow. "Are you sure you're okay Jeantte? You've been acting really jumpy lately. More so than usual." He helped Jeanette up. "N-no I'm fine Alvin really l-love" "You sure? You're not pregnant are you?" Her eyes went wide. "ALVIN NO!" "Alright babe chill it was just a question." She blushed and looked down "I-I'm sorry that question took me by surprise." Alvin kissed her forehead. She looked at him as he gave her a smile "I'm sorry, Alvin." She couldn't look at him straight in the eye but she tried. "I'm gonna go shower Jean" "G-go ahead Alvin" He walked past her grabbing his towel. "She's been acting really strange these past couple of days." He thought as he waited for the water to warm.
After finished his shower he headed to his room to change but something caught his attention. Hearing a voice in the distant almost whispering. Alvin slowly creeped up to the living room getting closer and closer. He leaned behind the door now able to hear much more clear. "So 3 is fine? Stop it. No, no more of that." Alvin was more curious than ever now. "Who is she talking to?" Jeanette started walking towards his direction. He had no choice but to stay in his position. It was either he got very lucky, or he has some explaining to do. "Fine, but no more that was the last time. Alright I'll see you later I gotta go. I love you too." "What the fuck?" Alvin couldn't believe what he just heard. Angrily he headed to his room to dress."Who was Jeanette talking to? And why in secret? My gut feeling is getting worse. I have to find out what's going on with her." Alvin sat in his living room. Angry as hell. Just waiting for 3 o'clock. "Alvin are you in here?" "Yeah babe, what's up?" "I'm going to shower and then head out for uhh the mall with Ellie." "Oh, really? T-that's good babe." "A-alright I'm going to shower now." She turned away and his expression turned from a fake smile to a serious face.
In the shower Jeanette was blushing. "I hope Alvin doesn't think it's weird. He didn't ask me any questions I should be fine. Relax Jeanette play it cool." Alvin was watching the clock just waiting and waiting. Jeanette started to pack her bag and wallet and grabbed her keys. "I'm going to start heading out Alvin." "You're taking your car?" "Y-yeah why?" Jeanette started to panic a little. "Doesn't Eleanor usually like to pick you up? "Shit think of something Jeanette" "E-ele's low on gas and needs to have her car in the shop." she blurted out. Oh, i hope that was convincing enough… she thought, starting to sweat nervously. Turning quicker than she usually does, her strange behavior caused him to raise an eyebrow. I'd better tail her, see just where she's going to and who's she's meeting with. As soon as she pulled away, he gave her a five-minute headstart so's not to tip her off. He followed closely behind and parked a few blocks away from the mall. Making sure to park in a place where his car wouldn't get towed away. Just what're you up to, Jean? He was focused, more so than he'd ever been in highschool. Just on her and who she'd planned on meeting. He watched from a distance, then he saw them. Simon and Jeanette. Their words were inaudible, but it wasn't so much the words he'd been focused on. No, not their words, but their actions. She'd jumped straight into his lap, something she'd never do to him. She pulled him straight into a deep kiss, not really caring that they were in public, they'd just been lost in lust… "My place this time?" Simon asked, a big grin on his face. "No, let's go to a hotel, let them clean up after us." Jeanette said, snickering. Alvin was in a shocked rage; his veins pulsed and once they'd left, he let out an anguished "DAMNIT! DAMN HER! DAMN HIM!" He was so mad that he couldn't think straight. "FFFFFUUUUCCCCKKK!" he yelled as he slammed his car door shut; gunned the engine, and sped off. Brittany, I need you so much right now… I'm broken. I need you, and I need a drink. Fuck my life; and fuck you, Jeanette… Tears of angst and enraged sadness swept over him, and his mind went to a dark place. Possibly never to return.
He drove as fast as he could going way over the speed limit passing by traffic before he reached a lonely area and parking. The radio played his music quietly as Alvin stood there just listening and staying quiet thinking to himself. So that's why Jeanette was acting jumpy. Why didn't she just tell me? I didn't expect this from her. It….It hurts. Fuck I really thought we were over this but then again I have no room to talk as I'm doing the same. Alvin reached for his phone and just stared at it. I guess I'll talk to her about it when she gets home. If she gets home. He texted Jeanette saying. "We need to talk." Alvin turned off his phone and turned on his car heading back home. The long drive home would help him think on what to tell her.
Meanwhile Jeanette felt her phone vibrate. She was pulling back from Simon's kisses and checked her phone. A text from Alvin. She read it to herself. Suddenly she felt sick. Her stomach turned upside down. Guilt began to resurface. "Jean, what's wrong?" She stood quiet not saying a word. "Jeanette? Are you okay?" Jeanette looked up at Simon. "Please take me home Simon." He raised an eyebrow and said, "but why Jea-" "Simon I'm not going to ask again please take me home... Now." "Sure." They both got dressed and headed to Simon's car. The ride back was quiet and awkward. Oh no what is wrong with Alvin. Does he know? But how? Simon pulled up and looked over at Jeanette. "Thanks Simon I'll text you later if anything happens" "A-alright I'll be here if you need me." She gave him a weak smile and walked out of his car towards the house. Her heart was racing, she was nervous opening the door. More nerves entered her body when the lights came on as she walked inside, closing the door behind her. And there he was. Alvin. Sitting on the corner seat staring at her with rage and sadness. Both of them stayed in silence. Staring at each other.