Everyone sat at the dinner table, MIkasa's parents and Jeans mother were chatting about something that Mikasa wasn't paying any attention to. She kept zoning out, too worried about how things went down with Annie earlier she couldn't keep herself focused.
"...kasa, Mikasa!" Mrs. Ackerman spoke louder to her daughter.
"Huh? Oh I'm sorry Mother, what did you say?" Mikasa brought her attention back to the table.
"We were just talking about Jean's upcoming football game this friday, you're going to go cheer him on aren't you?"
Mikasa plastered a fake smile on her face "Of course I am, I wouldn't miss it for anything."
Everyone smiled and Jean gave Mikasa a loving look to which she returned back at him. To be completely honest Mikasa would rather be doing anything else than going to a football game, she's not a big fan of sports. She liked Jean and everything but she could think of a better way to spend her time, like going on a date with Annie….
Mikasa met Jean at a small get together about a year ago that was hosted by her aunt Carla and uncle Grisha. Her cousin Eren attends the same school as Jean does but they aren't exactly friends, but their parents seemed to get along. Eren was forced to introduce her because it's "polite" and the two got along pretty well, and of course Mikasa's parents were thrilled to see this and urged the two to go out on a date. Mikasa was already dating Annie at the time but it's not like she could tell them that so she agreed. After three dates Jean asked her to be his girlfriend and she stupidly said yes, mostly because her mother was pushing her to do so, and Annie was not happy about that but let it slide since Mikasa told her there was nothing she could do about it.
It's not like Mikasa hates Jean, she thinks he's really sweet and cares for him as she would for any of her friends but she doesn't have any romantic feelings for him like he does for her, and it made her feel really guilty. The most they've ever done is kiss and hold hands and Mikasa is grateful for that, she doesn't think she'll be able to go any further with the boy without Annie putting his head on a stick afterwards.
Dinner had ended and Mrs. Kirstein was helping Mikasa's mother with the dishes while her father put the leftovers away. Jean and Mikasa were in her bedroom, Mikasa was sitting on her bed while Jean sat in the spinning chair by her desk. The atmosphere felt awkward and the dark-haired girl was uncomfortable, not quite sure how to break the silence. Then Jean took a deep breath and looked to her.
"So… since you're coming to my game this friday I was wondering if you would maybe wear my spare jersey?" He spoke out very quickly then continued "I-it's just that usually the players girlfriends would wear their jerseys for support when they attend the games…" he finished while his face turned crimson red.
Mikasa looked at him for a moment then gave a small smile. "Of course I'll wear it Jean, if it'll make you happy."
Jean had a huge smile on his face and grabbed his bag that he brought pulling out the white jersey with his last name and the number seven on the back handing it over to the girl. Mikasa took the jersey and smiled at the boy, she was about to say thank you but was interrupted by Jeans lips on hers. She tried very hard not to cringe and kissed him back, it was a sweet simple kiss and Mikasa could feel the love behind it, unfortunately she couldn't return it but she tried her hardest to make it seem like she did. After they pulled apart Jean's mother called for him saying it was time to go, he said goodbye to Mikasa and left her room, closing the door behind him.
Mikasa sighs and changed into a pair of pajama pants and a tank top, ready for this day to be over. She turns off the light and laid down on her bed holding her phone, Annie usually sends her a text goodnight but Mikasa had a feeling that it wouldn't happen tonight. She clutches her phone and slowly falls asleep.
The next morning Mikasa is woken up by the sound of her alarm clock going off, she reaches over to turn it off and groans. Sitting up she rubs her eyes and gets ready for school changing into a pair of nice blue skinny jeans and a white v-neck shirt because she's too lazy to actually be stylish today. After she does her bathroom routine Mikasa grabs her backpack and heads downstairs to the front door.
"Mikasa you're not having breakfast today?" her mom asked from the kitchen
"I'll just grab something at school today" was all she said before she slipped on her black flats and put on a light jacket while walking out the door.
They don't live very far from the school so Mikasa usually walks. She sighed, not ready to face the day but she was excited to see Annie even if she was upset with her at the moment.
XX
It was lunchtime and Mikasa sat down at a table in the cafeteria and looked at her food. Overall it's been a pretty normal day but she's hoping that will change in a few minutes, earlier this morning she left a note in Annie's locker saying to meet her in the auditorium during lunch so they could talk. Mikasa was pulled from her thoughts by someone setting a tray down in front of her, she looks up and sees her friend Armin smiling at her.
"You've been pretty spaced out today, everything alright?" Armin asked in a concerned tone.
"Yes everything is fine…. I'm just tired" Mikasa tried to play it off by doing a fake yawn but Armin wasn't buying it.
"Is it about Annie?" he gave a knowing look. Armin was one of the few friends that knew Mikasa's secret, you can't hide anything from this boy.
Mikasa gives a small smile "Was it that obvious?"
"Just a little bit" the boy smiled back "Do you want to fill me in?"
Mikasa stood up "I will later, I'm meeting up with her to talk about it. I'll see you."
"You better text me what happened I'm practically your guidance counselor" Armin laughed and continued to eat his food.
Mikasa made her way through the back entrance of the auditorium and turned on one of the stage lights to see Annie sitting in the front row, she was wearing black skinny jeans with a red and black hoodie and combat boots. Mikasa approached the blonde with a stoic face to which Annie returns as their eyes met. They looked at each other in silence for a moment, it would seem like they were having a staring contest.
Mikasa was the first to speak "You still mad at me?"
Annie stayed silent for a few seconds "What makes you think that?"
"You didn't text me last night"
"I don't have to text you every night Mikasa-"
"But you've been doing it since we got together so of course I'm gonna think something is up" Mikasa was becoming annoyed now but Annie kept her voice monotone.
"Maybe I just forgot, that can happen ya know"
"Bullshit" Mikasa cut in.
She walked up to the small girl and put her hands on both armrests of the chair making herself eye level with Annie.
"Stop being childish and answer my damn question"
Annie only smirked at the dark-haired girl "Oh wow the perfect Mikasa Ackerman is cursing, what would everyone think if they heard that?"
"Shut up" Mikasa moved in closer giving the blonde a death stare. She's about had it with her attitude.
"Does that bother you miss perfect?" Annie pressed on.
"I said shut up" Mikasa spoke a little louder
"Perfect, perfect, perfect, that's what you try to be but you're so fake and you know it."
"Shut up!" Mikasa yelled in her face.
"Make me" the blonde said in a daring tone and moved closer, their noses were close to touching.
Mikasa crashed their lips together and straddled Annie's lap, the blonde grabbed her shirt pulling them closer together.
XX
Mikasa buttoned up her pants and looked at Annie as she was putting her hair back in its bun, they basically had make up sex but Mikasa knows Annie is still upset. This is what it's come to, they argue, ignore each other for a while, fuck, then pretend everything is fine and it just makes Mikasa feel worse. She knows she's hurting Annie and herself but she's not willing to throw away the image she's worked so hard to build for their happiness, what a pathetic girlfriend she was.
The bell rang indicating that lunch was over, the girls looked at each other and Annie smiled.
"You should get going, it won't look good if you're late" she walks up to Mikasa and gives her a sweet kiss on her cheek.
"I can be a few minutes late, I want to make sure you're okay" Mikasa rests her hands on Annie's shoulders and looks at her with soft eyes.
"I'm fine babe no need to worry" the blonde spoke then shifted her eyes to the side for a brief second.
She was lying.
Annie had a tell, any time she lied she would always glance to the side. Mikasa first noticed it when they were playing Cheat, a card game where the players aim to get rid of all of their cards, with cards being placed face-down and players being permitted to lie about the cards they have played. Other times would be if she were late to class and gave some poor excuse or when she would injure herself but try to act tough about it. Mikasa never told her she knew about it.
Mikasa just smiled back instead of confronting her, the last thing they need is another argument. "You aren't going to class?" she asked but wasn't surprised by the response.
"Nah I'm gonna head out with Reiner and Bert for a while. But I'll see you tonight okay?"
Mikasa nodded and gave Annie a tight hug.
Annie's body stiffened a little but then relaxed. "Um it's not like I'm going away forever chill out."
She released the smaller girl then turned to grab her backpack and left for her next class.
XX
The rest of the day followed the same routine, aside from Armin trying to get Mikasa to spill the details on what happened in the auditorium to which the girl replied telling him that he'll get the full story later where they can't be eased dropped on.
Things were the same at home as well, Mikasa greeted her parents and finished her homework in the living room while her mother prepared dinner and her father would watch whatever is on the tv. They ate dinner together and remenissed about their day, of course Mikasa left out the makeup sex in her story.
It was now eight o'clock, Mikasa had just said goodnight to her parents and made her way upstairs towards her bedroom. She opened the door and wasn't surprised to see the short blonde sitting at her desk drawing something in her sketchpad, Mikasa leaves her window unlocked so Annie can come in as she pleases and doesn't have to wait outside.
She closed the door and locked it just to be safe and watched Annie continue to draw. When the blonde was at a good stopping point she turned to face Mikasa and stood up walking towards her and grabbed her hands.
"What do you want to do tonight?" she asked, softly rubbing her thumbs across Mikasa's hands.
The taller girl pulled her over to the bed and made her lay down. "Can we just lay here and talk?" Mikasa spoke in a quiet tone.
The two girls laid there and talked about all sorts of things from school gossip, to video games, to whatever stupid stunt Reiner tried to attempt and nearly killed himself with. Mikasa was trying to soak up every moment of it, she listened to every word Annie spoke and relished the moments when the girl would laugh at a funny story she told. She wanted to enjoy herself with the girl that she loved as much as she could because Mikasa knew that this wasn't going to be for much longer, she felt Annie slipping further away today and she knew it was only a matter of time before Annie got fed up with being Mikasa's secret and call it quits, she just knew it.
It was nearing one in the morning when she noticed Annie had fallen asleep, she should probably wake her but she didn't want her to go. Mikasa looked at her girlfriend and took in her features, she was laying on her left side with a calm expression on her face, her lips were slightly parted and her arms were stretched out a little with her hands balled up into fists, almost like how a baby sleeps. Mikasa didn't have the heart to wake her, instead she pulled the blanket on top of them and wrapped her arms around the small girl pulling her closer.
Mikasa held onto Annie as if she would disappear if she let go.
