Arizona is back tonight, so I figured.. Why not update also.
I don't even know what to say... words can not express my gratitude for all the love you have shown me. You guys are amazing.
Enjoy!
Chapter 2
After Callie left her office, Arizona gave herself a few minutes to fall apart before pulling herself back together.
She knew her daughter would be waking anytime and she didn't need to see her crying for a second time today.
She never wanted Charlee to see her or Callie unhappy, but lately she felt it was inevitable and today was no different.
She didn't like for Charlee or Callie to see her upset over this.
So, she had been trying to keep her tough demeanor up in front of her wife because Callie needed her to, but now that she was gone she felt her own heartbreak instead of her wife's.
She hated what this was doing to them.
It wasn't that they were fighting night and day, or even on a daily basis, but it had made each other standoffish at times.
Arizona knew it was stressful on her wife, hell she had taken the shots herself, but she reined in her mood swings most days, however, Callie wasn't able to do that.
The brunette had a lot more on her shoulders than she did when she tried to get pregnant. The added turmoil of not being able to conceive made matters much worse, and in turn it made Arizona's heart ache.
She never dreamed trying to get pregnant again would be such a challenging task for them, but yet here they were.
So, once in a while she would let herself fall apart if only for a minute just like now, but she quickly dried her eyes when she saw her daughter begin to whimper on the sofa.
"Hey, Sleeping Beauty," she rubbed her daughters back as she whimpered while waking from her nap.
As Arizona waited for the girl to fully wake she wondered which side of her daughter it would be.
There were always two sides of her daughter.
Charlee would either hit the floor running as soon as her eyes opened or the shy little lady that would cling to one of her mother's for an hour after waking.
And, currently from the sound of it, the clinger was the one who was waking.
Arizona knew if she was whimpering the latcher was forthcoming, so she thought that maybe a trip to the scrub room to see her mother might break her out of it.
By the time she straightened her wife's office back up and discarded the left over lunch, Charlee was already grabbing onto her leg, whimpering.
"Wanna go say bye-bye to Mommy?" She asked, taking Charlee in her arms.
Only receiving a whimper, she rubbed her back when the toddler rested her head on her shoulder.
She was definitely gonna have to find a way to get her out of this mood because she had errands to run, and she couldn't do that with Charlee acting this way.
"Mommy would probably like to see your pretty face one last time to help her get through the rest of the da. What do you think, Charlee girl?" She asked, walking down the hallway.
"See my Ma," she nodded her head that still lay on her mother's shoulder.
"Oh," Arizona walked into the scrub room and saw two nurses assisting her wife in a surgery. "Who is that?"
"Apes," she saw the redhead standing by her mother.
"And,"
"My ma," Charlee raised her hand and pointed when she saw her mother through the window.
They never hesitated to bring Charlee in so she could see her mother's handy work at times. Callie was very prideful of her job and she wanted her daughter to see the work she accomplished.
"Yeah, that's Mommy." Arizona said in a singsong voice.
Even though she was two years old, she only knew her mother was helping other kids like her, and when Charlee caught her first glimpse of the scene before her she was in awe.
"Save babies,"
"Yeah," she smiled. Her daughter was very privy to what they did. "Doctor Torres," Arizona pushed the button on the intercom and watched her wife's gaze dart up when she heard her voice.
"We love you," she smiled, seeing brown eyes sparkle; a sure sign to Arizona that her wife was smiling at them behind her mask.
"And, I love you two, too," Callie spoked through her mask before glancing back down at her patient.
She hated she left the room abruptly without giving her wife or daughter a proper goodbye.
"Love me?" The girl asked when she heard her mother's voice come through the speaker.
Callie felt useless at the moment, but the one thing that could bring a smile to her face was the sight of her two girls standing in the next room watching her where she was always on her game.
"Charlee Maria," she glanced up to see her wife and daughters' bright blue eyes shining back at her as she took the clamp from her nurse and went back to the task at hand. "I love you more than all the stars in the sky," she held her hand out for yet another clamp as she continued to speak to her daughter. "All the fish in the sea, and all the air that surrounds me," she looked back up to see the little girl listening to her intently. "Mommy's love for you is without end, love bug."
"Always and forever," Arizona finished, as Charlee stuck her hand on the glass windows that was between her and Callie.
"Ma," Charlee reached for the brunette, willing her mother to get her. "Ma,"
"No, Charlee, she is busy saving babies," Arizona pulled stepping back a little from the window. She didn't want Callie hearing her cry for her, it would only make matters worse. "Ma is being a superhero right now."
"Want Ma," she started to pout.
"Don't you want Ma to save babies?" She questioned as Callie and the rest of the room listened on.
"Ma save me," she pounded her hand on her chest.
"No, Wonder Woman," Callie spoke up as images of her daughter flashed in her mind.
Charlee loved pretending to be a superhero especially when Callie would fly her around the house. "You saved me," she looked back up from her task. "You and Mama are my heroes." She winked at her.
"Fly,"
"Tonight, okay. Mommy promises after dinner... we'll fly," she said, eliciting excitement from the toddler.
The two mothers' couldn't help but laugh when the little girl started clapping in excitement.
"I just wanted to drop by before we leave and say, we love you," Arizona spoke up. If she didn't end things now Callie and Charlee would go on and on. "We'll be waiting for you at home."
"Okay," she nodded. "I shouldn't be late, this is my last surgery of the day, and I have a little paper work to finish. I should be home before five."
"Okay," Arizona nodded. "I-I love you, Calliope," she hated announcing it to the whole room. Keeping things professional at work was something they tried to do, but today she just needed Callie to feel it.
"Me too," Callie whispered, clearing her throat before her sadness began to take over. "I'll see you tonight."
"Okay, baby," she whispered knowing Callie could faintly hear her. "Tell Mommy bye," she spoke back up grabbing Charlee's arm to wave at the brunette.
"Bye, my girls."
After leaving the clinic, Arizona and Charlee made a few stops around town before heading to Callie's favorite flower shop.
Arizona wanted to send her wife something to put a smile on her face if only for a second, and she knew Callie always loved when she sent her flowers, so two dozen of purple and white Gerber Daisies were sent to the clinic to let her lover know she was deeply loved.
After finishing her errands, she and Charlee came home and spent the afternoon outside playing with the dogs even after Callie came home.
Normally if they were outside playing when the brunette returned in the evening the latter sought them out, but twenty minutes after hearing her wife's car pull in the driveway Arizona was still yet to see her emerge into the backyard.
She couldn't take her eyes off the French doors of the kitchen as she sat in the grass and tried enjoying the evening as Charlee ran around the yard playing with the dogs.
She had hoped Callie would join them, but a part of her figured she just wanted to come home and not be bothered.
So, she gave her wife time.
Time to change and relax, and just have a few minutes to herself for a while before she and Charlee sought her out.
Callie had to keep herself somewhat together because of work and now that she was home Arizona felt the need to give her a little space before checking on her.
So that's what she did.
She decided to have a little stroll down by the bay with Charlee and the dogs until her little face became red from running around all evening.
Without protest, the mother and daughter made their way inside the house where they sat together at the counter and rehydrated after playing in the summer sun all afternoon until she couldn't wait to seek her wife any longer.
"I think Mommy's home, Princess. Should we go check on her?" Arizona asked after they finished their drinks.
She had gave Callie a good hour of peace before Charlee demanded her attention.
"Where is she?" She asked as they walked through the kitchen and into the family room.
"Ma,"
"Yeah," Arizona confirmed when Charlee pointed at Callie who was curled up under her quilt while quietly watching the evening news on the couch. "Listen," she wanted to inform her. "Mommy isn't feeling the best right now, baby," Arizona whispered as they walked further into the room. "I think you're the only one who can make her feel better at the moment," she whispered in her daughters' ear before placing her down on the floor. "See what you can do."
Charlee walked around the couch only to see Callie wiping away a few stray tears. "Ma sad, Mama?" She glanced back to Arizona who was standing behind the sofa watching every move Charlee and Callie made.
She knew Callie was trying to keep her emotions back the best she could, but she didn't have too. She would suffer those nightmares again instead of having to see Callie fight back her tears.
"Yeah, baby, she's a little sad," she said softly as she hugged her arms around herself while Charlee walked up to Callie and patted her face.
"Ma," the little girl brought her face close to Callie's and whispered. "Ouchie?"
Callie had heard Arizona's interaction with the little girl, but couldn't seem to pull her attention to them until her daughter was inches from her face.
"Hi, sweet baby," Callie couldn't help but sniff back her tears and put forth a smile for the little toddler. As sad as she was at their situation, Charlee could always make her feel blessed. "No, dimples," Callie breathed. The older Charlee became the more prominent her dimples shown just like her wife's, and Callie would call them both that from time to time. "Mommy doesn't have any ouchies," she pulled the cover away to show her daughter nothing was wrong. "Sometimes mommies just have bad days is all," she said, caressing her daughter's face as Arizona leaned on the back of the sofa and watched them interact.
"Feel betta, Ma," she leaned in to kiss her mother's lips.
"Thank you, sweet girl," Callie readily pecked the toddlers puffed up lips when she leaned in.
"Bug make betta?" She asked.
"Yes, buggy," she confirmed. She couldn't get over how sweet their daughter was. "You always make Mommy feel better," she scooted back on the couch in hopes that her daughter would lie with her. "Wanna cuddle with me?"
"Mama make betta, too," she pointed up to the blonde for her to kiss her mommy also.
Every time Charlee felt bad or was hurt both her mommies would have to kiss her until she felt better and she thought the same went for her mother's.
"Of course," Arizona whispered, walking around the couch and kissing Callie's red lips. "I hope you feel better, Mommy," she whispered before placing one last gentle kiss on her forehead.
"Boy," Callie smiled after receiving two heartwarming kisses. "Mommy feels so much better already," she said as Charlee climbed on the couch with her. "Thank you, my girls." She grabbed Arizona's hand and gave her a squeeze before letting go and helping her daughter snuggle in with her.
"We stopped at the grocery store on the way home today," Arizona announced. "I told Charlee to pick out a snack to share with Mommy this evening and you'd be happy to know she chose chocolate pudding and Oreo's."
"Thank you," she whispered placing a gentle kiss on the toddlers' blondish-brown hair. "And, thank you for my flowers," she announced her appreciation for the arrangement Arizona had sent her later in the afternoon. "They were pretty."
"You're welcome, baby."
"Covey," the little girl reached for the quilt thrown around Callie's waist.
"There ya go," Callie said snuggling under the blanket that Arizona had made for her out of her grandmothers old clothes.
This is exactly what she needed right now after this long day. She just needed to have some quality time with her two girls; nothing else mattered at the moment besides her little family.
"Love, Ma?" Charlee pulled back and looked innocently in brown eyes when she asked her mommy as Arizona moved to lay down on the opposite couch.
The little girl quickly picked up on her parents speaking habits.
"Mommy love, buggy," she kissed her daughter's forehead.
"Mama too?" She rolled over so she could see her mother lying on the other couch across from them.
"Of course," Callie reached her hand out for Arizona's as she wrapped her other arm around the toddler buried in her chest. "Love?" she winked at the blonde.
"Yes," Arizona reached her hand out so they were touching each other. "Love!"
"Love, Mama?" Charlee asked seeing her mother's joining hands.
"Love, baby girl," she winked at them both before deciding to come closer to her little family. "Mama loves you," she crawled across the small distance and placed a kiss on the little girls' cheek before settling down in front of the couch beside her girls. "And Mommy," she said then placed another gentle kiss on Callie's forehead. "With all her heart," she said, patting the toddlers' stomach before focusing on her wife. "Always and forever," she whispered, combing her fingers softly through the brunette's long hair as she brought her face closer to her wife's. "We'll get through this, Calliope," she breathed, kissing her cheek.
She wished she could bare this pain instead of her wife. It pained her heart seeing Callie upset over this. Getting pregnant was the one thing her wife had always wanted and it seemed like it was never going to happen for her. "I promise, honey," She rested her forehead against Callie's as the older woman began to cry. "We're going to have beautiful brown eyed babies one day," she quietly spoke, placing soft kisses on her face as she cried.
"It's okay, love," she breathed when she cuddled her as close as she could and let her cry.
She was upset about their circumstances, but she knew it had to be harder mentally on Callie.
It broke Arizona's heart to see her wife upset about this.
"Me promise too, Calopie," Charlee turned in Callie's arms and kissed her cheek when she heard her cries.
Every once in a while Charlee would call her by her full name after hearing her mama's words. Callie didn't like it, but she had a hard time telling someone with blue eyes and dimples not to call her that.
"We love you, so much," Arizona placed a kiss on the same cheek as Charlee, knowing it would get the little girl to kiss her wife again.
"Love you, Calopie," Charlee cooed as she placed kisses on her Mommy's face along with Arizona.
Callie couldn't help but feel a little better with all the kisses she was receiving. These two girls in her life were exactly what she needed to pick herself back up off the floor and continue on.
"My name is Mommy, little lady," she quickly wiped her tears away and circled her arms around Charlee, placing kisses all over her face.
"No, no, Ma, no," she giggled, wiggling out of her mother's arms eventually.
"We're raising one of the sweetest babies, Ari." She genuinely smiled for the first time since getting the test results.
"I know," Arizona watched her run to the toys in the corner of the room before she turned her attention back to her wife still lying on the sofa. "Calliope," she whispered, cupping her lover's face. "Please, baby, don't be sad." She breathed feeling her own tears bubbling up.
"I'm okay," she whispered looking up to her wife's sad blue eyes as she placed her hand on top of Arizona's that was lying on her cheek. "I'm okay," she assured while leaning up to kiss pink lips. "It's hard to stay sad when two of the most beautiful human beings are hugging and kissing on me," she breathed running the back of her index finger along her wife's perfect jawline. "Words cannot express how much my girls mean to me." She spoke her thoughts out loud.
She was so lucky to have such an attentive, caring and loving wife along with the sweetest daughter on the planet. And, with those two by her side she could get over anything.
"But still," Arizona said in a low, sad voice. "It hurts me," She sniffed back her tears.
"Come here," Callie grabbed her hand, and rolled on her back to get Arizona to come closer.
"What?" She quickly dried her eyes and moved to sit on the edge of the couch.
"Here," she patted her stomach. "He-re," she said more slowly, playfully teasing her to understand she wanted her to lay with her.
"Okay, okay," Arizona chuckled, when Callie lifted the quilt up for to crawl under.
Lying partially on her wife, Arizona couldn't help but sigh in content when she laid her head on Callie's collarbone while her wife's wondering hands began to roam up the back of her shirt in hopes of some skin on skin contact.
"How many times are we going to have to try before we succeed at this," she breathed asking herself more than Arizona.
"I don't know," the blonde whispered a reply, loving the warm embrace she was snuggled into at the moment; it was exactly what she needed right now. "I don't know what more we can do." She spoke honestly.
It felt like they had tried everything under the sun to get Callie pregnant and it just wasn't happening.
"Patience," she breathed, slowly running her fingertips over her wife's back as she thought. "It's definitely not my middle name, but I really need to learn it."
"Some couples try for years to get pregnant," Arizona mumbled into her chest. "And go through test after test to show nothing's wrong, just like you."
"And they give up," Callie stated. "And then sometimes out of the blue they have that oops moment," she paused as Arizona began to play with the stitch work of her shirt. "I want that."
"What?"
"That oops moment," she confided in her. "We know it's coming, we don't get that element of surprise. I'm tired of the heartbreak month after month. I want to be able to just enjoy being intimate with you and not have someone standing between my legs trying to get me pregnant. I want you to be the one doing it," She sighed. "I want the fun times of trying."
She could hear the disappointment in the brunette's voice which only made her feel worse. "I want that, too, honey," Arizona lifted her head to meet eyes with her wife. "But, as much as I wish I was at the moment, I'm not equipped with the necessary...tools." She brushed her hair back from her face.
"I know," she groaned. "I just wish we could just do it at home."
"Like with me?"
"We tried once, but..." She shrugged. "I just wish that if we wanted to wake up at three in the morning to make a baby we could. Or, or quickie at work or just some angry sex. The outcome could be outstanding, but we can't have that."
"We can have that."
"Arizona,"
"Let's do it, let's just throw everything away, and just have fun. Every time we have sex, we try," She stated, giving her wife a second to let it sink in. "Well, I mean during that window of course."
"But, we don't..."
"Have enough sperm for that," Arizona said defeated, finishing her wife's sentence.
"Yeah," she slumped down into the cushions further. "I wish we could do it that way."
"We could," Arizona saw the saddened look on her wife's face. "Maybe pick a different donor?" She questioned, lying her head back down on her wife's shoulder.
She and Callie wanted to keep the same donor as Charlee, so she didn't know how Callie would feel about someone different. "It's something we'd have to really discuss."
"I don't know," Callie didn't like the thoughts of their kids not being related. "I like the idea of my biological kids and your biological kids still sharing DNA. I don't want anyone to feel like an outsider, I want everyone to tie into our family."
"I know," She breathed. "I do, too, but you know what?" She pulled back to look down at her wife. "It ultimately doesn't matter if they have the same father or not because in our eyes they'll be one-hundred percent our babies, no one else's."
"Yeah," she gave her a half smile.
"Maybe we can see if the clinic could call the guy again?"
"He didn't want to do it anymore, and I can't blame him," Callie shook her head. "He's in a serious relationship and donating sperm should be the last thing on his mind."
"But..." Arizona didn't want to accept no for an answer. "Money is no object for us. We'll offer him whatever it takes to change his mind. If I was him and someone offered me a thousand bucks to jack off you best believe I'm going to do it."
"Jack," Charlee came rushing up to her parents on the couch.
"Arizona Michelle," Callie's eyes widened, scolding her wife.
"Zona Meshell,"
"It's Mama," she corrected her daughter. "Go find the puppies," she said, wanting Charlee to be out of ear shot of their conversation.
"You know they're just lying on the other side of the couch?"
"Yes, but she'll busy herself looking for them instead of listening to us."
"Charie, Rivey,"
"See,"
"You're terrible," Callie laughed as Charlee roamed around yelling for them.
"So, what do you want to do?" Arizona asked rolling in between her wife and the back of the couch causing Callie to turn and face her. "Seriously, everything is for sale, Calliope," she looked deep into brown eyes.
She could tell Callie wanted this, but felt too defeated to say so.
"I'll call and ask the sperm clinic to make an offer he can't refuse." She spoke up again as her wife studied her.
"We've already spent over a hundred thousand dollars in the past year, Arizona," she shook her head. "We've done almost everything there is; this would be useless as well."
"But, we don't know that, Calliope," she said in a pleading voice. "This way we have no pressure, we can just have fun and try."
"Sounds like you just want any excuse to have your way with me," she stared her down.
She felt this too would be hopeless, and to be honest she wasn't ready to try again, but hearing Arizona talk about it made her slightly excited to just be able to let loose with her wife again. Something she hadn't really been able to do in a while.
Each time she would get implanted, she would refuse Arizona's touch until the blood tests came back, and then after it came back negative, Callie spent another week moping around, so they would have a week of intimacy a month at best.
It was taking a toll on both of them.
This was totally unlike them and Callie was tired of it. She just wanted the sexiness of their marriage back.
"I just want to love you, is all."
"I want to love you, too," the brunette whispered, pecking pink lips that were mere inches from her.
"So,"
"So," Callie paused, searching her wife's eyes. "We're going to do this," she asked, getting a slight smile from the blonde. "If-if we can get him to agree to donate more; we're going to do this."
"I'm sure I can get him to supply a whole houseful of babies."
"You're sure of yourself," Callie chuckled.
"Money talks, Calliope," Arizona stated, brushing her wife's stray hair out of her face. "There's no way he'll turn down my offer. I promised you I'd make this happen one way or the other, and by God," she paused, feeling her own emotions creeping up as she thought of all the hard times they've been through lately. "I'm going to keep that promise to you."
"You're too good to me," she whispered, running her index finger over her wife's bottom lip.
"Nothing is too good for you," she kissed her wife's finger when she pressed it into her lips. "I'm gonna give you the world, baby, I just need time."
"Okay," she nodded.
"Yeah," Arizona couldn't help the bright smile that broke out on her face.
"Yeah,"
"So... I'm going to spontaneously try to knock you up several times,"
"I'm not saying I'll be ready next month, but yeah," She shrugged. She felt they still needed to discuss things further because she needed more than an evening to think about them first. "I feel like I need to be clear."
"About?"
"I think this is it," she admitted. "We can do this for a while and like you said... have fun, but this is it. If it doesn't work I'm not sure I want to try anymore."
"At all?"
"No," Callie told a deep breath. "Just me, I don't want to try anymore if this doesn't work."
"So you want me to?"
"If you want to?"
"If this doesn't work, maybe we'll talk to Addison about implanting your embryo in me," Arizona breathed.
"We'll talk about that if the time comes," Callie nodded. As much as she wanted to become pregnant, she wouldn't mind seeing her wife in that state again. She thought Arizona was at her most beautiful when she was carrying their child. "But for now, I want to focus on us, and just having fun, nothing more. And when we're ready and that window of opportunity is there we can take it if we want too. I just don't want us to stress over it any longer."
"Okay, so when you're ovulating I'll make a trip every evening to the sperm bank." Arizona stated, getting away from the topic of this not working. She didn't want to focus on the negative of it.
"In that window, maybe we just have sex every hour of the day," she teased when Arizona's eyes lit up. She knew it wouldn't really up their chances, but it would be fun trying.
"First off," Arizona corrected her trying to keep her excitement hidden. "I'm all for anything you want, but," she clarified by holding up her finger. "I'm not knocking you up with just quick sex. I'll be taking my sweet time loving you," she whispered, bringing her hand up to Callie's chest and cupping her firm mound.
"I'm all for that," Callie grinned when Arizona leaned in and kissed her nose. "I can already picture day one in my head."
"What's it look like."
"Oh, I see myself screaming your name in bed, the bathroom, theatre room, living room, out back on the lounger and then the kitchen island just for the hell of it."
"Can we add your office at the clinic in on it?" She questioned, receiving a laugh from her wife.
"It could be arranged,"
"My tiger is starting to rear her pretty head," Arizona giggled. Callie hadn't had a huge appetite for sex lately because the unsuccessful times were weighing on her, but now it seemed like she was going to just go with the flow and have fun with it instead of harping all the time. "This excites me to no end," she said, cupping the back of the brunette's head and pulling her in for a tender, yet passionate kiss.
Callie had been hesitant to her touch. She was scared if she had sex something would go wrong, but she was tired of being precautious. This time she wasn't going to miss out loving her wife.
"I'm sorry I've pulled back."
"No," she spoke gently. "Don't be," she knew it was a hard time for Callie and she couldn't blame her for being hesitant in the sex department. "Because I know there'll be a time when you can't keep your hands off me and I'm looking forward to that."
"Maybe we can practice this weekend," Callie chuckled when Arizona gave her a squeeze.
"If you're up for it," she whispered, kissing red lips. "I lov..."
"Canna baw," Charlee broke them of their moment by climbing on the couch.
"Charlee Robbins," Callie gasped looking down at the foot of the sofa where she saw her daughter climbing up stark naked. "Where are your clothes," she laughed receiving a shrug from the toddler.
If Charlee was in the house the moms found it extremely hard to keep her clothes lately. One minute she would be dressed head to toe and the next they would catch a glimpse of her streaking past them in a blur.
"Like mother like daughter," Callie tried to hide back her grin because it usually egged Charlee on.
She had remembered Barbara once told her it was something Arizona used to do when she was little, and now they were reaping what the blonde sowed.
"Don't you do it, young lady," Arizona quipped elbowing her giggling wife; as soon as she heard the words out of her daughter's mouth she knew what she was about to do.
Maybe all of those cannon balls in the pool were a bad idea because they had caught her trying to jump off the couch on several occasions this summer.
"Sí, Mama,"
"Bug, no..." Callie pointed keeping her eye to the foot of the couch where Charlee stood on the arm. She wanted to rise up and grab her daughter, but she was afraid she'd startle her and cause her to fall off the arm. "I said..." but before she could finish the girl jumped in the air and land in between them in a fit of giggles. "No," she sighed.
"Arizona," Callie scolded her wife.
"Don't Arizona me, you do them, too,"
"I keep in the pool."
"So do I."
"Yeah, but I didn't run around showing my goods to everyone in the house when I was little," Callie couldn't help but chuckle as the girl crawled up to them.
"Where are your clothes?" Arizona asked as she snuggled in between them.
"Gone," she rolled on her back and lay atop her mothers and held her hands up. "I nakey," she threw her legs up in the air.
"Do you have to potty?" Callie questioned as the girl wiggled around between them.
"I pottied."
"Charlee," Callie whined knowing that mean she went in her diaper. They had been trying to slowly potty train her, but the little girl wasn't having it right now.
"You can't force her," Arizona laughed when Charlee managed to create space between them and bounced.
"But she did so well before and now, nothing."
"She's only two. She's experimenting, she'll go when she's ready," the mom insisted.
"Me no weady," she crawled up to Callie's face and pressed her forehead to her mother's. "No weady, Ma,"
"You don't even know what it means," she wrapped her arms around the little girl and hugged her tight. "Mommy and Mama love you, Charlee," She kissed the top of her head. "So much," she whispered.
She couldn't be more grateful for her family at the moment. Charlee and Arizona never ceased to make her worries dissipate when around them.
"Alright, nakey girl," Callie let her go. "Go get a pull-up." She pointed in the corner by the girls' toys. "You don't have to wear clothes, but you've got to cover that tooshie."
"No-way,"
"You need to control your child," Callie laughed as she ran around the living room.
"My child," Arizona sat up and watched her daughter run around the coffee table yelling and singing. "So, she's only mine when she's naked and running around screaming?"
"Yep,"
"And whose are you when you're singing and running around here naked?"
"Your sex slave," Callie leaned over and whispered, planting a kiss on the blonde's cheek.
"Charlee," Callie stuck her leg out to stop the girl from passing between the couch and sofa. "Get a pull-up," she pointed towards the stack.
"Nu-uhh,"
"Char, you wanna play catch?" Arizona leaned over the side of the couch and grabbed the bouncy ball.
"Yea," she held her arms out.
"Put a pull-up on and we'll show Mommy how good you are," she waited as the girl ran and grabbed a diaper from the pile. "What?" She laughed when Callie side eyed her.
"You know what," she tried grabbing the ball from her wife, but was unsuccessful.
"Wanna see something hysterical?" Arizona smacked her hand away.
"Bad," Charlee pointed at her Mama when she smacked her mom.
"What?" Callie laughed, helping her daughter into the pull-up.
"I was trying to teach her how to catch earlier, watch," she took the ball. "Char," Arizona waved the bouncy ball at her daughter getting her to back up a little. "Catch," she tossed the ball at her daughter, hitting her in the face causing her to fall backwards to the ground eliciting giggles from the toddler as well as herself.
"Arizona Michelle," she gasped when the thin rubber ball hit their daughter in the face.
"What?" She giggled along with Charlee. "She loves it, watch," she laughed when she brought her the ball back so she would do it again. "See,"
"'Gin Mama,"
"Stop that," Callie watched as the ball smacked her daughter again, causing her to fall to the floor on her bottom. "Oh my, god," Callie couldn't help but laugh when Charlee started belly laughing. "She runs around here unclothed, you're throwing balls in her face," she reached down and picked the ball up again. "We're gonna get the CPS called on us for entertaining ourselves by torturing our baby," she threw it at the toddler again.
"She loves it," Arizona laughed at her daughter rolling on the floor laughing.
"Wait until she starts throwing it at us, it won't be so funny then," she said as Arizona jumped up off the couch and swooped the girl up in her arms before sitting back down.
"Tell Mommy it's funny," Arizona kissed on her cheeks as Callie sat back and watched the two play with each other.
She was sad that they were still unable to become pregnant, but it was hard to stay that way with the sight of her two favorite people laughing.
"Ahhh... My girls," Callie hugged them both close before pulling back and cupping her daughter's cheeks. "You both mean so much to me," she looked her daughter in the eyes. "You know that right," She looked to her wife and brushed the back of her hand against her smooth cheek.
"We know," Arizona took her wife's hand from her face and gripped it. "You and Charlee are my world," she whispered kissing the top of her hand.
"And you are mine," she whispered. "How about an evening swim?" She asked them. "Hmm?"
"Sim,"
"Sounds good, Calliope," Arizona nodded. She was so proud of her wife for not letting herself succumb to her sadness.
"Maybe after we can feed, bathe, and put her sleep, order a pizza and have dinner in bed?"
"Dinner's on me," she winked at her lover.
"Can we have some chips and Oreos, too?"
"Yes, Calliope, we can have chips and Oreos, too," she laughed as the woman rested her head on her sounder.
After swimming for a while, the parents went inside and prepared for their nightly routine of dinner, bath, and bedtime stories. Their nightly habit was one they've come to enjoy over the past few years, and both hated to miss it especially when work called them away.
It was usually Callie that got pulled in since she still worked more than Arizona, but the blonde had had her fair share of nights she had to skip on for a patient.
But, that didn't happen tonight, thankfully.
However, Arizona did let Callie handle bath and story time herself this evening while she cleaned up the downstairs mess Charlee had made throughout the day.
By the time she ordered their dinner and finished restoring order downstairs, Charlee was fast asleep in her mother's arms as she softly sung to her.
Arizona hated to break up the moment, but she was in need of some quality time to enjoy dinner with her wife before they called it a night.
"Thank you for dinner," Callie said as Arizona gathered the half empty box.
"You're welcome," Arizona winked at her as she collected the last of their trash from dinner off the bed. "I'm going to put the left overs up, let the dogs out for a minute before I lock up and then check on our princess before coming to bed. You want anything while I'm downstairs?"
"A bottle of water," Callie leaned back on the bundle of pillows and flipped through the channels on the TV.
"Okay, I'll be a little bit."
"Hey," she caught her before she walked away. "Leave the Oreo's," she grabbed them off the pizza box. "You're dismissed now," she chuckled when Arizona rolled her eyes and walked out of the room.
"I shouldn't be long," she left her wife to herself as she went about cleaning up after their dinner.
Callie hadn't mentioned their outcome the rest of the evening, but Arizona could tell it was still weighing heavy on her wife, so she hurried up downstairs and was back in the room before Callie could miss her.
Or she thought she was until she walked into the room and saw Callie's back turned to her crying.
"Oh, honey," she sighed when she saw her sobbing quietly into her pillow. "No, no, no, no," she repeated, quickly crawling on the brunette's side of the bed and collapsing atop her wife as she enveloped her in her arms. "You're not doing this alone," she whispered as the woman continued to cry. "I'm here," her voice breaking at the sight of her distraught wife. "It's okay," she breathed as she too succumbed to her tears.
Arizona knew they'd get through and Callie would overcome this, but there were going to be times of weakness. And Callie was now trying to silently handle this without burdening her which saddened her.
"We're in this together, baby," she whispered as her wife's tears only fell harder when her arms embraced her.
"It's just... not fair," she chocked out between sobs as her wife consoled her.
There were only two people in the world that could ease her pain right now, and Charlee had done her part, so now it was Arizona's turn and as soon as she felt her wife's touch she lost it completely.
"It's not," Arizona agreed as she cried with her wife. It was painful enough that Callie was having such a hard time conceiving, but seeing what it was doing to her emotionally was killing her. "It's not fair," she whispered, trying her best to soothe her wife's cries for several long minutes.
"I-I'm sorry," she sniffed after collecting herself somewhat. "I tried to get it out before you came back because I don't want to bother you. I can't stand that I'm the cause of your dreams," she mumbled into her pillow.
"No," she stated, partially sliding off her wife so she could see her face. "Calliope, if you're hurting, I'm hurting," she sniffed, wiping away her tear drops. "We are hurting together," she insisted. "Baby, you're not alone in this."
"I don't want you to hurt." She voiced as she continued to fight back her tears.
"I know," she said as Callie wiped her cheeks dry.
"And, I don't want you to hurt over this, either," she whispered while she watched brown eyes shut tight as more tears escaped. "I am here for you," she whispered after giving her wife a few more moments to fall apart again. "That's how this works, love. You hurt, I hurt, and vice versa."
"I know," she wiped her face off.
"We are in this life together; I'm here to shoulder your burden, so please no hiding from me, honey." Arizona said as she caressed her brown hair.
"I could say the same about you," she mumbled, as Arizona brushed her tears away. "I was coming back to my office because I forgot my badge on my desk. And I heard you crying."
"You heard me?"
"Yeah," she whispered, grabbing her wife's hand that was near her face. "I wanted to come in there, but I was barely holding myself together at the time, and I just couldn't let myself go again."
"You were working, you don't have to explain," the blonde whispered while Callie kissed her hand before laying her head on top.
"I'm sorry,"
"I'm sorry, too," she leaned in and pecked red lips before pulling back and laying her head next to the brunette's.
Callie could taste the saltiness on her wife's lips which made her dive right back in and kiss pink lips again and again until she rose and slowly pushed the blonde down on the bed as she began her assault on her wife's mouth.
Neither wanted to stop where this was going, but both knew this wasn't what either needed at the moment, especially Callie.
Arizona was the one to eventually pull in the reigns. "No, Callie," she slightly pulled back when she felt her wife's tears drop on her cheeks. "Not like this," she denied which caused the brunette to let out a deep sigh and drop her forehead on her chest for a moment before rolling over on her back.
Arizona sat up on the bed and hovered over her lover as brown eyes finally met eyes with her again.
She never wanted Callie to feel like she didn't want this, but it wasn't right at the moment. "I want you," she nodded while saying her words. "You know that, right?"
"Yes," she said sadly.
"No more hiding for either of us, okay,"
"Okay," her voice was barely a whisper heard by her wife. She hated that Arizona had hid her grief from her as she felt her wife hated it also, so she wouldn't hide anymore.
They were in this together and sometimes it was hard to remember that.
"Come on," Arizona pulled her shirt over her head and then discarded her bra and pants before lying down beside her wife. "I don't know about you, but I need some skin on skin cuddles."
"Will you scratch my back?" She turned her head to look at her wife clad in nothing except her panties.
"Yes, I will," she waited for her wife to disrobe and snuggle on top of her. "I love you," she purred when Callie laid down on her.
"I love you, too," Callie exhaled as she let herself relax atop her wife as Arizona began to lightly run her fingertips down her back.
"Get some rest, my baby." She whispered as she caressed her wife's back.
