So this chapter is more of a summary of the last 10 chapters than a chapter in itself. There are a few new points but not that much. Enjoy!
-Miraculous Ladybug and Chat Noir-
Marinette limped over to her desk to watch as her partner faded into the night. Whispering for Tikki, Marinette went to remove Tikki from her bag, only to see her bag no longer rested at her side. Crap! Tikki was in there. Was she still back at the alley? Marinette's worries where put at ease as a weak voice squeaked behind her. A red blur zipped out her hair, landing on a plate of cookies resting on her desk. Tikki opened her eyes and lifted a cookie to her mouth. Marinette waited to say anything till she finished. Marinette moved over to her wardrobe. She lifted out one of her custom designs. It was similiar to the one she had on currently. The shirt was the same, white with her design. On top of that was a black over coat. It would have draped down to her feet if she put it on, but it would probably freak her parents out. The coat was a black leather, thin enough to be light on the shoulders. Instead of pink, the jeans where black. It was an outfit she had made to step out of her comfort zone. It turned out okay but it wasn't her best. White would show blood so she swapped it out for a black shirt aswell. Marinette quickly removed her blood stained clothing and swapped it out for her black shirt and jeans. Tikki finished eating her cookie.
"Are you okay, Marinette? You must have been scared, facing Hawkmoth."
Marinette turned to look at Tikki, but her gaze stopped on a photo of her parents. It was wrong. In the photo Marinette stood with her family, a grin spread across all their faces. It seemed distorted and blurry in her vision. She focused in on the frame and took a sharp inhalation of breath. In the photo her parents grin was lazy and lifeless, their eyes blank and empty, and blood escaping from a stab in there chest. Her own grin was whicked, demonic even as she looked up at her parents. Tears built up in Marinette's eyes. What is wronge with me? These... things I see. Why? Marinette shakily lifted her hand to the picture and placed it face down. A small voice interrupted her turmoil.
"Marinette, what's wrong?" Tikki looked at her owner as she stood. Marinette was trembling and her eyes where watering.
Marinette looked up at Tikki who now had moved to hover in front of her. Choking on her words, Marinette tried to speak.
"Cloud Control" she quickly breathed out, through her silent whimpers. Tikki recalled how her chosen had screamed when the akuma from earlier had forced her to feel extreme emotional pain. Could that still be traumatising her?
"What did he make you see?" Tikki squeaked.
Marinette's eyes broke, releasing hot tears. She tilted her head to look at her face down family photo, then back to Tikki. She fell down to her knees, using the table for support. "I saw-" blood "I saw-" death "I-" killed my family. I killed Chat Noir. "I- I can't Tikki. It hurts so much. It rips at my chest and swirls in my stomach. It bangs my head and poisons my mind. It's too much."
Tikki took in what her chosen had just said. Whatever she had seen, it was still hurting her. She was saying it was too much for her. Maybe it would be better? NO! Marinette is one of the greatest miraculous holders of all time. Whatever happens I hope I won't have to resort to that. I just need to support her.
"How badly where you hurt?" She squeaked.
Marinette was relieved with the change of subject. "Not the worst. A cut on my cheak, somebruising on my back, side and chest and my gash down my leg."
She stood up slowly and wiped her tears away. "Time to go talk to my parents."
Marinette limped over to her trap door and slowly opened it. She looked into her living room. Her parents sat, resting against each other. Marinette made to walk down the stairs when her vision was invaded by a sudden black. The black faded away to reveal red. No. She looked at her parents. They still rested on the couch, but blood was escaping from cuts across their shoulders and neck. Fighting the urge to vomit, she dizzily walked back up to her room, making sure to stay silent. She clambered through her trap door. Once fully in, she curled into a ball, letting the tears flow out of her again.
-Miraculous-
"I feel Marinette's negative emotions growing, even stronger than before. If she chooses to accept I can order her to kill herself and I won't have to use my own hands." Opening his cane he release a white butterfly. Reaching for it, Hawkmoth caged the creature in his hands. Infusing it with evil, he spoke. "I sense grief, hopelessness and a growing urge to give up. Giving up on something important. Something impactful." Releasing the akuma he continued with a twirl of his cane. "Fly my akuma and bring Marinette Dupain-Cheng to me!"
-Miraculous-
Why do I have to feel this way? Why do I have to deal with the pain. The trauma. The stress. The responsibility. The power. Why must I be cursed to see my parents in a horrific way. Why me?
Because I'm Ladybug.
Ladybug, the reason I have to deal with this. Almost all my problems are because of her. Because of my alter ego. Hawkmoth wants me dead, putting me and my family in danger. I can barely look at my family without feeling nauseous. I can't feel sad or angry, or risk I akumatization and dooming Paris. I have to be a role model. I have to be perfect. I have to live my life, only to forget it when I pass on the responsibility of the miracle box gaurdian. Ladybug's responsibilities are mine, only I have to deal with their repercussions.
A sudden thought protruded Marinette's mind. The miracle box! It can erase my memory, I just need to pass it on! Marinette turned to face Tikki. "I'm sorry Tikki but I just can't cope with everything in my head. I can do this no longer." Fear stretched across Tikki's face at this. Marinette really was going to give up being Ladybug. No! She couldn't! Marinette moved across her room and removed the miracle box from its current hiding spot, inside of her bed frame. "Tikki I don't want to remember. I can't feel this pain"
"Marinette please! You can't!" She begged. Tikki really didn't want to do it.
To absorbed in the box, Marinette didn't realise the akuma approaching her. Marinette made to recite the words to pass on the the responsibility. Tikki was crying. She couldn't believe it. She was going to have to do it. She had no choice. She had to. Raising her arm Tikki let out a small cry, and light flooded out of her hand, straight towards Marinette.
-End Chapter 11 (Summary Chapter)-
Here we go. Next chapter is where It happens. The point in the story where Marinette's consciousness is separated from Ladybug. I can't wait. Hope your enjoying the story and sorry it took so long to get to this point.
