Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
A/N: Sorry, I'm busy with my personal life at the moment, but I'll get back to 'Never again' in few days.
I had written this story a long time ago. Thanks for reading!
EPOV
I pulled Tanya closer and kissed her.
I had to do it because I knew she was watching me.
"I hope you know what you're doing," Tanya said and shook her head.
"I know what I'm doing." I said.
I had to do this for Bella to hate me from the bottom of her heart. It'd be easier for her that way. I believed she hated me already, but it was too soon. I had to give her more reasons to hate me! It'd be better for her to forget everything that way.
"Bella and I? No, I was never serious." I pretended to have a conversation with Tanya on phone. I knew Bella could hear me.
"Everything is crazy here, Tanya." I continued, "It just... It was just a fling, but then she got serious about it. I didn't know how to tell her the truth, but I guess it's not required anymore. "
"What the hell did you just say?" Bella turned around and asked.
"Oh Bella... You're here." I said, pretending to be surprised. What the hell was I doing for God's sake!
"What the hell was that?" she said.
"I... I'm sorry." I said, "I didn't mean it to happen this way."
"You're lying." she said.
"I am not." I said, "I'm sorry for lying to you earlier. I didn't even want to start it, but I couldn't resist the attraction I felt towards you. It started as a casual fling, but then you got serious. I didn't know how to let you know the truth without breaking your heart."
"You're disgusting." she said.
It should never have happened.
I should not have fallen for her.
I should not have let her fall for me.
But she could move on, right?
I mean, we had just two months long 'relationship', and she had known Jasper for all her life. She was going to marry him! She would have never fallen in love with me if Jasper's accident had never happened!
It must be so difficult for her at that moment. The least I could do was to try and make some efforts to make it easy for her. I could at least put some efforts so that she could forget me as the worst mistake of her life! I was sure she'd move on.
I should have thought more before falling in love with her.
And how could I do that to Jasper? What would have happened to me if Mom and Dad hadn't adopted me? How could I do this to their own son?
"I'm telling you again." Tanya said, "You're being an idiot."
No, I was not. Look at everyone having fun in this party! They were so happy that Jasper was back. I was happy, too. I was really happy that he was back; it's just that I didn't know how could I explain to my heart that I needed to forget Bella.
She would be happy with Jasper. Look at them! It seemed they were having a playful conversation. Well, only Jasper was laughing! I could sense the sadness in Bella's eyes even if she was pretending to smile, but may be because it was too soon? It was just two weeks since Jasper was back. We were still processing it, we were still getting accustomed to his state of partial amnesia and learning about how to handle it. I couldn't even imagine what Bella was going through right now, but I was sure her sadness had nothing to do with me!
Then suddenly Jasper pulled her closer and kissed her passionately, and I felt like someone stabbed me in my heart all over again!
