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"So you're going to Arizona?" asks my Grandma as I am in my room packing for our trip to Arizona to see Jonah's dad.
"Yes," I say.
"Why, Jordyn, why do you want to go back there and see the man that brought you so much pain?"
"It's something I have to do for Jonah," I say. "I can't risk him seeing that monster or having to see that monster. This is what Kris wants and this is what I am going to do."
"You're taking a risk, J you've been doing so well. You have built your life up from nothing. You came here to make a better life for yourself and leave the negative behind you. You're doing so well, your son is happy and healthy, you're working, you're in school, you have a great boyfriend everything is going well for you so why would you go back to the place to see that person that took almost everything from you including your son. Remember when he sold your son?" she asks.
"I know, Grandma but I am doing this for Jonah. If I go to see Kris then he will sign his rights away and we can continue on with the adoption if I don't do this I risk the courts making up their mind about what's best for my son. I know what's best for him and it isn't going to see his monster of a sperm donor. He is no father to him and he never will be."
"I just don't think this is a good idea. Are you going to be okay facing this man again? You went through a lot with him and I don't want to see you fall back because all the bad memories of what you went through came back."
"I won't, Grandma. I want him to see that he didn't win, that he took nothing away from me besides I am not going to see him alone. Seth is coming with me and Miguel will be there too to make sure everything goes smoothly as well as the guards to the prison will be there to make sure Kris stays in line. He can't hurt me anymore, Grandma unless I allow him to hurt me but I won't. He can't hurt me anymore," I tell her. I understand her worry. She has the same worry as Seth and my mom. None of them think going to see Kris is a good idea but they don't understand that I would do anything to protect Jonah from a life of having to see the monster that helped create him in a prison and allowing him to have some type of influence in Jonah's life. Jonah is three years old and he is impressionable. He knows life as it is and he doesn't need anything interrupting his reality. "Everything will be fine," I say, "I promise."
"Okay, Jordyn," she says. "You have always been like your mother," she says.
"What does that mean?"
"It means you're just like your mother. You're as stubborn and strong-willed as she was. There was a time she didn't run from her problems, she tried but she would face them head on if she needed to and she did. Your mom has always been a fighter and she has always been strong. I admired that about her. She went through a lot before she met your dad and even in the beginning of their relationship they went through a lot and before you were born they faced some issues much like you but your mom never stopped fighting. That's why she opened a number of shelters for women that have been abused and created a safe place for them. She took her life and made it into something good to help others."
I smile and say, "that's what I am hoping to do. When I get done with school I'm going to help people. I'm going to help those battling with addiction by being a counselor and not only that but I want to open shelters or halfway houses to help addicts that have gotten clean and are out of rehab so they can get back on their feet again. That's my goal. I just want to use everything I have been through to help others. Addiction is becoming an epidemic around the world so many people are dying from drug overdoses and losing their life to addiction. I want to be able to help someone, tell them my story. I am thankful every day that I am alive after what I went through. I didn't think I would. I also want to help young girls get off the streets and get back into school, to help the girls that were put out at a young age and not just young girls but older women too. I know it's going to be dangerous but I want to help people with my past."
"Jordyn, I don't even think you realize how much you sound like your mom right now and I love to hear what your goals and dreams are. I'm proud of you, Jordyn. I couldn't say that enough."
"Thanks, Grandma and the only way to win against my past is to show my past that it didn't win that it didn't destroy me but made me stronger," I smile.
"That's true," she says with a smile. "Have you talked to your dad yet?"
"No," I say, "I was planning on doing that in Arizona. I think that when we talk it should be done face to face not over the phone so I am going to wait until I get to Arizona."
"I think it's good that you two do talk. And Chelsea, are you going to talk to Chelsea?"
"I don't know, Grandma going to Arizona in the first place is a really big step on my part. I'm not sure what I'm going to do just yet."
"I think it would be good if you two formed a relationship I mean after all she's married to a wrestler and you hope to be married to a wrestler someday too. I think you two can bond over that."
"We'll see," I say, "so there is something else I wanted to talk to you about." I say closing up my suitcase and taking a seat on my bed. I motion for her to sit down on the bed next to me.
"What's wrong, Jordyn?" she asks.
"I wanted to talk to you about something," I say.
"Are you pregnant?" she asks right away.
"No," I say. "I'm not pregnant. I'm on birth control."
"Okay," she says, "so what's going on?"
"Well, after we get back from Arizona Seth and I are planning on moving in with each other. Jonah and I will be moving into Seth's apartment when we get home."
"You're moving out?" she asks and I can see the hurt on her face. "Why would you move out?"
"Well, our plan was for me to move into his apartment with him over the last couple weeks but things with FCW becoming NXT he is going to be traveling to Orlando every day not to mention traveling with WWE in a couple weeks to get prepared for the big time. He was debating if we should just move to Orlando or stay in Tampa but he decided to stay in Tampa with the hopes of us moving to Iowa someday."
"But why are you two moving in together and Iowa?" she asks. "You would move to Iowa?"
"Iowa is up for discussion. Seth doesn't want to live in Florida the rest of his life. He wants to go back to where he's from. I'm not sure if I want to move to Iowa or not we have to discuss it but that wouldn't be for a couple years. As for us moving in together we're doing it because every night he's either here or I'm over there. I think it would be easier if we just lived together not to mention I think you need your house to yourself. You kept me here long enough and helped me out. It's time that I go out on my own."
"Jordyn, you know I don't mind helping you out or mind having you and Jonah living here with me. I have enjoyed it. I allowed your sister Keilani and her son to live here for a while. I'll do the same for you."
"I know, Grandma but I'm ready to move in with Seth."
"Are you sure you're ready for all of that? I mean you have it made here. You live here rent free, you don't buy your own groceries other than what you get in your benefits and you don't have to pay any utilities. You have it made here."
"I know but I think it's time I moved out you deserve to have a life too one that doesn't involve having a rambunctious three year old running around your house or an 18 year old cramping your style. Plus Seth and I are planning on getting married after I graduate from college in a couple years. We just want to live with each other because we enjoy being together."
"I can't say that it doesn't hurt my feelings, Jordyn. I love having you here and I have loved having you here for the last 3 years. How are you going to get by?"
"I don't know. I'm going to help pay toward the rent and some of the utilities. I know it will be tight for a little bit and I will have to manage my money but I think we can do this."
"Don't you think this whole thing with Seth is going way too fast?" she asks.
"I think it's going at the pace we want it to. I don't think we are going too fast at all. I know he's the one and I love him a lot."
"If you feel like you're ready to move in together. Your dad is probably going to have a fit," she says.
"Um, from what I heard he and my mom didn't waste much time moving in together. I remember Nonna was pretty upset that my mom moved in with my dad and never graduated college. At least I'm going to finish school regardless."
"I can't stop you. You're 18 years old and have been emancipated for three years. I can't stop you from making the choices that you want to make. I just hope that you're making the right choice."
"I know I am, Grandma. So I'm right my mom and dad moved in together shortly after the started dating?"
"Yes they did," she says. "But I wouldn't use that on your dad when he disagrees with your choice of moving in with Seth."
"I won't but it shouldn't matter to him what I do at 18. Seth is a good guy and he will see that in Arizona."
"Are you and Seth staying at your parents' house while you're there?"
"Yes," I say, "Mom said it would be okay."
"That's going to be an interesting experience."
"I know," I say, "so are you okay with us moving in together?"
"I just want you to be happy, Jordyn. If that makes you happy then you do what makes you happy but just know that if things don't work out you always have a place here with me."
"Thanks, Grandma," I say with a smile. "I love you."
"I love you too, Jordyn," she says before giving me a hug. "I'm so proud of you."
"Thank-you," I say with a smile.
Later that evening I am at Seth's apartment ready for our night together before we head to Arizona in the morning. I place the homemade spaghetti and meatballs onto plates for us as I hear him walk in the door. He appears in the doorway of the kitchen with a smile on his face. "Something smells good in here," he says.
"I made us dinner," I smile as I go to greet him before I am cut off by my 3 year old son.
"DADDY!" he yells as he runs in front of me to Seth. I smile as Seth scoops him up in his arms and kisses his tiny cheeks.
"Hi Buddy," he says with a smile. "How are you doing today?"
"Good," he answers him with a smile. "Me have an airplane," he says showing Seth the airplane I bought him while we were at the grocery store picking things up for dinner.
"I see that," he says as he looks at the tiny plane. "You're going to be on an airplane tomorrow morning are you excited? You get to fly past the clouds and over all the buildings."
"Yeah," he says with a smile. "We fly high."
"We will fly high," says Seth with a smile. "Hey, Babe," he says to me with a smile.
"Hey," I say as I greet him with a soft kiss on the lips.
"EW!" says Jonah. "Why you kiss mama?" he asks Seth.
"Because I love her," answers Seth with a smile. "And we always kiss girls that we love."
"I love Mama!" he says.
"I love you too, Baby," I say as he reaches for me and I take him from Seth and he gives me a kiss on my cheek. "How about you go put your airplane in your bedroom and go to the bathroom to wash your hands to get ready for dinner. I gave you your Batman plate and cup."
"Okay, Mama," he says before I put him down. He hurries out of the kitchen to put his airplane away before he goes to the bathroom.
"That should buy us a few minutes," I say with a smile before Seth takes me in his arms and kisses me the way he always does with a deep passion and with loving strokes of his tongue against mine as I play with his ponytail. "You're sweaty," I say as we break the kiss.
"You're complaining?"
"No it's pretty hot. How was training today?" I ask him as I go to wash my hands at the sink to finish setting the table as he joins me to help out.
"It was exhausting. I did a lot of strength and conditioning today. I love the Orlando gym. It's sweet."
"I bet," I say with a smile as we finish setting the table. "Are you ready for this coming week?"
"I guess," he says. "Is your dad going to be cool with me coming to visit?"
"He'll get over it," I say.
"I'm nervous. Your dad is Batista, Evolution Batista, The Animal," he says. "I'm dating his daughter."
"As long as you treat me right and don't treat me badly you'll be all right. My dad isn't this big scary monster I promise. He is actually a pretty cool guy."
"I hope he's cool with me. Maybe I should stay at a hotel the first night since you two need to talk things out."
"No, my mama is already expecting you. You're staying at my parents' house."
"Okay," he says as he tries some of the spaghetti. "This is amazing!"
"Thank-you," I say with a proud smile. "It's a family recipe straight from Italy. It was my Nonna's great, great grandma's original recipe we have had it in our family for years."
"It's amazing," he says with a smile. "You made this from scratch?"
"Except for the pasta, wait until I have more time and don't have a three year old at me feet as I cook. You'll be surprised at my skills."
"I can't wait. Are you going to cook like this for me every night?"
"As much as I am able to," I say with a smile.
"I hope so. When I am out on the road full time and I come home I will love a home cooked meal there's nothing better than a woman that knows how to feed a man," he says making me smile.
"I guess," I say with a smile as Jonah comes running into the kitchen to take his seat at the table as Seth and I sit down with him.
I stop Jonah and Seth from digging into their plates to say a prayer when I finish Seth is looking at me. "Look, I know you don't believe in God and are an atheist BUT my mama is very religious especially after everything she went through so we do say a prayer every night. Just bear with us okay?"
"Look, you have your beliefs and I have mine. I know you believe in God and credit God for everything that has happened in your life that's cool but I'm not into the God thing or the religion thing. I don't believe in Heaven or God or any of that stuff but I will respect you and your beliefs."
"I respect your beliefs too but I wouldn't start by telling my parents you're an Atheist. It may not turn out well."
"I won't, not yet but what are you going to do if we have kids?" he asks.
"Why are you talking about this in front of Jonah?" I ask him.
"Are we going to raise them to go to church, to believe or not believe I need to know these answers."
"What do you want Seth?" I ask. "How would you like us to raise our kids?"
"You have a baby?" asks Jonah.
"No, Sweetie," I say shooting Seth a look. "So what would you like or how would you like for us to raise our kids?"
"I don't know, Jordyn. How would you like to raise our kids?"
"I believe it is open for interpretation. I'm not saying shove religion down their throats and tell them they have to believe in God or to have them baptized or dedicated. I'm just saying let them think for themselves and have their own beliefs. I will talk about God and you can talk about what you believe in. As they get older they can make the choice to follow a religion or to be an Atheist. It's their choice."
"Okay," he says, "I'm sorry."
"It's fine," I say. "I just want to respect my parents you know? It's been a long time since I have seen them and I just want to impress them to see that I am a good person now and I am a better person than I was."
"If they can't see that then they are blind, Jordyn," he says making me smile. "But I will respect your parents and their beliefs this week."
"Thank-you," I say. "I just hope to make it through the week. It's been a really long time."
"I know but I'm sure everything will go well. This will be good for you and your dad so that you two can get some time together and it is good for Jonah too. Everything will be fine I promise and as for the other thing you won't be alone and I will be right by your side. I promise."
"Thanks, Baby," I say giving him a soft smile.
*A/N: What did you think of Jordyn's talk with her grandma? Do you agree that going to see Kris is a bad idea? Are things moving too fast with Seth? What did you think of her grandma's reaction when she told her she and Jonah were moving out? Do you think her grandma and her are really close and it hurt her grandma in some way? How do you think their trip to Arizona is going to go? Do you think everything will be worked out with Jordyn and her dad? Do you think Batista will like Seth? Please review and thank-you for reading.