Entry #88

Joy wanted me to settle things with Mabel, but I got so hung up on what I
wanted to say to her that I ended up taking my brainstorming back home.
Hopefully she won't get too mad. I thought writing another entry would help
me gather my thoughts, but so far I still don't know what to say. Coming up
with a speech takes forever. It's nothing like what I say whenever Mabel cries
about a breakup. It took me ages to come up with the right words for those
occasions, but now I have to figure this out in a single day? Who does Joy think
I am? A miracle worker? And if what she says is true, how am I going to let
Mabel know I don't want to do anything too sudden without blowing everything
out of the water? A real friend would never break her heart! I'd be a massive
hypocrite if I did. This is the first step in mending all the mistakes I've made, so
I can't mess this up! But what am I going to do? Maybe a lightbulb might go
off in my head if I just continue to write about other things that have happened
lately.

I guess on the bright side of things, a lot has happened to me, socially speaking.
So far, everyone has responded well after finding out that I was everyone's
guardian angel, but I don't think they're convinced that I have stopped yet either.
One of my professors even exempted me from their final exam! It's not just
because I was doing well in his class, but apparently I stopped his daughter from
choking on a wild mushroom while I was out on one of my morning patrols. My
memory is a bit foggy on what exactly happened, but I'm not going to complain
about it.

It's not all that great though, as having to pretend that there aren't eyes on me
both in and out school is going to be a pain. It's great that everyone thinks so
highly of me, but it's really starting to attract some unwanted attention, friendly
or not. A creepy letter even showed up in the mail recently, probably from some
jealous type. I'm positive nothing bad will actually come out of it, and if it does,
I'm sure they'll understand that I wasn't doing it for glory. It's best to just wait
until everything passes, and also make sure I don't do anything flashy again.
Despite all the bad things, I can safely say that getting an apology from Joy is
one of the greatest things to have ever come out of it all, even if she did slap me
pretty hard... and also force me into the aforementioned situation with Mabel.
It's a side to her that I've never seen before, though I doubt I'll ever see it again.
Honestly, her painful way of showing thanks was one of the nicest things she's
ever said to me.

As it turns out, recounting past events did help me come up with a few things. I
think I should just tell Mabel that we should take things slow, since she might still
be under the illusion that I'm still some brave and gallant hero. Once I clear up the
misconception, things should turn out fine. Whatever I did back then doesn't mean
I can do it again.
I will say that it's going to be difficult to forget the awfully
descriptive things that she has accidentally said to me - or at least I hope it was
accidental - back when nobody knew who the ninja was. She really does have quite
an imagination. Granted, she was just excited over a new potential boyfriend, and
there's no stopping her once her mind is set on something. Hopefully, when she
learns that I'm still who I've always been, we can be friends again. If all goes well,
it
will be a huge weight off my shoulders. There won't be another chance to do this,
so
I have to nail this the first time. Maybe I should ask Flynn for help too, since he
knows a lot about dealing with girls. He owes me for prying out all the stories about
my adventures as a ninja out of me.
I still can't believe that it was me who did all
of those things.

I just heard a knock on my door... geez it's already nighttime? Crap, did Joy already
come back from her meeting?