A/N: So it's official I have written the epilogue for this story it will be 33 Chapters. The ending wrote itself. I was running out of ideas and had Olivia thinking about her life and decided to end it there and then an epilogue. I feel sort of relieved that it's finished. I have difficultly finishing stories. I am happy the way it turned out and I hop you guys enjoy! Please Review
Olivia looked at the calendar and could barely believe that it was the week of Halloween. Sonny and Fin agreed to cover so Amanda and Olivia could take the kids trick-or-treating. She looked at her schedule for today and realized there was a grand jury hearing for Louis and his sister. Olivia knew the stories were inconsistent, but it did help that Max had a sexual assault charge in the past as well as two domestic violence charges. The kids would never have to testify in court even if it did go to trial, using the video evidence from the child advocacy center would count as their testimony.
Olivia watched the tapes from a few weeks ago, making sure nothing had been missed. She and Stone had gone over it, and they both thought it had a 50/50 chance to go through.
She looked at Louis's first she noticed he had tried so hard to look older than what he was, he was "playing it cool." He was very straight forward, acting tough, acting like all of the things that his uncle Max made him do hadn't affected him, but the look in his eyes said everything. It explained so much of his behaviors up until then. She was sad for him for his sister. She then watched his sister's who had a completely different story but did admit that uncle Max had made her and Louis have sex on multiple occasions.
She sighed, not knowing how it was going to go, not wanting to think of all the what-ifs she closed the laptop. She closed her eyes and looked over her email, and the growing stack of paperwork going back and forth between the 2 things until the grand jury meeting.
When Olivia got to the courthouse, she knew she would just be waiting, the case was in the middle, but she wanted to be there to support Stone anyway she could. When she got to the courthouse, they were taking a break. Stone looked like he was sick.
"Are you okay?" Olivia asked.
"Yeah, it's just a long day, the grand jury, they aren't intrigued by anything, I found 3 people sleeping already," Stone admitted.
Olivia sighed, knowing that days like this end up frustrating. She sighed and patted him on the back, knowing he was doing the best he could. If Olivia had to admit it, she knew why Jack McCoy hired him. She wished that more than anything this was Raphael instead, but she knew why it wasn't. She sighed as they went back in, she would know soon enough if they would proceed to trial.
She knew when Stone walked out, and his head was down, that it hadn't gone well for him.
"Your case got through, but out of 12, I only got 5." Stone claimed.
Olivia sighed, knowing it was a loss for him, but she thanked him anyways before heading back to the office and ending her day.
Raphael had made it home early, and he and Noah were currently going over homework. Raphael wasn't sure how they expected 2 working parents to help their kid with homework. He had to do math, spelling, reading, and science. Raphael thought it was a lot to ask of a 7-year old and spent over an hour and a half with no breaks, and working diligently. When Olivia walked through the door, they had just finished. Raphael had asked what she wanted for dinner, insisting that he would make whatever she wanted.
When Olivia looked through the fridge, she saw chicken breasts and a lot of vegetables. So a chicken salad sounded perfect. Noah argued that they had salad too much and would much prefer pancakes for dinner, but when his idea got shot down but with the promise of ice-cream for dessert, he agreed to eat the chicken salad.
Raphael was nervous there were only 7 weeks left for the semester, and he was starting to work on the finals, his midterm had been papers for all his classes, but for his finals, were tests, and he was hoping that he had taught them enough. He knew that not everyone would pass, but he wondered how much of that would be a reflection of teaching. He looked over at Olivia and Noah having a conversation about each other's day. Raphael talks to Noah about his day, but Olivia has a way of explaining everything on Noah's level. Raphael was convinced that she could explain physics to the boy if she had too.
Raphael and Noah enjoyed a big bowl of ice-cream. Olivia refused a bowl for herself, but Raphael noticed her stealing more than just a few bites from his bowl. Noah giggled in delight as Olivia tried to sneak a bite when Raphael wasn't looking. It was getting late, and after the ice-cream was eaten, Olivia took Noah to bed.
"Lucy starts her new schedule next week," Raphael mentioned.
"Yeah, I know, Olivia stated.
"We got it worked out, right?" Raphael asked.
"Yeah, on Wednesday's Amanda and I are working it out with her sitter or herself.
"The college has a Halloween family event I have to do this Saturday," Raphael claimed.
"I thought we were going to take Noah trick or treating," Olivia claimed.
"I thought so too, but I have barely been asked to do anything this semester. I have been fielding calls for legal aid 2-3 times and just been going to meetings as required, so I thought I better do this." Raphael stated.
Olivia nodded, understanding what he meant.
"You said it's a family event?" Olivia stated.
"Yeah Noah is welcome of course, I won't be able to walk around with you,I have to pass out candy, and I have to set up "Scary Law Facts" which apparently is supposed to do with crime rates in the city as well as obscure laws. It's already been made I just have to stick up posters everywhere and put cobwebs up." Raphael explained.
"Maybe a scary fact should be that 1 and 5 girls get sexually abused on the school campus," Olivia mentioned.
"Apparently that is covered in the freshman orientation class," Raphael claimed.
Olivia's eyebrows shot up. Surprised, but Raphael had stated he had heard some students in his intro to law class talking about it. He went to the library and went over the book learning a lot about the college itself, it talked about local laws, and all the buildings as well as useful information about the city in general. Olivia was surprised but happy that the kids at least get a warning.
"I don't need to go in until late," Olivia mentioned.
"Hmm, well, my schedule's pretty free tomorrow," Raphael stated.
"I wonder what we can do with the time?" Raphael claimed.
"After Lucy gets Noah, I can think of a few things," Olivia claimed. The two of them walked over to his windows and looked out. Olivia turned to look at Raphael, imparticular his lips and pushing her lips to his. Soon enough, her hands were roaming underneath his shirt. He smiled against her lips.
"I thought we were doing this tomorrow morning," Raphael asked.
"Oh, we are. This is just a preview," Olivia claimed.
"A preview, huh?" Raphael asked.
"Yes, Olivia whispered as she rubbed her thumb over one of his nipples.
"Liv, I don't need a preview I know exactly what I'm going to get into with you," Raphael claimed.
Olivia furrowed her brows and pulled away.
Raphael knew he said the wrong thing but wasn't sure why.
"Liv, I didn't mean it badly."
"But are you saying that it's boring, that you know exactly what to expect every time we're in bed together?" Olivia asked.
"No! I was saying that I know every time we're together, it's incredible. I am saying that with you I don't need a preview because, Liv, I could have easily come right there in the living room fully clothed, I love you, and I love whenever I'm with you if it's talking, or hanging out or having sex it doesn't matter." Raphael claimed.
"That's not how it sounded to me," Olivia claimed.
Raphael huffed.
"I never said sex with you was boring. It's not by far," Raphael said and wrapped her in a hug.
Olivia shook her head, getting too wrapped up in past issues with other people, she desperately wanted to believe him, but there was a little shred of doubt still in the back of her mind. She kissed him again, and they both stood there in each other's arms for a few minutes until Olivia got a text.
She looked at her phone, knowing it could be work-related. It was Sonny. "Hey, Jesse is demanding a play date with Noah, I'm off tomorrow, can I pick him up after school?" He asked.
"Of course, Lucy will have him at my apartment. It's supposed to rain. You can hang out there." Olivia claimed.
"Sounds good," Sonny claimed.
"Well, it seems that it might be a full house tomorrow. Sonny is bringing Jesse over, and that means if we're slow, Amanda will be there. I won't be home until 10, so make sure Noah gets to bed at a decent hour." Olivia claimed.
"Of course," Raphael stated.
Olivia and Raphael separate for a little bit, Olivia reads a book, and Raphael is listening to a podcast he is behind on. They sit in the living room in their own worlds until Olivia looks at the time approaching midnight. Raphael realizes its getting late, and they go to bed together.
Olivia wakes up the next morning, sending Noah off to school with Lucy while Raphael slept in. She decides to make omelets for breakfast. Raphael walks into the kitchen as she is just about done with his.
"My nose woke me up," Raphael claimed.
"Really, Rafa, I don't understand how you're constantly hungry." Olivia laughed.
Raphael and Olivia ate their omelets, and Olivia made an excuse about needing to go to her apartment. Raphael didn't mind. They got dressed for the day and went to her apartment.
She walked through the door and noticed that even though they almost split time between both places, this just didn't feel the same. It wasn't like she suddenly disliked the area, it was just becoming more of a nuisance than anything. Lucy had been fine with getting Noah from Raphael's place, and James had even mentioned he doesn't work far from the apartment building.
Olivia was going to work 2 pm-10 pm tonight, they had a case Stone had been working and Olivia had a feeling that she was going to be needed for an interview that scheduled at 4 pm. It was barely 10 am, and although last night she had the doubt in the back of her mind, she had thought long into the night that maybe they needed another conversation.
Olivia had him up against the door, kissing him, and he was already ready to just go to the bedroom.
"About last night." Olivia started.
Raphael literally groaned out in frustration.
"We already talked about this, Liv." Raphael bit. As he kissed her hard and let his touch her breasts over her clothing and she couldn't help but moan out.
"I know, but I was wondering, do you want to try something else?" Olivia asked.
"Mmmm depends," Raphael stated as Olivia started kissing him again, pushing her body against him.
"I mean, I'm not trying to push anything onto you," Olivia claimed.
"I know," Raphael stated.
"I just, did you, are you." Olivia was blushing, not sure how to ask what she was about to ask.
Raphael looked at her; oddly. She always knew what to say and how to say it.
"I don't want you offended, or you take this wrong way." Olivia started.
"Just say it, Liv," Raphael said as he was getting more frustrated.
"You're bisexual, and I just wondered if you were into anal sex," Olivia said quickly.
Raphael had to think about it for a minute.
"I'm not sure what you're asking," Raphael claimed.
"Well, I have toys, and I just thought if it's something you would want to do..."Olivia claimed.
Raphael thought about it again.
"I'm not opposed to it, I guess, It feels different, but I can't say I miss it. I wasn't on bottom too often." Raphael admitted.
"I just don't want you missing out," Olivia claimed.
"Well, obviously, I've been missing out on using something on you," Raphael claimed.
Olivia blushed.
"I don't think we've needed to," Olivia claimed.
"That's an accurate statement," Raphael claimed.
Olivia laughed, and the two of them continued exploring each other. It wasn't until Olivia felt the cold wall of the kitchen behind her back that she realized they were both naked, she was to engrossed in his eyes and lips to notice. Then she felt his erection against her leg, and her knees bent involuntarily. Raphael picked up on one of her legs, looking into her eyes.
"This okay?" Raphael asked.
"Yes," Olivia claimed.
They were up against the wall. The chill of the wall and the heat of his body made her already feel close to an orgasm. When he slid into her, she almost fell over in delight, Raphael kept her held tight, and Olivia and Raphael found their rhythm. Olivia felt her high spike as she felt Raphael go over the edge, and she moaned in pleasure, begging him to push faster, and when he did, she went over the edge, holding on tight as soon as she felt herself come back to earth her leg had cramped. She winched when Raphael carefully put her leg down.
Olivia rubbed the muscle. "Worth it," she smiled.
Raphael smiled and stepped away. Olivia was now freezing, and without saying anything, went directly to her bedroom and laid under the covers trying to get warm. Raphael followed her, pushing close against her wrapping his body around hers.
She would be lying if she said she didn't want to do it all over again. But something about just being pressed up against each other, warming each other, occasionally saying a word or two, just being their together was sensual, and she felt like she had a whole different connection with him. Olivia and Raphael just hold each other until Olivia realizes she has about an hour until she needs to leave, so she gets ready to go.
Raphael waits for to shower, he takes a quick shower himself and gets dressed. When he comes out, their clothes are still littered all over the floor, and he picks them up.
"I'll see you later," Olivia claimed.
"I'll be here," Raphael stated.
Raphael looked over his emails, finding the law school is doing a canned food drive, and there was a competition between the students and staff. It would start next week and end November 15th. Raphael was annoyed that it was right around the holidays when it seemed most food drives were, thinking they should have done it at the beginning of the year, but he knew he would participate. He got another email about a student and staff holiday party it was a formal event, December 6th the last weekend before finals. Then there was a staff and family party that was casual on the following Saturday.
Raphael added the events to his calendar and sighed. He looked at the Calander again. He was teaching the same classes the next semester, and other than a few minor tweaks, he felt comfortable with everything, including his undergraduate course. Raphael looked around Olivia's apartment. He felt comfortable here and could see living here just as comfortably as his own apartment. With all the Christmas emails, he was wondering if it was a good time to bring it up. The weather would be bad before they knew it. Moving in the cold wasn't anything anyone wanted to do. Raphael wasn't even sure what Olivia's lease looked like, but he desperately wanted his family to be together.
Raphael lingered on the word family because that's what Olivia and Noah were to him. He didn't know when that word became synonymous with Oliva and but he smiled about it. Raphael was working on an exercise for is Trial Advocacy class when Lucy came thought the door with Noah.
"When is Uncle Sonny coming with Jesse?" Noah asked.
"Hello to you, too," Raphael stated.
Lucy laughed.
"I think it's amazing that he wants to play with her, she is so much younger than him," Lucy claimed.
"Well, they've been close since he was little, and I think she's family to him," Raphael claimed.
Lucy shook her head.
"So uncle Sonny is bringing Jesse?" Lucy asked.
"Yeah, they finally made it work official after you guys left Noah's adoption party," Raphael explained.
"How is everything going with your classes?" Raphael asked.
"As long as I don't screw up my thesis, which so far so good. I graduate on December 12th." Lucy stated.
"You'll do fine," Raphael assures her.
"Even though I've been accepted, I can't start NYU until the fall," Lucy explained.
"That will give you time to adjust, you know you can go full-time Olivia, and I can work something out," Raphael explained.
"I know I could, and I've been thinking about it. Grad school is a lot fewer hours for full time, I think maybe moving in with James is a good idea." Lucy stated.
"What made you change your mind?" Raphael asked.
"The fact, that I'm done with undergraduate studies, and if I go full time I'll be done in 2 years, and there is no reason between being here, and at home and at James house to pay all that rent for a place I barely see," Lucy concluded.
"Maybe find a new place together?" Raphael claimed.
"No way there something about his place that makes me feel at home," Lucy claimed.
Raphael shook his head in understanding.
"Well, if you don't need anything, I am headed off," Lucy claimed.
"No, I'll see you Thursday," Raphael claimed.
Lucy nodded her head and walked back out the door.
Raphael looked at Noah.
"Uncle Sonny will be here soon, do you have any homework?" Raphael asked.
"No," Noah responded.
"Are you sure?" Raphael asked.
Noah nodded his head, and then there was a knock on the door.
"UNCLE SONNY AND JESSE!" Noah screamed.
Raphael walked over to the door looking through the peephole and unlocked the door.
"Come in," Raphael stated.
Jesse went through the door and hugged Noah, Noah told her all about school, and Jesse was excited to hear about it.
"So everything with you and Rollins seems to be good," Raphael claimed.
"Yeah, more than good," Sonny admitted.
"What does that mean?" Raphael asked.
"Don't tell Liv, but I'm moving in with her," Sonny admitted.
"Congratulations," Raphael stated.
"It makes me nervous," Sonny admitted.
"I have a feeling you practically live there already." Raphael pointed out.
"You're right, but it makes it so final," Sonny explained.
"Don't you want it to be final?" Raphael asked.
"Yeah, it's not that it's just different, I guess," Sonny stated.
"Are you coming with us?" Sonny asked.
Raphael hadn't thought about it, but he would like to spend some time with his friend and Noah, so he grabbed a jacket and made sure Noah had a warm hoodie, and they walked the kids to the park.
Raphael and Sonny laughed as a woman thought they were together and adopted Noah and Jesse. They didn't correct her simply said, "thanks." The two talked about the kids, and their job watching as Noah and Jesse play in a sandbox, then go to the swings, Jesse still not tall enough to put her feet on the ground. Sonny walked over the swing set, and Raphael followed. The two men caught up, talked to the kids, and secretly took them to get ice-cream before returning to the apartment.
"Now, no telling mommy we spoiled your dinner with ice-cream," Sonny mentioned as they walked back to Olivia's apartment.
