A few nights later,
I didn't know what to do, dreams have taunted me, her skin and sent aroused me, and the more i close in on her the more i hunger for her, I've been trying my best to keep a distance but lately its been hard.
Scents the make-out session, I've been burning' I wanna feel her body against mine i wanna trail kisses and taste her flesh.
And all i'm doing' is torturing myself.
When i brought her back Songo hasn't left her side. Which helps but also annoys me at the same time, Miroku assured me that the things i'm going through is just a normal male lusting issue and me almost losing her probably only made it intensify
So i decided, i reached to a very dangerous conclusion, one that can guarantee she'll never leave in this life or the next.
The question remains, well She except.
There's many different ways, to go about this, and he wanted to take the less stressful approach,
He walked towards the flickering fire realizing that the two girls were gone only the monk and brat were sitting around the fire
Shippo and Miroku glanced up at him and watched as Inuyasha sat down releasing a long breath,
He seemed troubled. " You alright my friend?" the monk asked
Inuyasha just stared into the fire. " I have something i need to talk with you about, alone and i thought it the best time considering the women ain't here. I've been thinking about this for the past couple days debating on rather or not the idea was rational or just plan selfish." He finished
Miroku raised a brow, curious for him to continue
" You and the demon slayer...you both no what kagome means to me, right? i mean is it obvious or don't i show it enough?, i mean i know i come off down right nasty and ignorant sometime's"
Inuyasha noticed the monks meek eyes. Damn fool was suppressing laughter.
"feh, fine" he growled out " MOST of the time, " he finished
The fire continued to dance along the darkness as he closed his eyes.
" I think i'm gonna ask kagome...to um...be my mate" he blushed.
Miroku jumped up knocking shippo off his lap. " Are you sure?" he asked voice holding surprise.
He nodded. " I love her...and i cant phantom the thought of her dying again. I cant erase that vision of her out of my skull, i have nightmares and i wake wanting to puke and bawl my eye's out. Remembering the blood, and how mangled her body was...i i just can't" his voice became shaky, as if understanding Miroku placed his hand on his shoulder. " Say no more my friend, i completely understand."
Kagome was on her way back with Songo " say kagome, are you really alright?"
the walk back was peaceful non the less, but she couldn't help but wonder whats been going on lately with inuyasha, his strange moods, his happy one minute pissy the next. His whole Ora was off
" i'm fine Songo" she answered back with a small smile, but the smile did not reach her eyes.
The demon slayer just decided to let it go and nod
Once everyone around the crackling fire decided to whined down, and drift off into sleep, a curious kagome watched making sure no one around was awake and aware of her motives.
She quietly uncovered herself from the sleeping back, trying her best to no ruffle or make a sound, once out she looked back just to make sure everyone's eyes remained shut, with a sigh of re leaf she closed her eyes and said a little prayer and walked off into the dark foggy night, into the forest she wanted to be at the only place she has felt peace scents her reawakening,
But what she didn't know was, eyes from above the tree's watched.
AS she walked her mind was in consent running mode, things raced in and out, questioned she wanted answered and things shed rather not know the answer of. she was lost inside a little box trapped inside the ragging war of her mind. She wanted to just knock down all her defenses, and just say the hell with it and let what happen, happen...but she was scared.
The scars left a sick reminder that life is short, sometimes to short and people sometimes forget to cherish what they have and sale it short. The scars made her feel less...attractive, less human. Would he still look at her the same way? or would he see her as a frail peace of fragile glass.
Any normal person would be terrified of being in the woods at night, not knowing what larked behind the trees or what fallowed yet leaving no sounds of footsteps, but not her. In fact she found it rather peaceful. She fallowed the path leading to the one place she new she didn't feel indifferent. A shuffle caught her off guard and she shifted looking behind her, not really seeing anything, she shrugged it off and continues.
he held his breath waiting for her to start moving again. Something was off, her smell was different and her eyes held pain. The light that once shined in the deep dark depths was laced with pain and deep unforgettable malice. He clenched his fist until his knuckles turned white. He blew out a breath and peeked behind the tree, noticing she was long gone. He grumbled a quick curse and leeped up into the tree tops jumping from one to the next without missing a step. " Disappeared like smoke in the wind, damn" he gave a little grin and fallowed her odd yet familiar scent.
Kagome reached her destination and huffed, closing her eyes to catch her breath she looked up at the large tree that stood before her. Memories flashed through her like a bolt of lightning. The first place she came to when she first fell down that well and onto this Ara of demon's and darkness. But also the first place she met a man who was sealed to the tree with a secret arrow, a man with long sliver hair so smooth it glistened under the light of the moon, a man with eyes as golden as the sun, a bad tempered man, but also strong and loving man, even though he'll deny it. As stubborn as he is. She smiled and reached her hand out to trace the scar of the tree. She felt so different scent's she was brought back from the depths of blackness. Somehow she seemed, lost.
Inuyasha watched from a distance trying to keep quiet as he watched with curious eyes, what in the hell is she doing here? at night non the less, why did she sneak off and seem so distant, well maybe the distends was his fault but still, normally she fought like hell to make sure there was some sort of closure with him and her but yet she refused to fight and just kept pulling herself farther away. It irritated him, to no end it made him feel down right scared.
His moved a little to the right trying to get a better glace when his foot steeped on a twig, snapping it. CRACK,. uh fuck, i'm screwed, i'm screwed. He closed his eyes a sweat drop on his brow, waiting for her annoyance and realization to his presence but ...she didn't speak. His body felt sickly cold.
Kagome sighed and relished in all the good and bad memories. Though he went out of his way to bring her back to life, why did it all seem like a dream. She sighed out his name "inu..yasha, i don't know what...what to do, i'm so confused and lost, yet terrified to reach out and tell you. " She whispered out to herself without knowing he was there listening, " you seem so close yet so far away, you avoid me and push me away when it just seems like...were starting to move forward." His body remained frozen, his legs felt oddly weak at that moment. He swallowed hard, waiting for her to continue. " Sometime's i wonder if being brought back from the dead was actually what you wanted, " she sniffled , tears pooling in her eyes. " Or if you sought to bring me back, cause you felt obligated to". A tear fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek just to drop to the earth below, feeding the god tree her sorrows.
His legs buckled, and he couldn't hold up his weight any longer. Her pain, the reasoning behind her listlessness eye's, was because he kept pushing her aside. He took both of his shaky hands and covered his shock horrified face. *She feels i only brought her back cause i felt OBLIGATED to, NO...NO IT'S NOT LIKE THAT*. His mind yelled. He felt horrible, he felt like he was hit with an arrow all back over only this one can't just disappear. He lungs felt sticky and hot, he wanted to run to her and tell her she was wrong, he wanted to hold her and keep her there until she understood how he felt, he wanted to remove the darkness and sadness from her eyes and ignite fire into there deep dark depths were light always shined. He needed to tell her, she needed to know the truth before...before he lost the courage. He pushed himself up shaky yet stern, his hand on the tree for support. He has to do it, this needs to be settled, and addressed before he completely lost her. But before he stepped out and called her name, she turned her head to the side. " I know you there, inuyasha. "
His eye's opened in surprise.
" actually i know you've been there the whole time, why try to be sneaky when i can sense your demonic Ora" she finished.
how stupid of him to forget, he took the palm of his hand and slapped himself in the head. " damn idiot" he said to himself.
He stepped out from behind the tree and she gave him a small smile. " it's ironic ain't it, " she said, placing her hand on the smooth bark of the tree. " I'ts the only place that calms me when my nerves are rattled. I think it has to do with the memories, the good ones of course, the day i popped out of the well and literally had no idea in were i was, but as soon as i saw this tree i automatically thought home was just around the corner. " she grinned at the memories. " Then once i reached the tree, there you were. Well asleep of course but still. I was so awe struck by your appearance and presences that the thought of being lost completely vanished. " he didn't no how to answer so he just let her speak. " As odd as this may sound considering everything you ever heard in the past, i couldn't stop to think how beautiful you were. " she said fully looking at him now. " Nature and demons carved you into the man you are today, lean yet strong, chiseled yet smooth, " she walked up to him and he was too lost in her voice to realize she moved closer. " you were ridiculed by human's all your childhood life, seeing nothing but the downside to your heritage. And that isn't the worst part. "
Inuyasha wanted to reach out and grab her arm, but his body was frozen by her words.
" the worst part is, you spent most of your life, even as a child fighting for a spot, wanting acceptance longing for something other then the cruelty you grown to know. And you thought you found it in a woman who you eventually grew to love."
She was talking about Kikyo at a time like this?, why?
" But the truth is, she never really accepted you, otherwise she'd never ask to change you. " she took in a deep breath and startled him when she grabbed his hand. " Inuyasha, there is nothing wrong with being who you are, human, demon, half demon. regardless of what you are or who you wanna be you'll still be the same beautiful man , sliver hair or black. You are perfect just the way you are. If people cant see the beauty in all that you are, then there blind by ignorance. Your mother saw it, Miroku and Songo and even shippo see it, and inuyasha so do i"
he looked down at there joined hands and grinned. only you kagome.
" I ...i uh" he didn't know what to say.
Kagome smiled knowing she put him in a bit of a pickle but instead of changing the subject she decided hear and now she needed to tell him.
Inuyasha new he needed to say something, anything at least a 'thank you, but he closed his eyes and tried to clear his mind.
"Inuyasha i love you" she spoke softly.
there it was, the truth. And it bought knocked the breath right out of him.
She waited for him to say something' anything. But nothing left his lips. She sighed and let his hand go, knowing at least he new how she felt was good enough. She decided to move away and head back when his arms stopped her, his head was hidden in the base of her neck, and his arms wrapped tightly around her waist. Her heart felt like it was in her throat. " thank you," he whispered. " thank you, thank you, thank you" he repeated over n over again, and kagome didn't understand why he was thanking her.
" before you go back, please listen." he spoke. She nodded
" Kagome...before you came along i was a ruthless bastard, i did many stupid and unforgettable things. Things my mother would be ashamed of if she were alive and ever hear about it. " his hold on her tightened. " you came and removed the curse and never once showed a hint of fear or resentment, you brought me peace, you gave me friends. you taught me that life was so much more then the cruelness i was subjugated to. I listened and heard your fears and i'm telling you right now, i didn't ask Sesshomaru to bring you back cause of obligation, i wanted you back because i need you by my side." he felt her tremble. " I need you with me kagome, haven't you realized that yet?" she placed her shaky hand on-top his. " you are everything to me and more, and im sorry it took me so damn long to see it. " he took her hand and turned her around so she was facing him. " Truth is, i love you, I have for awhile now" she gasped and instead of letting him finish what he was going to say before he lost the nerve she flung her arms around his neck and slammed her mouth on his. The kiss of fulfillment. longing way past due flowed into both their souls his mouth was primal and her taste seductive. Her mouth opened giving me access to her and as the kiss deepened and his hold around her tightened he new he needed to ask her one last thing.
He pulled her back a little so he could finish what he needed to say but was blinded bye the light.
her eyes, he blinked.
Her eyes are full of ever lasting light. The pain, the sadness the malice, it was gone and replaced by like, by hope and by love.
His eyes started to mist, his grin was one she new she'd never forget.
He reached up and traced her cheek with his thumb. Warmth, he skin was lush and warm just like he remembered it.
" Kagome...there's so much i wanna share with you, so much i wanna do with you, but first i have a question."
"of course" she said, "I'd love to be your mate." She finished.
" how'd you know i was gonna ask you that?" he asked a little amused.
" lets just say a little birdy over heard your conversation with a perverted monk"
He had to hand it to her, she was a sly little fox. He bent down and kissed her softly this time, poring in all the love he ever felt for her in that one lingering kiss. He pulled back and grinned.
" well then, there's just one thing left to do" he said cheerfully
Kagome raised a curious brow, " what would that be?"
" Ask The damn monk if he'd do the honer in hitching us"
She was speechless. " you... wanna merry me?"
Inuyasha rolled his eyes, she was a beautiful woman, yet very dense." Well obviously, unless of course you don't wanna"
She took his hair in both her hands and pulled his face down, she captured his lips in her's and smiled. * you know what, i take it back, i'm glad to be alive *
He smiled and bent down. " well then shall we"
She giggled and got on his back, once she was on he ran back to the other's she wrapped her arms around his neck and whispered lovingly into his ear, " i love you inuyasha"
He smiled and looked up at the stars. "yeah, " he said " i love you too "
