My name is Nara Shikamaru, I belong to the clan of the shadows, the dark hair and the ponytails, that is the Nara clan. People say I'm the smartest person in all Konohagakure. I really like that title. I don't like admitting it, but I am a bit arrogant. Having an IQ of over 200 can really open up lot of doors, but being that intelligent is not always great, your brain runs faster than the average, so that leaves a lot of thoughts running free and sometimes all you want to do is shut them up.
I haven't seen Ino or Chōji in a long time. About seven months and few weeks ago, the Fourth Great Ninja War ended. After that war, I don't think we would ever be the same, team ten was really affected by it. War is something nobody should ever experience in their life. I had a really hard time getting used to my new life, my father was now gone and so does Ino's, and there was nothing we could do about it. It was that same feeling when Asuma, who we had to kill again, died, feeling powerless, hating yourself, a lot of horrible thoughts.
I was 16 years old when Asuma died. After his death, I picked up his smoking habit for a while. It was my way of keeping him alive. When my father died, I started smoking again. My mom has been really down lately and I've been taking care of a lot of things around the house, so I smoke to relax. But about three months ago I tried something different. During a mission in Kirigakure I got injured, and one shinobi offered me some painkillers from their village. I had no idea what those things were, but I took them anyways, and I felt better than I had ever felt before. That same guy has been giving me a bottle of those painkillers every once in a while after that incident, he sometimes gives me more. I like taking the painkillers to relax, they really make your body feel lose and everything feels slower than the usual. I like that feeling, I really like it a lot.
Last time I saw Ino, I hadn't taken my painkillers and I felt horrible, a lot of thoughts were running free and I was feeling really anxious and angry. And I don't remember when was the last time I saw Chōji, but it was a really long time ago, I miss him sometimes, but I know he would disapprove this that I'm doing, so I prefer not to see him. It's my life.
