I'm not real. I'm not real. I'm not real.

I was staring at my food, trying to force myself to eat but I was making no progress.

"You need to eat" Ivy said "Just a little bit. For me?"

I rolled my eyes and then I took a few bites.

"Are you happy?" I asked.

"Extremely" Ivy smiled. "How are you feeling today?"

"I'm not" I said.

Her smile turned into a frown. She pulled me into a kiss and slid her hand under my shirt before I could stop her. She pulled her hand away and stopped kissing me. I looked down at her hand and it was covered in blood.

"You cut yourself again.." Ivy said as she got up and washed the blood off of her hand.

I'm not real. I'm not real. I'm not real.

"I wish you would talk to me.." Ivy said "I just wanna help you"

I'm not real. I'm not real. I'm not-

"Harley!" Ivy said "Are you even listening?"

"I'm sorry" I said "I have a lot on my mind today"

"Well, talk to me about it" Ivy suggested.

"It doesn't matter" I said dismissively.

"It does matter" Ivy reassured me.

"We can talk about it tomorrow or something" I said "I'm just getting a lot of anxiety."

"Ok" Ivy said "Do you wanna watch tv and cuddle? That might help your anxiety"

"Sure" I agreed.

"Alright but let me see if you need any stitches" Ivy said.

"Whatever" I said.

I followed her to the bathroom and she tended to my injuries. Fortunately, I didn't need any stitches. After that we cuddled on the couch and turned on the tv.

-2 Hours later-

I heard a knock at the door. Ivy got up and answered it. Selina walked in.

"Hey Harley" Selina said "How are you doing?"

I'm not real!

"I'm ok, I guess" I said.

"I heard about your incident" Selina said with concern "You can't be hurting yourself, Harley. You could really fuck yourself up."

"I know but-"

"But?" Selina asked.

"Nothing matters" I claimed.

"Why?" Selina asked.

"I'm not real" I said.

"Yeah, Ivy mentioned that..." Selina said, unsure of what to say. "Well if your not real then I'm not real either. Can't we all not be real together?"

"I guess but that doesn't make it easier to eat and I still need to cut myself." I said.

"You don't need to cut yourself" Selina said "It's all in your head"

"It doesn't matter!" I yelled "Nothing matters!"

I covered my ears with my hands.

"Harley, your ok" Ivy said.

"I'm not ok!" I yelled "I'm not here!"

I ran into the bathroom and locked the door.

I'm not real. I'm not real. I'm not real.

I pulled out my knife and pulled up my sleeve.

"Harley, please don't hurt yourself!" Ivy said from the other side of the door.

"I'm sorry Harley!" Selina said "I was just trying to help you!"

"You can't help me!" I yelled as I stabbed the knife into my forearm. I dragged it down to my wrist. Blood began spilling out of the cut.

The bathroom door opened. Selina ran in and restrained me while Ivy forcefully took the knife from me.

"Let me go!" I screamed as I resisted them.

"I will when you calm down!" Selina said.

"I just wanna feel something!" I screamed.

"You exist" Ivy said "Your here"

"I don't feel like it!" I sobbed "I don't feel anything!"

Selina let me go and I sat on the floor, with my knees to my chest.

"You got blood on me" Selina said.

"I'm sorry" I said quietly.

"Let me see your arm" Ivy demanded.

I showed her what I did to myself.

"You definitely need stitches" Selina said.

"Can you do it?" I asked "I don't wanna go to the hospital"

"Well, I am a doctor" Ivy said "Let me get the first aid kit"

She grabbed the first aid kit from one of the drawers and gave me stitches. Ivy pulled me into a hug.

"I love you, Harley" Ivy spoke softly "I just want the best for you and I think you should talk to someone"

"A therapist?" I said "Why bother?"

"I swear it'll help" Ivy said "You'll probably get prescribed some medication too and it'll help you think."

"I don't know" I said.

"Please" Ivy said.

"I just wanna go lay down" I said "I can't talk about this right now"

"We need to talk about this" Ivy said with concern "Before you kill yourself"

"You never know" I said "Things might be better if I wasn't around."

"I don't know what I would do if something happened to you" Ivy said.

"Fine..." I said, feeling defeated "I'll see a therapist but only because you want me to and your real, I think, so that means it kinda matters"

"Thank you for compromising with me" Ivy said then she gave me a kiss "I know this is hard for you."

"I think we need a night out" Selina suggested enthusiastically "There's a new restaurant that I've been wanting to try. I'll pay."

"I'm not hungry" I said.

"Ok" Selina said "I could go to the gas station and get a bottle. Do non existent people still get fucked up?"

"Probably" I said.

"Alright then" Selina said "I'll be right back"

Ivy and I went into the living room and sat down on the couch. Selina left to get some liquor.

We sat in silence and watched tv until Selina got back. Once she did, we went into the kitchen.

We started doing shots. Selina and Ivy were talking but I wasn't paying any attention.

Eventually, Ivy shook me. "Hey, are you ok?"

"Yeah" I said "I just need to lay down. I'm tired"

"Ok" Ivy gave me a kiss "Goodnight"

"Goodnight, Harley" Selina said.

"Goodnight" I said.

I went and laid down in my bed. It didn't take long for me to fall asleep.


I'm sorry. Ik that it's kinda boring right now but it will get better in the next chapter and the next chapter is gonna be longer then the previous chapters. Shout out to Agent Banana for the comment. It's literally the reason why I countinued this story. Let me know if you want me to do more Harley Quinn stories and any suggestions for this story would be appreciated.

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