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"You know how Roman is telling you I'm such a bad person and that I'm not good for you and telling you that you should stay away from me?" I ask as I look up at Seth and he looks back at me with his beautiful dark brown, loving eyes.
"You know I don't care what Roman says. I love you and I'm not going to stay away. I don't think you're a terrible person at all. Why would I ever just walk away or stay away from you because me to?" he asks.
"Because he's right," I say. "I had a pretty rough past and he knows me from my past because he used to date my sister and our families are pretty good friends so he knows a little bit about who I used to be and some of the things I have done that I am not proud of but he knows all about it. And when I tell you your opinion of me might change and you may not love me anymore or want anything to do with me and if that's the case I will understand. It will suck but I'll understand."
"Jordyn," he says, "Look at me, there is nothing that you can tell meRoman tells that will make me change my mind about you. I know we have all done things in our past that we aren't proud of but the past has nothing to do with the present or the future. The past shapes us into the people we are today and we all learn something from our past. I'm sure you learned a lot from you past but I want you to know I am not going anywhere no matter what you tell me so just tell me, Jordyn."
"Okay," I say letting out a deep breath I was holding. "Here goes. When I was 14 years old I thought I knew everything. I thought I was an adult and thought I knew what I wanted in life. I met a man that was 35 years old and I thought he loved me. He seemed like a pretty good guy. My parents obviously didn't approve of him and forbid us from having a relationship. They threatened if they caught us together again they would call the police on him and have him arrested. Being young and stupid because at 14 even though I thought I knew it all I was really stupid. I thought Kris and I were in love. I thought he truly loved me and I loved him. He promised to take care of me and give me a good life. He said when I turned 18 we would get married and have a great life together. He talked me into leaving with him and running away from home to be with him. He promised me so many things and I believed him. He told me he loved me," I say with tears in my eyes, "and I went. I went with him. I ran away from home and from my family. Kris promised me so many things that never happened. Things started out all right and I thought that life was going to be great with Kris but shortly after that it turned into a hell I wish I never had to live. I thought he was a good guy I really did but he wasn't. He turned out to be the worst guy that I ever knew. He forced me into shooting up heroin and helped me get hooked on it. He made me dependent on him. He was abusive and beat me around whenever he felt like it. I tried to leave one day and he caught me trying to leave and he beat the shit out of me. He threatened me that if I ever tried to leave again he would kill me and then he would kill my family. I was scared to leave because I didn't want him to kill my family because even though I thought I knew more than them I still loved them. I wanted to go home so badly but he wouldn't let me. He held me prisoner, shooting me up every day, multiple times a day until I needed a fix and I was addicted. I needed to get high. I needed my fix and the only way I could get it is if I worked for him. I was desperate enough that I would do anything to get that fix. He put me out on the streets to earn the money and earn my fix. I slept with his friends and strangers to help pay his debts, pay for his drugs and whatever else he wanted me to do. I did it so that I could get my fix. He had men rape me and he would video tape it. He would always watch and when they were done he had took his turn. He would give me drugs so that I would be sedated to do whatever he and his friends wanted to do with me. I thought I would build the strength to leave but I couldn't. I needed him. I needed my fix. If I disagreed with anything he told me I took a beating whether it was with a belt or some other type of weapon he could get his hands on. He beat me into submission. He had me dependent on him. He was the devil and he was the WORST man I had ever met and I wasn't his first victim. He had tons of other girls out on the streets but he always told me I was his favorite, that I was the best. He talked me into leaving so that I could go to my sister Chelsea. I had to pretend that I was leaving him and I wanted help because I knew she would help me because that's the kind of person she is and she did. She allowed me to stay in her home, Kris wanted me to rob her blind and I did. I took cash, credit cards and debit cards. I took jewelry and anything of value and I was back with him again. While I was with him I had gotten pregnant with Jonah which is why I had Jonah when I was 15 years old. I wasn't ready to be a mom but I fell in love with the idea and I waited 9 months to hold my baby in my arms. I went to the doctor to make sure everything was all right with the baby throughout my pregnancy but when I went into labor Kris wanted to deliver the baby. He had to deliver the baby. He didn't want him. He always called him the bastard and told me the moment we found out I was pregnant that he didn't want the baby and that we weren't keeping him. I thought he would change his mind but he didn't. He tried to make me miscarry when I was pregnant by beating me up but Jonah held on. He survived every punch and every kick in my stomach and there were plenty. I was for sure I was going to lose the baby but I didn't. It pissed Kris off even more. He fed me drugs and kept pumping me full of drugs so that I would miscarry the baby that way but every time we went to the doctor the baby was doing well and it didn't look like there were any abnormalities," I say as he looks at me intensely listening to every word not interrupting me. I continue on with my story. "The time came for me to deliver the baby and I did. Kris delivered him for me. Jonah was the most perfect thing I had ever seen in my entire life. He was everything to me. I named him Jonah after my favorite bible story from when I was younger and I knew the moment I saw him he was a Jonah. Kris allowed me to hold him for a couple minutes before he was ripped from my arms and given to the man that bought him."
"He sold your son?" he asks.
"Yes," I say. "He sold him. He didn't want him. He told me the next time I got pregnant he would beat me until the baby was gone because he didn't want any more babies. He couldn't have any more babies. I hated him even more in that moment because he took my son away from me and didn't give me the chance to be a mom and he was going to put me back out on the streets. When I was healed enough and after I did his little scheme of robbing my sister and her husband I went back to him but being home made me want to go home again. I wanted to go home and I didn't care what I went through to get there and I did. I tried to leave and he caught me and he beat the hell out of me. I was pretty close to being dead in fact I was inches away from dying, I was stabbed, cut, beaten, raped and left for dead but for some reason I made it. I was being wheeled into the hospital on my death bed and my sister Chelsea was leaving after her prenatal appointment and she saw me. It was like fate. It was crazy fate and my family had found me again. My mom and dad came to the hospital EVERY day to be with me and watch me so did Chelsea. Kris made a couple attempts to end my life while I was in the hospital until Chelsea made the nurses and everyone aware he was not allowed in my hospital room or to see me. They couldn't pin my attack on him. He had an alibi he was just too good at hiding evidence, I learned that in my time with him. He had done A LOT of things that I saw. He was a fucking criminal. When I was released from the hospital my parents put me in a rehab facility so that I could get the help that I needed so that I could get over my addiction. I spent 3 months in rehab trying to get myself clean. I managed to get myself clean. I did it for Jonah because I had hope that I would see him again. I did it for me because I wanted to be something more. I have been sober for 3 years and I am damn proud of myself. It has been a battle but it has been a battle I continue to win. It's still a battle today but you have to keep fighting and I do every day."
"Wow," he says. "I had no idea."
"I'm not done. Fate hit again shortly after I was out of rehab. We were at the hospital because Chelsea had just given birth to my niece and nephew. We were in the hospital room and the news came on talking about them catching Kris and that he had been watched for months and was finally caught in his crimes. And the man that bought our son, well my son, was a cop and they were looking for the mother. I couldn't even believe it. It was a miracle. They promised I wouldn't be in any trouble they just wanted to reunite the baby with his mother and we were reunited and it was the best feeling in the world. That's when I decided I needed to get my GED, go back to school, go to college so that I could give Jonah a better life. It was the best day of my life when they gave my son back to me. I never thought I would see him again and I am grateful that I see him every day now and everything I do is for him. I made the choice to allow Roman and Tayla to take care of him for me until I got myself together and until I was ready. The hardest part after rehab was facing Kris in court. I had to testify against him. I was granted immunity and my testimony got him sent to jail for the rest of his life. He's been in jail for 2 years now and that's where he is going to stay. My parents thought it would be better for me to come to Tampa to live with my nana because I needed a fresh start and a new beginning. They were right. I really did and in the last 3 years my life has changed so much. I am so proud of myself. I have worked so hard to get here and my life is finally going where I want it to go. I came here, got my GED, I'm going into my 3rd year of college and I'm raising my son. I've come so far so yes I was someone that I hated. I hated myself and who I used to be and if you want to walk away you can. I'll understand. I know I have a lot of baggage and I'm probably one of the worst people you have ever met," I say before he interrupts me.
"Marry me," he says.
"Um.. what?" I ask in shock. "Did you just say what I think you just…." I start to say before his lips are on mine and he is kissing me softly, deeply with a burning passion passing between us. I wrap my arms around his shoulders as he wraps his arms around me.
"Marry me," he says against my lips, "be my wife, I love you, Jordyn," he says before kissing me again as he lays me back down on the couch.
"Seth," I say pushing at his shoulders. "Stop, let's reverse for a minute." He sits up straddling me looking down at me with so much love and appreciation in his eyes I can't help but to smile. "What did you say?"
"I asked you to marry me. I asked you to be my wife," he repeats himself. "Say yes, Jordyn."
"After everything I told you, you want me to be your wife?"
"Jordyn, you're one of the most amazing women I know and I love you. I love everything about you. I love how far you have come since 3 years ago and I love how you survived circumstances you never thought you could. I love that you're intelligent and I love that you're an amazing mother. I love that you are amazing, strong and beautiful. Hearing your story made me love you more, not less. God, I am so in love with you, I just want to make you mine forever. I love you Jordyn," he says with so much passion and love in his voice my eyes burn with tears.
"I love you, Seth," I say with a smile. "I love you," I say.
"So you'll marry me?" he asks.
"Are you serious?" I ask. "You want to marry me?"
"Yes, Jordyn," he answers. "I want to marry you."
"Okay, I want to marry you too someday BUT I want you to ask me the right way. I want you to ask me in some romantic way not after you hear my story of the past. I love you, Seth. And I would love to marry you. I want to be your wife more than anything but right now let's just focus on this relationship as it is we have a long way to go before we get married."
"It can be a long engagement it doesn't have to be tomorrow or next year it can be 5 years from now whenever you want it to be but I want you to marry me and I'm asking now. It's not romantic and it's not elaborate but I love you, Jordyn and I love you even more after hearing your story. I need you in my life and I want someone as strong as you by my side the rest of my life. I don't have to wait 3 months from now or a year from now to know that I want you as my wife. I know now that I want you for my wife. I love you so much, Jordyn, I love Jonah and I want us to be a family. Will you marry me?" he asks me again. "Please. We can work on everything else but please will you marry me?"
"Seth," I say as he takes my hands into his lacing our fingers. I don't know what to say. I'm not sure I am ready for all of this. Everything moved so fast. I expected a reaction to my story but this isn't the reaction I expected. Of course I want to marry him. I know he's the one for me. "Yes, I will marry you," I say with a smile. "I'll marry you."
"Thank God," he says with a smile. "You had me nervous. I love you, Jordyn."
"I love you too," I say with a smile. "But I don't want to get married until after I graduate college and you get into WWE."
"Deal," he says with a smile before he kisses me again.
*A/N: What did you think of Jordyn's story? Do you think she had a rough life? Has she come far in the last couple of years? What do you think she learned from her past? What did you think of Seth's reaction? Were you surprised when he asked her to marry him? Is it too soon or do they both realize they are the right one for each other? Can you know you want to spend the rest of your life with someone so soon in a relationship? Are you surprised Jordyn said yes? Do you like their agreement of when they will get married? Do you think Seth could ask her again in a more romantic way or was this way just fine? Do you think they can get through everything together? Please review and thank-you for reading.