"Hey Roxas, we're about to play a game of kick ball! Come play with us." Sora smiles at his brother when he finds him sitting on his bed, looking out of the window.
"You're actually off to play with us Sora?" Roxas glances back at him.
"Yeah somehow this day wasn't too bad. Everyone else got the day off so we could spend some family time together. Terra and Aqua are gone for their date." Sora rubs his arm when Roxas looks back out the window.
"Is Axel going to be playing?"
"..."
"I'm not going if he's playing."
"Roxas..." Sora frowns. There's tense silence like there always is when Sora tries to talk about this with his brother. He's only tried one other time and it ended with Roxas storming out. They didn't talk for awhile after that.
Sora wouldn't press it if it wasn't wearing down on him.
It's been four years since Terra told him he couldn't go on missions. In these four years Sora has been worked harder than he has before. Terra has become unmerciful. The training is so intense that most days Sora just passes out on his bed when it's over, all sweaty and beaten. It would be worth it if Sora was doing something. He can't use his light to fight. It seems like it's impossible.
If the stress of not being able to use his element, disappointing Terra, and not being able to go on missions or spending time with his brothers wasn't enough, when he is able to relax for a few moments...
He's being stressed by the negative energy in the home. Roxas and Axel's emotions pound down on him every time he's around either one of them. It fills Sora with more feelings of incompetence. He's suppose to be able to help his brothers.
What good is he if all he can do is feel their pain? Their anger? He has to do something about it. If he doesn't do something...
It feels like something could snap inside of him.
"Sora. I don't want to hear it." Roxas's voice breaks Sora from his thoughts. "I don't want to fight with you too...I know you've been through a lot recently. You're always working...I'd love to spend time with you but I won't if Axel is there-"
"Roxas. Please just tell me, what did Axel do? What can I do to fix it?"
"There's nothing to fix-"
"Roxas!" Sora marches up to his brother. He takes a deep breath when he feels that prickling in the back of his neck. "You use to be best friends! I can't stand feeling your loneliness and pain! This home use to be much happier! I know that you're both hurting...Especially Axel. He may seem angry all the time but I feel how his heart drops every night and how he longs for you! I tried to tell you this before but you just walked out on me."
Roxas stares at him with wide eyes. Sora should have kept his voice in check. He licks his lips. "...Axel hasn't been the same since you two stopped being friends. His smile isn't as bright and he's never really happy with anything. He steals and gets in trouble. He's not having fun."
Roxas averts his gaze. Sora caught how those eyes shift and he felt the shift in his heart. Something is opening up. Sora can feel his uncertainty.
"I don't know what Axel did but...couldn't you just talk to him Roxas? You two use to be so close! I can say Axel loved you the most and i'm sure he still does. That's why things have become this way."
"You can leave Sora."
Sora closes his eyes. He has the urge to just break that weak wall that Roxas has put up to hide the deepest part of his heart. If only Sora could link with him and show him what he's been feeling. Sora smiles sadly to himself.
It looks like he can't do anything right. Doesn't mean he's going to stop trying. This won't be the last time he tries to talk to Roxas.
"You should play with us Roxas." Sora turns and starts to walk out. He stops. "You know, i'm not only concerned about Axel. You haven't been happy either. I want you to start having fun again."
With those words Sora walks out of the house. He brightens up when he sees Ven setting up the bases for the game and Riku talking with Axel.
"He's not coming is he? The little shit." Axel snarls when he notices Roxas didn't come out.
"Calm down Axel. You knew he probably wouldn't come." Riku watches Axel start to smoke from his body. He lets him march around, cussing to himself.
"I tried." Sora mumbles, rubbing his arm.
"I know you did. Roxas just won't give with anyone." Riku turns his attention on Sora. He nudges him with his fist. "If you get down, there's no way you're going to win against me."
"Yeah right i'll show you Riku." Sora glares towards the ground but it's more of a pout. Especially when Riku starts to chuckle at him.
"Mm. Hey Sora catch!" Riku suddenly gets in front of him and throws a sack at him. Sora squeaks in surprise, His hands fumbling to try to catch the thing. He catches it jerkily. Luckily his reflects are fast but he probably looked funny.
"Jeez Riku I almost didn't catch that!"
"Well jeez Sora you should probably work on that."
Sora sticks out his tongue in retaliation. His eyes narrow when Riku just laughs.
"Don't hate on my skills Riku- what is this anyway?" Sora opens the sack. His eyes widen. The sack is filled with many shiny, small rocks. They're all a bright blue.
"I found them in universe 64, in a cave. They aren't worth anything but I thought they would be a good addition for the treasure chest." Riku leans close to whisper this.
Recently Riku had found what looks like a private's treasure chest. He brought it back to their cave. Sora was so excited about it that he put it next to their private story that they drew on the wall. He also came up with an idea of filling it with treasure...and then they could bury it and make a treasure map! Riku loved it. Ever since then whenever Riku finds anything shiny, or cool he brings it to Sora so they can add it to their treasure chest.
"They're perfect! They're so pretty! Look how they sparkle!" Sora beams, looking up at Riku. He's surprised to not find Riku smirking. His lips have changed into something soft and those eyes have brighten. "...I wish I could contribute."
"Don't worry about it. I'm more than enough." Riku waves his hand. Sora touches the stones, and it feels like he was there. He can sense the emotions and see Riku's memories through them. The link between them has gotten stronger. Now if he touches objects, he can see memories...They just come to him. It's happened with Ven before too. It's not like he means to do it. It's like the memories are somehow imprinted in certain objects.
"You fought hard. There was a big monster in that cave...but you killed it." Sora closes the sack, looking at Riku with admiration. "Your skills might be amazing but I won't lose. Soon i'll catch up."
"You've been saying that for 49 years." Riku teases but Sora can tell his words made him happy. He can feel the warmth.
"Hey, what's that sack Sora?" Ven runs over to them. Riku takes the sack and puts it in his back pocket. "What you guys talking about?"
"It's mine." Riku states.
Sora frowns when Ven looks at him expectantly. He can't tell Ven anything because the treasure chest is linked to the cave. Sora promised he would never tell anyone about the cave so he can't tell Ven about this.
"It was nothing Ven. Are you ready to play?" Sora smiles at his brother. Ven glances between them. Sora's a bit worried he might make a bigger deal about this but he doesn't.
"Yup! Sora you're on my team! Riku can be on a team with Axel!" Ven hugs Sora's arm, interlacing their fingers.
There's a flash of anger from Riku but then it's gone. It seems both Ven and Riku are being good. Maybe it's because they both haven't seen Sora for months. He can feel the warmth from them both just when they're close.
Riku and Ven know it makes Sora upset when they fight. They've gotten better with it these last four years...that Sora knows of. They usually don't fight when Sora is around, or they try not to. They have had fights. He's heard about a few from Aqua. After that he had a talk with Riku and Ven about it...since then he hasn't heard anything else about a fight.
Though Riku and Ven won't go on missions together. Ven and Roxas have been a team while Riku and Axel have been a team. Since Roxas won't go on missions with Axel and Ven won't go on missions with Riku.
His family is being split and Sora doesn't know what he can do to bring them back together.
"I call Sora and Ven's team."
The boys' head whip over. Sora's heart lifts when he sees Roxas. His shoulders tense like he's ready for a fight.
"Roxas!" Sora and Ven cheer. They jump on their brother, giving him hugs. Roxas is soon chuckling and those shoulders loosening.
"You're going to play with us?! This day is the best!" Ven nuzzles his head against Roxas. He pushes his brother off but it's gentle.
"Yeah i'm going to play." Roxas glances at gives him a reassuring smile.
"I'm really happy."
"Even if you have three to two you're not going to win." Riku grunts, the three younger boys turning their attention on him.
Roxas and Axel make eye contact. Time seems to stand still, Sora can feel himself hold his breath. The air that was light has become tight and suffocating. They all wait for the indelible. They'll get into a fight again and then they'll both leave. That's how this usually ends...
When Roxas doesn't glare immediately, Axel regards him as if he's studying what he's thinking. He's cautious but he doesn't glare either. It's like they're both just looking at one another, trying to figure them out.
"Are we going to play?" Roxas keeps their gaze.
"Yeah." Axel doesn't blink. More silence.
"Let's do this then! You guys can kick first since it's obvious you're going to lose now that Roxas is on our side." Ven smirks at the glares he gets from the older boys.
"You're on!"
Riku is the first one to kick. Ven's smile gets smug as he sends the older boy a fast ball. It's leaving a furrow in the ground as it goes. Riku kicks it hard.
"Wow!" Sora's eyes widen when the ball shoots up into the air. It's way, way above their heads. Riku is already running to the bases. If they wait for it to come down Riku's going to make it all the way around!
"Sora, Ven!" Roxas shouts, holding his hands together below his waist. Sora understands as soon as Ven does. Ven runs up to Roxas and jumps from his hands. Sora does the same after Ven. Sora cups his hands so Ven can jump off of him in the air...he gets high enough he can catch the ball. 50 feet in the air.
"Out Riku!" Sora cheers with glee as he lands on the ground, with a bit of a stumble.
"Damn." Riku grumbles, skidding to a stop. He was about a couple of seconds close to having that home run.
"Let me show you how it's done Riku." Axel chuckles when the silver haired male gives him an annoyed look over.
Ven narrows his eyes. He rolls the ball. Axel's green eyes twinkle as he runs up to the ball and kicks it with all his might.
Roxas jumps to try to catch it. It hits his hand and rockets, smacking Sora right on the side of the face. With a 'fwah!', Sora is on the ground and Axel is laughing so hard he's holding his gut as he runs. He ends up getting hit with the ball by Roxas before he can make his home run.
"That's two outs. One more to go boys." Roxas smirks.
"Sora are you okay?" Ven tries to hold in his laughter when he sees the kick ball printed on the side of the young boy's face.
"I'm fine." Sora huffs when he sees Axel and Riku are both laughing at his expense. After awhile though he can't help to join in. Okay, he has to admit it was pretty funny.
Riku is up to kick again. This time when he hits the ball it goes more to the side. He's able to run to the third base and then he stops before Ven can get him with the ball. When Axel kicks Riku is able to make it home and he makes it to second base. They go back and forth till finally Sora gets Axel out by hitting him in the back with the ball right before he made it home.
"Our turn to kick!" Ven cheers as he runs to stand In the kicking area. The older boys are merciless with how they throw the ball to get them out. As soon as Sora kicked, Riku caught it. Ven was able to make it around one time. Roxas got around a few...
By the end of the game, with all the running around and trying to keep up with each other, everyone is sweating.
"We won so we get to pick the movie tonight." Ven pants. Their team had won by one point.
"Whatever just don't pick anything stupid." Axel grunts, wiping the sweat off his brow.
"We'll pick what we want." Roxas grunts.
"Ha we won Riku!"
"By one point. You also had both Roxas and Ven. Don't get cocky." Riku grunts.
"Excuses!"
"I still can't get over the fucking noise you made when the ball hit your face. It was perfect." Axel snorts in laughter. Soon everyone is laughing about that again. Sora pouts for a moment but with all the good feelings he's getting from his brothers, he can't help to join in.
It feels a lot better when everyone is having a good time. It's been so long...Sora hopes this moment never ends. He wants to stay with his brothers like this forever.
But he knows as soon as Terra comes back, he'll be thrown into his reality. The one where it feels like he's alone with nothing but that 'book' to keep him company.
"Now that all of you boys are of age, it's time for you guys to learn about Occisor Puberty." Aqua smiles at the three young boys that she called together to meet in the basement. They all knew this was coming. She was just waiting on Sora to turn 13 which he did a couple of days ago.
"Aqua are you going to teach us about sex?" Ven asks outright, holding up his hand.
"Yes I am Ven." Aqua's smile looks a bit more nervous and uncomfortable. "You are of age now...all Occisor are taught at this age." She mumbles more like a reassurance to herself. "You boys just have grown up so fast on me!"
"We age just as you do!" Ven chuckles.
Sora fiddles with his fingers. He's been nervous about this class ever since he heard what they talked about with Riku and Axel. Axel has changed a lot since he's hit puberty...Riku not so much. Not from what he's seen anyway. Will Sora change? His stomach flutters nervously.
Aqua starts off by going over the anatomy of both the male and female body. Sora feels his face flush from the very real pictures in the book she passed out. Sora never knew that girls had genitals that looked like...that. It's fascinating but it makes Sora embarrassed all the same. It feels like he shouldn't be looking at something like this.
Next Aqua explains how babies are made...She talks about how the sperm from the male has to get to the eggs in the female. This happens through sex which involves the male genitals going into the female's genitals...The male ejaculates the sperm and so on.
She also once again explains to them that because they are Occisor they can not get females pregnant but they should still protect themselves with condoms. They still can get diseases.
She lets them put condoms on bananas to know how to do it properly. Sora ended up ripping the first one. The whole thing makes him very uncomfortable.
"Now that we've talked about the act of it, what you would have learned in your human school, lets talk about how it's different for Occisor." Aqua takes a deep breath. She wants to get this over with just like they want it to be over with. "It depends on the person but an Occisor going through puberty can be a very hard thing. You will have mood swings and it may be harder to keep your emotions in check. You may have sudden urges to mate that are hard to control. You may even have urges to kill for no reason. You will need to try to keep these urges and desires under control...You can try masturbation or if you need to, find a temporary partner-"
"But we shouldn't do it unless we love the person right?" Sora blurts out. "It's not right, right? I was taught by my mom we should only do these kinds of things with people we love-"
"It's better if you do it with a mate, yes. But sometimes things don't work out like that. That's why i'm preparing you for anything." Aqua looks tired when Sora frowns.
She talks a little bit more before she hands each one of them a goodie bag...filled with lube and condoms. She's quick to leave the room.
Sora can feel she really hates having these talks. She thinks of them as children and this...Sora doesn't feel like he's old enough. Like it's wrong...forbidden. Sora knows it's different now and that Aqua is teaching them all these things for their own good. She cares about them. If she didn't, she wouldn't say anything and then what if they did something with a girl without a condom? Then they could get sick...
Sora would be very upset if his brothers got sick. Axel could be sick right now if not for these rubber protectors.
"This is ridiculous. We'll have desires we can't control? That's stupid." Roxas grumbles when they get in their bedroom. He throws his bag on his bed. "I'm not using any of that stuff." He glares at it.
"You never know Roxas. It could get bad. Axel said it's pretty bad-" Ven stops when Roxas gives him a sharp gaze.
"Axel is just weak."
Sora frowns. Even though Roxas and Axel have been spending time together as a family recently, they still get into a lot of fights. Roxas and Axel never hang out alone. They still haven't resolve their issues.
"You guys finally have the sex talk?" Axel and Riku come into the bedroom.
"Yeah it was embarrassing." Sora can still feel his hot ears.
"Aw look at him! He's all red!" Axel chuckles.
"It's a lot to take in." Riku defends when Sora's face gets redder. "Don't worry about it Sora."
"Is puberty as bad as Aqua says?" Sora asks meekly.
"I haven't had any problems."
"It's been shit for me." Axel grumbles. " My flames get out of control when I get angry and my sex drive is crazy. It sucks."
"You have have my 'goodies' Axel." Roxas grabs his bag and throws it at Axel, hard. It hits his chest. "I know you don't have any self control so you're going to need it."
"Fuck you Roxas." The fiery teen snarls. "I'm going to laugh when you're hit with needs. I ain't going to give you any of this either. You'll see how hard this shit is."
"I'm sure I won't fuck everything I see like you-"
"Roxas!" Sora gasps at Roxas saying something so crude.
"You're just jealous. Who would want you anyway? You're so thin and frail like a chick. When you have those desires, no one is going to have sex with you." Axel yells, the room getting so hot from the heat radiating off of him.
"Hey I resent that! What you say about Roxas you're saying about me! We look good!" Ven puts his hands on his hips.
"Why would I be jealous of an idiot and a hypocrite? A drunk, a loser! Don't think I haven't smelled the alcohol on your breath."
"You sound like Terra." Axel sneers. "What the fuck do you care? It's not like you've given a shit for like 15 years. Why would you care now?"
"I don't. I'm just pointing out the facts." Roxas moves pass Axel to walk out of the room.
"You ugly ass piece of shit!" Axel yells after him.
"Dude chill out, you're starting to catch on fire." Riku glares when his body starts to smoke. Axel marches out of the room before he sets it aflame.
"Sora are you okay?"Ven frowns when he sees his brother hunched over with a hand to his heart. He pants softly, trying to keep his breathing in check. The anger hit him like a ton of bricks. The air left behind is too thick. He's trying to work through all those emotions and think about how he feels about it.
"Why is it still like this...why is Axel getting worse and worse? I thought they were getting closer again..."
"They are talking more than they were. Axel has been hanging around the wrong people. Every time he goes on a mission he disappears for hours at a time. I can't baby sit him." Riku averts his gaze when Sora looks at him with those big blue eyes.
"Riku are you also drinking alcohol like Axel? I...I don't want you to." Sora frowns. He's seen how strange Axel can get when he drinks.
"I don't." Riku reassures quickly.
"This is such a mess." Ven sighs, running a hand through his hair. "All this going on and we have missions to go on tonight. I feel like Axel is going to get into some trouble. He'll probably be thrown in jail."
"Ven, Riku if you are paired with Axel tonight please try to stop him." Sora looks between his brothers.
"I'll try but he's hard to control Sora."
"Axel is going to do what he wants to do no matter what we try." Riku crosses his arms.
"I just wish...Roxas and Axel would just talk it out... I hate feeling this way. They both long for each other. I don't get what's blocking their hearts."
"Sora don't think about it too much. You'll get yourself all upset." Ven wraps his arm around his waist. He smiles gently. "Why don't we play a card game?...Riku will play too right?"Vne adds that last part reluctantly
"Yeah." Riku nods.
"...That sounds good. I'm just going to go to the bathroom first."
"Take your time." Ven kisses Sora on the forehead. Sora feels a surge of anger from Riku. With all the anger he just felt, it makes Sora want to throw up.
He quickly makes his way out of the room, and he can hear faintly Riku saying something to Ven.
Sora stumbles into the bathroom. He gets on his knees in front of the toilet and dry heaves for a few moments till he throws up. He hugs the toilet, letting it all out of his system. As if he's getting rid of all those bad emotions he just experienced.
His body just can't take it.
"Tonight is the beginning. I wonder what part of you will come out...from your mom's or dad's side."
Sora's breath hitches. That voice but he couldn't be here! Sora whips around, grabbing the wall for balance. Sora sees Vanitas smirking at him before his body fades away like he was never there.
"It's getting stronger isn't it? You're scared of your own body...it's hilarious." With those words, he's gone.
Sora's breathing is uneven. He covers his mouth before he throws up once more, his shoulders trembling.
He's going crazy. Either Vanitas was just here or he's seeing things. That didn't feel like he was talking through their link, it looked like he was here. But that's impossible. Vanitas couldn't just fade away like that...is Sora losing his mind? Why does he feel so weak?...His body isn't listening to him.
"Sora are you throwing up?!" Of course Ven came to look for him when he took too long.
"No i'm fine-" Sora gags.
Needless to say Ven nearly broke down the door to get to him. Not only did he fuss over him but when Sora snapped at him, he only went to get Terra and Aqua.
"You have a fever." Aqua frowns, feeling on Sora's head. Sora is now settled in his bed per Aqua's order with a bucket next to him and a rag on his forehead.
"Sora you've been getting sick a lot lately." Ven fiddles with his fingers nervously. Sora can feel his concern and love. It makes him feel guilty for snapping at him. He knows Ven just wants to help.
"You just need to rest. You've been over working yourself." Aqua says softly. Terra's expression is stone. Riku's eyebrows knit together from where he's leaning against the wall. He's been staring Sora down with that intense gaze. Sora knows he's also worried. He doesn't have to even feel it, he can tell in his expression.
"I'm okay...I'll just sleep it off." Sora smiles at both Ven and Riku to give them reassurance.
"...I think Riku should stay back to watch over you and take care of you."
"What? But I can take care of Sora!" Ven looks at Aqua with wide eyes.
"No. You will go on a mission with Roxas and Axel. You are better with dealing with Roxas. Keep them from killing each other." Terra says firmly. When Ven gives him those big blue eyes, he averts his gaze. "Riku are you find with taking care of Sora."
"Yes I am." He responds swiftly.
"Then it's settled. Come, we're running late as it is Aqua."
"..." Ven runs up to Sora, giving him a big hug. "I hope you feel better Sora. I'll be home soon and i'll give you all the cuddles you want! I'll play with your hair when I get back!"
"That sounds great Ven." Sora chuckles when his brother brightens up.
"I'll be back before you know it!" Ven runs out of the room to catch up with Terra and Aqua. "Axel, Roxas lets finish this mission super quick!"
Soon Sora can sense that they're alone. They cleared out of here fast.
"I'll get you some water. Get some rest Sora." Riku walks up to him and puts a hand on his head. Once Riku leaves the room, there's nothing to keep him up. He falls asleep from exhaustion before Riku makes it back with his water.
"...you really are an idiot. Overworking yourself. Know your own limits." Riku scolds softly, placing the water down next to Sora. He watches him sleep silently before touching his cheek. "You'll never beat me if you can't even take care of yourself." Sora snorts in his sleep.
Riku's lips twitch up in a fond smile. He lays his forehead against Sora's. "Go to sleep and get better you goof."
Sora's eyes flutter open. His muscles ache even more than they did before. Sora thought sleep was suppose to heal Occisor...it doesn't feel like he's healed at all. He feels worse.
Sora sits up slowly, the rag that was on his forehead falling on his chest, soaking his shirt. He breathes heavily, panting.
Something is wrong. It's hard to breathe and there's a pressure on his chest and...and...down there.
Sora pulls off the covers. He nearly falls off of the bed in surprise when he notices the small tent in his pants. With his breathing getting more shaky, he pulls down the constricting fabric of his pants. "I-It's...!" Sora can't believe it. They just learned about how Occisor have desires and such but Sora didn't think it would happen to him so fast! And this is...it's scary.
Is it suppose to feel like this? Where you can barely breath? Your body feels so hot and it hurts down there? Is it suppose to look so swollen and red? Is it suppose to leak? Aqua didn't go over all of this.
Will this feeling go away if he touches it? He needs to do something! It feels like if he doesn't his stuff is going to explode and he won't be able to breathe!
Sora glances around to make sure no one is In the room with him. Riku isn't here. Sora reaches over for his bag, pulling it from under the bed. With shaky hands he pulls out the lube. His hands are so unsteady that he drops it. He picks it up more carefully.
Sora never wanted to have to do this but he's getting desperate. It hurts so much.
"Ow..." Sora winces when he touches it. He slicks it with the lube, not looking at what he's doing, too embarrassed to do so. It's painful. He rubs it, gritting his teeth. It's not feeling better...it's not working...! Sora's breathing becomes erratic. He squeezes as hard as he can, his voice breaks out into a sob.
His heart is beating so fast that it feels like it's going to stop. Sora's wheezing by now, his throat tightening up.
"Sora are you up?" Sora tenses, whipping his head over towards the bedroom door. It's shut but he knows Riku is right behind it. He swallows, a bead of sweat falling down his cheek. He can't let him see him like this! Sora keeps quiet but the door starts to open anyway.
"Riku don't!" Sora yells. The door stops.
"Sora what's wrong?"
"I'm fine just g-go away." Sora winces when his voice breaks off in a soft sob. Sora feels tears well up in the corner of his eyes. It hurts so much!
Sora screams when Riku slams open the door. "R-Riku i'm f-fine!" Sora tries to hide under the blanket.
"Don't lie to me Sora! Are you hurt? What's going on? I can't help you if you don't tell me!" Riku rips the blanket off of him. Sora can't look at him, too ashamed to lift his head. The young boy sniffles, tears falling down his face. Riku must think he's the worse-
"Hey, what's wrong?" Riku's voice is soft. Very quiet. He sits next to Sora, placing his hands on his shoulders. "Sora take a slow deep breath and tell me what's wrong."
Sora glances up at Riku. His brother's eyes are wide, his pupils blown out in shock but there's no disgust. His gaze is firm.
Sora listens to Riku and takes a deep breath. He's able to calm down just a bit to make out some words. "It...it hurts Riku! No matter how much I...I... touch it, it won't stop hurting! I feel like i'm dying! I can barely breathe and-"
"Deep breathes Sora." Sora listens, closing his eyes. His breath only hitching a bit before he calms down some more. Just having Riku here with him, rubbing his shoulders is helping. Though where he touches feels so hot...he almost wants to tell him to stop. Sora can feel his concern threw their link and he just wants Riku to be closer.
"...It shouldn't be like this. Let me see it." Sora tries to fight with Riku when he had grabbed his hands to take them off his aching genitals. "Sora." Sora whimpers but lets go. Sora just keeps his eyes on Riku's neck and his long sliver hair. He can't look. "...It's really red." Sora's eyes widen when he feels Riku touch the tip.
"R-Riku don't touch it!"
"It looks like you need to let it out Sora. It looks bad...Here." Sora closes his eyes when Riku slicks his hand with lube and starts to stroke him.
Sora hiccups, his hands shaking. He feels like he should push Riku away but when he starts to move his hand quickly, all Sora can do is sob with strange moans leaving his lips. Heat is pooling down below and on his face.
Sora covers his face the best he can. "Ah...A-Ah!" He's making such weird sounds but he can't stop. The pain has started to change to pleasure. Sora doesn't know what to do with himself. "R-Riku...Riku please!" Sora begs. He doesn't know what he's begging for.
Riku's breathing gets a little funny, his grip on him getting tighter. "It's okay Sora." Riku reassures. "Just let go..." His voice is so deep.
Sora can feel something powerful squirming inside of him. He can feel it from Riku too. It's all too much to handle. Sora feels like he's about to pop.
"R-Riku I have to pee! I'm going to pee on you-"
"You're not. Just trust me Sora." He only strokes harder. Sora lets out a loud, embarrassing sound as he releases into Riku's hand. Some of it gets on his shirt too...just everywhere. Sora falls back on the bed, panting, trying to catch his breath. His blue eyes wide and shaking as he stares up at the ceiling.
The fever starts to leave him and he feels like he can breathe once more.
"You alright Sora?" Sora glances down at Riku with tired eyes. He's wiping his hands off with some paper towels that Axel keeps by his bed. He isn't looking at Sora and his face looks a little flushed.
"I'm...I'm fine. Thank you Riku. I feel a lot better. That was scary." Sora frowns when Riku still doesn't look at him. Is he ashamed of him after all?
"I'm glad I could help. Just...keep this a secret. About me helping you. They would get the wrong idea."
"Don't worry about that. I wouldn't tell anyone about what happened here. I'm still embarrassed." Sora's happy to know that Riku won't tell. It feels like they did something bad...
"Good...I'll run you a bath." Riku walks off stiffly.
Sora feels like he could fall asleep again but he forces himself up. He pulls up his pants and walks towards the window. He wonders if it's dark out? Or if it's more towards the morning?
When Sora pulls the blinds, he's greeted by a large full moon in the darken sky. His stomach starts to turn so he quickly closes the blinds back up. It felt like he as about to start getting weird again.
"The baths ready." Riku calls.
Sora gathers up his clothes, still trying to come to terms with what just happened. Riku helped him...he touched him in his area just to help Sora feel better. He doesn't' want Riku getting in trouble for something that is Sora's fault. He should have been able to handle that himself.
Sora will keep this to himself and hope that things don't change between him and Riku.
"The file said the target should be around here. Keep alert you guys. This is no time to be fighting." Ven stops walking to look back at Roxas and Axel who haven't stopped glaring at each other since they came on this mission. At least they aren't fighting each other but this is just as annoying.
"Lets hurry and get this over with." Roxas locks eyes with his brother. "I don't want to be here any longer."
"Same here. I'm getting tired of dealing with you." Axel snorts.
"I just want to get back to Sora. He's sick again..." Ven mumbles to himself, those blue eyes deep as he turns on his heel and starts walking deeper in the forest.
"...Did he look bad?" Roxas questions softly.
"He did. He was all pale and he felt so hot Roxas. I'm worried about him. He's so tired and weak recently...I think Terra is being too hard on him. When ever I see Sora he's always trying to perk me up. He's always trying to give me good feelings but...soon i'm afraid he won't even have the strength to try to smile. Everything has been weighing him down." Ven bites his finger nails. "I'm so...worried Roxas."
"I know." Roxas averts his gaze, his expression showing a little pain. Axel catches it but Roxas won't look at him.
"So lets hurry up and-" A syringe swooshes through the air and sticks right into Ven's chest. The silver liquid that was inside disappears quickly in his chest cavity before he pulls it out.
"Ven!" Roxas's eyes widen. They turn white as he scans the area, looking for who attacked his brother. He spots the guy trying to run.
Roxas throws his sword in the air before using his wind to send it flying. It goes right through the guy's shoulder, pinning him to a tree.
Axel whistles. "Damn. You weren't playing."
"Ven are you alright?" Roxas drops down on the ground next to his brother. Ven is on his knees, a hand to his chest, his breathing heavy. "Do you think you've been poisoned?"
"Hey pal, I have a few questions for ya." Axel walks over slowly to the small man with terrified eyes. He struggles against the sword pinning him but he can only cry out from the pain. Like a butter fly with a pin through it's wing. Trapped. The man gasps when Axel summons his fire, a sinister smile turning his lips. "Depending on how you answer, I may or may not cook you alive."
"P-Please..." The man begs hoarsely. "Y-You don't understand...I was black mailed into doing this. If I didn't do it...my wife...please-"
"What was in that vial you just shot at my brother?" Axel's eyes turn white. "I'm losing my patience-"
"It was mercury!" The man screams. "I'm sorry! I don't know why he would want me to infect that guy with something like that. A normal human, it would kill them but...it wouldn't kill you Occisor right? Maybe make him a little sick...please don't kill me-"
"Roxas! It had mercury in it! Get away from him!" Axel turns around in a panic, his white eyes trembling when he sees Roxas leaning so close to his brother.
"What-" Roxas wheezes when Ven suddenly grabs him by the neck. His grip is so tight that Roxas's airway is closed.
"hehe...haha...heh...heh." Ven giggles softly as he stands up, keeping Roxas by the neck. "heheheheh, HAHAHAHAHAHA." Ven throws his head back, revealing those white deranged orbs.
"Get off of him!" Axel takes out his circular sharp weapons, running towards Roxas. He's relieved when the other twin is able to summon a big enough gust to knock Ven back.
"Not again." Roxas winces, rubbing his throat.
"I did not sign up for this shit." Axel tightens his grip on his weapons when Ven starts to stumble back and forth, laughing so hard.
"We have to call Terra-" Roxas's eyes widen when blades of wind fling towards them. At the last second they jump different ways, dodging Ven's sporadic attack. "Ven stop!" Roxas summons his wind blades to counter every attack but he still ends up moving around to avoid getting chopped in half. All the trees around them are being cut and falling down.
"I want to kill...I want to see...what you look like when you're dead." Ven's smile is crooked as he sends a storm of wind blades their way.
"I'm tired of this!" Axel snarls when a blade nicks him on the shoulder. He runs towards Ven with all his might, dodging his blades only to be sent flying back from a strong gust of wind. He hits a tree hard enough for it to break, the air Axel had being taken right from him.
"Sora...Sora...Sora..." Ven starts to chant his name, doing a twirl as if dancing. "I want to see him...Sora i'm coming home!" Ven cheers, pulling out his crystal.
"No!" Roxas screams in a panic, using his power to knock the crystal out of his hand. He gets past all his wind attacks and when he gets to his brother, he smacks him across the face. "Get a hold of yourself! If you went back there, you'd hurt Sora."
"I would never hurt Sora." Ven snarls.
"You would like this-" Roxas tenses when he senses the change in the air too late. There are so many wind blades pointing at him now, ready to impale him. He knows Ven would do it. "Ven...Think of Sora. If you hurt us, he'll be really sad."
Roxas sees it then, a slight shift in those white crazed eyes but it's not enough.
"Ven if you kill Roxas i'm going to fucking kill you!" Axel charges towards Ven, his green eyes looking deranged. Filled with worry and fear...fear for Roxas's life.
The younger twin feels his chest swell with an emotion he's been trying to dismiss for so long.
One of the blades swipes down at Axel, sure to impale the reckless teen who charged blindly into a field of swords...just to try to save Roxas.
Roxas moves as fast as he can. He uses his power to knock the sword off coarse...
"Why..." Axel stares at Roxas with wide eyes. "Why did you do that?!" He screams when the full extent of the wound the sword inflicted on Roxas's chest sets in. Roxas's wind could only do so much...to protect Axel, he had thrown his body in the way of it's dangerous slice. "Are you trying to kill yourself-"
"If I didn't do this, you would be dead." Roxas says calmly, locking eyes with Axel's trembling orbs.
"Roxas..."
Roxas grits his teeth when he hears Ven start to laugh again. With the last of his strength he does a twist, throwing a large tree branch at Ven with a burst of wind. It hits him right on the head and with a thud he tumbles down.
Out for the count.
"Hopefully he doesn't' get a concussion. I'm sure I busted his head open. The longer he was conscious the stronger and worse he would get." Roxas mumbles to himself. "Call for back up...who ever did this knew of Ven's condition. They were trying to get Ven to kill us."
Axel uses his crystal to send out a distress signal with shaky hands. He's quick to catch Roxas when he started to fall. "Roxas! Shit you're bleeding out!" Axel lays him down gently on the ground, ripping away what's left of his shirt to really look at the wound. There's too much blood to get a good look at it. "Damn it!" Axel pulls off his shirt and starts wiping the blood up as carefully as he can. "W-Why?" His voice trembles. "How stupid can you be? Doing this for a guy you hate-"
"I don't hate you. I never hated you...Axel." Roxas smiles to himself when Axel freezes up and looks at him with those green eyes. Filled with all the emotions he can't hide in this situation.
"Then why...for all those years! You ignored me...you wanted nothing to do with me! All these years of fighting...why?!" Axle breathes heavily, puffing out his chest like he's angry but Roxas's knows he's holding in tears. "And why do something like this now! You're dying Roxas!"
"You were always one to overact with my injuries." Roxas chuckles softly to himself only to wince afterward. "I won't die..."
"You're pale and getting cold Roxas." Axel grits his teeth. Any second now.
"I was...angry at you. I felt like you were betraying everything you told me." Roxas says quietly.
"What are you talking about?" Axel locks eyes with him.
"...The first time you slept with a woman you didn't know, I felt betrayed. You told me you would never be like your father...that you wouldn't sleep with strange women."
Axel's eyes widen but Roxas isn't done. "You hate your father. You told me so many stories...that made me hate him too. How he beat you and burned you with cigarettes. How he had sex with all these women and drank so much he would puke everywhere in the house. You said your goal...was to not be like him. So when you did that with that woman...I felt like you were betraying everything you wanted out of your future. I acted angry and disgusted with you because I wanted you to realize that wasn't right...I wanted you to say you wouldn't do it again."
Roxas closes his eyes when the pain becomes too much in his chest. "...But you only did it more. It struck me with grief seeing you become what you didn't want. We just drifted farther apart and I didn't want to be the one to have to say why. I wanted you to snap out of it by yourself. It was your goals...not mine. You just became more and more like him. Pushing me around when you got too angry, drinking, getting in trouble with the law...It made me madder and madder and yet..."
Roxas doesn't have to open his eyes to know what face Axel is making. "I missed you. For all those 15 years...it hurt being so far from you. Sora made me realize something...I'm the one who's been childish. I didn't just speak my mind and I was stubborn about it. I felt justified in what I was doing but when I saw Sora's face...how tired he was...how in pain he was...I realized that all the pain i've been feeling...all the shitty emotions i've been going through, he's also been living through them. Not only mine but yours too. Sora looked like he was about to fall apart and now he's really sick...I'm Sorry Axel...i'm sorry."
When Roxas feels the wet drops fall on his cheeks, he opens his eyes to see such a pained expression from the older teen. Tears falling down his face. "I-I have become him haven't I? I didn't even realize...Fuck Roxas i'm the one who's sorry...I've just been...i've just been having...I don't want us to fight anymore. I don't want us to be like this. I don't want to be like this. After you stopped talking to me I just spiraled out of control...just like my old man. I'm sorry Roxas..."
"Don't have sex with women who are strangers anymore." Roxas locks eyes with Axel. "Can't you...take care of it some other way?"
"...Roxas for you, I won't have sex with strange women, I won't drink anymore, I won't stay out late...I'll give all of it up gladly. You're the only person that really makes me happy." Axel averts his gaze, his face getting red.
"Now...that's the Axel i've been missing." Roxas chuckles softly, he looks half way gone.
"Roxas i'm going to burn your wound. You need to stop bleeding."
"Do it." Axel grabs Roxas's hand. When he starts to burn him, Roxas screams and squeezes Axel's hand. Axel holds it just as tightly for comfort.
"Sorry...You'll be okay. Stay with me Roxas." Axel says against Roxas's blonde locks, holding him tight against him. He cradles Roxas's limp body when he goes unconscious, rocking him back and forth.
Axel glances over at the man pinned to the tree to ask him a couple more questions to get his mind off of the panic he's feeling-
But there's a dagger through the man's head and he's staring at him with glassy eyes.
"Who ever you are...i'll kill you for what you've done to Roxas." Axel's fire gathers around him and Roxas in a protective way.
It won't be long now before the place is crawling with Occisor. While he's alone, while he holds Roxas's limp body...Axel will allow himself to cry all the emotions he's been holding in for all these years.
There's also relief there...knowing that his fight with Roxas is over. That he still cares about him deeply. That enough keeps Axel sane and everything he's been doing over these last 15 years just seems stupid.
Every girl he had, every drink he had...he was always thinking of Roxas. It was always Roxas. He could never get him off his mind. All these desires...they are Roxas.
He'll fight them somehow. He won't become his old man and he won't hurt Roxas anymore... He'd rather suffer silently than be without Roxas. it's obvious to him now...
He's crazy in love with this boy.
"We all searched for the mastermind of the operation but he was no where to be seen." Terra speaks lowly as he watches Aqua tend to Ven in the infirmary. She's wrapping up his busted head carefully, setting up the Iv pump to start to detox of mercury.
Axel doesn't say anything. He just strokes Roxas's hand. The boy is laying in the bed next to his brother, his chest is all wrapped up. The wound clean and stitched by aqua. He's fast asleep, those long eyelashes so noticeable now...
"The fact of the matter is that the one behind this knew what mercury does to Ven. The only people who know this are in this family...or was in this family."
"you think it was Vanitas?"
"Who else could it be? Though I don't have proof...I have a feeling it was him. I don't know why he would want to get Ven to kill you two...when he could try to do it himself. I think he's just toying with us."
"We can't do anything about it right now. We should let the boys sleep. They need all the rest they can get." Aqua strokes Ven's cheek lovingly. "Lets go to bed Terra..."
"Yeah..." Terra stares at Ven a bit longer. Aqua has to pull him away gently. Whenever something happens to Ven that man is the first to freak out.
"What happened?" Axel glances up after awhile of being alone. Riku stands at the doorway, his expression stone as he takes in the two twins.
"Shit happened. A lot of it. Some guy infected Ven with mercury...Terra thinks Vanitas has something to do with it."
"Was it hard to subdue him?" Riku glances at Ven, those aqua eyes hard.
"No. We got him out quickly. It wasn't like the last time. Then again there wasn't anyone but us..." Axel thinks for a moment before he looks at Riku. "...You can't say anything about this To Sora."
"Why not? He's going to ask what happened. I don't want to lie to him."
"Riku we aren't suppose to talk about this. It's a way to protect Ven. You know if the counsel finds out he's defective..."
"..."
"Just...don't be a dick alright? Sora doesn't need to know-"
"What if something like this happens again? And Sora is around/ He needs to know that he is in danger-"
"It won't happen with Sora around. He can't even go on missions anymore. Would you calm down? Look at Ven. He's all busted up and poisoned and all you can worry about is exposing him to Sora. It's not your secret to tell."
"You're surprisingly protective of Ven. Going from Roxas to Ven huh?"
"Fuck you Riku. I'm speaking for Roxas. If he was up, he would have said the same thing. I'm getting my attitude together Riku, now you need to work on yours. Stop being a dick to Ven."
Riku just snorts in annoyance. "I'm going to bed."
"Wait a second. How is Sora doing?"
Riku pauses. "...He's asleep right now. It seems like his fever is going away though."
"Good...and by the way..." Axel glances over at Riku slyly. "Why do you smell of cum?"
"Because I jerked off. Aren't you strange Axel. I didn't know you were smelling me so deeply." Riku smirks at him. "Maybe Ven isn't the only one who's gay around here."
"You know the funny thing is..." Axel sneers. "I can't help to smell it because my nose is just that sensitive. Hell I wish I didn't have to smell it. But this time you smell a bit differently than usual."
"You don't smell anything different. You're imagining things you creep." Riku walks out of the room quickly.
Axel slowly looks back down at Roxas, his nose twitching a bit. Riku can say what he wants but...Axel is sure he smelt something strange. It was true that Axel smelt Riku's normal scent when he usually...pleasures himself (Not that he wants to smell that but his nose knows what sex smells like so it's easier to sniff those body fluids out)...but this time he smelt something else...
He just can't really say what it is.
"How long will Ven be out?" Sora rubs Ven's hand between his own. His brother doesn't react at all, nor can he sense anything from their link.
"A few days. He was poisoned pretty good." Axel covers Roxas with more blanket when he started shivering.
"I can't believe there was a monster strong enough to poison Ven and to cause this much damage to Roxas..."
"There's a lot of dangerous things out there."
Sora watches Axel stroke Roxas's cheek before he smiles. "...You two seem close again...even now your link feels a lot better."
"Yeah we made up." Axel has to look away from those blue eyes that shine like stars at the news. "I guess I should thank you. You had a part in it, from looking so miserable all the time. Roxas came to be first."
"Miserable all the time?"
"Yeah you've been looking pretty bad recently. Everyone's been worried about you...especially Ven and Riku. They're always talking about it. Seriously any conversation I had with Riku or Ven, you would be brought into it somehow."
"...I'm just tired is all. I'm really happy that you two made up though. Now you don't have to be in pain anymore." Sora smiles down at Ven, giving his hand a squeeze. He wonders if Ven knows the good news? If not Sora will have to fill him in as soon as possible!
"You're getting sick too. You better take care of yourself. Roxas, Riku, Ven...hell even I care about you a lot. So do a better job and watch over your health."
Sora blinks. He didn't think he would be getting a scolding from Axel of all people. He can't help to chuckle, his chest feeling warm.
"I'll do better Axel."
It's been about a week since Sora had that freak out and Riku...helped him. He hasn't seen much of Riku because of training and then Riku being on missions. Sora has been getting increasingly anxious the more he doesn't see him. What if Riku doesn't like him anymore? What if he's mad at him?
That was a pretty strange thing that happened. It's almost like it was a dream, it was so surreal. The pleasure, Riku's touch, his uneven breathing...
It's real and it happened. Sora feels like they need to talk about it.
So today, instead of waiting at home for his brothers to return from their missions, he sneaks out and heads to the universe with their cave.
Sora blinks when the sand has already been moved, revealing the stairs. Was Riku expecting him? Slowly he makes his way down the stairs and to his relief he sees Riku with his back to him, messing around in the treasure box.
"Hi Riku." Sora waves timidly.
"Hey Sora. I was just adding some more stones that I got from this last mission." Riku turns to face him, giving him a smile. All the worry Sora was feeling melts away and his eyes brighten.
"Really?! What kind?" He rushes over and sits next to his friend.
"This time I found these stones that look ugly on the outside but if you crack them open..." Riku opens up the rock with his bare hands, showing the purple crystal inside. Sora gasps. "They're actually pretty. They're called genomes."
"Awesome! Riku you find the coolest stuff!" Sora starts to open up all the new stones, squealing in delight at all the different colored crystals he's finding.
"...Hey Sora?"
"Yeah?" Sora pauses, a part of him freezing up as well.
"About what happened a week ago..." Oh no this is it. "If it happens again, and you can't handle it...you can always come to me."
"Huh?" Sora looks at Riku with wide eyes. "You would do that again?" Riku's face gets a little red and it looks like he's about to glare at him. "I thought you were disgusted by me." Sora averts his gaze.
"No of course not. It was all pretty shocking but...you seemed pretty freaked out. So if that happens again i'll help you. I don't think you're disgusting."
"You're so nice Riku...I'll try to make it so it doesn't happen but to know you'll be there if I need you...makes me feel a lot better." Sora plays with his shoe, not able to look at Riku. "...Does it get like that for you?"
"...No. I have to say I don't think that was normal. It looked like you were having a panic attack along with it."
"It's wrong to be like that isn't it? I just couldn't control my body and it scared me."
"There's nothing wrong with it. You're going to get aroused Sora. You're an Occisor going through puberty. It happens."
"So it has happened to you Riku?"
"Yes. Not so much like that but yes it's gotten like that."
"And you take care of it like...that?"
"Yeah."
Sora rubs his arm. He feels a warm hand on his shoulder. "Just relax next time and do what I did. If that doesn't work...Just call for me."
There's a throb between them. Their link has just gotten stronger. It felt stronger after last week but now it's like those words just sealed it.
"I will. Thank you Riku." Sora gives his friend a smile. At looking at Riku he looks a little unsure but when he sees that smile, he smiles right back.
"Lets go home and play a game Sora."
"Okay!"
I made a mistake last time. Ven is now 130 years old. I had said he was 1200 in the last one. I added an extra 0 by mistake. Thanks for the reviews! Till next time!