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I had no idea how long I had been running out here for but, it had to have been at least an hour. I was now on the highway with no idea where I was actually going. I had past the point of freaking out long ago. It wasn't the fact that they did what they did, I knew things like that happened. What I wasn't prepared for was having to see it. I wasn't mad anymore at Happy for putting the club before me or sad because he wasn't there to watch the fireworks with me. I was upset that he treated me like a child and because of that I ended up seeing things that I will never unsee. The wind started to pick up and blow my hair around. I wrapped my hands around my arms and rubbed them up and down. The tears that had just stopped falling from my eyes were now stinging my face from the cold. As I replayed what happened in my head, I soon realized that I had ended up at the tree that Clay took me to before. The tree that my mother would come to so that she could be alone. I crossed the road and sat with my back against the tree. I pulled my knees up to my chest and placed my head into my chest. I had so many emotions running through me at once, I found myself speaking to my mother for support and comfort "Mom...I need you. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to handle this anymore. How can I look him in the eyes knowing that he will lie and hide these things from me. I feel so helpless, how am I suppose to help and love someone if they won't let me in."

Silence whistled through the wind and I let a few tears fall from my face. I honestly had no idea how long I had actually been outside for before I heard a bike pull up behind me. I still didn't move, instead I strained my ears to hear for any sign of who it could be. A shuffle of their feet walking towards me was all I could hear until they sat beside me. I looked out of the corner of my eyes to see Clay sitting beside me. Of course he would be the one to find me, after all he did show me this place. We sat in silence for a few minutes before he cleared his throat "What you saw there tonight, you do know that you can't tell anyone right?"

I placed my head onto my knees and stared straight ahead at Charming. "I know."

"This is the your life too now and you gotta learn to accept that. You can't run and hide like you did tonight. Especially if you end up with a member like most woman in your position do." He lectured

I felt like in his own way he was trying to be considerate but, at the same time it came across as arrogant and rude. "What if I don't end up with a son?"

"Well that's your choice in the end but, either way you are linked to this family and these are the thing you will have to face from time to time. You knew that when you agreed to come here. You're my daughter you're not stupid."

I didn't say anything back and he continued on after a few minutes, "What were you even doing there? You should have been back at the fireworks with the rest of the old ladies."

"I came looking for something...it wasn't important I should have just stayed away."

"Your right, you should have. You have everyone worried now and out looking for you." He told me

"You know if you just came here to yell at me then you can go away. I'll find my own way home." I shouted letting my anger get the best of me

I stood up and started to storm away from Clay. I didn't get far though before I felt his hand wrap around my arm and I stayed rooted to the spot. "You are too much like your mother when it comes to your anger. I didn't like it in her and I don't like it in you. Stop acting like a spoiled child because you're not. If I don't come back with you, Gemma will have my head. Not to mention everyone will continue to worry about you."

I looked back at him shocked but, I knew the look on his face was telling me better than to back talk him. His fingers that were still locked around my upper arm were starting to hurt me. "I don't want to see you following a son when he leaves for business nor around the lot when it's become dark and no party is going on."

I tried to pull my arm from his and he tightened his grip. I stuck my fingers under his and pulled my arm free and took a few steps back. "Do you understand me Savannah?"

After a slight pause I answered, "Yes sir."

He didn't give me a second look as he turned and walked away to his bike. I wrapped my hand around my sore arm and followed behind him cautiously. Was this man actually going to be that father figure to me or was Jax and Happy right when they warned me about him. I carefully straddled the bike behind him and counted down the seconds until we arrived back at the house.

~~SOA~~

It had been a couple days since the event at TM and I had taken to hiding in my room. Gemma and Jax had come to visit me at some point but, I barely paid them any attention. My mind was focused on Clay and what he'd said to me. The bruise that had encircled my arm and the worry that seemed to be in my heart since that night. I had been avoiding Happy like he was the black plague, I wouldn't answer his calls, I would avoid him at TM and I would pretend to not be home when he would come to see me. I had woken up once more to a text from Happy pleading me to come to TM tonight so that we could talk alone and a missed call from Cherry. I felt bad for missing Cherry's call but as I went to call her back, Gemma's name flashed across the screen. I cleared my tired throat before answering the phone "Hi Gem, what can I do for you?"

"Well first off I need you to get out of that room you have been holed up in and come to the office."

"Why?"

"Because I left some paperwork at the house on my dresser in my room and I need it now. Plus you need to get out and live a little. Something has been bothering you since the fireworks and if you won't talk to me, I can at least get you to come outside."

A smile came across my face as I thought of how much of a mother Gemma came across as. If only she knew what actually happened that night, would she understand or get mad at me like Clay did? I knew in the end Gemma would come over and drag me out of the house in my pajamas if that meant getting me outside. So instead of fighting a already lost battle, I choose the latter. "Okay, give me an hour?"

"Sure baby."

"Bye."

I looked through my closet for a comfortable outfit and after a moment found the perfect one. I slipped on a pair of dark blue shorts that came to my mid thigh and a white and black stripped loose halter top. I also placed on a set of white flats with lace over top of them. I pulled my hair into a side braid and allowed bits of my hair and bangs to hang loose around my face. Once I was satisfied with my look I grabbed my keys and headed out to my mustang. I took the longest way possible to get to TM and when I got there my eyes found the bike I was hoping wasn't going to be there. I pulled in beside Gemma's car, grabbed my purse and Gemma's documents and got out of the car. I looked over to the office and I saw Clay leaning into the doorway. I locked my car and let my eyes scan over the parking lot for any sign of Happy. So, far the only thing I could see was Juice pulling in with a semi. I walked up towards the office and cleared my throat as I got closer to let them know that I was there. Clay looked back at me and gave me a smile, "Hi kiddo, coming to work today huh?"

I was still uncomfortable with Clay after the whole ordeal the night of the fireworks but, I threw on a fake smile and replied "Yeah, Gem called me this morning to bring some paperwork down."

Gemma reached past Clay and grabbed the documents from my hands. Clay gave us a nod of his head before he turned around and started to walk back to the semi. "Thank you baby." Gemma whispered

"Anytime, I wasn't doing anything spectacular anyways."

I looked back to where Clay had disappeared to see Halfsac walking towards us. Halfsac leaned up against the pop machine and asked, "Do you have the number for the septic guy?"

"Piney filled the tanks already?" Gemma said with confusion

"Yeah, and someone's been flushing lace panties." Halfsac said slightly embarrassed

I rose my eyebrows and crossed my arms over my chest. A look of disgust crossed my face and I looked to Gemma who looked just as disturbed and amused as I was. "I don't even know what to say to that." Gemma said back

"I don't even want to know one way or the other." I commented

Halfsac gave me a knowing look and when I smiled at him, he looked down at the ground and blushed. Gemma walked back into the office and came back out with a card. "Here you go." Gemma told him

"Thanks," Halfsac replied and took the card. He looked us both over once more and his blush seemed to deepen, "You guys look real nice today."

I smiled at him and gave him a small wink and Gemma gave him her all knowing smirk. "Thank you Eddie." Gemma told him

I stood with Gemma at the door with my arms crossed, watching Halfsac leave. "You know he is probably the sweetest of them all. I wonder what actually got him to think being a member was the way to go with his life?"

"Oh sweetheart, their all sweet and mushy on the inside. You just got to know how to break through their shells. I thought you would of figured that out by now with killer."

I rolled my eyes but, before I could turn to face her someone else caught my eyes. I watched as the small brunette I knew as Cherry hoped out of the passenger side of the semi. What happened next was even more suspicious. Halfsac stopped dead in his tracks and Clay marched over to Juice, grabbing him by the back of his neck. Judging by the silence from Gemma, she to saw this' to. Clay did not look impressed, in fact he looked furious. Cherry ran over and tried to step in between them, shouting something like it wasn't Juice's fault. What had she done that Clay had reacted that way? Better question yet was what had Clay done with her? Cherry looked over towards Halfsac and stared at him, the moment she did Half sac turned and walked straight into the office. I let him walk past me and I shot Cherry a confused look before I followed him in. Gemma closed the door behind me and Halfsac paced around the office. Gemma walked up to Halfsac "Who's that girl?"

I walked over to the window and peered out it again, it was obvious that Gemma didn't remember Cherry from Tacoma. "Um..I don't really...I don't know." Halfsac stumbled over his words.

"Yeah, I saw your heart skip a beat from here. Who is she?" Gemma told him

I looked away from the window towards Halfsac, his eyes caught mine and I knew then that he loved or had loved Cherry at some point. Now the question was, what did Clay have to do with that. "Just a tribe hang around." Halfsac told her

Gemma nodded her head, she knew now as well as I did the reason why Clay was so upset. "Clay hit that tart didn't he?"

"I don't really know who Clays hitting,...except for you, I'm sure he's hitting you. Cause your his wife and all." Halfsac mumbled

With this new found truth that had smacked her right in the face, Gemma turned away from Halfsac and walked away towards the seats by the window. I stepped out of her way and stood there awkwardly, not really knowing what to do. Cherry was a friend but, she knew the rules of being a sweet butt and so did Gemma, a woman who I had been slowly coming to see as a second mother. Gemma motioned to the door "Get out." she said completely out of breathe.

Halfsac looked torn and I knew the better option right now was to leave. I gently grabbed Halfsac arm and urged him out of the office. As we walked down the lot together, my thoughts were running a million miles an hour. Halfsac grabbed my arm to stop me and he looked like he was ready to have a panic attack. I placed my hand on the side of his face and started to make calming sounds. "Hey, hey don't panic okay? It will all work out in the end I promise. But, you do know what is happening here is wrong? And the repercussions of those actions."

"I do but, what am I suppose to do? I didn't think she would come back for him."

I shook my head at him, "She didn't come back for him, I saw the way she looked at you and only you. She came for you but, if Clay had sex with her...well, the rules are broken. She broke the number one rule, what happens on the road stays on the road. I suggest you fix this darling before it gets ugly and fast."

He nodded his head at me and gave me a hug. I held onto him for a few seconds and as we separated, I saw Tig and Happy having a smoke on the bench. Judging by the look on Happy's face, he wasn't happy himself at the contact I just had with Halfsac. I noticed Happy walking towards me and Halfsac and I started to panic. I wasn't ready to see him either. I gave Halfsac a smile and took off towards my car. I just locked the doors when Happy reached the car, he knocked on the window trying to get my attention. I looked straight ahead and started the car. "I'm sorry." I whispered before I took off.

~~SOA~~

See I have this very weird tendency to bake when I'm nervous or stressed. So, Gemma's kitchen looked like a disaster from hell and that was putting it nicely. I had managed to make cookies, rhubarb crumble, tarts and a cheesecake before I collapsed in the chair. I had flour on my hands, chest and hair and I scanned my mess. I would need to clean this up before Gemma got home. She was having a hard enough day as is, I wouldn't want her to come home to this. My thoughts swarmed with Happy and Gemma for the next half an hour as I cleaned the kitchen. As I thought of Gemma, my thoughts went to the reason why Cherry was here. I was confused that she hadn't told me that she was coming before she got here. That's when I remembered the missed call from Cherry this morning. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and dialed my voice mail. I waited as the robotic voice on the other end spoke until Cherry's small voice flitted through the phone, "Hey sugar, I need your help with something. I moved down to Nevada after you left and I met a guy from the club. The prospect? Well, I'm coming down for him but, the thing is I shouldn't be there. I'm breaking a big rule and I need you to understand before it gets out of hand...bye."

I pulled the phone away from my ear and cursed out loud. I couldn't believe that I hadn't listened to this before, I could have tried to fix this horrible mess. I felt really guilty as I placed my phone against my chin and leaned against the counter. I was thinking of a way to fix things when my phone rang and I jumped with surprise. I looked down at my phone to see an unknown number in my phone. I looked at my phone in confusion before I answered and held it up to my ear "Hello?"

"Savannah? It's Hale from the police department."

Shock hit me and I immediately, I knew who he was calling me for, "What did she do?"

"She hit a girl in the face with a skateboard. Broke the girls nose."

"Are you serious?"

I knew she was mad at her but, not enough to do that much damage. I felt sorry for Cherry, she was being misunderstood and it wasn't going to be fixed unless she admitted it to Gemma face. "Okay, I'll be right down there."

"Listen unless her bail is posted she won't be released until the morning."

"Have you called Clay?"

"He is here to."

"What? For what?"

"The feds brought him in on something that happened this morning."

"Shit, okay I'm on my way."

"Okay bye."

I hung up and looked down at my phone. No way was this happening right now. I grabbed my keys and headed straight towards the station. I walked in and Hale escorted me towards Gemma. I walked past the room where Clay was being held and he looked pissed. Hale noticed where my attention went and he answered my question for me, "They had a big argument when they brought Gemma in. It was a big uproar over what she did and she let him know that she knew that he had sex with someone else."

I looked over at him wide eyed, it was amusing but shocking at the same time. Hale stuck his key in the gate and unlocked it for me. Gemma looked over to me and glared at Hale "I thought I told you not to call anyone."

"Clay asked us to call her."

A silence fell over us and Hale took that as his cue to leave. Gemma looked straight ahead at the wall and I leaned against the bars. "You got her good I hear?"

Gemma sent a glare my way and I gave her a knowing look. "She deserved it."

"Gem...I'm sorry, I don't think you remember her but I know her."

"What? Why didn't you say something before?"

"Because I had no idea what was happening. All I knew was that Cherry wasn't in Tacoma anymore and Clay...well you know. Are you okay?"

Gemma let out a sigh, "Yeah, I'm just thinking about things."

"Do you want me to talk to the club, post bail for you?"

"That's sweet but, no I think this is where I need to be."

"Are you going to come out when Clay gets out?"

"No, I think I'm going to spend the night here."

I looked at her sympathetically, "I really am sorry Gemma, I wish I would've known before it blindsided you."

"It's not your fault and I think me and that tart are even now."

I looked down at my fingers and Gemma's hand reached out through the bars and grabbed my chin. She forced me to look at her, "Don't look so down, this is not something you could have controlled. This is a risk that you take as an old lady. Take this as a lesson, when rules get broken there are repercussions and sometimes there not good for anyone but rules are there for a reason."

Is this what it meant to be an old lady? Accepting that when there man leaves that he would be sticking it in someone else? That, the sweet butts could always come around? A tear slipped from the corner of my eye as I thought of how it would feel to be in Gemma's shoes but, with Happy. Gemma brushed it away and said "Don't cry. You don't have to be with a son and some of the men aren't like that or there are sub rules to the rules created between two people. Just be firm with what you want and what you expect out of life and you will be fine."

I sniffled and nodded my head. "Thank you Gem."

"No problem. Now go, I don't want you seeing me like this anymore."

I smiled reassuringly at her and took off to my next destination, the flower shop. I knew what I had to do next.

~~SOA~~

I stood in front of the door, nervous holding a bouquet of sunflowers. I gave a hesitant knock on the door and her voice called out to me. I stepped in and had to withhold my gasp as my eyes landed on Cherry. I closed the door behind me and Cherry looked equally shocked to see me. "What are you doing here?" She asked

"What? A friend can't come visit another friend when she pisses of the queen of the bikers and gets a skateboard to the face." I stated matter of factly

I walked forward and passed her the flowers. She let out a sigh and looked down at the flowers, "So you heard?"

"Well, it's kind of hard not to be kept in the loop when Clay is my father and Gemma might as well be my mother."

"I didn't mean for it to happen like this honest. I was only here-"

"For Kipp I know," I cut her off and stared at her kindly, "Have you talked to him yet?"

An instant blush fell over her cheeks, "Yeah I did. I think I got it all sorted out with him."

I sat on the bed beside her and placed my hands in my lap, "That's good but, you do know what you need to do now right?"

Cherry looked even more depressed than before. "I thought we were even now you know."

"In the sense that you came here fully knowing you were breaking the rule. You gotta see it from her view Cherry, this was an uncalled for slap in her face. Plus if you came here for Kipp, to make a life with him...well you need to make things right with Gem or you know you can't stay."

After a moment's hesitation, she looked up into my eyes "Will you come with me?"

A reassuring smile spread across my face and I replied, "Of course I will."

A sneaky smile crossed her face "So onto a better subject. What's going on between you and Killer?"

It was my turn to look down now and I started to play with my fingers. "I don't know right now."

A look of concern crossed her face and she placed the flowers down beside her. She grabbed my hand and held it tight in her own. "What's going on? What happened?"

I was silent as I tried to think over my words carefully. I couldn't exactly tell her what I saw "I saw a side of him I never thought I would. It didn't scare me but, it made me worry. He is also keeping things from me and it hurts me to know that he is okay with that. That he thinks that is okay. So I have been avoiding him."

"Well, how do you think he feels now? With you hiding from him and not giving him a reason?"

I never thought of it that way but, did Happy truly feel like that towards me? We haven't even establish a relationship or whatever it's called that we have. Her next words shocked me back into reality, "You know what you have to do right?"

"You're playing my words against me." I accused her.

She made a mock hurt look and gave my hand a squeeze. "I can see how hurt you are but, I'll make you a deal. You go and see him, make him listen and understand you and I will do the same thing with Gemma."

She knew that either way if she truly loved Kipp and wanted to stay, she would have to confront Gemma. But, she was right I couldn't keep running from him forever. He would find me one way or another, he always does. I nodded my head and gave her a kiss on the cheek. I turned to face her better and smile lit up across my face. "Okay missy, spill. What happened when Kipp came by."

Another blush spread across her face and I knew it was more than just a talk they had.

~~SOA~~

I was finally driving home after about three hours of visiting with Cherry. My mind was now more at ease since I talked to her and Gemma but, something still wasn't right. I found myself driving by TM and I knew that most of the boys were out, including Clay. I saw Happy's bike sitting in the line up with a couple others and pulled into the parking lot. I couldn't wait for him to come to me and if I didn't do this now I would lose my nerve. I walked slowly across the parking lot, playing over what I wanted to talk to him about in my head. It was becoming chilly out and I rubbed my arms as I opened up the door to the bar. Kipp was behind the counter with a couple of the sweet butts walking around. "Hey Savannah. What can I help you with?"

"Is Happy here?"

"Yeah, in his dorm."

I nodded my head at him and walked down the hallways as if I was a woman on a mission. I needed to get this off my chest and if he wasn't okay with it well then I guess there never would be an us. I gave a knock on the door and in a few seconds Happy opened it. He looked genuinely surprised to see me there and I was about to surprise him once more. I stepped forward and stood on my tip toes and pressed my lips against his. He stumbled back from shock but, it only took him a moment to catch up to me. I pressed him backwards and kicked the door shut behind me. He placed his hands on my hips as I kept pushing him backwards to the bed. I missed kissing him and it was obvious that he did to. Our kiss was filled with urgency and passion and I didn't want it to stop. But, this wasn't why I was here and I had to put an end to it. I placed my hand on Happy's chest and pushed him down onto the bed. I withdrew from him and took a step back from him. He looked even more confused than the start. "I want you to listen to me Happy. Don't interrupt and I want you to think about what I say," When he didn't interrupt, I continued, "The night of the fireworks...what you all did, I understand that is the way it works for you. Whatever your reason was for doing it, there would have been nothing I or anyone else could have done. I understand that but, what I don't understand is the fact that you hid it from me. Just like everything else you have done since I have known you. You hide it all from me, I'm not a child and I can handle it? How do you expect me to be your old lady if you can't even confide in me even just a little. And another thing, this rule that has everyone in a tissy today, is something I won't accept. You belong to me and only me. I don't share and I don't play nice either. The only thing I would even consider is a blow job and that's only if you are away from me for a long period of time. Do you understand me? Because if you don't let me know now so I-"

I was cut off by Happy masculine arms wrapping around me and drawing me into him. "Do you realize what you just called yourself?" he whispered in my ear

I blinked in surprise but, shook my head. "You just called yourself my old lady. That makes you mine and only mine. Just like I am yours and only yours."

I pulled away enough to look at him in the face and I could see the lack of sleep he had gotten and the stress that lined his face. "If I tell you everything Savannah, have no secrets from you...are you prepared for that? Not everything I do is going to be sunshine and rainbows? A lot of it is ugly, remember I walk down a dark path."

I placed my hand over his cheek and placed my forehead against his, "But, you don't have to walk that path alone. I'm not saying I want to know every gruesome detail but, I do want to know what you're doing. I understand the club comes first to you but, what about me? Where does that place me?"

He took my hand from his face and placed it over his heart, "It places you here. In my heart, my life and my reason to live. You bring light to the darkness and I have realized over the last few days. When you refused to talk to me, avoided me like I was the plague and even today when I tried to talk to you at the car. I know I'm no good at this relationship thing. It's never been my thing and you know that."

I placed my lips against his to shut him up. That was all I needed to hear from him. He was right it would be a tough road to walk down with him but, I was ready and willing to meet those challenges. He was going to be my man and I would be his old lady.