This is Harley Quinn's point of view.
"Clear!" The doctor said as she revived me.
My eyes opened and I sat up in the hospital bed I was in. My head felt fuzzy and my left arm was screaming in pain.
Where am I?
I looked over at my arm and it was bandaged with gauze. The gauze were stained with blood.
"Miss, how are you feeling?" The doctor asked.
"Bad" I said.
"You were dead for three minutes" The doctor said "Your arm was pretty cut up. You nearly cut your hand off"
"I need to leave" I said.
"Well, actually I want you to stay over night just in case-" I cut her off.
"I'm leaving!" I said as I walked out of the room.
Dead for three minutes? That's crazy. All I saw was darkness. It's probably because I don't exist. Only real people are welcomed into the after life. I found Ivy in the waiting area and when she saw me, she hugged me.
"Harley, I'm glad that your ok but I had no idea you were feeling this way" Ivy said "I love you so much. You know that right?"
"I know" I said "I didn't mean to hurt myself so bad. I just needed to feel something. I feel so numb all the time. I needed to remind myself that I'm real."
"Your definitely real" Ivy said "Your the realest person I know"
"Can we go home?" I asked "I feel weird, probably because I died for three minutes."
"You died?" Ivy asked. The look on her face was a mix of sadness and guilt.
"Yeah but I'm gonna be more careful from now on" I said.
"Harls..." Ivy said as we walked to the car. "I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore."
"I don't know why it even matters" I said.
"Why would you say something like that?" Ivy asked "It matters because you matter to me"
We got in the car and started driving home.
"You've been so quiet lately" Ivy said "I try to talk to you but you don't respond. I try to get you to eat and you don't do that either. You won't leave the house and you won't tell me what's going on with you"
"I wanna tell you but I feel like you wouldn't understand" I said.
"Either way, if something is bothering you then we should talk about it because it's obviously effecting you negatively and I hate watching you hurt yourself" Ivy said. "You can talk to me, Harls. Your not alone."
"It's stupid" I said.
"It's not stupid if your hurting yourself because of it" Ivy said.
"I've been feeling different lately..." I said "I feel like I'm not even here."
"What do you mean?" Ivy asked.
"I'm not real" I said "Your not even talking to me right now. Your talking to yourself."
We arrived at our house. Ivy looked me in the eyes and said "Your real. I'm not talking to myself"
"I feel real sometimes but the feeling doesn't last long." I said.
"You really feel like your not real?" Ivy asked "What does it feel like?"
"It feels like nothing" I said "Most of the time I don't feel anything."
We both got out of the car and went inside. Once we were inside, we sat on the couch. Ivy pulled me close to her and we cuddled.
"So you hurt yourself because you wanted to feel something?" Ivy asked.
"Yep" I said.
"So why aren't you eating?" Ivy asked.
"What's the point?" I said "I don't exist"
"You do exist" Ivy said "I've been dating you for a year now. Am I just dating myself?"
"Maybe..." I said "It's hard to explain. Maybe I'm a figment of your imagination or something. I don't know how to explain it but it's how I feel"
"It's ok. It just seems so unreal" Ivy said "What did the doctor say?"
"I didn't hang around to find out" I said "It doesn't matter anyways. They can't make me exist"
"Well don't you still feel love for me?" Ivy asked.
"Of course" I said.
"Doesn't that make you feel real?" Ivy asked.
"Sometimes" I said.
"What can I do to help you feel like you exist?" Ivy asked.
"I don't know" I said "You do enough already. I need to help myself"
"By hurting yourself?" Ivy asked.
"Yeah" I said.
"Do you even think about how that makes me feel?" Ivy said "I was so scared when I found you covered in blood. I didn't know if you were gonna wake up or not..."
"I didn't mean to almost kill myself" I said "It was an accident. It won't happen again."
"It's still not healthy" Ivy said "You shouldn't do it at all. You could cut too deep on accident again."
"I need to do it" I said.
Things got quiet. A few moments later, Ivy decided to break the silence.
"I need you" Ivy said "I really do even if you don't exist. I love you no matter what"
"I'm sorry that I'm so crazy" I said "I wish I was normal"
"I love you for who you are" Ivy said "There's no need to apologize"
"I'm gonna try to not hurt myself but sometimes I can't control myself" I said.
"I'm always here to talk if you need me" Ivy said "Even if I'm asleep or I'm not home, I'll get up or come home just to talk to you. Your important to me"
"It helps to know that you care about me even if I'm not real" I said "Maybe I'll be less worried about it."
"I hope so" Ivy said.
I wanna continue this but I guess it depends on if anyone likes it and the chances of that are low for many reasons. I'm a bad writer is the main one.