12. Little Glances
Sometimes, Eren gets an overwhelming urge to trace his fingers over the scar just beneath Mikasa's eye. Its small and relatively faded by now. And a ringing reminder of the time when he had no control over his Titan shifting abilities.
One thing which Eren absolutely detests is losing control.
He is not a prodigally gifted soldier like Mikasa or strategically wise like Armin. He cannot equate to a hundred good men or form a strategy on the spot to get out of a difficult situation. All he has is control. Control over himself and his rage, which has been simmering underneath the surface for so many years. He can choose how to channel his rage and uses it to eradicate Titans as best as he could.
What is left of him if he loses control of his senses and ends up harming those he is meant to protect?
Sometimes, Eren's eyes shift from Mikasa's scar to her dark, soulful eyes. Sure, he has seen dark eyes before but Mikasa's are pitch black, framed by even darker eyelashes and hair. Sometimes, he finds himself marveling over the tiny bites she takes of her food or the stoic manner in which she speaks with the muscles of her face barely twitching. He notices the emotions that flicker on her face when she speaks to him but only momentarily so before she hides them beneath the apathetic mask she wears most of the time. He notices how long and thin her fingers are, like craftsmen's.
He also can't help but wonder why on earth he gets so riled up whenever he catches Jean looking at or talking to Mikasa.
