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Chapter 4: We need to talk

MC: "Have you noticed anything wrong with Sayori?"

Sayori's Mom: "No, can't say I have? Why do ask?"

MC: "You might want to take a look at this. Give me a minute, please." He takes out the noose from his backpack and takes a picture of it with his phone. After taking it he sends the photo to her and waits for her response.

Sayori's Mom: "What is this? What am I looking at?"

MC: "It's a noose. I found it in her drawer this morning." He waited for her to response to the news, but instead someone else did.

Sayori's Dad: "Hello Michael? It's me, her dad. I saw the picture you just sent to my wife and she told me what's happening. Are you sure it's hers?"

MC: "Yes definitely."

Sayori's Dad: "God I can't believe it. Damnit and we're not home today. We're both out for a business trip."

MC: "Hmm … Why doesn't she stay over at my place? I can look after her."

Sayori's Dad: "No we shouldn't. We don't want to burden you."

MC: "Nonsense, she's like a sister to me. Besides it's the least I could do since the both of you done the same for me."

Sayori's Dad: "Well if you say so? Please take good care of her."

MC: "I will."

Sayori's Mom: "Well it was nice talking to you again. It's a shame this is our first conversation we had in a long time. We'll be back tomorrow after you kids finish school. Until then take care of her."

MC: "Will do bye for now." He hangs up the phone. He takes a look at the noose in his hand again. (This feeling I'm having again? Have I been through this before?) He stares intensely at it. (Why does she have this? What would make her feel this way? Now that I think about it. I don't really remember much of my childhood? Everything seems like a blur?) He puts the noose back in his backpack and looks at his watch.

(Well I better get going? Sayori is probably loosing her patients waiting for me to finish my "errand".) He puts on his backpack and heads out to meet up with Sayori who's waiting at the front gate of the school. "Sorry for the wait."

Sayori: "Na, it's alright. You weren't gone too long, so everything is a ok."

MC: "I see, well that's good? You ready to get going?"

Sayori: "You bet."

The two of them began their way home. On their way home, MC thought about what's been going through her head? He thought of multiple scenarios of why she would feel the need to carry a noose in her room, but the more he thought about it, the more pain he felt in his heart. He kept his thoughts to himself and tried to think if there were any signs she gave him during their childhood together or recently?

MC: (Damn it's no use. I can't think of anything that may have caused her to have these thoughts. There's only one way. I have to ask her directly. I can't let her go easy if she decided to deny it. I have to tackle this head on, even if I don't want to know the truth.) He looks over to Sayori, seeing a smiling face on her and looks up to see his house in plain view. (Alright, I just got to invite her over and keep my eye on her. Nothing to worry about. I have her parents permission. I need to know the truth, but ... why do I feel like I already know the answer?)

Sayori: "Well looks like we're here. I'll be heading off now. I'll see you tomorrow at school." Just a she was about to walk further up.

MC: "Hey Sayori." She stops in place.

Sayori: "What's up?"

MC: "Want to have a sleepover?"

Sayori: "W-what right now?"

MC: "Yeah. It's been a long time since we had one. So how about it? Want to have a sleepover like old times?"

Sayori: "Well I don't know about that? I got to be at home since my parents aren't around and I'm sure they'll be worried if I'm not home while they're out on their business trip."

MC: "Don't worry about it, I already asked them and they said their ok with it."

Sayori: "You did what?"

MC: "I asked your folks if it was ok for you to spend the night at my place."

Sayori: "Wait, so the errand you had was?"

MC: "Me calling your parents. To be honest I'm surprised that they still use the same phone number. Saves me the trouble though."

Sayori: "I don't believe you." She looks at him in doubt.

MC: "Go ahead and ask them yourself." She does what he asked and pulls out her phone to call her mom. After a couple of seconds had past, she hung up the phone. "Well?" She looks at him with an annoyed look on her face as he grows a smug face.

Sayori: "Fine, just let get my stuff then."

MC: "Yeah that's cool." She leaves for home, while he enters his own. While Sayori heads home to pack up her stuff she's going to need. MC gets his room cleaned up real quick. He organized his belongings and heads off to the guest room. When he enters he saw the fresh aired room, clear white walls, and clean carpet. "Wonder if I should let Sayori sleep here tonight? No I shouldn't. I need to keep my eye on her. Who knows what she might do if I leave her alone too long? Maybe next time whenever she decided to spend the night again? Hopefully by then she feels better."

He heads downstairs to the kitchen to find a menu. After struggling finding a menu, he dials some numbers on his phone and makes a call. "Hello? Yeah I would like to order some pizza. Yeah, hm, ok thanks." He hangs up. Just as he was about to put down his phone on the counter. The doorbell rang. "Well that was fast?" He quickly leaves the kitchen and answers the door. "Well, well, well nice of you to visit."

Sayori: "Hmpf meanie."

MC: "Heh, heh, well I just ordered pizza, so let's just go to my room and talk about what we both could write for our next poems. How about that?"

Sayori: "You're lucky I like pizza." She follows him upstairs to his room. "Wow it's been so long since I was here. Luckily not much changed."

MC: "Hey?" The both of them laughed and started working on their next poems.

The both of them started sharing ideas about what they could write and when they did have an idea they would start writing. At first they struggled a bit since they normally work alone at home, but got used to it rather quickly. The both of them agreed not to share their poems with each other until tomorrow at the club as it would seem unfair to share theirs early. When he finished he looked over to see how Sayori was doing and saw that she hadn't finished hers yet and decided to keep his mouth shut so he doesn't ruin her concentration. Soon enough his doorbell rang signaling that the pizza had finally arrived.

He quickly rushes down to the front door with money in hand and got the pizza from the delivery man. After obtaining it he went to the kitchen to grab some drinks and went back upstairs. By the time he got back to his room, Sayori finished her poem. She looked at him with a smile on her face and a bit of drool at the sight of the pizza box. With her stomach growling like beats she devour half of the box while MC continues to wonder how she hasn't gain any weight from all that eating? While they eating he turned the TV on and watched whatever was good on. After eating and watching TV in silence Sayori spoke up.

Sayori: "Hey MC."

MC: "What's up?" He mutes the TV.

Sayori: "... By any chance do you like Yuri?"

MC: "Of course I do, she's one of my friends."

Sayori: "That's not what I meant. I'm referring to … if you have … any feelings for her?"

MC: "Where is this coming from?"

Sayori: "Just answer me and be honest. Please?"

MC: "…" He looked away from her to think then faced her again. "I honestly can't say at the moment. Sorry about that."

Sayori: "It's ok. It was a sudden question." He looks at with concern. "Well if you do have feelings for her or any of the other girls that's ok. Just as long as you don't forget about me." She says with a smile on face, but to him. He knows she's faking that smile.

MC: "Sayori, I could never forget about you."

Sayori: "Really? But there all so cute and attractive. I'm sure one of them would love to spend time with you, as a matter a fact. I think all three of them like you already?"

MC: "Maybe, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you. I don't want to make the same mistake again."

Sayori: "Again?"

MC: "Be honest with me. Were you planning to kill yourself?" He looks at her straight in the eyes as she widens hers.

Sayori: "W-what are you talking about?"

MC: "Playing dumb now?"

Sayori: "I'm not. What would make you think I'm depressed. Cause I'm not. Ain't no rain clouds here." MC takes his backpack and unzips it taking out the noose from it.

MC: "Then explain this. I found this in your drawer."

Sayori: "That … I …" She struggled to say something, but couldn't come up with an excuse, but instead of giving him an excuse she confessed. "I'm sorry … I never wanted you to find out about this."

MC: "Why? Why are you hiding this from me? You were always so happy and cheerful, but to have this? To lie to me."

Sayori: "MC …" Tears start to flow out of her eyes.

MC: "Please … tell me the truth. No more excuses."

Sayori: "... I never wanted you to know this. That's why I kept it a secret. I never wanted you to know about any of this. I didn't want to waste your time feeling sorry for me."

MC: "You could never be a waste of time. We're friends right? We're there for each other through the good times and the bad times. Please, just tell me. Are you suffering depression?"

Sayori: "Yeah" She looks down to her knees. "I've been suffering depression ever since we stopped seeing each other. I never wanted you or the others to know this. I didn't want to waste anyone's time, trying to cheer me up or to show any concerns for me." He remains silent to listen to her true feelings.

"I'm just so tired of all this. My heart is in so much pain seeing everyone being happy and me just suffering. Perhaps this is punishment for being selfish? All I wanted was for you to be here, because being with you is what makes me happy. It gives me a reason to live. Without you what's the point in getting up out of bed. This is the reason why I wake up so late. What's the point? In the end all I could do is put on a fake smile and make sure you're taken care of by the others."

"The rainclouds appearing above my head. There is no hope for someone like me. A selfish person who doesn't want to be forgotten or to be alone forever. I just can't take it anymore. It's too much for me to handle. I'm just so lonely. I never wanted you to know about this, but you found out. Guess this proves that life wants me to suffer. I just want to sleep forever. I don't want to be a burden to you or the others. I'm sure when I gone nobody would miss me."

MC: "Enough!" She jumps a bit.

Sayori: "Michael?"

MC: "You could never be a burden to me. You're not selfish I am."

Sayori: "But it's my fault…"

MC: "No! It isn't. I'm the cause of this. I let down my closest friend, because I was being selfish. This is my fault. I shouldn't have left you alone. I don't even know why I stopped seeing you. Perhaps this is my punishment for letting you down." He hugs her. "I don't want to let you down anymore. So please don't you ever consider suicide. If you do, then I'll be even more depressed than I already am."

Sayori: "Michael … I'm sorry for hurting you." She starts crying even more.

MC: "Don't be. I'm the one who should say sorry. The only reason why I'm having a good time in the club is because of you. Thank you."

Sayori: "Your hugs are so warm." She hugs him back.

MC: "I know you can over come this."

Sayori: "How do you know if I can?"

MC: "I just have a feeling is all. It's not much, but … if you ever see those rainclouds again. I'll be there for you with an umbrella in hand. That is my promise to you."

Sayori: "Am I really that important to you? What if you fell in love with someone else? Then what will happen?" He doesn't say a word. "I love you, but it hurts. I don't want this feeling anymore. I don't want to be forgotten."

MC: "You won't, because even when I'm with someone else, there is a place for you in my heart. My life won't be the same when your gone. Just emptiness."

Sayori: "Really?"

MC: "I can't love you as a lover, but I can love you as a sister and that's a love no one else can have, but you."

Sayori: "That sounds great. Thank you." They both kept their hug in place. Not breaking it for a second. When her tears dried up and her sobbing stopped. They broke from the hug and wiped her eyes. "I should probably get rid of the noose?"

MC: "No I might just untie it and keep it for a different purpose."

Sayori: "Gasp! You better not be thinking of doing anything dirty with it?"

MC: "No! What would give you that idea? Wait why would you be thinking that?" The two them had a good laugh about the rope and they both agreed to continue watching TV until it was time for bed. "Well now it's time for bed. Here you can sleep on my bed tonight." She remained still. "What's wrong?"

Sayori: "I can't sleep in your bed. Where are you supposed to sleep?"

MC: "I'll just sleep on the floor."

Sayori: "I won't allow that. I'll sleep on the floor."

MC: "No you sleep on my bed you're the guest."

Sayori: "No you, this is your room." They both continue to argue for a while to see who gets the bed and floor.

MC: "Fine I guess we'll share then?"

Sayori: "What?"

MC: "You left me no choice. Now then come on in, I'm sure my bed can fit us both?"

Sayori: "Alright if you say so." She got under the covers. "It's really warm?"

MC: "You know this feels quite nostalgic?"

Sayori: "Yeah it does. It feels like we're kids again? Hey MC, do you remember when we were kids?"

MC: "You're going to have to jog my memories."

Sayori: "It was when I saw my first scary movie. Mom and dad were watching a scary movie and I so happen to be walking by until I saw a jump scare."

MC: "Oh wait I'm starting to remember now. You got so freaked out that you asked if you could spend the night over and when it was bed time you freaked out at the lights turning off."

Sayori: "Yeah and that was when I asked if I could share your bed with you. Like what we're doing now. You know, looking back at it. It's starting to feel like I'm being taken care of by my brother now." She snuggles up a little closer to him.

MC: "Yeah, it's starting feel like I'm watching over my sister now." He looks down on her and sees that she already passed out. "She already went to sleep? Oh well, this is ok. Good night Sayori." He pets her as she gives off soft breaths. (… This feeling again. It feels as if I've been through all this before, but when and how? All this deja vu and those dreams? The girl who hangs herself. It was you wasn't it, but how? Is it just coincidence, maybe? The bigger question is, why did I stop seeing you? I don't remember. I don't remember much of my past either. When I look back, it's all just one big blur.)

As he thinks to himself, he looks at Sayori's peaceful face and places his hand on her peach color cheeks. "… Sayori this isn't the first time you've been through this has it?"

End of Chapter 4