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The phone rang a couple more times before my mama's voice appeared on the other end. "Donna?" she asks. "Is everything okay?"
"Mama," I say biting onto my lip.
"Jordyn," she says with surprise. "Is it you?"
"Yes, Mama," I say with a soft smile and tears in my eyes as I hear my mama's voice. I see her face instantly. Memories of my childhood come back to me when I spent time with her and she would tuck me into bed, read me stories and when she would play games with me. "It's me."
"Jordyn," she says and I can hear the tears of joy in her voice and then silence on the other end.
"Mama? Are you there?"
"Yes, I'm sorry," she says. "It's just I have waited so long for you to call me. Your dad wants to talk to you too. Can I put you on speaker phone?"
"I'm not ready to talk to dad yet," I say, "I just wanted to talk to you first."
"Okay," she says as I hear her crying into the phone.
"Mama, I'm sorry for what I have done. I am really sorry."
"Jordyn, you already apologized and we forgave you. You don't have to apologize."
"I do have to apologize because I now realize that all you and Dad wanted was the best for me. You guys did everything you could for me and I never appreciated that. You deserved a better daughter and I am sorry. I should have done a better job."
"Jordyn, that was in the past. We didn't know how sick you were. Now we know that you were sick mentally and that you thought differently than us. We should have done more to help you and I apologize, Jordyn."
"Mama, I'm sorry for everything. I was upset with you for so long because I felt like you didn't love me, that you didn't care about me but I realize that you loved me so much and you did care about me. I was upset you sent me here to Tampa and didn't let me stay with you and Dad in Phoenix."
"I know, Jordyn. I understand that. We didn't send you away because we don't love you. We sent you away because we had to and because we love you. I honestly believe that if you stayed her so close to Jonah's dad and so close to your old life that you would fall back into that life, that you wouldn't be successful in your sobriety and we would lose you to the streets again. I know you were upset with us but it was the hardest decision we had to make. Sometimes the toughest choices are made out of love. We wanted to see you start a new life and get a new start. While you were here everyone knew of what you had done and everyone knew your past we thought it would be best if you went somewhere far away where you could start new and no one knew who you were. We did it because we love you."
"I know, Mama. Thank-you," I say with a smile. "I think that coming to Tampa has been the best decision I have taken my entire life. I love it here. I don't have many friends just a couple but I love it here. Jonah loves it here."
"I'm glad that you're happy, Jordyn."
"Me too," I say, "for the first time in a long time I can say I am truly happy with who I am and everything I have done. I hated myself for so long but now I truly love myself and who I am. It took a long time to get here but I got here."
"That's wonderful, Jordyn. I'm glad," she says. "How is school going?"
"Great," I answer with a smile. "I work really hard. I'm just trying to get my degree so I can be a drug and alcohol counselor. I want to help people like people helped me get my life together."
"That's great," she says, "and Jonah, I bet he's getting big huh? I heard he is 3 years old now."
"Yes," I say with a smile. "He just turned 3 he is my entire world. He is so smart, Mama and he's a great kid. He gets along with all the kids at daycare and he loves his cars. He's my boy, my number 1 guy. He's the reason I wake up every day and keep going. His smile just melts my heart. He's everything, Mama."
I can hear her smile through the phone. "I know," she says. "I have seen him he is adorable. He looks just like you did when you were his age. I hope to see him in person some day and at least meet him. I want to see how great of a kid he is. You're doing a good job with him, Jordyn. You sound like you're a great mom."
"I try to be the best mom I can be. It's hard work juggling between work and school but I manage with a lot of help from Nana of course and from Tayla and Roman. They help me out a lot. He is a very loved little boy. And maybe one day you will be able to meet him. I would like that."
"You would?" she asks.
"I would," I say. "I would love for you and Dad to meet him. You haven't seen him since he was a baby. He has grown so much since then. He would be so excited to meet you."
"Jordyn," she says and I can tell she is fighting back tears. "Whenever you're ready we're ready."
"Okay, Mama," I say. "How are you? How have you been?"
"Just living life with a senior in high school," she says. "it has been a busy year and Sicily is the last one left in the house but she is leaving in August to go to college. Your dad and I might actually move to Florida after she moves out. We don't need this big house anymore with all of you gone and living your lives elsewhere."
"What about when everyone comes home for the holidays to see you and bring their kids? I know Ben has 3 kids, Chelsea has 3 kids, no one knows how many kids Josiah, Kaylee and Sicily will have but I promise Jonah is going to be my only child. I think you should keep the house in Phoenix."
"We will think about it but there's no reason for us to be here anymore."
"Okay," I say with a shrug. "And Dad, how is he?"
"He's doing pretty good," she answers. "He's been working with Cody in their gym doing a lot of training. I think he misses the business sometimes. He was talking about going back for a little bit but he loves making his movies too."
"He wants to get back into wrestling? Is that good for him?" I ask.
"He's still in pretty good shape. I'm sure he could handle another run."
"Are you okay with that?" I ask.
"Yes because our whole marriage I have done nothing but support him in his dreams and his goals just like he has supported me. That's what a marriage is all about loving one another endlessly, selflessly, supporting each other and building each other up. One day when you get married you'll understand that. I love to see your dad happy doing what he wants with his life that means a lot to me."
"I see," I say with a nod. "Does Dad hate me?"
"Hate you?"
"Yes, I know I let him down when I ran away. I know I let him down after I turned to drugs and had a child at 15. I know I let him down."
"He doesn't hate you, Jordyn. He wants the same thing I want. He wants you to be happy and successful. He wants to see you sober and healthy. He loves you so much," she says. "He just wants to see you doing better and living a life that makes you happy. He holds nothing against you. He loves you."
"I love him too," I say. "I miss you two. I miss you two a lot."
"We miss you," she says making tears burn my eyes. "Do you want to tell me about Seth?"
"Seth?" I ask as I feel my cheeks turn a light shade of pink.
"Your boyfriend?" she asks.
"Yes it is Seth. He's a great guy. I love him and he's great with Jonah which means a lot to me and he treats me well. He's good for me, Mama."
"I'm glad. Does he make you happy?"
"Very," I say with a smile. "You and Dad will like him. Nana loves him. He's just a great guy. He doesn't do drugs, he's sober, he's really into being healthy and he's training to be in the WWE. He's in developmental now so it's only a matter of time before he gets his call. He's good, Mama. I did good."
"I'm glad," she says. "Are you ready to talk to your dad yet?"
"Not yet, Mama. I'm not ready."
"I understand."
"Thank-you," I say. "Mama, I love you."
"I love you too, Jordyn. Thank-you for calling me, I really enjoyed talking with you and I enjoyed hearing from you. You made my day."
"I'm glad I did call you," I say with a smile. "I'm going to let you go so I can go spend some time with Jonah and then go out on my date with Seth. "I'll call you again soon."
"Okay, Jordyn. Bye."
"Bye, Mama," I say before we hang up the phones. I take a few minutes to get myself together after talking to my mom on the phone. I enjoyed it. It felt good to talk to her again and I hope that I can find a place for her in my life and Jonah's. I'm still nervous about it but I would really like to have a relationship with my mom. This is just the beginning of building my relationships with my family again. One step at a time like my therapist suggested. I can only handle fixing one relationship at a time. I put the phone back on the hook as I stand up and make way upstairs to spend the day with Jonah.
Later that night after Jonah is with Tay and Roman I get to enjoy my night with Seth. Seth and I go out to dinner at a nice restaurant that serves Indian food and then we go out to dance club to dance. I never knew he was such a good dancer until we were out on the floor dancing together. His hands all over my body, our bodies grinding together, making out on the dance floor. It is a great kid free night and a good time to be out of the house. When we are done at the club we go back to his apartment to hang out and watch movies but I really want to talk to him about my past. "That was fun," I say as we walk into his apartment.
"It was," he says shutting the door behind him. "Come here," he says pulling me into his arms and pressing his lips against mine. I part my lips granting him access to my mouth. I moan into his deep kiss as his tongue caresses mine with soft licks and deep thrusts of his tongue. I play with his ponytail as he kisses me senseless. His hand slides down to the small of my back sending electricity as his skin touches mine, pulling me closer to him, kissing me deeper. "I love you," he whispers against my lips.
"I love you too," I say with a smile before he kisses me again.
He breaks the kiss leaving me breathless and I need to catch my balance as he lets me go with reluctance. "Are you thirsty?"
"Can I have some water please?"
"Sure, Baby," he says before he walks toward his kitchen. "Get comfortable. I'll be in shortly," he says. I make my way to his living room and take my heels off as I sit down on the couch. He has a pile of DVD's sitting on the table and I start to look through them as he gets my water.
"Ghostbusters 1 and 2, Breakfast Club and St. Elmo's Fire," I say as he comes into the living room with two bottles of water. "You've got some classics here."
"Some of my favorites," he says as he hands me a water bottle.
"Thank-you," I say. "I never knew you were such a good dancer," I say as he sits down next to me on the couch.
"I've learned a few moves or so," he says with a smile.
"You learned a few moves or so?" I ask. "My sister is a crazy good dancer and you could probably take her in a dance battle. You're gifted."
"Thanks," he laughs softly as I lean into his side and rest my head on his shoulder as he wraps his arm around me. "How was your day today?"
"It was good. Jonah and I spent the day playing together. We made a couple crafts, played some games and went on a nature walk. He enjoyed it. It tired him out so I am sure he is sleeping well for Tay and Ro tonight."
"That's good. Sounds like you two had a fun day."
"We did. I talked to my mom today."
"You talked to your mom?" he asks.
"Yes and it went very well. It felt good to talk to her again. We ironed some stuff out it's a growing relationship."
"That's good," he says kissing the top of my head. "I'm proud of you."
"Thanks," I say. "Seth?"
"Yeah?" he asks as he plays with my damp hair, combing his fingers through it relaxing me. "I think you and I need to talk about something."
"You're not breaking up with me are you?" he asks. I can hear a bit of panic in his voice. "Because I don't think I can let you go."
"No, Seth I'm not breaking up with you. However you might want to break up after I talk with you and I would completely understand."
"This sounds serious but I don't want you to ever think that I would break up with you for something you tell me or talk to me about."
"You don't know me like you think you do," I say. "There's stuff about me that you don't know that you need to know for us to move forward in this relationship. I don't want to keep it from you anymore and I have to tell you. If you leave and don't want to see me again I understand but I need to tell you about who I used to be and the story of Jonah's sperm donor."
"Okay," he says, "I'm listening, Baby. You can tell me anything," he says. "And I mean anything."
*A/N: What did you think of JOrdyn's talk with her mom? Do you think there is potential there for them to have a relationship again? Why is she not ready to talk to her dad yet? What did you think of Jordyn asking if her dad hated her? What did you think of JOrdyn's and Seth's night out together, did they need it? What do you think of Jordyn getting ready to tell Seth about her past? Do you think Seth made her feel comfortable? How do you think he will react? Please review and thank-you for reading.