Chapter 203

Alex looked at Ryan when Asher started wailing and a nurse soon came around to them to see what was wrong. She checked a few things on the monitors and within a few minutes he was calm kicking his little legs out and looking around the incubator. Alex smiled down at her baby boy, she wanted to pick him up so badly. They just stared at him when a doctor soon came into view walking over to the new parents.

"The fact that he is crying is a good sign, it might sound disturbing because there is nothing you can do from out here to stop it but it definitely helps with his lung function. We'll monitor him closely for the next 24 hours because he is not out of danger just yet." The doctor said looking at the parents not wanting to give them false hope. Alex was just happy to see her son with his eyes open curiously looking around, and she prayed that things will change for the better during the course of the night.

Once Asher settled down again Ryan wheeled his wife back to her room and helped her get back into bed. Her pain medication was starting to wear off and she was beginning to feel pain and being uncomfortable, this is the part of the c section that no one told her about. The slightest movement will end up giving you pain and she feels like she should remain stagnant in one position. "You don't have to stay." She said looking over at him where he stood at the end of the bed. "You can go home." She assured him but he shook his head.

"I'd rather be here." He said walking over to the lounger next to the bed.

"We have another child as well. We can't neglect Phoebe and make her feel like an outcast." She reminded him not wanting it to end up in another mood swing where her daughter hates the word baby or the mention of her brother. Not that she can do anything about it now because he is here and he is not going anywhere.

"I'm sure she's fine. Alex I'm worried about you and Asher." He defended his side of things.

"We have a hospital full of staff to look after us. Phoebe has one father and a mother who is in a shit load of pain right now. Go - be with her." Alex said making it clear that there is no use arguing about it and Ryan nodded. Even though he didn't want to go home and would have wanted to spend the night here at hospital with them.

Phoebe was sitting on the kitchen floor with an empty bowl that had a chocolate mixture in it for the cake she and Sita were making. The floor and her clothing smeared in chocolate, not to mention the way her face looked but she enjoyed it regardless. Her father opened the door and couldn't help but smile at the sight of it.

"Cake dada!" She announced when it seemed like it took him too long to notice what they were busy with.

"I see that." He laughed walking over to her, and kissing a spot on her head that wasn't covered in chocolate.

"I'm sorry about the mess I promise I'll clean up once we're done." Sita explained to her son in law but he really didn't mind. Ryan brought her up to date on what was happening at the hospital and how they were doing, when Sita told him that he should go check on his mother. She went to go lay down after they got back from hospital but Sita was worried about her either way. She explained that she wanted to stay but Theresa told her its fine she can leave and that she will call when something is wrong. Getting back into the car Ryan rushed over to the guest house where his mother was staying and walked into her room. Surprised not to see her in bed or in one of the chairs watching TV but instead the hurling noises he heard from the bathroom made him rush across the room.

"Mom?" He knocked on the door and turned the handle, but it was locked.

"I'm fine." She said but the noises he heard from the other side of the door made him worry and he refused to leave until she opened the door, and the pale look on his mother's face made him worry.

"You're not fine mom. You're vomiting look at you. What's going on are you okay?" he asked concerned as she rinsed her mouth at the bathroom sink and nodded her head at her son.

"I'm okay. It's the side effects of the chemo. I wanted to stay at your house longer but Sita was already worried about Alex and the baby she didn't need me to worry about as well. Damn all of us are worried about the two of them…

"Don't change the subject mom. I need you to be honest with me." Ryan said and looked at her as she walked out of the bathroom and made herself comfortable on the bed.

She folded her arms and looked at her eldest. "Last time I checked I am the parent and should be worried about you." She replied and patted the empty space next to her indicating that he should sit down. He walked over to the bed and laid down next to her, his arms folded across his chest both of them staring at the ceiling. "How are you holding up?" She asked glancing over at him and he closed his eyes and blew p=out a long breath before he started speaking. "I'm trying to be strong. I feel like a failing parent, because I don't spend enough time with Phoebe but on the other hand I want to be at the hospital 24/7 until I know Alex and Asher will be okay." He admitted running a hand across his face.

"You're not a failing parent it is normal to feel like this. And trust me grandparents have no problem looking after that sweet princess." Theresa tried to set him at ease that they really didn't mind watching Phoebe.

"Sweet princess." Ryan chuckled. "Because you guys are giving in to her demands, you should see her when she is throwing one of her tantrums. But I love her so much even when she acts up." He said thinking back to times when Phoebe is impossible to handle.

He turned on his mother looking at her with his blue eyes. "Mom seriously, how is your treatment going?"

"This time around it is worse than the first sessions I've had. I'm sick, more than what I would like to be." She said and sighed touching the stubble on his face. "I've missed two chemo sessions, because I just didn't want to feel like a train wreck anymore." She said seeing the look of shock in his eyes. "It's only been about a month since I've found out about this but I feel like giving up Ryan. You have no idea what it feels like to have chemicals pumped into your body, everything I eat tastes like metal. I have to force myself to get out of bed in the mornings."

Ryan was on the verge of tears and he shook his head at his mother's revelations. "No mom. I've lost a parent before I cannot go through it again. Don't you want to see the girls get married and have kids of their own? See Asher grow up and play sports, see Phoebe go to kindergarten? Did I tell you he had blue eyes?" Ryan asked his mother with a smile on his face and unshed tears shining in his eyes as.

" Mom your grandkids need you… I need you." He admits as his voice gave in and the tears rolled from his eyes. Theresa leaned over and hugged her son as he buried his face in her neck, reminding him of when he was little and she used to console him. "Mom, I…I'm sc..ared. For you and f..or Alex and Ash..er. I just want you guys to be okay."

Hey guys. I'm not sure if I answered all your questions yet. Someone asked if I have a Tumblr account unfortunately I do not. Also season 3 is out! I will try my best to get the first episode within this week still. Soooo yeah, here's another one enjoy the read. Oh and thank you for the new followers and favorites welcome to the fam.

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