{I do not own the Sons of Anarchy only my own character(s) and anything you do not recognize nor do I own the song in this chapter, that credit goes to Adam Lambert whataya want from me. If you are looking for the song I choose the duet remix of the song (Adam Lambert ft Pink) that is where my inspiration came from.}

I woke up to Clay knocking on my door, "Hey kiddo, time to get up."

I looked over at the door to see Clay leaning awkwardly in the entrance, like he wasn't sure if he should really be the one to wake me. I reached for my phone and looked at the time and groaned when I realized that it was only seven in the morning. "Why are you waking me up now? I've got like an hour to go."

I pulled the blankets over my head and Clay stepped in the room a little more. He cleared his throat and asked, "I was wondering if you would like to go for a ride with me before you go with Gemma today."

I scrunched my eyebrows together and pushed the blankets away from my face so I could look at him better. I could tell that this wasn't really his idea but, it didn't seem like he was completely against it. That's the thing with men like Clay they have troubles relating with women unless they can do it their own way. I sat up and rubbed my eyes as I said "Yeah. I would like that, can you give me a bit to get ready?"

He rubbed the back of his neck and looked behind him. "Yeah that's fine, Gemma is making breakfast right now so don't take too long. I'll take you on a ride after and I'll drop you off at nine."

I gave him a smile and waited for him to leave my room before I jumped out of the bed with an even bigger smile on my face. I was eager to do this, if this is what It took to get to know my dad then I would. I started to fly about my room searching for an outfit for today, I was going to have to change again later for the party at the clubhouse but, for now pants were a must. I pulled on a pair of nice black skinny jeans with a form fitting blouse that buttoned up just above my cleavage (so it showed it off but still left something to the imagination) and a forest green cashmere pullover sweater that dipped down just past my chest and folded over itself. I also put on a few bangles on my left wrist and I slipped on my favorite pair of DVS sneakers, which were black high tops with the DVS symbol on the side in neon green and green stitching in the laces. With my hair I bumped up the back slightly to give my hair some volume and kept my waves but, I flipped the hair surrounding my face away so that it gave it a blow back effect. Just as I was finishing up Gemma called me for breakfast. It was a quick meal, as I really didn't have an appetite since I was pretty ecstatic so before I knew it we were standing beside Clays bike listening to Gemma lecture us on being on time for things. Once I swore on my life that I would be there for nine only then did she leave and go back into the house. I looked back to Clay who was squinting up at me as he settled on the bike and handed me a helmet. I smiled and grabbed it from him, I knew this was difficult for the both of us but the fact he was trying was enough. I sat behind him and as his bike roared to life I wrapped my arms around his waist and laid my head on his back.

We were riding for about twenty minutes before he pulled over and shut off the bike. When I looked up to see where we were I was confused. We were parked in front of a huge tree that stood just before a cliff that over looked Charming. I got off the bike and placed the helmet on the handle bars after Clay got off. He smiled at me and motioned his hand towards the cliff before he went and sat down on the ledge. I followed him and sat down and looked over Charming. "Me and your mother used to come her a lot when we first started seeing each other. She loved the view." He said softly from beside me

"I can see why she liked it, she was always a sucker for a good scenery."

He grunted but, didn't say anything further. The silence wasn't bad or anything but there was something that was bothering me and my curiosity got the better of me. "Why did you bring me here?"

He rubbed his hands together before he said, "Look I just wanted to make it clear that I didn't intentionally leave you and your mother behind but, when I found Gemma there was no one else for me. I just wanted you to know that I still didn't forget her. If I hadn't found Gemma I would've been with your mother. I also wanted to bring you here because this is where your mother went to think and be alone. I wasn't impressed with what Happy told me that day and I'm still not and I will not be nice about it if I find out that your back in it…the words I will say to you will be the last you hear from me and I will not allow you to stay here."

I nodded my head it was harsh to hear but, I knew it was necessary. It wasn't tolerated from someone that had an image to uphold, let alone his daughter…I didn't need to be told that after everything I went through with everyone else. I wonder what he would do if he found out about Hap and me? He patted the ground beside him before he stood up walking back to the bike. "It's almost nine let get you back to Gemma kiddo."

I looked over the town once more before I got up myself and headed for the bike.

~~SOA~~

I swear to god she had me running around like a bloody chicken. At first it was easy great people and make sure that everyone was doing what they should but, once the boys showed up and with loads of other people I felt like my head was going to explode. People were calling my name left right and center, I was finally taking a well-deserved break in the house. I was standing over the sink pouring myself a glass of water with my one hand gripping the counter. I had my eyes closed trying to block out the noise when I felt someone press up against my back and lean against me, placing their hands on the counter blocking me in. I tensed and looked down at the hands and saw some of the sons rings. I relaxed a little more but still whipped around to greet whoever was doing this. I found I was secretly hoping it was Happy but, when I turned around it was Kozik who was standing there with a goofy grin on his face. "I finally got you all to myself." He whispered

I let out a shaky laugh and slapped his chest, "Jesus you scared me."

He grabbed onto my fingers and laughed with me, "Maybe that was the plan all along."

Once we finished laughing we looked at each other and his hand that was on the counter moved to my hair where he brushed it back out of my eyes and let his fingers start to caress my cheek. It wasn't that Kozik was a bad looking guy and he was a sweetheart from what I could tell but, he didn't make my heart race like Happy did. I knew I was being stupid about everything with Happy after all he made it clear that we were nothing more than a fuck. Maybe if I let myself like Kozik I could move on past Happy and whatever I thought we had. It was obvious how Kozik felt about me, or I at least hoped. I looked down at his chest when his face started to get closer and mumbled. "I think I should actually get back out there...before Gem has my head."

"Mmm." He hummed and his fingers left my cheek, cupped my chin and pushed my face up to look at him.

He was so close to my lips I could feel his breath lightly falling on my own. I held my breath and closed my eyes waiting for his lips to make contact with mine. When they did they were soft and hesitant at first with a subtle hint of the beer he had been drinking. "What's going on here?" I heard a familiar voice say disappointingly from the doorway

Before Kozik had time to react I shoved him away and took a step away from him. I looked up at the doorway to see Jax standing with Happy. Jax stood arms crossed looking like a mix of pissed and curious but, Happy looked completely choked. I looked back at Kozik to see he was leaning against the counter beside me, hands on either side of him as he looked at the boys. "Nothing he was just telling me that Gem was looking for me so...I think I'm going to go and find her now."

Jax looked at me skeptically and Happy didn't even pay me any attention instead his attention was directed right at Kozik. I gave Kozik an apologetic look before I went to leave. As I was passing Jax he grabbed my arm and whispered in my ear, "We will talk about this later."

I tried not to roll my eyes but left anyways.

*Happy p.o.v.*

I searched the crowd for the blonde that everyone seemed to be looking for. Before long Jax came and stood beside me shoving his hands into his jean pockets as he scanned over everyone once more. "No luck?" He asked from beside me

I shook my head and moved the toothpick around in my mouth as I looked over to the house where I watched Kozik disappear a few minutes ago but had yet to come back out. I nodded my head towards the house and said, "Maybe Koz had some luck."

Jax nodded his head and we walked towards the house. What I walked into was not what I wanted to see and judging by Jax's reaction he wasn't too impressed either. When we walked in Kozik had Savannah pinned against the counter and they were kissing. It took everything I had not to reach across the counter and rip him off her. But, she wasn't mine and after everything that happened I doubt she ever would be...which is the way it should be. I felt like I was more asking myself than telling but, that feeling was quickly washed away by the anger that was pulsing through me. I could feel the killer in me trying to break away. Jax was the first to speak up. "What's going on here?" Jax asked tilting his head slightly and crossing his arms over his chest

She reacted so fast that if I wasn't so angry I would have found it funny. She shoved Kozik away from her and looked over at us guiltily. When her eyes meet with mine she looked like she did the night she fixed me up. Guilty but, still slightly defiant. Before long she made up a piss poor excuse, "Nothing he was just telling me that Gem was looking for me...I think I'm going to go find her now."

She looked back to Kozik before she came over to us. I wasn't paying her too much attention as my eyes were locked with Kozik's. After she left Jax spoke up first, "All I'm going to say here brother is she just started to pick herself up do not ruin it with your games."

"Who says I'm playing at anything?" Kozik retorted glaring at Jax

I clenched my fists in an effort not to hit him. I have known Kozik for years and if there was one thing I knew was that he couldn't handle a woman like Savannah and he wouldn't treat her the way she deserved not to mention that his idea of partying could lead her back down that road. I was at least man enough to back off, I wasn't doing this to hurt her I was doing this so she would leave people like me and Kozik alone. I wasn't stupid most women who are a part of the family end up with a son but she deserve someone like Jax or Chibs someone who would treat her the way she deserved. I knew Jax was trying to keep his temper down with what Kozik said. Before any of us could do anything we could hear Gemma calling for Jax. He sighed and looked back to the yard but he looked at Kozik once more, "Listen carefully, I don't approve of this but, if I know you and from what I have seen with her neither of you will listen if I tell you not to see her anymore but, I'm telling you this once and once only if you fuck her up or treat her any different than the rest of us I will make sure you never come around here again."

Kozik didn't say anything back and Jax left. I couldn't trust myself around him right now so I went to leave myself but, once I reached the door he spoke up "I don't see why you are so upset after all you don't seem to give two shits about her."

I looked at him over my shoulder and growled but, said nothing. He looked smug at me before he spoke once more, "I don't know what game you are playing at Hap but, if you can't man up and take the step I am then I don't believe that you have anything to be angry about. I will make her mine and you will have to sit there and watch just as you did now."

I grinded my teeth at what he was saying partially because he was pissing me off but partially because what he was saying was true. Before I could do anything rash I walked out of the house to find something to distract me.

*End of Happy p.o.v.*

I had forgot about the awkward situation in the kitchen once I had found Gemma and she immediately put me to work. She placed me in charge of the drinks and snacks for the kids that were there. I was bending over helping a little boy who had wanted a popsicle and when I had stood up to grab another one for a little girl, a brunette women around my age stepped in front of me and ripped the Popsicle from my fingers. I knew she was a croweater just by looking at her, she wore a tight white tank top that clung to her and dipped low to show her obviously pushed up breasts and a pair of short shorts. She leaned over close to me and stuck the popsicle in her mouth and glared at me, I knew she was going to be trouble. So I grabbed another popsicle for the little girl who looked like she was ready to cry and sent her on her way before I addressed the woman in front of me, "Is that what you girls are good at now? Taking candy from little girls."

I placed my hands on the table and leaned forward slightly. I had yet to have someone confront me yet but, Gemma words rang clear through my head. She smiled and pulled the popsicle from her lips with a pop. "I don't see what the big fuss is over you, you're so plain and boring I don't see the threat the other girls are talking about."

I smiled at what she said, at least the others I wouldn't have to worry about, "Is that so? Maybe you shouldn't jump to those conclusions so quick darling."

I reached forward and grabbed the popsicle from her once more and threw it into the garbage. She glared at me and threatened, "Careful who you play with around her little girl. Even if the men looked at you it's because they are desperate enough to do it, because it's women like me that they want."

I could see Gemma watching us closely from over this chicks shoulder and I remembered where we were...no matter how much I wanted to punch her in her clearly fake and overdone face, there were kids here and this was an event where I couldn't do anything about it. I hated it but, it was true so I bit the inside of my lip and glared at her. When she saw that I wasn't going to fight back she gave me a smug smile and leaned over to the popsicles and grabbed another one. I watched as she walked away and Gemma walked up beside me placing a hand on my back and rubbed softly, "Don't let her get to you baby you will have your chance to put her in her place but, you made the right choice."

I nodded my head and said, "I need to go grab some more ice."

I started to walk back towards the house but Gemma grabbed my wrist and spoke to me, "No more ice in there, gotta go grab it from the deep freeze in the garage."

I was kind of glad that, that was where I had to go instead, I had no idea if the boys were still in there or if Kozik was...I gave her a smile and walked towards the garage. Once I got in there I grabbed the ice and rested my head on the outside of the packaging. I swear my head was ready to burst from everything that happened in the last hour I couldn't help but, ask myself what else could go wrong...clearly I had spoken to soon. Just as I was thinking that I heard a crash as the door opened and a light giggling echoed through the room. I spun around to see the girl from earlier with her hands wrapped around Happy neck as she drug him into the garage and their lips were locked together. I tried not to gag at the site and not to lash out at the bitch. She was really pushing it now, I may be trying to move on from him but, this wasn't the way I wanted to do it. I cleared my throat and she pulled away from Happy and smiled at me. I knew then what game she was playing at and I narrowed my eyes at her. Happy rubbed the back of his neck and cleared his throat, "Savannah..." He addressed me

"Oh um oops...I didn't realize someone else was in here." The girl cooed at me

I rolled my eyes at her, she had obviously planned this. I gripped the ice tightly and walked to the door, "Don't mind me I was just leaving."

I placed the bag on my hip leaving both of them behind, if she thought she was winning she was sorely mistaken. I only made it to the table when someone was calling me once more. "What!" I snapped impatiently

When I had turned around I saw everyone and I mean everyone looking at me. Everyone was crowded around Bobby and he had an acoustic guitar on his lap. I looked to Clay and Gemma for answers and Clay cleared his throat and pointed to Bobby who was smiling at me and offering his guitar to me. "I visited your aunt before I left Tacoma and she was telling me that besides your tattooing that you loved to sing and play guitar and that you were pretty good at it even made your own songs."

He wasn't wrong and judging by everyone around me I really didn't have a choice. Even if I did I don't think I would say no, music was my escape when my world was falling apart and with the day I was having it could make it better. I grabbed the guitar and sat in the chair Bobby was sitting in and strummed my fingers over the stings once trying to decide the song I was going to be singing "Any requests?" I asked not really knowing which one to sing

"How about the last song you wrote." Kozik said from beside Clay

When I looked over there I realized Happy and that girl had emerged from the shed and were with them as well. The last song I ever wrote...great they had to pick that one. I took a deep breath before I started,
Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
It's me, I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down
So Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

When I had wrote the song it was supposed to be for my life and all the people I was losing but, now singing it seemed to take on a different meaning, after all the things I was going through with Happy and my new life.

~~SOA~~

Before I knew it the event had ended and I was now standing in the bathroom with Gemma getting ready for the party tonight. I had on baby blue shorts and a cropped tan sweater top that ended just above my belly button and a pair of open toe blue wedges that had ribbon cross lacing up to the top part of the shoe where it joined together by a button. I had braided my bangs and the top part of the right side of my hair and pinned it in the back and straightened out the rest. Gemma stood behind me and pulled my hair over my shoulders and she smiled at me in the mirror, "So, want to tell me what that was all about today? Was it all too much for you?"

I smiled, turned around and leaned on the counter. "That wasn't it, how did you get into this life? Like how did you deal with those girls and the men?"

"Well there really about the same, if the man wants you enough he will fight to have you and being who your family is that's a given. Now as for the crows and I'm just going to go ahead and guess it has something to do with Chantel that has been glaring daggers at you all day? Well each of us deal with them in our ways but, the girls normally don't go down without a fight. The only way I can explain it is you have to show them that you're not to be messed with and you have to do it in such a way that will show the others not to mess with you either. Remember baby they are a bunch of plastic, desperate fakes that will do anything to get with one of the boys. Your better than them and he knows that."

I looked at her like she was crazy and she laughed walking into the dining room. I followed her and asked, "How did you-"

"I see more then you think."

Before I could ask her anything else Clay walked into the room and wrapped an arm around her waist, "Are we ready to go finally?"

Gemma winked at me before she nodded her head and we headed out to the clubhouse.

~~SOA~~

The clubhouse was in full swing when we got there and Gemma and Clay left to make their rounds. I stood in a corner of the clubhouse with a drink in one hand and I was beyond nervous and couldn't help but, search the crowd for his face. Before I could finish looking for him another voice called out for me. I turned around to see Jax and Kozik coming towards me. Kozik wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me towards him and I swung my arm around his shoulders but, I didn't miss the warning look that Jax was sending Kozik. Jax had one of the crow eaters hanging off him and I had to stop the disgusted look that wanted to break across my face. "So Savannah how are you enjoying your first party here?" Kozik asked

I couldn't help but, notice how close he was to my ear and I could feel the heat rise to my cheeks as I thought about the kiss earlier today. I covered it up by laughing and saying, "Well I wouldn't really know I just got here and all. But, it's not bad so far."

Tig not being to terribly far from us sauntered over and joined the conversation, "That's because you haven't seen anything yet princess. Let Tiggy show you a good time."

Jax punched Tig in the arm and Tig looked at him with feigned innocence before facing me again, "I was kidding."

Then Tig looked at Kozik as if seeing him for the first time before a scowl replaced his features, "Well, blondie what do you say we show her a good time."

I laughed nervously, it was getting tense in here and Kozik tightened his grip on my hip. I leaned into his ear and whispered, "Spiky? You're hurting me."

He stop squeezing and looked at me shocked but, once I gave him a reassuring smile he faced Tig again. Before either of them could speak up Jax stepped between them pointing to something outside, "You know the rules."

I looked outside to see him pointing to the ring that was set up there, "What do you say blondie?"

Kozik looked at the ring and Tig once more before he walked outside, I rolled my eyes and followed the men outside. I pulled some smokes from my back pocket and lit one as I watched them get in the ring. I stood at the corner Kozik was in and once he was in the ring he came over to me and Jax and gave me his rings. He leaned over and said, "Can I get any luck from my butterfly?"

I instantly blushed and looked around me. When I looked at him it seemed like his eyes made contact with someone else as they grew darker. I went to see who he was looking at before his fingers grabbed a hold of my chin and pulled my lips to meet his. This kiss was different than the last, it was urgent and more as if he was showing off but as soon as it happened it was over before I could say or do anything. Kozik gave a smug smile to whoever it was and stood up, I heard a deep growl come from behind me and I jumped startled and looked behind me to see Happy and Chantel standing there. She looked at me uninterested and that same look from this afternoon was all over his handsome features. I looked back to the ring and Jax was looking my way and he didn't look impressed and as he climbed into the ring to say the rules he walked over to Tig and said something else. "Alright boys I'm sure by now you know what's against the rules but if the past says anything at all you guys can go for hours so we are putting a limit on this, whoever hits the ground first or taps out is the loser."

As soon as Jax finished speaking the boys tapped fists and started fighting. I took a drag from my smoke and watched as the boys fought, you could tell this wasn't their first round about together but, Tig still had the upper hand. Kozik was throwing in some pretty good shots but, in the end Tig won. Kozik had gone to throw a punch at Tig's left side but, had lost his footing and ended up giving Tig the shot he wanted. Tig punch him in the ribs and then proceeded to throw him to the ground. Tig roared at his win with his fists in the air and Kozik sat up on the floor with one arm resting on his knee as he caught his breathe. "Looks like your boy is exactly that a boy." A voice whispered in my ear.

I didn't need to turn around to know who did it. I would know that voice everywhere and the heavy vanilla perfume that caked her always let me know it was her. My eyes narrowed into slits...she was really getting on my nerves. I could hear he heels clacking across the pavement as she walked away with Happy in tow. I threw away the last of my smoke and shot back the rest of my drink just slightly aware of the buzz I had going on and walked over to meet Tig and Kozik who were hugging as I reached them. Tig pointed to his cheek like I was expected to give him a reward and at that moment I didn't care. I laughed and leaned forward and gave him a light peck on the cheek, he smiled at me before ruffling my hair and grabbed the first croweater he saw before leaving. I looked back to Kozik and had to put my hand in front of my mouth to cover my laugh. I knew that Tig had got some good hits but Kozik was already starting to bruise from the one that connected with his left jaw. I grabbed onto his hand and started to take him back inside, "Well let's get some ice on that before it gets worse."

He didn't object and allowed me to bring him to the couch and I grabbed him a beer and some ice from the bar making a point of ignoring Happy at the counter. I sat down on the couch and leaned forward to put the ice on his jaw. He winced "I guess that's what I get."

I looked at him confused, "What do you mean?"

"Tig was harder on me than normal and I'm sure Jax had something to do with it."

He didn't seem mad more like amused and I looked to Jax who was around the pool table sneaking looks at us. I remembered when he spoke to Tig before and what Gemma said and I realized what he had done. I laughed and looked back to Kozik and shook my head, removing the ice to look closer at his jaw. I placed the ice back on his jaw and got up to leave. He grabbed onto my wrist and pulled lightly, I looked back at him and smiled, "Don't worry spiky I'm just grabbing myself a drink and I'll be back."

He nodded his head and reluctantly let go of me. I got to the counter where Juice was making his own drink and I winked at him, "Hey Juicy can you make me whatever you're having there."

He looked down bashfully before he started to make my own. I liked teasing him, in my opinion Juice had yet to come out of his shell but, that's what made him who he was. What separated him from the other men. He slide the drink over the counter to me and I gave him a smile as my thanks. "Well aren't you greedy?" Chantel had remarked from beside me

I rolled my eyes and took a sip of my drink before I turned to face her. She was basically sitting on Happy and when his eyes caught mine they were almost cautious of me. I gave her a smug smile and before I could stop myself I said, "Oh and I'm the greedy one and here I thought that flaunting yourself and having sex with every son you can get your claws into was greedy? Oops my mistake."

She looked shocked and angry at my words "Truth hurts don't it?" I asked before I turned to walk away
apparently I misunderstood how angry I had made her exactly because next thing I know I was falling to the ground my face hitting the ground pretty hard. I could hear her and a couple other crows laughing and I could faintly hear Happy laughing in the background as well. I pushed myself up onto my knees and I could taste the copper in my mouth. I rose a hand to my lips and when I pulled my fingers away there was blood leaking through my fingers. That was it, I didn't care anymore she was going to learn the hard way. I stood up on my feet and turned around to come face to face with her, "I thought I would remind you of where you belong." She remarked

She turned around to face Happy who looked amused, to say something but before she could open her mouth to say another word I grabbed the back of her head and shoved her face into the edge of the counter. I let go of her just so she could fall back to the floor where she laid there crying in pain, I knelt down and grabbed her cheeks between my fingers, forcing her to look at me. "Remember this well sugar tits, this is nothing I can and will do worse next time you if you try to cross me."

I roughly shoved her away from me but my anger towards Happy was still there. I stood up to face Happy and before anyone could stop me my hand swung out and I slapped him across the face with a sharp sound, Happy stood up from the stool he was currently sitting on and then a broad back was standing in front of me, "Get out of my way spiky." I warned

He laughed nervously and looked back at me "What do you have against killer here?"

"I don't know sir do you care to enlighten everyone and that slap was for laughing at me with the whore you have attached to you." I mocked Happy who seem to grow even more furious at my words

"Really? I never took you for someone who cared about these things." Kozik said smugly with his arms crossed against his chest.

"I never said I did, if you have to know I was laughing because I knew what was coming to her and what do you care she ain't your old lady." Happy growled at us

Kozik stepped up to be level with him "Yet."

I looked at Kozik shocked at his statement and so did Happy before the darkness took over his eyes and a deep growl came from him. "What? You got something to say big man? Remember what I told you earlier today."

"What?" I asked stepping in between them, "What did you guys talk about?"

Neither of them said anything as they stared each other down. It was dead quiet as they did so and I was getting worried. A sound came from behind me indicating the entrance door was being opened and I looked back to see Clay and Gemma standing there just as confused. "She isn't yours." Someone growled beside me

In the second it took me to look at them I was being pushed back away from the men and fists were flying.