Kylo finally found the sleep he desperately sought after, in doing so he also found a path to Masro. He sat up not recognizing his surroundings. It was the darkest shadows he had ever seen, as if light didn't exist here. It was a moment before he realized there was a thick mist rolling quickly towards him as if to engulf him stopping only strides away from him. Kylo looked around trying to understand where he was but it was useless as the mist only allowed him to see shadows. He slowly started moving what he thought was forward; the mist moved as he moved always keeping a slight distance.

As Kylo moved through the fog the mist would lighten becoming almost a window that seemed to be looking into the real world. He saw the knights training being dedicated to their craft; he felt proud of his soldiers. Kylo continued forward waiting for the next appearance hoping to see Masro only to be disappointed by seeing his mother crying into his father's chest. It brought anger that she now pretended to care about him. He stood there and watched them a moment.

"There's still light in him I know it," Leia said to Han.

"No, he is lost to us. He has fallen to the dark side as your father did," Han said.

"Luke saved my father, even if it was to late to save all those that he killed. There has to be a way."

Han looked at leia before walking away. Kylo continued forward using his anger to build his power, not wanting to look out the visions the mist showed him anymore. It began to grow darker; surprising kylo that this much darkness existed. He stopped not wanting to continue forward.

"Hello?!" Kylo yelled; the sound echoed around him before trailing off.

"Ky?! Is that you?! Help me?!" It was a voice kylo knew like no other; the voice of his true love.

"Maze! It's me! Where are you?! I can't see through this mist. Help guide me to you."

A light came through the mist, it felt warm against his skin calling to him. As the light became more powerful the mist cleared and he saw her standing in the distance before him shining like the beacon of hope she was to him. She was dressed as a Padawan; surprising him as he had destroyed all remaining evidence they were ever at the academy. Kylo ran towards her stopping a few strides from her; her brightness was almost to much for him to look at. He shielded his eyes as he asked, "Is it really you or am I just dreaming about you?"

"What does the force tell you?" She spoke her voice pulling at Kylo's heart. Kylo closed his eyes and listened. He opened his eyes seeing Masro had returned to her normal self.

"That it's truly you." He closed the distance and pulled her into his arms. "How is this possible? I have felt no force energy from you since the accident."

"I pulled what little I had to contact you, but wherever we are seems to have force I can pull from. I don't have much time, before it comes back for me. I'm being held captive, well my mind is, I don't know where but unless I'm freed I can't return to my body," She looked up at him, he could tell there was more she wanted to say.

"I know about them. I don't understand why you changed my memories. Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I'm sorry for not getting to tell you in time. If I had enough strength, I would reverse all my changes, all I can do is say that I'm sorry. Everything has a reason, I promise." Masro pulled from his arms and led him to a rocky path up a hill that appeared before them. There were huts made of rock that looked eerily familiar as kylo knew they were Jedi huts.

"Is this where you are trapped?"

"Yes, but I don't know where here is. I have explored, it seems to be a small island. No inhabitants, there are many things that make me think of the Jedi here."

"Such as?"

"I have found what looks to be a very primitive temple, it whispers to me." She led him inside a hut, there was a fire lit and a makeshift bed on the ground. It was very primitive breaking Kylo's heart. They sat by the fire and he pulled her into his arms.

"What happened between you and…Skywalker?" He needed to know what happened prior to him nearly killing her. Masro shook with tears making kylo hold her closer.

"He's a true monster. It's difficult for me to even think about. I'll try to show you what I can…"

They were back on Naboo, watching from Masro's point of view. She was tying a robe and was practicing telling Kylo they were expecting. She paced back and forth with anxiety, knowing she would have to restore his memory. Skywalker burst through the door, Lightsaber lit, hand held up. She filled with fear, her heart was racing. She looked for her lightsaber but realized she had packed it away when she changed for the wedding.

"I can't believe they were right. My own nephew and you together, you were like family to me. I knew you would end up leading him down a dark path. How could you two do this?" Each word spat out.

"Master Skywalker, please don't hurt me. I am not armed," Masro begged. "I am with child of your bloodline. Please think of him," She held her arms over her womb to shield the child.

"No, he can't be allowed to be born. We need to end this line today." Masro jumped out of the way of his force to the other side of the bed. She had a blaster in the drawer, grabbing it out Skywalker froze her. She looked at him with pure hatred.

"Skywalker, you're a monster and the reason the Jedi will fall again."

He pushed his force into Masro, it felt like she was drained of her ability, it was excruciating. The force was so strong it pushed her in the air. She flew across the room, unable to stop herself into a wall of glass, screaming. It shattered on her with a few large pieces going through her body and shards everywhere. It went black.

"Monster isn't strong enough. He's…he's pure evil." Kylo filled with rage, wanting to destroy things to take out his anger. Masro pulled Kylo close, he lifted her face to bring his lips in. His kiss was greedily returned, and quickly grew. He gently laid her on the ground, and they embraced continuing to kiss. Kylo worked his way down her neck, bringing a soft moan from her lips. They undressed each other before embracing again with Kylo sliding in between her legs quickly finding what he sought. He brought a gasp from her lips as he slid in. He thrust deeply in and out of her, making her cries echo his own. She pushed him to let him know she wanted on top. He watched as she moved to bring them pleasure holding her hips. She slowly slid her hands up his body so she could bring her lips to his. Kylo held her to him while they finished. They stayed tangled with each other as they drifted to sleep. Kylo was awaken when Masro was pulled screaming from his arms by the grey smoke. "Help me, Kylo! Find me! Save me!"

Kylo sat up covered in sweat, huffing trying to slow his breath. He needed to see her, he quickly dressed and ran down to the sick bay. Kylo nearly took out a member of the nursing staff trying to get to Masro. She was still there, now frozen in time in the chamber. He rubbed his eyes, trying to understand what just happened. He sat by her chamber the rest of the night, falling asleep leaning against it. He was awakened by a medical staff member; Kylo groggily walked back to his suite to ready himself for the day. Kylo found himself in the assembly room again, waiting on his master.

"Supreme leader, I wish to build a temple for my knights. They are separate from the crew as you have said and need a place to train and study the ways of the force."

"You May build your temple, see the architect. Is there anything else? You seem very distracted today."

"Yes, I had a force connected dream last night with my wife. Masro contacted me saying her mind was trapped. She showed me what she could, but it was all confusing."

"Describe what you saw."

"Grey fog, then when that cleared there were rocks and mountains. I never saw the place before. When we got to the top there were Jedi huts. Then she was taken by the fog. I couldn't help her, it was disheartening. The force connection was there, or I would have thought it was just a regular dream."

"Very interesting. Your connection to each other is very strong. Is there anything else?"

"She showed me how nefarious Skywalker really was."

"Elaborate."

"He tried to kill her because she is pregnant with my children or was at least. The sick bay said they most likely won't survive the freezing process." He was glad he was wearing a mask, so his master couldn't see the tears that he shed for the loss.

"I see, I am truly sorry for your loss. Especially the loss of our future. You were transported to a different plane of existence for the connection. I must meditate and think on this. I will summon you once I have answer."

"Thank you, Master. I want and need to save her mind and soul."

"After you complete your quest for your lightsaber, I want you and the knights to start expanding our territories. Bring with you everything necessary to covert any natives or destroy them."

"Yes, Master." Snoke disappeared into darkness. Kylo stood and left the chamber to find Hux. He needed him to set up a meeting with the architect. Knowing the time of the day he would be with the first order recruits training. Kylo marched across the base towards the regular crew training grounds. He walked in seeing Hux yelling at his soldiers than dismissing them.

"Hux, I need you to set up a meeting with the architect. The supreme leader has given permission to build a training ground for the force sensitive."

"Ren, first off it's General, second why don't you seek him out?"

"If I knew who he was then I would plus our supreme leader has ordered you to serve my request."

"Very well, I'll let you know the meeting time," Hux marched past Kylo.

Kylo returned to his suite to be greeted by his knights, who followed him into his room.

"Master, did the supreme leader grant our request for a training temple?" Corsin asked.

"Yes, I have sent Hux to set up a meeting with the architect. I wish to meditate so if you're all going to stay Silence is required."

The knights sat in a semicircle and Kylo sat across from them. He went into a deep meditative state seeking out Masro. Unfortunately, she did not come to him, he sought out out answers from the force as to a way to gain more abilities to save Masro. After a couple of hours of meditation Kylo was as distraught as he started with no new answers to his many questions. He sent the knights away and retired for the evening.

Kylo awoke to ready himself for his meeting with the architect. He had dreamt of Masro, but it wasn't a memory just a want. With his thought still deeply contemplating his dream he left his suite. When he arrived at the location for the meeting, Kylo was disappointed. The architect was there with some holo sketches.

"Master Ren, it is an honor to complete your request."

"Why are we meeting here?"

"Well this is where I was thinking of putting your temple. The entrance would be here. Here let me bring up some hologram images so you can better understand my ideas." The holograms changed to show different build ups and designs. Kylo was pleased with the designs.

"I understand now, it was difficult to see the vision. The design will be perfect. I also had a personal request, but it would be a benefit of the crew. I would like a large garden area built, that is inspired by Lake country on Naboo, it's where my wife is from so it would be very meaningful when she wakes from her stasis. It would be wonderful if it had a lake as well. Could that be built?"

"I can design anything, in fact the area surrounding the temple would work best for it. I had heard rumor, I'm sorry it is true. It would be an honor to fill this request, I will make it feel like you just landed on Naboo. I shall design it and we will start construction right away."

"Thank you, I appreciate your understanding of it's importance," Kylo said the architect bowed and left. He decided to return to his suite and ready himself for his mission for his new lightsaber. Kylo stopped by the seamstress to pick up some clothing and continued to his suite.

Kylo dressed for the cold of the planet's surface leaving his helmet in his suite. He placed his current lightsaber on his belt. He had been informed of some caves that still had kyber crystals. He would have the knights eventually take this journey, but for now he ordered their training. Kylo went to the hanger, to ready his ship.

It was heavily snowing a sideways hail, which worried him. It wasn't a weather he traditionally took flight in. He boarded his ship and went through a check list. Then took off to the coordinates he was given. Upon landing, Kylo pulled his hood up and tightened it around his face only allowing his goggles to show, before stepping out of his ship. Off he went marching in the direction he was given for the cave.

Kylo mentally prepared himself and knew it would be a vastly different experience than when he went to find his kyber crystal when he was younger. He saw some ancient hilt design ideas he liked in the military book his grandfather owned and was considering what he was going to do when he reached the cave.

Kylo pulled out a small lantern to light his way, he could feel the energy of the cave it called to him. As he walked into the dark cave, he felt it grab hold on him, almost drowning him in force energy. The first vision hit him, fast and unexpected. Masro walked out of the darkness, she was in her sleep robes that she wore in stasis. Kylo wanted to run to her pull her into His arms, but he knew she must be a test. She looked at him with haunted eyes full of sadness. When he didn't speak and rush to her, Masro's face filled with disappointment.

"I knew this was a mistake," she whispered turning and walking further into the tunnel. Kylo was confused as to what test this was supposed to be.

"Maze?" He asked questionably. The figure stopped and turned to look at kylo with fear, she wrapped her arms around herself as if she were cold as well.

"Save me, please."

He rushed to the figure of Masro stopping just before her. Kylo hesitantly reached out to put a hand on Masro's cheek. Tears came to his eyes as it was solid, he pulled her into his arms.

"I don't care if this is some kind of trick. I just want to hold you again."

"My sky, this place holds so much of the force that I was able to draw on its power to transport my mind here."

Kylo pulled back and looked at her.

"So, you're really my light and stars?"

"Yes, my love."

"How do I know this isn't a trick?"

"The only way I know would be to restore memories I altered. As it's a pretty rare force gift. Unless you can think of something else."

"How will I know it's real?"

"A restored memory can't be faked. I'm trying to think of a good one."

"Our first kiss."

"I never altered the kiss. Do you not remember it?" Masro looked at Kylo full of sadness.

"Oh, if it's unaltered I do remember."

He leaned and kissed Masro sharing the memory.

Ben was excited to be going to Naboo after four years away. He was hoping to sneak away from his uncle to see Masro. He remembered he was fifteen at this visit.

"Ben are you listening to me?" Skywalker asked.

"Yes, Master. I was just running through a checklist in my mind making sure I remembered everything. We will be coming into Theed soon. Can you let Mother know?"

"Good. As long as that's all you were thinking about. I will inform her."

After Ben landed the ship, the commotion began of the unloading for the Festival of Lights ceremony his family was helping the queen of Naboo hold. Ben slipped away taking a speeder from the royal guard. His cloak billowed behind him and his excitement grew as he raced closer to lake country. He wanted to stay away from her house because he knew her parents would alert his uncle.

Ben stopped his speeder by the lake, hoping she would be there. She was, he knew her anywhere even four years older. Masro was sitting by the lake washing some clothes. He released his force expecting hers to wrap around him, but it didn't. That's when he knew she locked herself down to the force again. She didn't seem to notice him walking towards her until he got close, she pulled a blaster out and pointed it without even looking his way.

"I don't know who you are but leave. I don't have powers the rumors are false. I'm not a trinket of entertainment."

"Maze, it's me Ben."

"You lost the right to call me that." She turned and looked at him, her eyes filled with anger. He was a bit taken aback; Ben had expected to be welcomed with open arms. Masro stood and he glanced at her maturing body for the first time. She adorned pants that were practically painted on her, the tunic she wore was not buttoned more than halfway revealing parts of her matured chest as she breathed. Her hair was in a loose braid. She took his breath away as she only became more beautiful with time. Masro grabbed her laundry and walked away. He ran after her.

"Leave me alone, Ben. We're not supposed to speak with each other." He reached out and froze her with the force. "How dare you! Unfreeze me now!"

Ben walked around to the front of Masro to look her in the eyes. Waving his hand to release her from his hold. "Masro, why do you hate me now?"

She looked at him, and the hurt filled her eyes along with tears, "I don't hate you. I could never hate you. I wish I could, but I can't. I love you Ben, I always have. You saved my life. Rescued me from the worst torture imaginable and then disappeared for four years. You abandoned me, left me to the vices of the people I'm related to. You were the only family I had, and you were just gone. So, I gave up the force as they wanted and vowed to never speak with you again."

"I'm sorry. I've been banned from returning to Naboo. My uncle has basically kept me under his thumb all these years because of my attachment to you. This is the first time I have even returned to Naboo and I immediately stole a speeder and raced to you."

She broke down dropping her laundry to cover her face, he pulled her into his arms. Masro cried into Ben's chest while he held her to comfort her. She looked up at him and dropped her shield. Her ability flowed out of her like fire and met his force building a power inside them that wanted them to become one. It left them both breathless.

Masro pulled back from Ben, really looking at him for the first time. He had grown very tall; his hair was much longer than when he was a boy. She preferred it that way. His body had changed into a mans, she could feel the muscles under his Jedi robes in their embrace. She gasped as she met his eyes, the intensity in them overpowered her. Masro reached her hand up to Touch his cheek, he leaned into it bringing his hand up to cover hers. Ben kissed her hand as she watched, leaving her wanting more, but knowing it was forbidden for him."You've changed Ben."

"As have you. You've grown more beautiful than the stars."She blushed at his compliment and looked down; Ben was the only one she had ever felt complete with. He accepted her abilities as nobody else in her life did.

"How do you do that?"

"Do what?" He tilted her face towards his with a finger under her chin.

"Walk into my life after four years and make me instantly forgive you."

"I'm glad you forgive me; I couldn't live with you being mad at me."

"Somebody's coming, hide." Ben force jumped up into the trees, to see Masro's older half brother Skiro walking through the trees that lined their property.

"Masro!" He yelled. Masro quickly grabbed her laundry off the ground.

"Over here, Skiro. Why are you coming after me? I'm perfectly capable of doing laundry alone."

"Father heard there were Jedi that landed on Naboo for the light festival and wanted me to come get you."

"I'm fine I can take care of my self."

"No, you know the rule." Skiro came up roughly grabbing Masro's arm. Ben just about jumped down then. He didn't understand why she didn't push him away.

"Please, I don't want to go down there again. Father just let me out from the last time."

"I'm sorry, he is only doing what he thinks is best." He started forcing Masro towards their home, she dropped her laundry again. Ben could sense her fear. He knew she was going to be angry but froze Skiro anyway.

"What's going on? Are you doing this Masro?"

"No, I swear."

Ben jumped down from the tree and walked over to them. He waved his hand in front of Skiro's face.

"You never saw Masro or me. You heard the Jedi have already left and turned around to go home."

He dropped Masro and mindlessly walked toward his house. Ben helped her up.

"Where was he taking you?"

"My father locks me in the cellar anytime it's announced a force sensitive comes to Naboo."

"What?!" Ben shouted in disbelief.

"That's my life now."

"He's a monster! Run away with me."

"And do what?"

"Marry me. I'll take care of you; I'll leave the order. You'll never have to see these people again."

"Ben you're not thinking with your brain. Your heart is deceiving you. We are to young."

"Love knows no age." He pulled Masro into his arms and looked deeply into her eyes. She wanted badly to accept his offer.

"You love me?"

"Yes, our entire lives as you love me." They brought their lips together for the first time and they burned like fire and ice together as they each let their force flow into the other. He was fifteen and wanted what all men at that age wanted, he moved from her lips to her neck while exploring her matured body with his hands bringing a moan from her. Masro pulled back from him, she was flush from the excitement.

"I'll marry you. We can run away and be together." A smiled spread across Ben's face and he kissed her again pushing her against the closest tree. She wrapped her arms around him pulling their bodies together. She felt his hardness against her and pulled back. They looked into each other's eyes longingly.

"I think it's best to sneak away at night. I'll meet you back here tonight at zero hundred."

"Let's just leave now, please. I can't go back there."

"I need to secure a ship for us, and credits." Masro just nodded accepting the fate she was bestowed. "Tonight, we will marry and embrace as husband and wife. I love you Masro." They kissed passionately one more time before parting.

They pulled apart from their embrace. He was very distraught at the latter part of the memory. Having still carried the guilt of the pain he knew it caused.

"Kylo, my love, you know everything worked out."

"Yes, but it took a lot of work when you came to the academy, if you remember?"

"I do. A lot had happened between us seeing each other that hardened me as a person. This is a memory I will have to fix." They held hands as they walked deeper into the cave.

They were at the academy now. Masro was heading toward Her hut with a high stack of books, trying not to think of her encounter with Ben as she walked past his hut. It had been a couple of weeks since their encounter in the great hall at the class year opening ceremony, but it still bothered her. She stopped when she saw Eulalie emerge from Ben's hut, dropping the books. Masro darted behind the nearest hut, more than sure her heart was broken. She knew she needed to give up her attachment to Ben but had held onto it for so long it was difficult.

Masro was torn between running away and marching up to him and kissing him like she has imagined doing for years now. To remind him of his love for her and hers for him, but she was so mad at him still. She knew joining the order would be treacherous to her heart. She turned to pick the books up and Ben was there.

"I felt you near, in pain," he said uncertain his eyes held questions. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing," she lied blocking her thoughts, and pushing her shields back up she hadn't realized she dropped.

"Then why are you shielding so hard?"

"Why are you trying to invade my thoughts?"The two stared at each other, any anger melted away as they could never stay mad at each other, Masro lowered her eyes trying to avoid giving away her feelings. "I'm was just going back to my hut to study and tripped." She knelt to get her books, he knelt to help but held onto the last book. "Ben, Stop trying to push into my mind."

"No, I'm not letting you leave until you talk to me," he paused looking at her while still holding the last book. "Maze, you once told me you would never block your thoughts from me, that you welcomed me, so you were never alone."

"I told you not to call me that, you lost the right to. We were children, young and naïve. Life is much more complicated, and you did leave me alone or you don't remember?" Masro continued to evade eye contact with him. He could read her like the books they held, pure anger towards him.

"Come to my hut I'll study with you."

She sighed at his continued pull he had over her. "Fine, let's go study, so you can stop bothering me about this topic."

"I'm still going to bother you, that's what family does. You know you're the only one I've ever counted as my family. You've always been in my thoughts even when we've been apart all those years."

"I thought so once as well, but perhaps you did treat me as family does. At least in my short experience of the galaxy." Masro's heart sank as they started walking towards Ben's hut. Ben could tell something was majorly wrong because Masro usually almost glowed to him like her force surrounded her with rays of sunshine, but she was so shielded that he couldn't always feel her since he saw her in the great hall.

She sat the books on his bed and began laying them out to reorganize them, Ben stood on the other side of his bed just looking at her. Willing her to be open up to him. She glanced up at him and quickly back down.

"Stop looking at me like that."

"Then tell me what's wrong, please Maze. I hate that we have this conflict . We spent so many years apart that I don't want the chance we have now to be ruined."

"Then I really can never tell you. It would ruin it." She turned from him, he was angry with her, his force flexed out in anger bringing a gasp from masro. It caused her to turn back with fire in her eyes and shields dropped; he felt her full hurt towards him and pain he had caused, "You don't get to be angry, Ben. You never came back, I waited for you all night in the cold then had to return to my parents' house to be told that the event in theed had been canceled and you had left the planet. We were to be married! We should be married now, we should have our child running around playing…" tears welled up in Masro's eyes, but she held them back.

"I was forced to leave; it was beyond my control!" Ben looked down in anger.

"Five years! Ben! Five years! You never came back, you never contacted me! You just abandoned me again. I reached out many times, wrote and received no reply," Masro's tears escaped her eyes and rolled down her cheeks she had thought they had dried up from the crying she did so long ago. She tried to calm down by taking a deep breath, looking Ben in the eyes her tone changed, "I loved you with everything of myself. I guess that's my fault, I disobeyed the forces will and was breaking with the vision of your future. I caused you to not come back."

"Maze, I tried everything to get back to you that night. Skywalker found out about my plan to leave the order; I don't really know what happened because the next thing I remembered was waking up in the sick bay of our ship already back in the core systems. It had already been several days. I wanted to contact you, everyday I made a recording, but I felt I couldn't explain my absence that it would all seem like an excuse to you to think I didn't want to marry you. I never received anything from you, my uncle must have hidden them. I haven't fully trusted my uncle since then and now I fear I have another reason to not trust him."

"Did you even want to marry me?"

"Yes, more than anything. Now you've joined the order as well, why?" Masro hated it when he was angry with her, but more importantly she knew that anger could lead Ben down a different path, she didn't want to temp the force again, but She felt trapped either way could be disastrous. Masro marched over to stand in front of Ben, he looked at her with both anger and love in his eyes.

"So, I could be near you, where I should always be. I love you more than words can describe. I have given up everything to be here right now," as she said this, she reached her hands up to his face, immediately shocking Ben out of his anger and pulled him in for a kiss. They both closed their eyes when their lips met. Ben wrapped his arms around Masro and hugged her to him tightly. Each of their force filled the other's body spilling in from their lips. Their kiss grew more passionate, neither wanting to let go for fear they would be lost. They hadn't realized their power also emanated through the other huts surrounding them until a knock at his door came. Masro reluctantly pulled away first, keeping eye contact.

Ben went to see who was knocking, stepping outside for a moment. When he entered the hut Masro was facing away from him sitting on his bed. Ben hesitated moving closer; he had wanted to kiss her since she arrived, but they had both taken the oath of the Jedi. He had assumed she no longer had these types of feelings for him.

"Now you know why I didn't want to tell you."

He moved in front of her and knelt. Masro turned to him and put a hand on his cheek. She dropped her shields again, releasing her thoughts to him.

"We don't have to talk about what just happened. It's probably for the best I just go, and we forget it," Masro spoke in Ben's mind. She went to stand up, he stopped her.

"No, don't leave. I feel the same way. I don't want to forget it. I just didn't think YOU had those feelings for me anymore,"Ben pulled Masro in for a kiss this time, pushing her back onto his bed. He climbed up on top of her, though they were fully clothed she could feel him hardening against her. Their kiss was escalating. It caused Masro to pull back. They just looked into each other's eyes, had they made a different life choice they would be married.

"Ben," she let the name hang there. She closed her eyes and tears began to escape "We can't do this. Don't think I don't want to, I do very, very much, but I have had visions of you and your importance to the galaxy my entire life. I can't be the one to sway you from saving so many others. Please don't hate me, I didn't want to tell you how I felt."

Kylo and Masro pulled back from each other back in the cave.

"That must have been very difficult for you to stop us." Masro looked at kylo and he instantly knew, she didn't stop them. She had altered the memory. "That was the altered memory wasn't it? Fix the memory, I want to experience our act of love."

Masro grabbed Kylo's hand and pushed her force to correct the memory in his mind. They were back in bed together; Ben was slowly undressing Masro on his bed. He slid his hands slowly down her body exploring her breast then to her pants undoing them so he could pull them off. He looked at the scars on her body wondering how she got them, kylo slid his hands along ones on her wrist.

"What has happened to bring you to me with so many scars?"

"Many adventures, I'll tell you about someday."

He stood to undress while watching Masro lay naked in his bed. His pulse and her breathing quickened. He realized had he not been taken from her all those years ago, they would have done this act of love that night. Ben slowly climbed back on to his bed and between Masro's legs. He pushed against his arms to look down upon her and into her eyes.

"I want you to know I still love you very much. You complete me, being with out you I have felt dead but then you came and breathed life into me." Ben lowered himself to kiss her pushing his tongue into her mouth. He reached down with one hand to help him in to Masro. She pulled back from him as she felt him enter her body. Her lips quaked as he slowly pushed into her, making her cry out. She muffled it with her fist in her mouth. Ben was unsure of how to precede not wanting to hurt her. "I don't want to hurt you."

She pulled him in for a kiss and he began to gently move in and out of her. It brought small cries from her lips and he was holding back wanting to scream her name behind his forced quiet moans. He finished and pulled out, searching Masro's face to make sure she was ok.

"When did you alter the memory?"

"There were other times after that incident I altered as well," she avoided the question.

"What do you mean?"

"It's more fun if I show you." Masro kissed kylo pushing the memories back.

They were lightsaber training at the academy, the other students surrounded them. Kylo struck at Masro sliding his lightsaber towards her hilt. She let him win the fight to have his arms wrapped around her.

"I want you right here," he whispered into her ear. She slowly turned to reset lowering to flash him with one of his favorite assets on her. They struck again, practicing foot work rotating around in a circle looking at each other.

"We could sneak away, they wouldn't notice right away," Masro said in Ben's mind distracting him, she spun around knocking Ben to the floor bringing her lightsaber to his neck straddling him. She spoke in his mind again, "I want you in me and your lips on mine."

"Where would we sneak off to?" He said in her mind.

"The room across the hall."

"Wait till he turns his back and go."

Masro jumped off of Ben, helping him up. They ran off with out being noticed. Once behind closed doors they embraced kissing. He lifted her to sit on a table so he could get closer to her. She undid her pants and he slid them off of her. They weren't wearing shoes because of training. He opened his pants to let out his hardened manhood, stepping back between Masro's legs. He kissed her again and slid into her. She pulled away with a gasp as he started thrusting in and out of her. Their arms wrapped around each other. They had to work at quieting their breathing so that nobody would hear. When Ben was about to finish, they heard the doorknob turning, Ben reached out with the force and held it so Masro could dress. He put him self painfully away with one hand and closed his robe that he had thrown on. Releasing the door, his uncle walked in.

"What's going on in here?"

"Nothing uncle.

"We're just discussing lightsaber crafting; Ben was saying I would soon take my journey to make my own." Skywalker seemed suspicious but nodded closing the door. Masro ran to Ben, "Are you ok?"

He threw his robe to the floor; his hardened manhood was no longer saluting but there was still lust behind Ben's eyes. Masro rubbed the front of his pants and knelt in front of him, opening his pants. She took him in the best she could and brought him to full hardness. Masro tasted herself on him as she bobbed up and down his manhood.

Ben reached down and pulled her to her feet. Kissing her passionately before bending her over the table. He reached around undoing her pants pulling them down to her knees. She cried out when he pushed roughly into her.

"Quiet your cries, my love," Ben ordered. He thrust until he finished inside her, pulling out of her turning her bringing Masro's lips to his. He knew she didn't climax, so he sat her on the table taking her pants off the rest of the way and spreading her legs. Ben kept eye contact as he lowered to his knees. Masro's breathing quickened as she watched him lean into her. She arched her back holding in a scream as he pleasured her. Masro ran her hands through Ben's hair as he continued. She felt the building up of her climax.

"Ben," she whispered when she climaxed. Ben pulled back and raised him self to her lips.

"We had a very intense relationship as you see, often hiding in different rooms at the academy to kiss or make love. Any time we could be alone we would sneak away. Skywalker almost caught us a few times, thank goodness for robes to quickly cover up. I realized it was taking you down a path that I didn't want you to go down. You started to become angry and resentful of Skywalker, even saying you wanted to kill him. I should have just let you; I wouldn't be between worlds. When I realized I had my mind-altering ability I changed it. I tried to take your feelings and alter them, but you always loved me no matter what I tried."

"It's because we are one soul. I wish you wouldn't have played with our lives like that."

"I'm sorry is all I can keep saying, if I hadn't, we would be in each other's arms somewhere in the galaxy." He reached out wiping her tears and kissed her. He was upset about it but couldn't change it.

"Why didn't you alter the entire memory?"

"Because it was special, and I thought at the time if you had that knowledge you wouldn't pursue it further. Although you did many, many times. You never told me what happened between you and Eulalie."

"You never asked." Masro gave Kylo the look, the one he knew if she had to ask, he would be in trouble. "Honestly, I don't remember. It wasn't what you and I did in either version of the memory that's for sure."

"Good. I can't stand her."

"Why?" Kylo laughed, his first laugh in days.

"Don't laugh at me. She was always throwing herself at you in front of me, like she knew something I didn't. Though sometimes I helped her literally throw herself."

"Oh, I love you." He kissed her.

"Stay away from her while I'm…what ever I am. I wouldn't want to come back to this world if something were to happen. I can sense she's close," she grimaced.

"Of course, my love, you're the only one for me. You're right that she is close though. We left the Jedi order, there are a few others as well," kylo shifted uncomfortably.

"You joined the dark side?" Masro had an upset expression on her face.

"Don't look at me like that. I did this for you."

"You shouldn't have. I'm not that important, you are the hope of the galaxy. It has been foretold you would bring peace." She touched his cheek and closed her eyes. After a moment Masro opened her eyes smiling. "Your future hasn't changed. I think we were told anything not Jedi was dark or evil, but the world isn't black and white. There's grey to."

"You're right. A lot of things we were taught were wrong, but I do embrace every part of me."

"As you should, it brings you to balance."

"You have always accepted me for just me."

"Why wouldn't I? I love all of you."

"As I love you," he brought her in for a passionate kiss. She pulled back, and gasped.

"I feel my presence being pulled back. I might be able to try this again, but I don't know how long."

"No, please don't leave me. I miss you and want you by my side."

"I'm sorry, my sky." They kissed and she disappeared in his arms. In anguish he shot his force out causing a small cave in. Kylo knew he needed to complete his quest; he took a deep breath trying to focus. As he walked further into the cave his thoughts returned to the task at hand, as it would bring him one step closer to Masro's return.

He reached the area of the cave still filled with Kyber crystals. Kylo knew it would be different than when he went on his journey as a Jedi. The crystals lit a bright light at his presence but darkened, having a hard time discerning kylo as light or dark. He reached out and touched the crystals closes to him. Just rubbing his hand over them. Some lit a bright white and other stayed cold to touch. He walked the cave looking for the one he wanted.

Then he saw it, the light that tried to emulate from it looked fractured. He realized it was cracked, like his life. Kylo reached out and grabbed it, but it would not come easy to him. He used his force and pulled it to him, but still no movement. Kylo reached into his bag, pulling out a small tool to hack at the stone around it. One fatal blow further cracked the crystal, but it came free.

Crystal in hand he turned and left for his ship. Returning to the hanger he went to his room to meditate on a design for the cracked kyber, knowing it would radiate power through the cracks as well. After some time, he had some ideas but went back to the book his grandfather owned, remembering the ancient designs he had seen before. As he turned the pages nothing stood out to him. Then he saw it a crossbar design that sang off the page at him.

He took the book and the crystal to the armory to finds the parts to put together his new lightsaber. It was like he was possessed with finishing the lightsaber, he was so focused that he didn't notice the other workers in the manufacturing plant. Once the lightsaber was finished, he knew he would have to complete it with a kyber that he bled for it to fire up with a crimson blade. He feared placing in the kyber it's current state to see what color it would light up.

Kylo returned to his room knowing he would have to pour himself into the crystal. He would need to break its connection to the light side and bleed with his anger. He pushed his force and anger into the kyber not realizing the time that passed. Memories of his childhood hit him, being abandoned by his parents, his loneliness when traveling with Luke. Then memories more recent almost broke him to think about. His near loss of Masro. In time he brought the kyber over to a crimsoned color. Hours and hours had gone by, but his lightsaber was complete.

Kylo lit his new lightsaber for the first time and the quaking blade shot out of the hilt with two miniature blades out of the cross bar to relieve the energy inside from the cracked crystal. It represented everything about him. He headed for where the knights were training to try out his new blade.