Chapter 42
Alex didn't bother going after him when he left the room. She figured she could hide in the bedroom, bathroom and TV is right there, she just shouldn't get hungry anytime soon. She laid back down on the bed and fell asleep again.
Ryan was down in the living room lying on the couch watching a football game while trying to calm down, before he speaks to his wife again. Alex came into the kitchen about an hour later trying to avoid any eye contact with him or even acknowledging the fact that he was in the room. She grabbed a banana, her bag and cellphone off the counter and headed towards the front door. "I'm going to the pharmacy to pick up the prenatal vitamins Doctor Roberts prescribed." She said softly before walking out the door not bothering to wait for him to answer her. "She was almost halfway past the open plan living room and kitchen when she heard his reply. "Drive safe." He said standing up looking at her and she paused for a moment, before closing the door behind her.
Alex got into her car but didn't drive away immediately. She let her head rest on the steering wheel while trying to compose herself. She hated whenever she and Ryan got into an argument and they didn't resolve things straight away. Maybe she was wrong for not thinking his proposal through, but he has to understand that there's no need for him to start treating her as if she's made out of glass for the next nine months. She started the engine and backed out of the driveway, heading towards the pharmacy before they close.
On her way back she took the long way back so she'll be stuck in traffic. She popped into the grocery store to get something she can cook for dinner. She contemplated stopping by Shelby's place but decided against it and headed straight home rather. She walked into the house, making her way to the kitchen to put the bags on the counter, when Ryan came down to see if she was okay. "Here let me help." He offered trying to take one of the bags but Alex wouldn't have it. "I'll manage, it's not heavy." She said walking past him. She put the bags down on the kitchen counter and started putting some things away before her phone rang, her mom's name showing on the screen. "Hey, ma." She greeted holding the phone in place with her shoulder as she continued to pack the groceries away. "Alexandra, why didn't you tell me what happened at work yesterday?" Sita inquired from the other end. Alex took a deep breath looking over at Ryan as he made his way across the kitchen to help pack the things away. "How'd you find out?" She asked surprised by how calm she sounded right now even though a storm was raging inside her. "That's not the point, Alex. What matters is that you didn't tell me about it." Sita reprimanded her daughter and Alex walked over to take a seat at the chairs by the kitchen counter with one hand pressed against her forehead. "Ma, please calm down. Yes, I got shot and had a little operation to have the bullet removed but I'm fine now." Alex answered hoping her mom would calm down. "I am not going to calm down, you're my child and I will always worry about you even if you're fifty years old. You'll understand that logic once you're a mother yourself." Sita said and Alex's heart almost skipped a few beats. "All right Ma. I'll be going back to work next week and the doctor wouldn't have cleared me for work if he thought I wasn't ready to return yet." She said and Ryan paused midway in front of the cupboard taking a deep breath before placing the last item in the cupboard and closing it slowly.
Alex and her mom said their goodbyes and she stood up walking towards the stove, but Ryan was blocking her. "Can you get out of my way please, I want to start getting dinner ready." Alex said irritated waiting for him to move. "Alex can we please talk about this?" He asked still not moving. "What is there to talk about, Ryan?" She asked biting her lip turning away from the stove, standing with one hand on the counter and the other on her hip. "Alex please, I don't want to fight with you, can we just talk about this?" He sighed pulling her away from the stove.
"Did you tell my mom?" She asked once they were seated on the couch. "No, I didn't, and I don't know how she found out." He said honestly hating the big space there is between them, as Alex sat on the far end of the couch hugging one of the scatter cushions. She took a deep breath before starting her sentence. "Ryan, I don't want you to treat me like an invalid just because I'm pregnant. I can still do everything else like I use to before we found this out." She said looking over at him. "I know and I get that." He answered frustrated. "But I just, never mind this is not going to go the way I thought it would." He said falling back against the cushions with his hands covering his face, frustration running through him. "I get that you're going to start worrying whenever we get called out and that you want me to take the baby into consideration as well." She stated moving closer to him. "But Ryan, I need to do this for myself. Sometimes when things get too much, I burry myself in work because I feel like that is the only thing I have control over." Alex explained, standing up and taking a seat on the coffee table so she can look him in the eyes. "Because right now, I'm feeling so overwhelmed and I have a million emotions running through me at the same time, that I don't know how to deal with." She whispered on the verge of tears. "And I have this attachment and unexplained love for this baby growing inside of me that I've never felt before and it scares me." She concluded as the tears rand down her cheeks and she hid her face in her hands.
"C'mere." Ryan said moving closer to the edge of the couch so he could comfort his wife. He pulled her towards his chest as she started sobbing. "I'm sorry for being so hard on you." He said holding her tightly. Hating whenever she cried as each sob made him feel worse for all the things he said to her earlier. After she calmed down, he looked at her and she wiped her face on her sleeve. "I'm sorry." He said honestly patting the open spot next to him and she got up from where she sat on the coffee table, and took a seat next to him. "To be honest, I'm scared too, Alex. I didn't have my father around growing up. What if I'm not a good father for our munchkin?" Ryan asked twisting his wedding band on his finger. Alex rubbed his back softly, sniffing. "Hey, look at me." She said softly and he turned towards her slowly. "You're going to be an amazing father." She confirmed rubbing the stubble on his cheek. "I know that, because you've just proved it to me, by how concerned you are about me and munchkin's safety." She answered smiling at the little nickname he just gave their baby. She leaned in and gave him a kiss. After they pulled away he smiled at her. "I love you, sweetheart. And you too little munchkin." He answered kissing her belly. "Come on, let's get you something to eat." He said getting up, walking towards the kitchen. "Are you cooking?" Alex asked surprised. "Yeah, why can't I?" Ryan questioned not sure why she'd ask something like that. "Uhhmm. Okay. The fast food restaurant's numbers are in the top drawer, and I have them on speed dial." Alex laughed knowing her husband was no master chef, but she'll enjoy laying on the couch watching him burn half of the thing he's planning on cooking.
Hey guys, drama is resolute. Thanks for the read. Hope you enjoy this one. Lovies-S.
