BEFORE THE CLEARWATER'S
CHAPTER 10
SAVANNAH P.O.V
I was really starting to question the whole imprinting thing. It didn't feel like we were imprints anymore.
"Savannah, this is a lovely surprise." Grandpa Billy said when he opened the door. I smiled at him and I leaned over to kiss his cheek.
"I had a few questions." I asked following him to the kitchen table.
"About?"
"Imprints." He nodded. I'm sure he had heard that I was going through a breakup for the second time. It wasn't exactly a secret. I hadn't talked to Seth in a loving way in a week and it was starting to eat at me. He would check in everyday but he never said he loved me or called me beautiful. It was starting to drain me. "Do imprints ever fall out of love?"
"No. It's a life bond." He answered shortly.
"Do they break up a lot?"
"They can. It happens. It's like any normal relationship. All couples have problems. All couples fight. Just because you're imprints doesn't mean that you're not going to get annoyed with each other or fight. What matters is if you think it's worth it."
"What if they don't? What if they think one isn't mature enough?" I asked.
"Every relationship is different. There is no telling when the time is right. Wait until you think you're ready." I nodded at his words. My birthday was in three weeks. I wonder if Seth would come running back to me at midnight or if he was going to wait. "How about some lunch?" He asked.
"Sure." I got up to help him make a sandwich. I made his the way he liked it before making myself one.
"Have you talked to him?"
"A little. But he doesn't talk to me like I'm his girlfriend anymore. Not that I am. But he talked to me like I'm just his friends kid. Not the girl he loves. I annoy him. He told me I was selfish." He said that our breakup was difficult on him too. I knew it was but this time around he's making it seem easy. "It's killing me." I whispered.
I knew our relationship was never going to be the same after this. I would always be in fear that he was going to break up with me again and I didn't want that. I didn't want to be a couple that broke up and got back together three days later. Those couples were so annoying and clearly toxic. I didn't want to be a toxic person in his life and I didn't know how to stop myself from being that person.
"As bad as it is, sometimes I wished he never imprinted on me."
"Wanna know a secret?" I nodded. "A lot of imprints feel that way at some point in their life. I think maybe you should go talk with Emily, or Claire."
"Yeah. I should." I nodded finishing my sandwich. I threw away our plates before we watched a few innings of an old baseball game together. "I'm gonna head over to Emily's." I commented standing up. "Thank's for lunch." I smiled kissing his cheek and heading for the door.
"I hope our chat helped."
"It did. Thank you." I took off running to Emily's. I knew that all imprint relationships were different and that I shouldn't compare but I needed to know if Sam and Emily ever went through something like this.
"Hey." She smiled as I walked into the kitchen. "Long time no see. How you holding up?" She asked cleaning up from lunch.
"I've been better." I sighed sitting down. "Did you and Sam ever go through something like this?"
"Yeah. At the very beginning. I didn't want to be with him because of Leah. I couldn't do that to her. We broke up a few times before it finally stuck." She commented. I wasn't sure if it was true or if she was just making me feel better. "It was like we didn't quite understand each other." Then it clicked.
"It's the same with us. He doesn't understand me and I don't understand him. I'm not mature. I'm young." I sighed. "Has he said anything?"
"Not to me no." She answered. "Give him time. Everything will be fine." I sighed. He had 17 years to figure it all out!
"I've given him almost 18 years." I commented.
"I know you have. And he's waited a very long time to be with you. Things got complicated."
"We had sex again." I blurted.
"Does your dad know?"
"No. So don't tell anyone or he'll kill us." I ran my hands through my hair. "We got into a fight literally the morning after and he hasn't come to see me since."
"Maybe you guys just shouldn't have sex."
"Yeah." I laughed. We could just be one of those couples who never has sex.
*SETH P.O.V*
Jacob was glaring at me. I couldn't see him. But I could feel him.
"Dude stop." I thought. I had no idea what he was pissed off about.
"I'm letting it slide this one time Seth." He commented.
"Letting what slide?" I asked cursing myself. Of course he saw. I could never keep my thoughts to myself.
"You know what!"
"That was the first time we did it!" I huffed totally lying to him. The second time was much better than the first time.
"I'm not a moron Seth."
"No but I am." I sighed. "Twice now I've broken up with the love of my life."
"Was wondering why you weren't coming over to the house."
"She didn't tell you?"
"No." I'm surprised she didn't tell them as soon as it happened. "She's been acting normal for the most part. She doesn't really talk about you anymore."
"I should probably go see her."
"She's at my dads. Leave her alone until she get's home."
"Will do." I phased back to human form and went home to shower. I needed to go see her and make sure that we were okay and that we would get back together someday. I called her. She took a while to pick up. I'm sure she was debating if she should answer or not.
"Hi."
"Hey, are you home?"
"Almost."
"Can I come see you?"
"I guess."
"What's wrong?" I asked pulling a shirt over my head.
"Nothing. Just surprised you wanna come see me."
"I always want to see you." I commented getting into my car. "I'll be right there and we can talk."
"I'm still like ten minutes away." She huffed.
"Are you running? Do you want me to pick you up?"
"I'm fine."
"Okay. I'll see you soon." With that I hung up. I got to the house before her and Bella was in the kitchen cooking. "Sav here yet?"
"Not yet." She commented. "Where have you been? Haven't seen you in a while."
"She didn't tell you either?" I sighed. "We broke up."
"Again?" Guess we were one of those couples that broke up a lot.
"Yeah." I wasn't sure what I was going to say to her when she got here. I was afraid of what she was going to say to me. I was afraid that she wasn't going to want to be with me anymore. It was my biggest fear when she was younger that she wasn't going to feel the same way about me.
She slowly strolled in the back door.
"Hi." She greeted both of us.
"Hi." I smiled at her. She was wearing a plain pair of jeans and a sweatshirt but she still looked beautiful.
"You wanted to talk?"
"Yeah. Can we go somewhere private?" I asked.
"Sure." I followed her up to her room. I kinda just stood there. I had no idea what I was going to say to her. "Well?" She asked.
"I don't know what to say." I answered truthfully.
"You could start with why you think it was a good idea to break up with me. Again!" She raised her voice.
"Don't yell at me." I said making her roll her eyes.
"You are so frustrating! One minute you're loving me and saying how beautiful I am while I'm naked on top of you and then the next you're saying I'm selfish. I don't understand you anymore. And maybe that's where our problems come in, we don't understand each other."
"Yes we do." I argued. I knew her better than anyone. She told me everything.
"Why did you break up with me?"
"Because it's best if we wait until you're 18."
"To do what? We've already had sex. You just want to be single for a little while longer before you're tied down and married with kids."
"And?! Is that so wrong?!" I shouted. "You're not even an adult and we're already talking about marriage! Doesn't that scare you?"
"No. It didn't. Not until now."
"What's that suppose to mean?"
"I wasn't scared about marriage or having kids until we started fighting all the time." The look on her face broke my heart. "I feel like you don't love me anymore."
"Of course I love you." I grabbed her face. "I will always love you, Vannah. I cannot imagine living this life without you. Just because I want to wait until you're 18 does not mean that I love you any less. I have plans for us. Plans that I want to make sure you're ready for before we do anything stupid." I wiped away the tears that fell from her eyes. "You have to trust me."
"I do trust you. I'm just having a difficult time."
"I want this more than I have ever wanted anything but this is moving too fast. I don't know what the hell I'm doing."
"You think I have any clue what I'm doing?" She asked. "That's what relationships are about. We're suppose to figure this out together." She paused. "Alice told me the day you broke up with me that she couldn't see our future anymore. It scared the hell out of me."
"Did she see our future before?"
"She sees our wedding all the time. She can't see it anymore." But how could that be when the ring was burning a hole in my pocket?
*So the reason I had them break up again was because I realized the book was moving very fast. In The Clearwater's, they get married when Savannah is 19 and have their first child by the time she is almost 22. The time line is still going to follow that but I want to make this story long. I love writing about Seth and Savannah. I cannot stop writing about them. Soon Savannah will be 18 and like Emily said, it'll stick.*
