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*Happy p.o.v.*

What had I done? I let out a long sigh as I leaned forward in the shower my hands resting on the wall. I had let my lust and hunger for her get the better of me. I was surprised when she hit me as hard as she did and surprisingly enough the killer side of me didn't want to rear its head. I know it's more than just the lust and hunger I know somewhere deep down it may have some feeling to it…towards her. But, that's the thing its deep down, I couldn't like people like that not with who I am not with what I am. I couldn't do that to someone like her she deserves better. I looked back at the door that led to the room where I left her laying in my bed. She was beautiful laying there and last night she was irresistibly sexy but, I had to keep that to myself. Not only do I know that Jax and Clay would probably have my head if they found out that I touched her but, she didn't need me. I was always on the run…I always would run the risk of not coming home or doing things that she would not approve of or need in her life…she deserved better. I was the killer…I didn't deserve an Old Lady. I clenched my fist against the wall restraining myself from punching it at my next thought. I would have to push her away and I couldn't be nice about it…

*End of Happy p.o.v.*

I opened my eyes to see a wall in front of me, once I rolled over to see an empty spot beside me. It took me a few minutes to remember why I was there and what I had done. I felt a blush creep up my cheeks and I heard the shower running in the background. I couldn't help the wide smile that crept up my face and I pulled the blankets over my body as I leaned over and grabbed my phone from the stand beside the bed. I got a text from Cherry and a call from Gemma, the text was Cherry asking for details and it said not to lie she saw me disappear into Hap's room and not come back out and Gemma was letting me know she would be there around ten to grab me and to be ready to go and to make sure the boys are up. I looked up at the time and I had an hour to get ready, I started to grab my clothing so I could go get ready. I was just pulling the dress down and adjusting it when I heard the bathroom door open behind me. Happy stood there with his white t-shirt in his hands and his jeans hanging off his waist. I bite my bottom lip trying hard to suppress the girlish giggle that wanted to come out after seeing his abs…I didn't really take my time to admire his body last night and now I was glad I could see it. I grabbed my wedges from the floor and turned to face him just as he was putting his shirt on. "Hey listen I-"I started to tell him

"Shouldn't you be gone?" he asked rather coldly

I scrunched up my face in confusion at his tone, did I do something wrong? "Um…I was just about to tell you that we have an hour before Gem is here and I was going to go get ready and say bye to Cherry…"

"Whatever do what you want." He said uninterested as he reached for his cut placing it over his shoulders.

"Okay what is your issue?"

"I don't have one." He said stepping in front of me

Maybe he just wasn't a morning person? I stepped up closer to him and went to reach for his shirt to place my hand on his chest. But, right before I could his hand caught my wrist pulling it away from him. "Listen girl whatever you think this is…your wrong? I thought we were on the same page last night."

I looked up at him shocked at what he was insinuating. I shoved him away from me and went straight for the door and opened it. Before I took a step out of the room I turned back to face him trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to make an appearance. "I should have known what you were after, I'm not one of those whores and I thought you realized that. If you wanted a toy you should have taken one of the bimbos you had all over you. You deserved that punch last night I hope you feel good about yourself. You're a self-righteous pompous asshole!" my voice rose with every word I said and if my words could spit venom I swear to god he would be covered in it, angry didn't even begin to cover how I was feeling at that moment.

Once I slammed the door and turned around I saw Cherry standing there shock written all over her face. I knew she had heard everything. I could feel the tears finally start to brim my eyes. "So, I suppose I shouldn't ask for details." She said

With a small smile on her face I laughed at that and walked forward whipping away the little tears that had fallen and wrapped my arm around her shoulders steering her towards a room. "Let's get me ready to go."

~~SOA~~

I was wearing a low V-neck black t-shirt with a black and white plaid shirt over top and a pair of light blue tight jeans with slight tearing around the knees and a pair of my dvs skater shoes that where black except the laces which were black with neon green stitching lines. Cherry had braided my hair starting at the top and braided all my hair back into a bun on the top and my makeup was left to be natural. I was looking myself over and I really didn't know what to think, it wasn't too long ago that my hair was a knotted mess, my skin was pale and this clothing was something I would have never worn…I wouldn't be this good looking. Making that change in my life was the best for sure. I grabbed onto the suitcases that I had packed the day before and I walked out with Cherry to meet Gemma. When we walked out everyone was standing outside around the bikes saying goodbye to their brothers and the president was talking to Gemma and Jax. Happy's eyes connected with mine and I glared at him before I walked to Gemma. As we got closer Gemma stepped away and gave me a quick hug and when she pulled away she gave a good look over, "Do you have everything baby?"

I nodded my head and Gemma leaned in and whispered, "I heard by the way you and me have something to talk about now don't we?"

I looked down bashfully and I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and pull me up in the air from behind. I let out a squeal and grabbed onto the arms that were wrapped around me. Once I was on the ground I turned around to see Kozik standing there looking awfully proud of himself. I couldn't be mad at him when he looked at me like that so I let out a small laugh and said "That is one hell of a goodbye hug there spiky."

He looked behind me at Gemma confused and asked, "What do you mean goodbye?"

"You know I'm leaving today right?"

"Yes I do. But, I am coming with you guys. I have some business to take care of in Charming for a bit, I'll be down there with you guys for about a week. Did Happy not tell you?"

I didn't needed to be reminded about Happy, I looked past Kozik to Happy who was watching us with careful and curious eyes. I narrowed my eyes and said harshly "It must have just slipped his mind but, that's okay I wasn't willing to part with you just yet spiky."

He placed his arm over my shoulders and replied, "You and me both butterfly."

"Are we heading out now ma?" Jax shouted over by the bikes

Gemma nodded her head and Kozik started to put my bags into the SUV. I turned to face Cherry and she looked like she was about to cry "Hey now don't do that darling, I will be back I swear I gotta go for a little while though but, I am always just a phone call or a text away."

She put on a smile at that and I had a feeling it wasn't full hearted at the same time. Through the time I had known Cherry I had noticed that she didn't get along with the other girls here. She wasn't like them in my opinion, she was didn't suit this lifestyle and no one here seemed to pay her any mind unless it was another crow bitching at her for taking her son or the son asking for her company. She deserved better and I secretly hoped that some guy whether he be son or not came and swooped her up. I knew she had it tough here but, I knew she was strong when it came to the women so as long as she didn't fuck with the wrong son like I did she would be okay. I gave her a big hug almost reluctant to let her go and gave her a kiss on the cheeks. When I looked back for Gemma I realized that she was with the boys at their bikes giving them each a quick hug and kiss. I walked over to her and the boys giving them the best smile I could muster. Being so close to Happy was fueling my rage once more. I started with Kozik who was on the end and wrapped one arm around him and a quick kiss on the cheek, "Ride safe." I told him with a squeeze to his shoulder.

He smiled at me and I moved onto Jax I did the same thing with him except instead of pulling away, Jax held on for a few seconds longer and whispered in my ear, "Are you okay? Something seems wrong."

I pulled away from him and shook my head subtlety. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and let go of him. "You to ride safe." I cautioned him

"I will, we will be behind you and Savannah?"

"Yeah?"

"When we get back and get you settled at Ma's, I'll make good on my promise?"

The smile that was already on my face got wider, I would finally get to see his baby boy. I nodded my head "That's the smile I wanted to see." Jax remarked

Now it was finally on to the last person who if I could avoid I would but, I didn't want anyone to notice. So I walked over and once I reached him I stared at him straight in the eyes, my eyes never leaving his. I tried not to show my emotions to him just like he was doing with me but, I knew that my anger was written all over my face the closer I got to him. I leaned forward and placed my arm around his neck and gave him a kiss on the cheek pulling away quicker than I had with the other boys. "Ride safe," I told him and then quietly whispered so only he could here, "Sir."

I could see anger flash in his eyes. He got my point, I was pissed and there was no way that I could be nice to him after what he had done. I felt betrayed and when I felt that way at any other point in my life I always got them back and I always hit them where it hurt. For Happy that was his pride, he had a lot of it and I didn't know when or how but, he would regret what he did. I thought that we possibly had something and it wasn't the fact that it was a one night stand thing it was the fact that he had grouped me into the group of crows like I was like every other one of them and I wasn't. I looked over to Gemma who had her eyebrow raised slightly and I gave her a smile and one more to Happy and walked over to her SUV.

We were on the road for about twenty minutes when Gemma spoke up, "So what happened between you and killer?"

"There isn't much to tell." I replied absentminded

"It didn't look like that to me. Is there something I should know?"

I was quite for a few moments "Gemma can I ask you something seeing as you have been a part of this life longer then I have."

Gemma looked over at me cautiously "Sure baby."

"How does a son choose an old lady? Like from some of the stories I've heard most still hung around the club like the crows but, how do they pick the old lady out from a group of them?"

"Well, it all depends on the son," she looked into her rear view mirror before she continued, "There are three types baby, you got the sons like Koz where he has had an old lady where he was stupid enough to take an actual crow, someone who had been passed around through everyone. He kept saying she was different than the rest but, in the end all she wanted was his money and nothing else, she got tired of the old lady bit pretty quick and because he didn't put his crow on her them splitting up was no big deal. Then you got sons like my boy where yes you're right that he did find his wife through the club she hung around to but, unlike Koz she had enough respect to not sleep with any son, she wasn't after the crow she was just looking for fun…unfortunately that led her down a dark path. He still didn't slap a crow on her either but, he wanted to in the beginning before she got into the crank. Then there are men like Hap…who choose not to take anyone whether it be because of the role they play in the club, the fact that they see the mistakes that his brothers make or just because that's who they are. We have lots of men that make the mistakes of taking a croweater but, when someone like you comes along or me for example who value themselves over the standard that the club puts the croweaters at well, that's when you got brothers fighting over you. The men that get the good ones are smart enough to at least pick a girl who is strong and independent they are the ones that last, because trust me hunny to be an old lady is no walk in the park there is a lot of things you have to cope with and rules that you have to follow. Listen when we get there your new, your fresh meat and even though I love them boys I know how some of them are. Some you will have to put in their place and make sure that is where they stay and I can guarantee a run in with a croweater or two. Especially if you have a relationship with one of the guys let alone have sex with one of them…those girls can get pretty nasty especially if the son is a favorite."

"Are they really that bad, none of the girls here seemed that bad."

"That's cuz you were always with that girl and didn't see the looks they were throwing at you. I bet if they could have gotten you alone for even one minute they would have tried to do what they always do. I am going to tell you this now, you put them in their place the moment you let them get the upper hand they will try and put you under them and that baby is not where you belong."

I had heard some stories of what old ladies had done to push the crows from their man and most were not pretty. Gemma reached out and grabbed my hand, "Listen baby chasing after Hap it won't be easy and I don't know what happened there but, he doesn't do anything without a reason."

"We had sex…" I felt Gemma hand flex in my hand and when I looked over she had a small smirk on her lips.

"Well at least the outfit worked, I didn't think it would work that well."

"He told me that was all it was."

"Sometimes that is just the way the ball rolls baby you just learned it the hard way."

She was right on that one I definitely learned that the hard way. I had a real bad habit of letting my emotions get control over my common sense sometimes. But, that wasn't always a bad thing…

~~SOA~~

Charming for the small town it was, was actually very homely. The people from what I could tell seemed nice and unlike some towns I had seen didn't seem to be too worried about having outlaw bikers in their town it was almost as if they felt safer. We had just finished unloading the SUV into the house and we were standing around Jax's bike as we were getting ready to set off towards the hospital. "Bring her back here by no later than five Jaxson she needs to help with the family supper."

If there was anything that I understood it was that being the daughter of the two most important people of the club there were certain things to be expected of me. Things like family suppers were mandatory to attend and help set up I knew that much. On the way Gemma had explained certain things to me about what was expected. I knew there was more than that but, there was a dinner tonight to introduce me to the guys I hadn't met yet and tomorrow there was charity event that the old ladies were hosting so I would be there to set up and entertain and after I had settled in I would be working at the shop full time until I found a different job that I would want but, even then it was expected of me to work when I could at the shop. Jax leaned forward and gave Gemma a kiss on the cheek "I will."

"Tell Abel I said hi?" she asked

Jax laughed but nodded his head and passed me the helmet. "Were going to head back to the shop check in with Clay." Koz said from behind me

Jax just nodded his head and got onto the bike and I did after wrapping my arms around his middle.

I took one more look at Happy before I placed my face onto Jax's back and we took off.

He was adorable and definitely looked like his father. He had his own room separate from the others and when I asked Jax why that was it was so that he could receive the one on one attention from doctors without the disturbance of other babies. I was standing over Abel as Jax was outside talking to some pretty brunette doctor and I smiled wide when Abel's eyes caught mine and he cooed and giggled his little hands swinging in the air at me. I leaned in closer placing my finger towards him and he grabbed onto it tightly. I let out a little laugh and I was so happy in that moment. This moment right here was so worth it in the end, he was so cute and I knew then that I was already growing attached to the little guy. "I think he likes you."

Jax said from behind me slightly startling me in the process. I smiled at him before I turned back to Abel. "Can you pick him up yet?" Jax was standing beside me at this point staring at us with a smile on his face.

"No not yet, doctors don't want to risk anything yet. They want to make sure that he response well to them first and that there are no further issues before we can do that."

"I see. Well I think this is enough as well," I stood up and away from Abel and smiled at Jax, "Thank you so much I needed this."

"It's no problem." I looked past him to the window that looked into the room to see the same doctor looking over a chart with another young male doctor.

I nodded my head towards her, "She is pretty."

"Yeah she is….we used to date."

"She isn't?" I asked without directly asking

"No that's not his mother her name is Tara Knowles but, she is Abel doctor"

I nodded my head and looked between him and Tara and I saw something between them and before I could stop it I asked "You love her don't you?"

Jax looked shocked at my question but, after a few second he nodded his head. We stood together with Abel for a few more minutes before he glanced at his phone and said "Well it's almost five we should get you back."

I nodded my head and leaned forward and placed a light kiss on the plastic in Abel's direction before we left the hospital. As we did I didn't miss the longing look that Tara sent in Jax direction.

~~SOA~~

"Savannah the boys are here! Get your ass out here and be a proper host!" Gemma yelled from down the hall

I closed the drawer to my dresser and rolled my eyes. As much as I enjoyed Gemma happiness I realized quickly that you didn't want to get on her bad side so, I went immediately to the front so she didn't have to come looking for me. Gemma stood at the end of the hall waiting for me and once I reached her she wrapped an arm around my shoulder and pulled me into her. "Okay baby it's time to meet the boys."

I watched as Gemma greeted people as they came through the door and as she did this each of them either let me welcome them or I was introduced to. Clay was naturally the first through the house, he gave Gemma a quick kiss and walked over to me "Hey Kiddo, you get here alright?"

"Just peachy." I replied and leaned into him to give him a kiss on the cheek

He let me and walked away after giving me one more careful look over. Next was Jax and he followed suit with Clay allowing me to give him a kiss on the cheek as well. After that was a burly man that had a long beard and a kind expression on his face as he gave Gemma a kiss on the cheek. Gemma brought him over to me and laid her hand on my shoulder "Bobby this is Savannah the newest addition to our family and Savannah this is Bobby."

Bobby leaned in and I gave him a kiss on the cheek his beard tickling me as I did so I let out a little laugh. He looked at me confused before he started to laugh himself. I liked his laugh it was deep almost like something you would think to hear from someone like Santa. He gave me a slap on the shoulder and as he walked past me he said, "You will get use to the beard don't worry."

I let out another laugh as I watched the next guy walk in. He was actually kind of intimidating but, there was something about him that said he could be a lot of fun but dangerous to. He was pretty tall with piercing blue eyes and black curled hair that was pretty messy. He gave Gemma a half hug and a kiss on the cheek and then he looked at me with a mischievous grin "Who is the beauty?"

I felt the heat rush to my cheeks and I looked over to Gemma

"Now Tiggy play nice, she is off limits."

The man she called Tiggy was looking at Gemma confused before he looked to Clay and then to me "Oh…this is Clay kid?"

"Um hey I'm Savannah."

"Tig," he pulled me in for a side hug and kissed the top of my head, I felt like he was someone that would be protective over family and if I understood anything about this life is that even if you're not their blood you are still family to the club, "Welcome to the family beautiful."

"Tig." Gemma warned

He held up his hands like he was all innocent and went to join the rest of the guys. Next was someone I recognized, I was sad to say that his scar was once again the first thing I noticed but, I wasn't so disrespectful to stare at it. I barely talked to him last time with everything that was happening but, I knew he was Scottish and that there was something about him that told me that he had been through everything in life and more. There was not one thing you could tell him that would surprise him. He did the same thing as Tig to Gemma and he looked over at me cautiously before he gave me a hug and whispered in my ear "Lookin better darling, good to see ya again."

I nodded and gave him a hug back. I watched him walk to join the others and then a lean guy came in, what first drew me to him was the fact that his cut had nothing on it like the others. I was confused until I realized that he had to be a prospect because the kid back in Tacoma was wearing the same thing. Gemma placed her hand on his back and smiled at me "This is Half sack he is our prospect if you ever need anything just tell him and he can help you."

I had to suppress my laugh as I looked up at him "Half sack?"

"Name is Kip Epps but, I had…an unfortunate event in Iraq."

"Well I think I may stick with Kip if you don't mind." He blushed but, nodded his head.

I leaned forward and gave him a kiss on the side of the cheek. Next through the door was a older gentlemen that was carrying a oxygen tank around with him and as he got closer I could see his cut said first nine. I was amazed that someone from the first table was still here. There was something about him that told me that he held a lot of secrets and ones he probably wasn't willing to let go off, maybe it was his eyes. Behind him was a really tall man with a toque on and he had a long beard, I couldn't help but see a resemblance in the eyes of the two. He made a grunting sound and nodded to Gemma and the other man smiled at Gemma politely and gave her a kiss as well. "This baby is one of the last of the original 9, besides your dad this is Piney and his son-"

Before Gemma could finish the introduction Jax yelled from behind me "Op!"

We looked back at Jax and I had an amused look on my face as I watched him come around the corner with a wide smile as he gave the guy in front of me a hug smacking him on the back. I could tell they were close and I didn't mean as a fellow brother. Jax turned and smiled at me and slung his arm around my shoulders "This here is Savannah and this is Opie and his dad Piney."

Piney gave me a polite smile and Opie looked me up and down and then looked at Jax "This is the little sister you were telling me about?"

Jax nodded his head the smile never leaving his face and Opie faced me once more "How are you taking the change?"

"It's hard to adjust I got to admit but, I'm sure it will get easier and really it's a better life then I was living anyways." Opie nodded his head and Gemma looked over at me proudly as if I had said something amazing to her.

"I wouldn't say that sweetheart." Piney said under his breath I looked over to him with a confused look but, before I could say anything back Opie placed his hand on his father's back and started to push him towards the dining room. "That's enough dad let's go."

I didn't get a chance to ask what that was about but, before I could say anything Kozik and the man I was trying to avoid walked through the door. I nodded to them offering them a smile and looked pleadingly over to Gemma who nodded her head letting me know it was okay to leave. I went into the fridge grabbing everyone a beer and walked into the dining room. I made a point of avoiding Haps piercing stare and I walked towards the seat I had taken which was with Gemma to my left and Tig to my right. Everyone was asking me questions about my life and I took note that everyone was trying to avoid my past addiction. We talked about my mother and things that I like to do in my spare time and how I liked it in Charming. "So Savannah, besides the arts what kind of a job have you had in the past?" Tig asked curiously

I thought back to my last job, "Well I started to apprentice for about four years under a good friend after my mother's death, it was like an escape but eventually I lost my way after that and I just stopped showing up."

I stood up and started to help Gemma clear the table when Jax asked curiously "What were you apprenticing for?"

I leaned over between Happy and Kozik and smiled at the memories, "Tattooing."

Everyone at the table went quiet and Kozik piped up, "So you have tats?"

"Yes, I have one on my upper thigh which was my starter tattoo on myself and the one on my side and arm is a collaboration of Tyler's work and my own."

The one on my leg was just a simple pink lotus, I did it when I was testing myself on tradition Japanese tattooing, the one on my side was a suicide voodoo doll right on my hip bone with a scythe going through his head and his leg was torn and my arm wasn't completed but we had started to make a sugar skull with some things like feathers in the back ground. Kozik started to inspect the one on my arm and he looked interested in my tattoo before he shook his head approvingly. Then he pointed to Happy, "Hap here tattoos for the club and he is pretty good. Look at her stuff Hap she is pretty good?"

Happy seemed to scrutinize over ever little detail before he looked away and grunted uninterested. I placed the plates on my left arm and a wine cup in my left hand before I turned to look at him "What the hell is that supposed to mean mister big shot."

I saw his face twitch at my comment before he replied, "That shit there is child's play, if you wanted to do that with your life and that's what you did to yourself I can't imagine what you did to others."

I felt the heat rise in my face not because of embarrassment but, because of anger. Everyone at the table was dead quiet and I could faintly hear Gemma calling my name soothingly to come to her. I wasn't listening though, I was done with this guy! Who did he think he was! The next thing I did left everyone shocked including myself. Before I knew it I dumped the wine glass that was still full right over his head. The moment I did he stood up completely pissed and tried to stare me down instead of backing down I stepped making sure there was no space between us and my face as close to his as I could get it as I glared at him. Before words or actions could happen an arm snaked its way through us pushing us away from each other. I looked beside us to see Clay and judging by the look on his face this confrontation between me and Hap was over. Clay looked between us and said, "I think it's time that everyone went home and you should go to bed. Everyone has an early morning for the charity event. Savannah you need to be up and ready by nine and boys remember you need to be there by noon or earlier if you got something else to do."

I was shocked at his words but, I knew he was just trying to diffuse the situation so I stepped away and looked at all of them before I took a deep breath to calm myself down and put a smile on my face, "Thank you all for coming but, he is right I'm tired thank you for coming."

I walked past Gemma and I felt her reassuring hand on my shoulder before I walked to the kitchen and left the dishes. I knew what Clay said was a subtle way of telling me to go to bed. If today was any indicator tomorrow was going to be just as bad. I walked off to my room and got changed into a long tank top and left my underwear on but nothing else. I was just crawling into bed when I knock came to my door. I finished climbing into bed and told whoever it was to come in, when the door opened Kozik's head peaked in. I smiled at him, as much as I liked Kozik I really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. "Hey spiky what's up?"

He closed the door behind him and sat on my bed, "Butterfly…do I want to know what's going on between you and Hap?"

"Nothing he was just being ignorant."

"Well if that is all it is then I guess I don't have to worry about you. I am here though if you want someone to talk to."

I nodded my head and gave him the best smile I could muster at the time. His hand reached out and cupped my cheek in his hand rubbing his finger over my cheekbones. I felt like I couldn't breathe I was so surprised at his action. I knew I had to be as red as a tomatoes and he leaned forward slowly kissing the side of my cheek slowly. He gave me one more smile before he left. As soon as the door left I fell backwards onto my pillow and I grabbed the one beside me shoving the pillow into my face as I let out a scream. Kozik couldn't like me…hell I couldn't like Kozik I was still hung up on Happy…but, maybe that was what I needed to move on…could I?