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I arrive at the Mexican restaurant Chelsea and I are having lunch at a couple minutes early so I wait outside for Chelsea to arrive. Chelsea and I have had a crazy relationship. She hasn't always been my favorite but I do love her. There was a time she helped me out a lot when I needed it and I thanked her by stealing from her, it was Chelsea that found Roman and Tayla for me when I needed their help with Jonah. I couldn't have found them on my own so if it wasn't for Chelsea Jonah would have ended up in the system and I could still be fighting to get him back. Growing up it was hard to live in the same house as Chelsea there was no denying that she was our dad's favorite. He claims it isn't true but it is true every one of us saw it. He spent more time with her, building her up to be the ballet dancer, the actress and the model she was. He was very invested in her and her career until she reached her downfall of becoming anorexic at the tender age of 12 due to striving to be perfect and she encountered bullying because of her celebrity status. She was living in a looking glass if you want to call it that, every flaw and every imperfection seen by the world. She slowed her career down after her time away and focused on going to college to be a dance teacher. She didn't want to be famous all her life, none of us did except for Ben. We drifted apart over the years but now it's time to work things out, talk it out and act like we are sisters because after everything I have been through I learned you need your loved ones and family the most.
Chelsea pulls up in her black SUV and gets out of the car wearing sunglasses. I feel completely underdressed in my jeans with holes in them and my Guns 'N Roses tank top with my dark hair pulled up into a ponytail as she wears a yellow sundress, sandals that match, with large sunglasses and her dark hair pulled up into a bun. "Hey," I say.
"Hey," says Chelsea with a smile. "I'm sorry I'm late."
"I'm sorry I am underdressed," I say with a smile.
"No," she says, "you're not. I wish I was in jeans. I just came from a meeting to put Liberty and Langston into preschool," she says. "Sorry, I didn't have time to change."
"Oh okay," I say. "Which school are you trying to get them into?" I ask as we walk into the restaurant.
"Only the best preschool in Tampa they have been on the list for 2 years now," she says, "we finally had our meeting with them today. I don't know if they are going to take Langston but Libby is a shoe in candidate we are just waiting for the call from the school that she got in and she will be on the list next year."
"Oh. I just send Jonah to some pre-school here in town. I didn't know preschool became like college," I say with amusement. "I mean does pre-school really have that much impact on a child's future. I mean does getting into the best pre-school make a difference? What's so special about that school?" I ask before I answer the hostess that there are two of us and she directs us to our table. Chelsea and I are seated before we continue our conversation. I didn't know pre-school was really a big deal these days.
"They have one of the best academic and music programs in the country," she says. "They will receive a higher education here."
"They're 3," I say. "I think kids should be kids and enjoy pre-school going to centers, learning the alphabet and coloring. I don't think it should be like a mini college that's why we are different plus I need to do what Seth and I can afford."
"I understand," she says as she takes off her sunglasses. "I just want the best for my kids." And there was that high ended attitude she always had like her children are better than Jonah or even better than anyone honestly I don't think Libby or Langston are that special to be honest they are average kids just like Jonah. They deserve to be kids and have fun I wouldn't dare tell her that.
"I know," I say, "me too but I just think the best thing we can do for our kids is love them and support them through everything. I just want Jonah to be a happy and healthy kid. He doesn't need to go to a prestigious private school like we did. I hated it."
"You got kicked out in kindergarten," she reminds me, "and then Mama home schooled you."
"I know," I say, "but the short time I went I didn't like it and I don't want to put Jonah through it. He'll go to public school."
"He won't get the best education in public school," she says, "you should really look into private schools around her and with Seth getting into WWE you should be able to afford it."
"I'm just fine with Jonah in public school," I answer as the waiter comes to take our drink order.
"So how have you been, Jordyn it seems like a while since we actually talked. We have grown so distant it feels like I don't even know you anymore."
"Well, I'm doing all right. I'm in my junior year of college and I am living with Seth," I answer, "what about you? How are you doing?"
"I'm doing pretty well," she says, "Life is so crazy with Libby and Langston though. I don't get too much time to do anything and with Cody gone most of the time I feel like a single parent most of the time."
"Is it tough to be married to a wrestler?"
"You remember how life was when Dad wrestled, he was gone for days at a time and home a day or two before he was back on the road. It can be stressful and it puts a lot of strain on a relationship then you throw in the ring rats which makes it even harder. You have to be secure of your relationship. I have gotten used to Cody being gone so much. I've learned to live our lives together through video chat and through phone calls. Cody misses a lot of the kids' activities and misses a lot of time with me but he's doing what he loves. I love that most because he is happy. You just learn to live that life and work through it. It's hard at first but it gets easier. Worried about Seth going out on the road?"
"Yeah kind of, I'm worried about him not being home as much how's it going to affect Jonah and how is it going to affect our relationship. Our lives are about to change and I don't know what I'm doing. I watched Mama do this for years but I never thought I would be a wrestler's wife. I tried to steer myself another way but Seth was worth it."
"I never thought I would be either," she says.
"You dated other wrestlers before Cody remember Drew?" I ask.
"You remember that?"
"Of course no one could forget it you were going to marry him," I say with a smile.
"Yeah and I saw his true colors and broke up with him."
"That was right before I ran away," I say as the waiter brings us our drinks and takes our food order. We both decide on tacos and when the waiter leaves we gain our privacy back. "I'm sorry for everything Chelsea."
"Me too," she says. "I am sorry I ever doubted your ability to stay clean and sober. I should have had a little more faith in you."
"I know you were trying to help me and you wanted to be there for me. I'm sorry I stole from you and Cody. I promise I will pay everything back to you someday. I owe you that much."
"You don't owe me anything. Everything you took can be replaced and has. It is all materialistic. You can replace the things but not the people. I know we drifted apart over the last few years and I wish we hadn't. I wish we could have stayed close and got closer. If you wouldn't have made it after Kris beat you up I would have been devastated. I will admit that at first I was upset you stole from me and I was upset that you left. I was trying to help you but then I saw you in that hospital bed, lifeless and hanging onto life and I hated myself for even thinking I could hate you for what you did. I know you needed help and I am glad you got it, Jordyn. We can't change our past and we can't change the things we have done but we can grow and become better than we used to be. I know you always say that I think I am perfect, that I am better than everyone but that's not true. I know I'm not perfect, Jordyn. I have my flaws too. I'm far from perfect. If I was perfect I never would have stopped eating and I never would have tried to cut myself. I never would have done that. If anything, Jordyn I wish I could be more like you. I wish I could be like you."
"What do you mean by that? All these years I wished I could be like you. I wished I could be Chelsea just to get half the attention you did from Dad."
"You're fearless, Jordyn," she says with a smile. "You always have been. You've always been fearless. You're a wild child but you're fearless. You don't care what anyone thinks about you. You don't care about pleasing people. You care about what makes you happy. What gives you joy. You don't care. You take risks and you live life to the fullest while I sit back worrying about what people think about me, how I look and I am scared to take risks. I just want to make people happy. Look at you with Jonah. You don't care about a prestigious private school or giving him the latest fashion like I do with Libby and Langston," she says, "you're fearless, you're one of the strongest people I know, Jordyn. You have been through hell and survived. You fight every day and every day you win because you're a warrior," she says making me smile. "You're a fearless warrior."
"I have just learned that the only person that can make you happy in life is yourself. It's great to have a son and a boyfriend and friends but at the end of the day the only person whose opinion truly matters is your own. I learned that there is no need to be like anyone else or please anyone. You have to live life for you. Having Jonah and Seth make my life worth living, waking up every day, life is too short to not take risks. I would rather say I tried then wonder what if. The struggle and battle of addiction is one of its own. Every day is a battle, every day is a struggle. You fight yourself every day you fight to stay strong, stay sober. Stress and pressure helps lean you toward drugs. You can't live life giving a fuck what people think of you, you can't live thinking you need to be better, that no one loves you or that you are loved by many. You have to take every day and make it the best, be better than you were the day before. It's a struggle but I fight for Jonah. I fight for Seth. I fight for myself to stay happy, to stay healthy. I know Jonah needs me and I know Seth needs me and I could never screw that up. I wish I hadn't screwed up so much in the past but that's over. I am different now. I am a better person. I just want to make things right with everyone, be a better person to everyone show them I have changed."
"You have, Jordyn," she smiles. "You have changed, you have proven you're different. Look at you. You're raising your son, you're in a committed relationship with a man that loves you and respects you. You're happy and healthy. You are doing so much better and I am proud of you. I just want to forget everything that happened with us in the past, put it behind us and move on. I want to have a relationship with you. I want to have that sister relationship with you and be best friends. Plus our kids are the same age. I think it would be good for them to hang out and have fun together."
"I agree," I say. "Jonah would love to have playdates with his cousins and would love to see his Aunt Chelsea on occasion and I would love to be able to have my big sister to talk to. Besides I think I am getting married soon. I want you to be part of the wedding if we have a big wedding."
"You're getting married soon?" she asks as they bring our food.
"I think so. Seth is up to something I don't know what it is. He's being really secretive lately; him and Jonah they have some big secret going on. I don't know and now Seth wants to go away for a weekend before he goes out on the road. I don't know something is up. I think he's going to ask me to marry him soon."
"That's awesome, Jordyn. Are you going to say yes?"
"Um yeah. I love that man with everything inside of me. He's been my best friend for so long. I want to be his wife so badly and he has been an awesome dad to Jonah. He's awesome. Of course I am saying yes," I smile.
"Awesome," she says. "So are we good?"
"Yes we're good," I say with a smile.
SETH's POINT OF VIEW:
"Yes," I say to the man on the phone as I am making arrangements for mine and Jordyn's getaway weekend where I am going to propose to her. "I want this be perfect. I don't care what it costs. I need this to be a moment she will never forget."
"I understand, Sir," he says. "We have you booked on our private part of the Keys. Your meals are planned and your special night is planned. Would you like a bottle of champagne included in your night?"
"No," I say as Jordyn comes in the door from having lunch with her sister. "My girlfriend doesn't drink. If you could email me the rest of the details that would be great."
"I can do that, Sir," he says. "Enjoy your day."
"You too," I say with a smile before I hang up the phone. "Hey, Beautiful," I say to her as she appears in the living room as I am sitting on the floor hanging up my phone.
"Hey, Sexy," she says to me as she takes a seat next to me. "What was that about?"
"Just making some arrangements for our trip, we're going to the Keys. Are you okay with that?"
"As long as I get to spend time with you I am okay with it. I don't care where we go as long as I am with you," she says taking my hand into hers. "You know I can't wait to be married," she says shocking me. "What about you?"
"It will be nice that's for sure," I smile. "One day we will be married when you get out of school or whenever you're ready."
"I'm ready now," she says.
"And what about school?" I ask.
"I can be married and in school," she smiles as she rests her head on my shoulder. "It's not a big deal."
"But what about planning a wedding, won't that take some time."
"You know how unconventional I am right?" she asks. "Who said we needed to plan a wedding maybe I just want to get married in some courthouse with my best friend and our son," she smiles making me smile. "Maybe that's what I want. Do you honestly want a big wedding?"
"I don't care what we have as long as I am marrying my best friend but I haven't even asked you to marry me. Why are we talking about marriage and a wedding?"
"Because I like to think about my future with you and you and I both know that I am almost finished with school and the way we always discussed it was that I would be getting married to you shortly after I graduated so I know you're going to ask me soon or maybe I'm going to ask you. I don't know."
"J," I say with a smile. "I'll do whatever you want as long as whatever we have lasts forever and we have a couple of kids."
"Kid," she says, "I still only want one more kid for now at least maybe a little girl. I love my son but I hope for a daughter."
"Me too," I say with a smile. "I love you, Jordyn. How did lunch go?"
"I love you too and it went great. Chelsea and I are good now. We are going to try to get the kids together. She was talking about putting her kids in some prestigious preschool and private school. Are we doing the right thing with Jonah by putting him where he is?"
"Jonah is a smart kid and he is a great kid. He doesn't need a prestigious private school. I think we are doing the right thing with him. I don't think he would be happy in a prestigious private school."
"Yeah me either, I didn't like it too much I got kicked out in kindergarten."
"My little bad ass," I say with a smile. "How did you get kicked out of kindergarten?"
"I was a bad ass little kid, I hope you're ready to have kids with me because our child will most likely be a challenge."
"Jonah isn't a challenge," I say as I lace our fingers together.
"He is an exception, Chelsea wasn't either but I was the challenge. I didn't like the rules. I still don't like the rules," she says. "I have been a wild child my whole life and I am bound to have one like me."
"It should be an interesting future, Jordyn but I wouldn't want to spend it with anyone but you. And now that I think about it, I think that a ring would look beautiful on this finger right here. I'm going to need to put one on it soon," I say with a smile.
"Define soon," she says.
"Soon," I laugh before I kiss her lips softly, "soon and I am going to love forever with you my wild child and the wild child we create and our little league superstar," I say with a smile before I kiss her once more I have always loved her wild child, rebel spirit since the day that I met her.
*A/N: How did you think Jordyn's lunch with Chelsea went? Were you surprised that Chelsea always envied her sister? What do you think of them putting everything behind them to be close again? What did you think of Chelsea's confession to Jordyn? Do you think Jordyn should doubt herself and what she does with Jonah? What do you think Seth will do when he proposes to Jordyn? Do you think they will have a big wedding? Please review and thank-you for reading.