Chapter 11: She is gone.

Ren having completed all of his filming jobs and interviews for the day, just relaxes in his dressing room while waiting for his manager to return after taking a phone call from someone important he would assume.

He decided since he had a free moment that he should call to apologize to that girl and see if she would be willing to come over that night for them to talk and in hopes to have her forgive him for his disrespectful behaviour that night. He picks up his phone and dials her phone number, he waits for her to answer but when it was answered there was no sound and then suddenly the line went dead as though she had hung up.

"What is going on? She never answered then hung up on me before…" Ren thought to himself, he thought it was just an accident so he tries again but this time there was no answer. It just went straight voicemail, but he doesn't have the guts to leave a message.

Ren was starting to get concerned as he didn't know why she wouldn't answer her phone even if her feelings were hurt. Kyoko didn't seem like the person to ignore him so he begins to think of where she would be today so he could surprise her and get her to talk with him. His thoughts were interrupted by his Manager entering his dressing room. He could see a slight bit of concern and curiosity in his eyes, "Yashiro-san is everything alright?"

Yashiro looks at his charge and nods, "Everything is fine but the President called and requested to see you in his office in half an hour…"

Ren looks at Yashiro getting a little more concerned, "Did he say why?"

Yashiro shakes his head, "No, all he said when I asked was that it's very important."

With that Ren took no time to get himself ready to leave with Yashiro. He was just hoping that Kyoko would be at LME today for him to apologize and make up for what he has done.

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Ren gets to President Lory's office to see a desert theme with a camel. Lory sat on a throne behind a desk with an Egyptian theme. Maria was sitting beside him crying "Good afternoon President, Maria-chan." He does a slight bow in greeting, confused as to why Maria was crying.

Lory looks up from his granddaughter to Ren, "Good afternoon Ren." He says as Maria doesn't look up from what was in his hand or even acknowledging Ren being there, which was a sign that something serious was going on.

"You requested my presence President…" Ren says wanting to get straight to the point on why he was asking for him to come see the president.

Lory sighs as he pulls an envelope from out of his desk and hands it to Ren. "I requested you here for this, it was left on my desk late last night."

Ren takes the envelope from Lory confused, if it was an offer for a job Lory would just tell him not give him an envelope. He then opens the envelope to find a long piece of paper that he pulls out and begins to read but then as he started reading he could feel his body stiffen and freeze to the spot like time had stopped.

The letter read:

Dear Tsuruga-san,

By the time you read this I will be gone. I am sorry for what I have done but I didn't kiss that Baka Sho that night at TBM, he forced himself to kiss me… I should have told you that he was the special guest but I didn't want to anger you also I didn't want to spoil the time we had together.

Maybe one day if I come back I will no longer be a disappointment to the title of actress or disappoint you but if I never come back though I hope you eat. But you wouldn't mind if I don't come back, you said you never wanted to see me again. Good Bye Tsuruga-san.

Signed,

Mogami Kyoko.

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By the end of the letter Ren could feel his heart cracking and his hands were shaking but just then the end of the letter that was only folded by the bottom corners of the paper flipped open from Ren's shaking and something falls to the floor. He managed to bend down to pick it up from the sandy floor. Slowly standing up he looks at his hand to see the object that fell from the letter. It was Kyoko's necklace 'Princess Rosa' which caused Ren's cracked heart to shatter into pieces.

Ren looks at Lory but couldn't find his words for a moment then after a few minutes of trying to find his words and conceal some of the pain he felt, he speaks with a slightly shaky voice, "S-she's really gone?"

Lory looks at Ren and even though he knew Ren was trying to hide his pain it was unsuccessful as Lory can see the heart break in his eyes and sighs also knowing he couldn't scold Ren for her leaving or anything, knowing he was dealing with enough pain. "Yes Ren, she is gone…"

"Where did she go..." Ren managed to say through the lump that was forming in his throat.

Lory sighs again, knowing that Kyoko really doesn't want her whereabouts known especially the young man that may have caused most of her pain, he replied, "I don't know anything except that she boarded a plane here in Tokyo."

Ren was falling apart on the inside but didn't allow it to show, not here where Lory could see. "Ok President, please excuse me I have something I need to go do…" Ren turns before Lory can even answer and leaves the room.

Lory sighs feeling bad about the young man. He knew he had to get Kyoko back as soon as possible or he feared that Ren will fall deep and nothing could bring him back from the deep depth of his pain. Lory remembered something that brings a smirk to his face and he pulls out some papers from his desk and makes a phone call.

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When Ren got into his car, Yashiro who had been waiting by the car for his return knew perfectly well something had happened. While on their way back to Yashiro's complex it was very silent. When they arrived, Ren pulled into a parking spot and place his head on the steering wheel.

Yashiro took the opportunity, "Ren… Is everything alright?"

Ren shakes his head, "No Yashiro-san everything isn't alright… I lost her"

Yashiro looks at his distraught charge but was still confused, "Lose her? Who?"

Ren doesn't move his head from the steering wheel, "Mogami-san..." The lump in his throat returned but he tries to push through it and continue, "Yashiro-san, she is gone… and it's all my fault."

Yashiro was shocked that Kyoko had left and seeing how much pain Ren was in just by telling him that part, but didn't understand how it was Ren's fault. Then he remembers the night he saw Kyoko run past him at the TBM underground, "Does it have anything to do with the night at the TBM?"

Ren turns his head to his passenger, "How did you know?" he was curious as he knew no one was watching him.

Yashiro sighs, "Well I saw her running out of the TBM crying that night… Would you like to tell me what happened?"

This time Ren sighs knowing this will cause him more pain but Yashiro wasn't just his manager but his friend, "Well I saw her old friend kissing her so I got angry and jealous at what was happening. I thought she was only using me but it didn't cross my mind at the time that the kid was forcefully kissing her as well as hurting her..." he pauses for a moment before continuing, "and I didn't even give her a chance to speak, I just casted her away saying I never want to see her again."

Yashiro felt Ren's pain as he knew he loved that girl and seeing her with someone else could cause anyone to get jealous. "Well that's not good… Do you know where she is?"

Ren shakes his head, "No, the president either doesn't know or won't tell me…"

With that they both parted ways for the night and Ren drove home deep in thought.

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When Ren returned home he went straight to his bedroom not caring about eating or anything. He sits on the edge of his bed and once again tries to call Kyoko but like the previous 5 tries that day he kept getting the notice that her phone had been switched off.

He slides off the bed and onto the floor with his back leaning against the side of his bed. He looks down at the necklace in his hand and the pain and sadness takes over. He could no longer hide the pain and allowed the tears to run down his face.

"I wish I could just take back my words, oh what I would do just to be able to hold her in my arms once again to have her see that I care about her, and to see her sweet smile." Ren says as he moves his hand holding Princess Rosa close to his heart. "But because of that stupid mistake and my insecurities, I very well could have lost her forever. If only if I could get her to come back even for a day I would do all I could to fix this in hopes of keeping her in my life."

When the night turns to be a very sleepless night for Ren, he begins to think of what he would do to get her to forgive him that didn't include him letting out his biggest secret. He wasn't ready for that yet.