BEFORE THE CLEARWATER'S

CHAPTER 9

SAVANNAH P.O.V

"C'mon baby. Just a little, they'll have no idea." Seth whispered into my neck as he kissed it. He slowly kissed my chest dipping his head to my most heated area sucking on the sensitive bud there.

"We can't." I moaned arching my back and gripping his hair. He moved his face away from me taking off his boxers. I was already naked, I was waiting for him. I wasn't going to be the one to stop him from doing this.

"If you stay quiet, they won't hear us." He whispered hovering over me. I nodded looking up at him. He kissed me as he thrust into me to mask my moan.

I sat straight up almost out of breath. I felt around the bed for him. He was practically falling off the side but he was still there. And I needed him.

"Seth." I whispered pressing my hand onto his chest. "Seth." I shook him a little.

"What?" He grumbled rolling over. I would hate if he woke me up at 3 in the morning but I knew I wasn't going to be able to fall back to sleep until he handled it.

"Wake up."

"I don't want to." He sighed opening one eye to look at me.

"I'm horny." I giggled sitting facing him. He sighed again. I knew he couldn't resist me no matter how hard her tried.

"We can't baby." He sat up on his elbows looking at me.

"Please." I whispered. "I want it. They won't know." I moved closer to him climbing on his lap. He looked out the open door. I stayed quiet while he listened.

"We have to be fast." He said taking off my shirt. I giggled as I got his boxer's off grinding into him. He held my hips helping me find a pace. "Are you gonna take your panties off?" I quickly moved to take them off before getting back on top of him. He quickly ran a finger up my folds to see how wet I was. "You really are horny."

"I had a dream you were fucking me." I whispered position him at my entrance before sinking down onto him. "Holy." I moaned softly slowly moving my hips. I had my palms pressed flat against his chest as I rocked. He played with my clit with one hand and had the other behind his head enjoying the show.

"You look so beautiful."

"That feels so good." I whispered. I knew that if we got caught doing this, I would be banned from ever seeing Seth again. Or worse, my dad would kill him.

He thrust up a few times helping me reach my orgasm. He held his hand over my mouth as I orgasmed. It was so much easier when I was in control of how fast we were going. It didn't hurt at all the second time. He thrust a few more times and he orgasmed right after me.

"You're so beautiful." He whispered sitting up holding me to him while he kissed me. "I love you."

"I love you." I commented moving off his lap. I got my shirt back on before laying next to him. "We really gotta start using condoms." I commented cuddling into his side.

"Yeah, we do." He sleepily smiled. "Best 3 am wake up." He mumbled his eyes closing. I was too hyped up to sleep.

Around 5, I got up to light a candle so it wouldn't smell so much like sex in here and then went to shower. I could hear mom and dad talking in Finn's room while I showered. When I got out, they were both at the door.

"Quick question." Dad said.

"What's up?"

"Do you mind watching the kids tonight so mom and I can go out to dinner? Have a night to ourselves." He asked.

"Sure."

"I'll even let Seth stay the night too."

"I'll watch them for you." I answered.

"Why are you up so early?"

"Had a dream and just couldn't go back to sleep." I shrugged picking out new pj's to wear.

"Wanna talk about it?" I shook my head.

"I talked with Seth." I commented. "Now go I need to get dressed." I shoved him out the door before closing it. I turned back to my clothes to get dressed. Once I was decent, I opened the door and headed downstairs for breakfast. I closed the door behind me so no one would bother Seth. "Where are you and dad gonna go tonight?" I asked her getting myself a cup of coffee.

"Probably to a nice dinner and then for drinks or something." She shrugged. "We might get a hotel room. I need a break."

"I will watch the kids. Don't worry about it." I commented. I wasn't sure why I was willing to do them any favors. It wasn't like they had helped me out at all in the last few weeks.

"We'll leave some money so you guys can order pizza."

"Thanks." I commented making myself some breakfast. I'm sure Seth wouldn't be awake for another few hours and he wouldn't appreciate me waking him up again. I had wanted to tell my mom everything about what happened with me and Seth. She was always very open about sex and I wish I could tell her how nice he treated me, but she wouldn't care to know anymore. And I would get in trouble.

"You don't talk to me much anymore." She commented playing with my hair.

"I don't have much to say anymore." I shrugged. It was going to be difficult to forgive them for what they did to me. "Everything I did or said I got yelled at for and sent to my room." She sighed. I wasn't trying to say anything in a rude way. I was stating facts.

"I'm sorry."

"Thanks." I commented standing up to clean my plate and put it away. I quickly went upstairs and started my laundry. I had learned to keep to myself and I wouldn't get in trouble.

*SETH P.O.V*

I woke up after everyone else and was actually able to shower without Savannah busting in on me. I was hoping that we were quiet enough this morning that no one heard us. I'm sure we would both be dead right now if that was that case.

"Morning." I kissed Savannah's head as I came into the kitchen. She was sitting at the island doing some research.

"Morning." She smiled. "Coffee in the pot." She commented as I grabbed a cup and poured myself one. "My parents are going out tonight if you wanna help me babysit."

"I would love to." I smiled kissing her lips.

"Where are they now?"

"They went out to buy Ashton and Peyton new shoes." She answered. I stood behind her watching her laptop screen.

"What are we looking at?"

"I'm looking at Thailand. Seeing how much it would cost to go there." I sat beside her and watched her research flights.

"Trying to run away?" I joked.

"No. I wanna go see the elephants. I think it would be awesome." Which automatically gave me the idea that if she didn't go before we got married, that we would go on our honeymoon. "It's kinda expensive. They have plans already made and you just have to pay it. Like 8 day trip. 1700$ per person." I nodded getting up to make myself some breakfast.

"Why don't you save that so you can find it later when you have the money?"

"I already did." She sighed. "I'll probably never be able to go so it's pointless anyway."

"I'll take you some day." I smiled.

"It's expensive."

"I'll save up." I commented making eggs and toast. She was quiet for a long time. "What are you thinking about?" She shrugged.

"Do you know how much I wanted to come down here and tell my mom the amazing night we had and I couldn't? Then she brought up the fact that I don't talk to her much and she seemed upset with me, like it was my fault." She rested her elbows on the island while I plated my food.

"She just wants you to talk to her again like old times."

"I can't though because I'll be grounded." I agreed with her. It seemed like a lot lately that no matter what she said or did, she was punished for it. "I'm a good kid. I didn't deserve what they did to us."

"I didn't deserve that either." I commented to her. "Not everything is always about you, Sav. I was affected by it too."

"I know you we-"

"Do you though?" I asked looking at her. "Because lately you seem to only care about your own feelings." She looked down and her breathing picked up.

"I'm sorry."

"It's selfish." She looked at up at me.

"You think I'm selfish?" She whispered. I regretted it as soon as I said those words. I had no idea how to respond to her. Sometimes I forgot just how young she was.

"Sav, I'm sorry." I put my plate down and reached out for her. She just shook her head.

"It's fine. You're probably right anyway." She turned back to her computer. I watched her for a while. She kept her eyes right on the screen. Bella and Jacob came back a few hours later.

"Hey guys." Jake commented coming into the room looking in the fridge.

"Hey." I responded hopping off the counter. "I'm gonna head home." I commented.

"You're not gonna stay the night again?"

"Thought I wasn't allowed too?"

"We told Savannah you could spend the night again." Jake commented.

"I know. Maybe I'll come back later." I looked over at her. She was still looking at the computer. "Bye, Sav."

"Bye."

"Is something going on?" Jacob asked.

"No." We both responded at the same time. You know I'm starting to think that every time we have sex, something happens. I shook my head before going upstairs to grab my shoes and leaving out the front door.

"Seth wait." Jacob called from the porch.

"What happened?" I ran my hands over my face. It didn't matter what I said, she was going to take it the wrong way and maybe Jacob was right, we should have waited longer to start our relationship.

"Nothing. It's fine." I commented. "I'll come back later."

"What did she do?"

"She didn't do anything." Usually the father would be asking what I did. "She's not a bad person, Jake. Just sometimes she only thinks about herself."

"Well yeah. She's a 17 year old girl, Seth." He commented.

"Well maybe I kinda told her that." I could hear her sniffling inside the house. I had just gotten her back and I was going to lose her again. "Maybe you were right, we should wait until she's 18. More mature."

*SAVANNAH P.O.V*

Hearing Seth say that I was selfish and then hearing him say that my dad was right and we should have waited until I was more mature, crushed me. It then made me start to wonder if that was because of the Alpha order to stay away from me. Did he really believe those things or did my dad put those things into his head?

Either way, it hurt me.

"God I'm so stupid." I mumbled to mom as she rubbed my back.

"He's a boy. He'll never understand." She commented.

"He said I was selfish. No one loves me."

"I love you."

"I haven't felt it recently." I answered truthfully. Maybe I would become brutally honest and then no one would be able to say that I was selfish. "My heart hurts." She stayed quiet while I cried. "You should go get ready for your date." I wiped my eyes sitting up.

"Are you sure?" I nodded. "Okay, let me know if you need anything." What I needed was for Seth to be more understanding.

My parents left an hour before bedtime so that at least I wouldn't have to deal with all three kids by myself for very long. Seth said he would come back but it wasn't looking good at this point. I wasn't going to be the first to text so he would either show up or he wouldn't. I couldn't care less either way.

I watched a show with Ash and Pey before getting them into bed. I stayed up for a few more hours with Finn. I gave him a bottle before rocking him to sleep and putting him in his crib. It was rare that he woke up during the night but I kept the baby monitor in my room just in case.

'I'm sorry.' I texted Seth. 'I don't mean to be selfish.'

'I'm sorry I said it. I shouldn't have.'

'Do you really want to wait until I'm 18?' He had said it before but I thought we were back together and now I'm really confused.

'I think we should.' Tears sprang in my eyes and it sucked because if he had just stayed away the first time, this wouldn't have happened again. I wasn't mature enough for him and it sucked. Now I really did want to run away to Thailand.

'I'm sorry.' I had no idea why I was even saying sorry. I was lonely. There was no one else for me to talk to. I didn't really have friends outside of the pack family. Even then all of the other girls were either younger or much older and wouldn't want to hear about my stupid teenage problems. Alice was in Paris. Rose doesn't even like Seth. "I'm so stupid." I whispered to myself shutting off the lights and laying down. "No. He's stupid." I told myself. And I was right, he was stupid.