Assassination Classroom fanfic
Warning : Fem!Nagisa, AU, OCC
Pairing : Karma x Fem!Nagisa
Rating: T
Disclaimer : I DO NOT own asssassination classroom and this fanfiction pure come from my head.
The break-up on this story is based on my own experience but not for the setting. With this story I close the old book and write the new one
Side story: the old story that I want to close
What is love?
That was a question that I always had in my mind
Why it feels so hurt? But… other people say love is the most precious feeling that human ever had if you never fell love then you'll never be happy.
Then… why I only felt pain from falling in love with someone? Why I'm always crying when I was caring and loving someone so much? Why my heart hurt so much until I can't bear the pain? Is that love?
If it's like that, I don't want it…
That's what I'm thinking, before that unexpected event…
I still remember that day was the gloomiest day that I ever saw in spring. Dark sky, rain pouring hard and my tears was concealed by rain…
Under that cherry blossom tree I was crying to my heart content… then suddenly rain stop falling to my face and someone ask me, "Is that really reassuring to cry under rain?"
I look to behind and saw the person who shed me from rain. When I saw him, his eyes caught my attention… it was color in beautiful mercury… never cross in my mind, that he will become someone precious to me…
And the story started like this…
3 years ago
My name is Shiota Nagisa, I'm 21 years old and I'm studying at Kunugigaoka University major in English literature. My friend said I'm so lucky that I have Asano Gakuushu as my boyfriend since three months ago, because they look at us like a lovey-dovey couple. But it's not like that… behind that, we tend to fight because our principle or our way to think is way to different. Even though like that, I love him…
He always expecting too high for me, with all my might I want to grab that, but… when I show him my flaws… he getting mad at me, he said that he was disappointed and not trust me again. Then, I'm trying to change to become what he want… but he never saw my effort… he just sticking with his expectation. What make me fell so hurt is… he said that I will never can fulfill his expectation… even though like that, I still love him with all of his flaw and I know I make so many mistake…
Right now, I with Kayano, Nakamura and kataoka sitting on a café and I told them what happened in my relationship with asano-kun…
"Nagisa-chan, did you really happy to have relationship like this?" ask Kayano.
"No, I'm not happy… But I can't leave him, I love him too much," answer me and tears down to my face.
"Are you crazy, Nagisa?! He doesn't deserve it! Just broke up with him!" yell Nakamura.
"Nakamura," said Kataoka while looking at Nakamura with a stern face, Nakamura give out a sigh and look to the other side. Then she look at me, "Nagisa, did you feel that you still yourself now?" ask Kataoka.
"No… I feel like another person…" answer me hesitantly.
"I know this still early for breaking up," said Kataoka, "But, if you not yourself, what the purpose of this relationship?"
"I don't know…"
Kataoka let out a sigh after hearing my answer, "Then again this up to you two…" said Kataoka, "Just preparing your heart for the worst, Nagisa."
"Yeah… I know," I said and my tears are getting more swift than before. Kayano pulled me into her hug and said, "You have a strong heart, Nagisa-chan. I know you can pass this without a problem."
"Yeah," I said, release myself from kayano and wipe out my tears, "Thank you so much," I look to my friends with a smile.
"You're welcome," said them and returning my smile.
On that night, I received a mail from Asano and he broke my heart into a million pieces again…
Sender : Asano Gakuushu
To : Shiota Nagisa
Subject : Us
Tomorrow we will talk face to face, you know what I want to talk about :)
- END -
Sender : Shiota Nagisa
To : Asano Gakuushu
Re: subject: Us
Okay…
- END -
I feel my strength gone, my tears falling down into my face and then I burry my face on the pillow to muffle my scream.
Why it must be like this? Why it must be ending like this? Isn't there any other way to fix this? That's what I thought…
That night I'm crying, screaming and wailing so much until I feel a sleep after exhausted…
3 years ago – Asano's car
Right Asano and I going through the road that we know out of our brain, we're going to the hill where the old cherry blossom tree we cherished placed. On the journey, we just stay in silent not see each other face, like a stranger.
The skies already turn into grey when we arrived at the cherry blossom tree and I'm almost crying when I see that cherry blossom tree…
"What your reason to defend this relationship?" ask him.
I'm closing my eyes and take a long breath before giving him my answer, "Because it's not the right time to give up, our relationship is new. We still have a long way to know and understand each other," and then I look at him, "I'm in the process of changing myself to be a better person you know."
"Your answer not make any effect to my decision, it's not about giving up or not. It's about effective or not," said Asano while looking at me, and tears begin to pooling at my eyes, "At first I want to serious with you, I believe you with all my might and I love you. I think I can support you for the better change, but what I got… you never change."
"I feel like, you're not worth for me to give you my time, love and trust. And because of that I become hesitant to help you, you never be grateful for what I give you. You demand more and more from me, I'm tired with your action like that it makes me sick and lazy to meet you," continue Asano while I just stay in silent and tear down to my face, "Then when in the last resort, you just start trying to protect it."
"I know I wrong, to be focus on making someone I love happy, but never see what are they really want. Right now I'm trying to change," I said and gripping on his t-shirt, "I started to change from the simple things around me, I promise you that you will feel the effect not too far again… just give me one month to prove it to you."
"I know you're serious about that, but I can't take it anymore, it's better if we broke up," said Asano with finality on his voice.
My tears falling down more and more, my lips quivered, my hands feel cold and then I hug him and wailing at him with all my might, "I still changing you know, please just give one month to prove it to you," beg me and he return my hug.
"No, I can't. My reason to leave you because I don't love you and not fond to be with you anymore," reply him and then he bring me to face him then his kiss me on the forehead, "Now, I want you think from my side, what did you do if you were me?" ask him.
I stay in silent for a while before giving out my answer, "I will… feel disappointed like or maybe don't trust her again… if she really want to change I will see her effort and think again about my decision. But when I see no change in her, that day I will leave her."
"So what's the different like our situation right now?" ask Asano.
"Because you're not listening to my reason and you not really see my effort!" answer me with a high pitched voice, "PLEASE LOOK AT ME!" I can't stand it anymore it feels so hurt… my heart feel like want to brush out of my body.
"I'm just avoid bigger problem before it's starting to surface you know," said Asano and he kiss my forehead again, "I don't want to hate you, right now… I don't have any love for you again… and I don't want to protect this relationship again…"
"Why it come like this? Can't re-think about your decision again?" ask me and my tears still pouring from my eyes.
"Please don't act like a little child, you do know I want to early marriage right?" ask him, "That's why I'm serious with you in the first place, because I want to find someone that will fill my other side someone that I can rely on."
"Like I said, at first I thought you're the one, but… I'm wrong. You just thinking two or three step forward and I'm already think further for my future. Then I'm starting to doubting this relationship and now my love for you is already gone. I don't want to hate you, that's why I'm ending this relationship," continue him.
My cry were louder and louder, I screaming at him, "Please just give me one more month to prove it to you," I said, " I'm still changing you know! I BEGGING YOU!"
"No, I'm already know you will like this," said Asano, "and you always repeating what you say, I'm tired of hearing that."
"Please…" said me with a small voice.
"My answer still no," reply Asano.
I drop my head and looking down at my feet even though it's blurry because of my tears, "I'm afraid to left by the people I love again, why did they leave? why?! I just want to make them happy with me!" said me.
"Then, make them happy with your way, even though now I'm not on the list. I still can protect and observe you from far away you know, I just severed the tie between us. Please think about it with your head, you're just not thinking clearly right now," said Asano and he start to drive again, "I will drive you home."
On the journey to my home, I'm crying and crying… and then the sky start to raining… told to be truth on the deep on my heart I want to end this relationship, but I choose to protect it because it was so precious to me…
When we arrive at the gate of my home, I'm already calm down, "Tomorrow I will pick you up, and I will not restrain my words. I will give you 15 minutes," said Asano.
"I know, It's better if we broke up," reply me, "Tomorrow just let me hug and kiss you for the last time."
"Thank you for understanding," he said and patting my hair.
After that I go out from his car without say anything nor I look at him, that day I'm not have any will to do anything, I'm just lock myself inside my room.
The next day, he give me the last hug, he give me the last peck on my lips and give me the last kiss on my forehead, "I will miss to do this," he said while pinch my cheek and ruffling my hair.
"Nah, I don't really care about that. My other friend often to do that to me, so it's nothing special," reply me.
He just give me a little laugh and then start driving to the restaurant we want to go for lunch, on that lunch I give him some advice and he do the same. I don't know if he really hear me or not, that's none of my business again. But one thing I feel, I miss to talk this carefree to him again.
He said that we become a friend, but I don't know about that… did we really become a friend? Or maybe we will avoid each other?
After lunch, I tell him to drop me at the cherry blossom tree and he do that. On the journey to there, we talk about many things and I bit him goodbye when we arrive. He stay in there for a while, then when his car gone I look up and start crying.
I think that day is the gloomiest day that I ever seen in spring. Dark sky, rain poured hard and my tears concealed by rain. Under this cherry blossom that save many memories with him I cried to my heart content and I'm screaming out loud…
Suddenly, the rain stop falling to my face. I opened my eyes and see an umbrella protect me from rain, "Is that really reassuring to cry under rain?" ask someone from behind with a baritone voice.
Then I look to behind and see the person who shed me from rain. When I see him, his eyes caught my attention… it colored in beautiful mercury and his hair red as blood. His height a little bit tall than Asano and I have a feeling that I see him in somewhere. But this time, never cross in my mind that this person will become someone precious to me in the future.
"Hey, are you listening?" ask him again.
"Ah, I'm sorry. Don't worry about that, I'm listening to your question," reply me, "and my answer is yes."
"What a weird person," said that person bluntly and a tick mark found its way to my forehead, "Do you not afraid to getting sick?" ask him again.
"No, and it's none of your business," reply me and then walking closer to the cherry blossom tree, what I did not expecting he still following me from behind.
"What do you want from me? Why did you follow me?" ask me and glaring at him.
"Wow, for a crying girl you're scary," said him with a playful smirk, "I don't want anything from you. But you seems like need someone to rely on."
I widened my eyes and then look to the other side, "That's… none of your business…" said me and my hands curl into a tight fist.
"I can lend you my shoulder if you want, you know," said him.
"I don't need any help from a stranger," reply me, then he pulled me to him while his other hand still holding the umbrella.
"Wha-" said me but being cut off by him, "My name is Akabane Karma. Now you know my name, we're not a stranger again. I'm sure you already heard about my name," he whispered to me. My eyes widened after hearing his name, Akabane Karma is the CEO of the biggest typhoon company in japan named Akabane's corp and he one of the youngest successful CEO in Japan.
"My name is… Shiota Nagisa," reply me and I smell tint of strawberry with mint, 'Is this what he smell… so different from Asano…' I thought while tightening my fist to his blazer.
"Cry if you want to cry, let it all out…" he said and like a magic spell my tears falling down to my face. I'm crying like no tomorrow in his embrace, he encourage me by whispering his words to me.
After that, Karma drive me to home… and we never meet again…
The next day, I told my friends my happened and they try to cheer me up… but for one week, I don't have any will to do anything. Until Nakamura, Kataoka and Kayano break to my house and bring me out from my bed.
"Nagisa! Get out from your slump! He's not the best for you!" said Nakamura.
"Yeah! You will meet someone who better than him, cheer up Nagisa-chan!" said Kayano while Kataoka patting my head.
My tears feel down again, but this time I feel relieve and for the first time in a week I'm smiling. I still trying to chatting with Asano, I told him that I'm in slump… but he told me that I'm not really want to change.
I feel mad at him, but what should I do? For the other four days I still chat him, but he feel like avoiding me. I ask him if he avoid me, but he said that I avoid him… when I do that, I just chatting him as a friend and I'm already feel nothing for him. Just sometimes… I have an urge to chat him…
"Just give him space, maybe things get awkward after you two broke up if he need you he will chat you first," said Kataoka, "You can do anything without him you know, we stay beside you. Just ask us if you need anything."
"Thank you so much, you guys are so precious to me… thank you so much for always stay beside me and supporting me," I said and hug them tightly. We laugh so loud and make the other people look at us, but we don't care about that.
After that many things happen, but one moment that I can't forgot, "I heard that we have a new part-time professor," said Kayano.
"Is that true?" ask me.
"I heard he's a handsome guy too," said Nakamura while reading her magazine.
"As long as he can teach well, I don't care about anything like that," said Kataoka.
"Because you already have a handsome guy on your side, right Kataoka?" ask me with a dark smirk.
Kataoka's face change into red color while the others laughing at her face, not so long after that our new professor come to our class and my jaw were dropping when I see who it was. Right now, Akabane Karma standing at in front my class and he introduce himself as our new part-time professor.
My friends were have no idea why my reaction like that and I see Karma give me a smirk from where he's standing, "Ne.. ne… Nagisa-chan," said Kayano while pulling my sleeve, "Why Karma-sensei looking at you just now?" ask her.
I let out a groan and put my head on my hand, "How should I know? In the first place why even he's in here?!" said me a bit loud while pointing at Karma.
My friends were shaking because they holding their laugh, while my face become pale after I realize what I do just now.
"Shiota-san, come with me to outside," said Karma, "I think I need to lecture you about manners in class."
"Yes, professor," reply me with a small voice and following Karma to outside, but before that I give my friends a glare.
On the outside Karma and I facing each other, but he's not say anything for a while, just standing there looking at me, "Ummm… is there any problem with my face?" ask me.
"No, just thinking how cold are you," said Karma while shrugging his shoulder.
"Wha-?" said me but being cut off by Karma, "That's make things more amusing," he said then grabbing some strand of my hair and he kiss it, "I will make you fall in love with me."
He said it seriously and his gaze make me stunned, "W-what do you mean by that?!" ask me with a rather high voice and red face.
"As just I said, I will make you fall in love with me," reply Karma and bring his face closer to me, "So prepare your heart for it, Na-gi-sa-chan," he whispered that word to me with a husky voice then he patting my head and come to inside the classroom.
While I'm still standing outside the classroom with a very red face and at the same time this is the start of the new beginning….
3 years later
"What are you smiling about, Nagisa?" said Karma from behind and he hug me.
"Ah… I suddenly remember when the first time we met," replied me.
"I remember you crying so much and you face was very funny. I still laughing at that if I ever remember that," said Karma and laughing hard.
"You're so mean!" protest me.
"What? Can you blame me? It's your own fault to crying at in front of a reincarnation of devil," said Karma with a dark smirk while I'm turn around to look at him and pouting
After he seen my face, chuckled and ruffling my hair, "Okay, okay… I don't want to make Mrs. Akabane mad, because I still want my breakfast now."
I'm smiling at his words, "So what do you want for breakfast, Mr. Akabane?" I ask.
"Anything you make, my lovely wife," reply Karma and he kiss me on the lips, "I love you."
"I love you too," reply me and we kissed again.
Now, this is another new story I no… we write, I do hope this story will never end… because this is the happiest ending that I ever make… the pain, the struggling and the effort was all worth for this moment…
The End
AN: this story is not beta-ed because I just want to let it be like that, your review reply will be given in the next chapter of our unforgettable adventure. Because this one doesn't include in there... I hope you enjoy this story and thank you for relenasuka for loving this story. I decided to make this story one with our unforgettable adventure...
