Thunder cracked, and flashes of lightning brightened the sky's and land around them,

On the way back to camp, Inuyasha stayed quiet, Kagome sighed and wrapped her arms around him a little tighter. He must've been so scared.

" hey, Inuyasha?"

he didn't say anything but his ear twitched to her voice. " listen, about earlier before everything happened, i didn't ...i didn't mean it. "

Still silent, nothin'.

" I'm sorry, really. " she whispered.

She closed her eyes and wished he'd just respond, this tension was killing her.

Eventually he slowed and realized she stopped speaking, he glanced behind him.

Still shaken from what had accord a few hours ago . He decided to whisper out " yo, Kagome" shaking her a little to just make sure she was still with him.

She grinned and opened one eye.

He bent down on one knee so she could slide off his back.

She got off than watched him. Once he was left her down, he stood straight, arms folded. His hair shadowed his face, she stood her ground and watched.

He took a big calming breath, trying to control his heart. He closed his eyes and sighed out, his palms still shook. Kagome was dead and was just brought back from the very depths. He didn't know how to respond or mentally concept it. He was thankful, so very thankful and even though the thought of having to replay Sesshomaru made his stomach sour he knew if it wasn't for him Kagome would've still been cold, breathless and lifeless.

He didn't know where to start, or how to express what he was feeling, every-time he tried things always came out wrong, he'd always end up saying something hurtful or harsh. Right now he didn't know if he could keep the venom from his words.

Kagome raised her arm wanting to reach out but stopped, she placed it on her heart and watched how inflected inuyasha's body seemed. He was tense. He was scared, though he wouldn't admit it.

She swallowed her pride and took a few steps towards him, his back was to her so she rested her head on the back of his shoulder and wrapped both of her arms around his waist. She smiled

" Oh inuyasha, you must stop blaming' yourself" she whispered.

His eyes widened in shock, he looked down at her hands that held on to him so tightly and exhaled. " i...i'm confused kagome"

" I understand now. I understand perfectly...what its like to see...the person you care for disappear right before your eyes. I understand the pain of hurt and ping of jealousy."

She didn't understand. So she listened.

" When you said you were going to go to stay with the wolf tribe and agree to become Koga's mate, everything deep within me broke, i saw red, i tasted the power of destruction in my mouth. I remember wanting...wanting...DAMN IT" he balled up his fist, his knuckles white.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome questioned

He couldn't say it, he didn't want her thinking he was a beast.

She loosen her hold and came around to look into his eyes. And she stopped in surprise.

His eyes flashed, gold to red, gold to red, and back to gold. * what in the world...whats going on?*

She jumped a little when his hand grasped her arm and pulled her into his arms. His breath fanning the side of her neck. She shivered.

"um, what are you..."

His body became warm, like he was running a fever. Which worried him. He never felt like this, like his body was on fire. And kagome must've noticed it as well cause she kept calling out asking him if he was okay?

He placed his lips in the hollow of kagome's neck, sending shock waves of liquid pleasure throughout kagome's blood stream. What was he doing?

He skimmed his fang across where his lips just meant and found excitement in her reaction. Little traces of blood came to the surface and out of pure animal instinct, he licked the liquid crimson that dotted the side of her neck.

He felt his blood burn throughout his veins. This needed to stop now... he needed to compose himself otherwise...otherwise..he was gonna do something he'd never forgive himself for. His eyes flashed beneath his lids. He pulled himself back and took a big shaky breath. * calm, calm...i ain't a ruthless animal, i refuse to hurt her...*

Kagome wondered why Inuyasha stopped. She wished he would've kept going so why did he stop?

Inuyasha finally opened his eyes after he felt his blood cool down, and what he saw before him was a very wide eye'd wanting kagome. Which made his heart fall to the pit of his stomach. So, she didn't want him to stop either, the thought amused him and he smirked a little.

He put his hand under her chin and lifted her face up a bit, his eyes bore into her's and within a breathless second his lips found her's in a hot lustful kiss. She was intoxicated and he was lost within her taste. The kiss deepend and became hungry. After awhile they pulled apart and both breathing ruggedly. A blush colored both there cheeks, he coughed and turned his face from her's

Kagome's hand was on her now racing heart.

On the way back they barely even spoke. She wanted to ask him what everything meant, why the kiss on the neck?, why the almost bite?, why the hungry kiss he left on her lips?. Why'd his mood change so fast why act all loving one minute and cold the next. She sighed out but eventually let the subject die.

The village wasn't far he could smell the other's, he hoped they had some sort of food cooked. His stomach hasn't stopped growling scents they left the very odd situation that took place.

Though he new it wasn't a hunger for food, he was hoping that food would at least distract him. again his body begin to warm, just by the simple thought of it.

Damn it why did things have to be so damn hard?

He noticed she was quiet he glanced back and realized she was a few feet behind legs bent behind her eyes drooping . God help him

He swallowed and hoped to the heavens he'd get through his night.

He bent down in-front of her her eyes slightly closed she raised a brow. " Get on," he ordered

She did what he said and got on his back. When he stood back up she laid her head down and fell into a blissful sleep.

Stupid girl, he smiled.