Chapter 201

After that question, and her husband failing to answer her Alex went into clinical shock and Ryan felt like the four walls were closing in on him. Doctors working on stabilizing his wife and the rest of them working on his son. As if on que Asher started wailing and Ryan can't remember the last time he was so happy to hear one of his children cry. That was a sign that everything was okay on the one side, or at least for now it seemed like it was, but he still wasn't allowed to see either of him or his mother. So instead he asked if he will be excused and walked out of the operating room to give his mother an update.

He walked into the waiting room and saw his mother sitting in one of the chairs and he immediately felt bad because he remembers Phoebe was with her and he didn't even greet her when she called on him. Theresa got up when she saw him walking over to her. "How are things going?" She asked, and Ryan shrugged.

"Before she went into surgery she told me that if it comes down to her or the baby I have to chose him. She went into clinical shock and they're trying to stabilize her now." He said emotionless, and he suddenly felt tired.

"And the baby?" Theresa asked taking her son's hand in his and he shrugged. "I wasn't allowed to see him either. Mom will he be okay if he was born at 7 months?" Ryan asked looking for some glimpse of hope amid all of this and Theresa wasn't even sure if she had an answer for him.

"I can't raise two kids without he mom. I can't lose Alex." He admitted staring at the floor.

"She's strong. And she's made it through surgeries while she was being pregnant. We'll have to believe that she will be okay." Theresa said feeling hopeless as she looked at how her son was letting his guard down.

"Did you call Sita?" He asked, and Theresa nodded. "They're on their way. Luca took Phoebe outside." She added in case he had more questions to ask. It felt like the minutes were ticking away like hours and no one had an answer for him. The doctor arrived and told him that he is allowed to see his son but advised that he has no physical contact with Asher as his immune system is still very weak and he is in an incubator. "Also, his lungs aren't functioning properly at the moment, so he is on respirators to help him breathe. The next 24 hours are critical, but we are monitoring him closely." The doctor concluded as he leads the way to the newborn intensive care unit where baby Asher was laying.

There was nothing more that Ryan wanted than to be close to his child. Just hugging him or holding him and assuring him that everything will be okay. He just wanted the little guy to wrap his one hand around one of his father's. He wanted him to open his eyes, so he could see his eye color. He moved closer and sat down on the chair looking at the little guy, and the feeling of his heart becoming heavy was too much for him to handle, because right now he wasn't sure if his son or his wife will make it.

"Hey buddy." Ryan sniffed putting a hand on the incubator. "I need you to fight okay. Your mom can't wait to see you. And you have a sister, who will probably drive you crazy, but I know somewhere deep down she'll like you." Ryan smiled as he kept an eye on his son's chest to ensure that it rises and falls and that he is still breathing even though he is hooked up to machines. "Asher trust me if I could trade places with you right now I will. You have no idea how much I love you, and how much it kills me to see you like this."

In the waiting room Sita and Joey has arrived and Alex was still in surgery as no one came to give them news on how she was doing. Wordlessly Theresa and Sita hugged each other, as no words were needed to express how scared they were but it all showed in their eyes. "Any news?" Joey asked and Theresa shook her head.

"Alex is still in surgery and Ryan is with Asher now. He is in an incubator and he is hooked up on ventilators because his lungs isn't functioning properly." She said softly seeing Sita's eyes shining with unshed tears. Ryan was sitting with Asher not sure how much time had passed when he decided to go out and get some fresh air. He walked towards the waiting room and noticed his in laws sitting with his mother, Sita got up and hugged him. She wanted to ask him if he was alright but she couldn't bring herself to ask the question as her emotions got the better of her but he understood it. He shook Joey's hand and informed them that he'll be outside looking for Phoebe and they promised to inform him when they get news on Alex. None of the parents pushing him to say something more or asking him how he is doing , because he just needs his space right now and they're willing to give it to him.

Ryan walked outside and looked for his daughter, when he saw her and Luca sitting on a patch of grass, talking about who knows what. He blew out a long steady breath and walked over to them. Luca got up when he saw his brother in law approaching and the look on his face didn't look reassuring at all. "How's things going in there?" He asked and Ryan shook his head, his eyes shining with tears once again and Luca just nodded his head not willing to ask any more questions. The little time he has spent with them he has seen how much they love each other and he was afraid to admit it but he was scared that something might happen to his sister, and he wasn't sure if Ryan or anyone else would be able to handle it for that matter.

"Dada, we go mama!" Phoebe said when she got up and walked over to her father who was sitting on the bench in close proximity to them.

"We can't see her right now Pheebs. Maybe later." He proposed. "Your brother was born today." Ryan said and he wasn't sure if he saw a smile on his daughter's face and if it was just his mind playing tricks on him.

"Big girl!" She announced pointing towards herself and her father nodded, because she finally seemed happy about her new status. Joey came out after a while in search of his grandchild to ask Ryan if he can take over watching her while he goes back inside, but when he saw him sitting on the bench and no Phoebe in sight he assumed she must be with Luca again. He hasn't seen Ryan this distraught in the time he has known him, and quite frankly he didn't know what to say to him to make all of this better. He sat next to him on the bench not making eye contact. Neither of them felt the need to talk but just the fact that Joey was there made him feel better.

Alex and Sita sat in the waiting room, when the doctor instructed them that they can go see Asher, and they got up and walked towards NICU. The doctor pointed out where baby Booth was, and the grandmothers understood why Ryan looked the way he did when he emerged from seeing his son. There he was a tiny little baby with too much wires and hooked up to a machine that helped him breathe. "Oh my god." Sita whispered laying a hand on the glass that separated them from the newborns in NICU, as she and Theresa held each others hands saying individual prayers in the hopes of saving their newborn grandchild.

Ryan and Joey walked back into the waiting room and sat down, as there was no sign of Theresa or Sita but they soon appeared and sat down with the rest of them. A doctor approached them, the same one who was in the operating room with the rest of the team a while ago. "I just want to update you all. Mrs Booth has lost a lot of blood during the surgery and we are trying our best to stabilize her. She'll need a blood transfusion and then we'll take it from there." The doctor informed them and Ryan felt helpless as there was nothing he could do for any of them.

"Will my wife be okay?" He asked looking up and the doctor pursed his lips together and shrugged.

"In all honesty Mr Booth we don't know. Only time will tell." He answered honestly and turned back around heading towards the theatre.

Time was dragging too slow for his liking and everyone wanted him to eat and offer him coffee when all he wanted was to know if his family will be okay. He called Luca continuously and asked him if he could bring Phoebe over because he just needed to see his daughter since things are going haywire and he needs some sort of stability in his life because he wasn't even sure if his wife was going to make it through her surgery.

Luca brought Phoebe and she immediately went over to her father after she greeted her grandparents to go sit on his lap. "Mama?" She questioned looking at her father.

"The doctors are looking after Mama, she'll be out soon and then we can see her." Ryan guided his daughter and saw the doctor emerge. "Mrs Booth has lost a lot of blood during surgery and she is weak. But you can go see her, she is stable, and we are monitoring her closely." Ryan handed his daughter off to his mother, and walked towards the ICU where Alex was.

He walked into the room and saw his wife laying in bed. Sat down next to the bed and took her hand in his squeezing it lightly. She looks up at him when she opened her eyes and looks around the room. Without asking questions Ryan knew he had to answer her unanswered questions. "Asher, is quite small. He…he is in NICU. His lungs aren't functioning properly yet and he is on ventilators at the moment to help him breathe." Ryan explained seeing his wife's eyes fill with tears.

"Will h..e be okay?" She asked in between deep breathes and sniffs, but even Ryan didn't have an answer for her as he just shrugged. "Promise me you'll keep checking up on him. I…can't loo-se him Ryan."

"I told him to keep fighting. And I'm hoping that's what he'll do sweetheart." Ryan said softly

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