I am such an idiot

Wandering the hallways of Liliana's citadel, I thought back to the day before's slip-up. Thankfully I had managed to avoid Jace who seemed a little confused by my sudden disappearance but luckily he chose to continue checking the library for clues to a cure. Even if we had already decided that there would be nothing to find, seeing as this condition was a first.

"That was a silly move. Thinking Jace would be interested in you even if you were human, which you are clearly not." Liliana commented and I jumped, whirling around to find her standing there. "A Planeswalker and a freak together? Not likely."

"Will you leave me alone? Do you like watching me suffer?" I snapped, not knowing my eyes were glowing a faint green. "Besides at least I'm a kinder person than you'll ever be...even if I'm a zombie." I added, pleased to see her eyes narrow. She actually raised her hand at me but I just laughed, loudly at her attempt to scare me.

"You are pathetic. No man will bothering with a freak like you...unless he's into Necrophelia." Liliana growled, turning on her heel as she walked away.

Once she left I frowned, her words hitting deep as I started to wander aimlessly.

She's right of course. I'll never have someone who cares for me because I am a mistake of nature. Maybe I should have taken my parents' advice and looked for a husband sooner...now I'm doomed to live alone.

Lost in thought I turned a corner, slamming into someone. With a startled yelp I landed hard on my backside, wishing once again I couldn't feel pain. "Oww!" I yelped, rubbing my backside with one hand.

"Sorry, Ailis I didn't see you there." Jace apologized, offering his hand and I took it as he helped me up. It was then I remembered why I was avoiding him and I blushed. "Why are you walking around here?"

"I have no idea, okay? I just needed some air...and that sounds really stupid for a creature who doesn't breathe." I replied, dusting off my dress.

"Is this because of the kiss?" Jace asked and I blinked up at him. "You do remember I can read minds right?" He added, chuckling when I quickly nodded.

"Yes I didn't forget. Look it was just a spare of the moment thing. It won't happen again." I answered and he sighed. "Do you want an apology or something?"

"I was actually looking for you. You need something warmer than a dress..unless you like being cold." Jace asked and I shivered, wrapping the cloak around me in a effort to keep warm. "I thought so. Maybe Liliana can give you something."

"Hmph I guess she owes me for turning me undead. Okay let's go and ask the necromancer if she has anything I can wear. Nothing low-cut or revealing." I sighed and he grinned, motioning me to follow him.

Even if I was still a little intimidated by her I was determinded not to show any fear, especially not in front of Jace as he led me towards her room. Once we arrived at her room, Jace lightly knocked on the door.

"Come in." Liliana called out. Turning the doorknob, Jace opened the door to find Liliana sitting on what looked exactly like a throne. "And you brought the..."

"Not a zombie." I answered before she could complete her sentence and she just shrugged, a smile on her lips.

"I was wondering if you had any clothes that would fit Ailis? She only has a dress and that won't keep her warm." Jace asked, ignoring my glare and she sighed. Rising from her chair Liliana walked over to us, stopping directly in front of me. Looking at me for a few seconds she turned to Jace, waving her hand.

"She wouldn't fit into any of my clothes. Besides why would I let that wear something of mine?" Liliana asked and I growled, only held back from attacking her by Jace who grabbed my shoulder. "Fine I'll give her something."

"Thank you, Liliana." Jace said, pretending not to notice when I crossed my arms. When Liliana turned her back on us, heading towards a small cupboard, I stuck my tongue out at the necromancer. Jace quickly clamped a hand over his mouth to stiffle a laugh and I grinned at him, enjoying myself.

Liliana returned a few minutes later, a top and skirt over one arm. Without speaking she handed them to me though I noticed her staring at me. Knowing what she wanted I took them from her, mumbling a quick thank you. I headed out of that throne room as quickly as my feet could carry me, the room itself making me nervous for reasons I didn't understand.

I had just left the room when Jace followed me so I waited for him. "You need somewhere to change right?" He asked and I nodded, still very much in awe of his mind-reading skills. Noticing the smile I gave him he echoed it. "You can't change in my room of course." He added and I felt my cheeks burn as he chuckled.

A few minutes later we arrived at yet another room, this one almost exactly like Jace's except for the cupboard at the very back of the room. "Wow nice. Just like yours." I commented as I stepped inside followed by Jace who closed the door quietly behind him.

"This is your room now if you want it." Jace offered and I grinned, setting the clothes down on the desk near the fireplace. "Liliana decided you needed your own room since you'll be staying here from now on."

"I guess I have to thank her properly, right?" I asked and Jace nodded, making me rub the bridge of my nose. "Okay then I will...later. For now I'd better get changed and maybe light a fire too." I said, stepping towards the fireplace only to pause when I had no idea how to. Seeing me staring at the fireplace Jace sighed, joining me.

"Let me help you." Jace said and I moved to one side as he knelt, lighting the fire in a manner of minutes. After he straightened I smiled at him.

"My parents didn't really teach me to light fireplaces or much of anything really." I told him and he frowned, head slightly tilted as I stepped over to the desk. "I was raised to basically be a housewife and mother. Only skills like cooking and cleaning were important for me to learn, according to my parents anyway. Just find a nice husband and settle down, they told me." I explained, running my fingers over the top of the desk. "Still...even being treated like that I miss them." I whispered, quickly rubbing my eyes.

"It's going to be okay, Ailis. What did you want to be growing up?" Jace asked and I brightened.

"I love to read and write stories." I answered and he laughed, making me cross my arms with a slight frown. "What's so funny?"

"You only read one book in the library yet you claim you love reading?" Jace told me once he calmed down and I shrugged, a tiny smile curling my lips. "You have a nice smile. You should do that more often."

"Thanks, Jace. I guess I was just upset about what happened to me. It's not everyday you're murdered and end up undead." I replied, gauging his reaction. Seeing the slight frown he gave me I giggled. "I'm kidding, Jace. You're pretty cute when you're startled." I pointed out and Jace turned his head but not quick enough for me to miss his grin.

"If you want to keep warm you should change." Jace suggested turning to leave. "I'll check the library for any information on your affliction. I'll be back later so take your time." He added, heading towards the door. He had just left, closing the door behind him when I sighed, running my fingers along the seam of the top.

"Okay well let's see how I look in this outfit. Hopefully it fits me." I whispered to myself, setting the top down before I slipped off my cloak. Setting it aside for now I grabbed the hem of my dress, carefully pulling it over my head. I pulled the top on, pleased to find it fit perfectly before I grabbed the skirt. These fit a little looser but they looked good as I twirled around, pleased with my new look. Leaving the dress on my desk I picked up the cloak Jace had gifted me, pulling it over my outfit.

Feeling better I carefully folded the dress, moving towards the cupboard. Opening it I set the dress down in it closing the door.

Can't believe they're gone. I'll never see them ever again

It was then I felt the begining of fresh tears running down my cheeks. I stumbled towards the fireplace, sitting awkwardly on the rug before the sobs started. Burying my face in my hands I began to cry, my shoulders shaking as I remembered the last few moments of my family's life.