A/N: Sorry it wasn't up yesterday, found out my little sister. (well not by blood but whatever). Well her dad is getting 'pissed off' that ever since I took her and my four brothers camping that shes becoming someone totally different and gay and 'boyish'. And he's been my friend for like. Four years. So I was just super livid that he doesn't want me hanging out with her. He never had a problem before, i take her to school functions, help her with homework... when i understand it anyway. Watch her on weekends and even weekdays when he is busy. She's thirteen. She's becoming herself, I have not done anything. But typical straight guy attitude. Blame the gay kid.

This. Coming here. It was hard to do. Hard to stand on this porch, and had taken Regina a good twenty minutes to even start contemplating if she had the strength needed to lift her fist to knock upon the wood of the door. However, she had known, down to her very soul, that she loved Emma. And that she would do anything it took to win her back, so in the end she had found the courage to knock.

"I got the door" Shouted out a voice that the mayor had never heard before. A female voice. More so. As the door swung open it revealed an attractive woman that Regina had never seen before. This woman blinked at her, smile on her face. Before saying "Hi there! What can we do for you?"

The first thought that came to mind was that this woman needed to die a painful, humiliating death for daring to be anywhere near the woman she loved. However, her second was that she had, obviously, gotten the wrong house. Henry wouldn't have sent her here if she had moved on? Right? She certainly hoped not.

"I'm. Well I believe I have received the wrong house number. Perhaps you could be so kind as to help me. I am looking for Emma Swan" Regina barely managed to get the words to form, her mind was too preoccupied on why her son would have given her the wrong address. He was a smart boy, he didn't make mistakes like this.

"Oh! You've got the right house!" Those were not the words she wanted to hear. "Sure thing I can get her for ya, just one moment Miss" The lady turned around so she was sideways. Looking down the hallway of the house. "SWAN" She bellowed. "Come out, some lady's looking for you"

Panic settled into the pit of her stomach. There was a woman at Emma's house. Who was obviously very comfortable, too comfortable, there. Her thoughts were swirling, all focused on this random attractive woman that quite possible was Emma's shiny new wife. One who wouldn't fuck up everything just like she had. She was frozen, but all she wanted to do was race away.

Even if only back to a town that still tormented Ruby daily. They had given up tormenting Regina on a minute basis when Ruby had basically kidnapped her in her own house. It had been, surprisingly, Charming who had noticed something was wrong when driving past her house. Ruby had tied her to a chair and was trying to shove a potion down her throat.

The wolf had been jailed for a month before being released. Now everyone blamed the obsessed wolf more than Regina. Who they all viewed as a weak woman. Not that they were wrong, Regina had figured out why she had truly done it for so long. Years of abuse and knowing things would go wrong had conditioned her into ruining things herself, before anyone else could.

She would never make the same mistakes again. Regina didn't want to return yet, but, the mere thought of Emma with someone else. It hurt. What hurt most of all? Was knowing that she deserved so much more pain, knowing she had caused even worse pain, knowing that she had no right to be hurt. Not anymore.

"Three five year olds do not a fun time make! Especially ours!" Was grunted. Ours? Regina's eyes widened. Were they in such a commitment they were sharing children? Not to mention. That voice was the very one she had longed to hear for far too long. "Like. Sheesh. Monkeys!"

"Carter! Paris! You know better, get off Emma right this instant. Dian, you too. All three of you know better then this!" The woman said sternly. A trio of groans were heard as heavy steps came towards them. Dread spread through the queen chest, she was still unable to run away. But she was not ready to know the truth of this woman's relationship with her true love.

Now more than ever before she wished she could time travel. To go back to before the wedding. Tell her past self all of what had happened, beat her into the right kind of thinking if she had to. To do whatever it would take to keep herself from doing such a vile, evil thing to the woman she loved. To fix everything before it was too late. With that said, she knew, that was impossible. Even with magic.

"So, what can I do for ya thi-" Emma came to a fast, whiplashing even, halt as she realized just what lady was standing on her front porch. She'd swung the second door open to reveal Regina in all of her glory. She was stunned for a moment before "Regina" Was stated breathlessly.

"Wait? Wait! Hold up! As in. The Regina? Your Jenna?" As this strange new woman that Regina immediately hated spoke, pure hatred filled her previously happy eyes. Like a fire. One that Regina wanted to squash by burying this woman alive, slowly. She didn't want this woman anywhere near her love.

Visions of at least twenty different ways to murder the woman before her ran through Regina's mind as time seemed to stand still. She was jealous, even though she knew, deep within the achy confines of her heart, she had no right to be. They were here, standing on this porch, opposing forces, because of her actions.

"Yeah. She. She's Regina" Emma managed to say. Effectively ending the long, awkward, silence. "Lucy. Would you mind taking Rhydian over to Paulie's party with you?" She asked, trying her best to regain her composure. "He shouldn't be here while I talk to her, and, it is probably all done best in private. I don't want him to miss it, in case this takes time"

"Of course, it's not a problem. Just. Swan, please, call me if you need me. Big Paul and Tore won't mind watching our" Regina hated how she said 'our'. "Kids if need be." This, Lucy, said before rounding up the children. Who followed her out obediently. Regina's heart clenched at the sight of Rhydian who waved at her.

Once her car had pulled away Emma had, reluctantly, led Regina inside of her home. No words were spoken as they headed into the kitchen. Where Regina sat and watched as Emma grabbed two mugs, and made them coffee. Her hands shaking the entire time. Then, she sat down at the table. Still unable to look Regina in the eyes. Just stared down into her cup.

"So. What are you doing here?" It was spoken quietly, but loud enough to break the silence. Emma took a sip of her coffee, not able to hide the wince that occurred. It was still too hot, yet, it still seemed less dangerous then the woman across from her. "Before. I. I know Henry told you where I was, so, just don't lie to me" The not again being left unsaid, but deafening even in it's silence.

Even if she wanted to Regina knew, even before that woman had swung the door open that Emma would know who had given her the information. She hadn't planned on bringing the subject up at all, as she didn't want Henry in trouble. Regina was left to only hope that by avoiding any further mention of it that the blonde wouldn't take it out too hard on their poor son.

"Day one. I've. By Zeus. I have wanted to run after you, ever since that first moment. But. I thought you needed me to let you go. I've regretted it. Every second of letting you go. I needed to see you. I don't care about your new. Girlfriend. Please. Give me a second chance. I'll do anything. Just tell me what I need to do" The mayor was literally pleading.

"Huh? Girlfriend?" Emma asked, clearly confused. Face crinkling in that special way that always made Regina smile. As it was simply just too adorable for words to truly describe. "You mean Lucy? No. She's a good friend. Her ex wife." Emma paused. "We share a similar history. Her kids are Dian's best friends. And. Regina. We. We just can't be. You don't love me. And. I can't. I just can't go through that again."

"That's just it, I do love you! I have always loved you. I just. I know it doesn't change what I did. But. I just couldn't believe that you loved me. Please. Please. I'll move out here. We can start slow. Just. Just tell me I have a chance. A tiny flicker of hope. Please. I'm begging you" Regina was right, she was begging. In a way that Emma had never seen before, and it hurt her.

"You may think that you love me, but if you had loved me you wouldn't have done what you did with Ruby. With what I thought was my best friend. Especially not for such a long time. And. Even if I believed that this love was more substantial than a guilty loss. I would live every moment of our time together in a constant fear that the next man or woman that walked by could be the very one that takes you away from me again. That's not good for my son, or myself, or even you. You deserve someone who you can love and trust, someone who can love and trust you. I don't trust you"

That. There were not enough words in Regina's mind to accurately describe how much it hurt to hear the woman she still viewed as her wife say those words. To know. Emma still loved her, but didn't trust her. And from the way she spoke, could never trust her. Regina felt defeated and broken all over again.

Despite the clear rejection she placed zero blame on Emma's shoulders. Because it wasn't her fault. It was all of Regina's. She knew full well whose fault it was. Knew her weakness and stupidity had led them to this point. Knew that had she simply trusted Emma, trusted herself, that they wouldn't be here.

"I was only ever with her because I thought you would leave me one day. I thought you could never really love me like I still love you. I thought that when you left, because I truly believed you would. I could at least pretend that I hadn't loved you either. That way you, and no one else, would know my pain. My weakness" Choked out Regina. Trying not to cry. "I know. I know what I did was wrong, and I know it's unforgivable, but I still have to try. Because I can't stop loving you."

To make matters worse Regina could tell that Emma was choosing her words carefully, because, as always, the blonde was doing her best not to hurt Regina. After everything. After Ruby. She still didn't want to cause her undue pain, even if the pain was overdue. Even if she deserved be drawn and quartered and worse for breaking a woman as amazing as the one sitting before her.

"Alright, let's move forward as if all of this is true, what happens when you stop believing Regina? It would be the same problem, just a new place. A new life. The life I have out here. With him. You know I still love you, and I wish things were different. You can't begin to understand how much I wish I could simply fall into your arms and everything would be okay. Life doesn't work that way though." Regina wiped back tears at Emma's words.

She had spoken softly, never looking at Regina. Her eyes damn near drilling holes into her now near empty coffee mug. Throughout the entire conversation she had never looked directly into her ex-wife's eyes. She just couldn't, she'd glance at her lips, her nose, and her coffee. Never Regina's eyes. And Regina had noticed, and it stung.

"Please. Emma. I know. I know it's hard, but I'll do anything to win your trust. Please. We can be better than we ever were before. I would rather die than ever betray you again. To dare to take you for granted again. I can be better, we can be better. We belong together, Emma, please, tell me you see that." Tears flowed freely down her cheeks at this point.

Hearing the woman she still loved, despite everything, speak like that moved Emma. That was true. More than that it hurt. Like someone skinning her alive. Hearing Regina so broken, so defeated, so sorry. It was killing Emma. She didn't want to hear it anymore, she wanted Regina to be strong. Like she had always been.

Completely defeated emotionally and mentally the blonde let out a long, heavy, sigh into the air. Leaning back and glaring up at the ceiling, avoiding Regina's gaze once more. She ran both of her hands through her hair, hoping for some sort of answer to come. It didn't. But Emma knew this had to end. She knew she could never be what Regina needed her to be, that had been painfully proven.

"Regina. I am so sorry, but, the truth is. Even if you came here it wouldn't, couldn't change anything. We can't erase the past. If I still could, trust me, I would. I wish that I still held that ability. But I don't. And I can't pretend. It wouldn't make either of us happy. So get back with Ruby. Maybe she's your true love. Move on. I know I may not be able to, but that hasn't stopped me from trying. Please, believe me, I wish you all the happiness I could never give you." Emma finally said.

Kicking and screaming would get her nowhere, but Regina wanted to. Desperately. To kick and scream and tell Emma the truth. That they were true loves. However, she knew that information would be more damaging than helpful. That it might actually kill Emma. She couldn't tell her. Not yet. So. She allowed Emma to show her to the door, and she left.

A/N: Sorry again for being late, and the overshare, but, it just pisses me off and it's not worth talking to her dad about. Anyway, leave any thoughts you had.