Chapter 16

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Hadrian leaned over and lightly kissed Tim on the mouth. He pulled back and watched Tim's expression anxiously.

Tim looked at him for a moment then smiled and leaned in to kiss him back. It was still a chaste kiss but Tim lingered longer. He licked across Hadrian's lips and Hadrian opened his mouth deepening the kiss. They kissed passionately until breathing became imperative then drew back panting.

"Is this okay?" Hadrian asked.

Tim smiled and wrapped his arms around his friend. "Very okay" he said leaning in to kiss him again.

Hadrian smiled and continued to kiss him passionately. Neither man tried to progress things beyond kissing, Tim because he didn't want to pressure Hadrian into anything he wasn't ready for and Hadrian was just enjoying the kissing and hoping they had a lifetime to explore so he was in no hurry.

"Wow" Hadrian whispered as they broke apart to catch their breaths.

"Yeah Wow" Tim agreed grinning happily.

"So is this just a bit of fun or does this mean we're together?" Hadrian asked hopefully.

"It's more than just fun for me Hades" Tim said seriously. "I have serious feelings for you. I'd like to start a relationship with you."

"I have feelings for you too. You're more to me than just a friend" Hadrian replied, then added hesitantly. "I want to be with you. Maybe we should take the night to think about this and be sure we both want this. I don't want to risk our friendship."

"Your friendship is important to me too" Tim replied, "But Hades, I have thought about this, since the night I found out you were gay I've had trouble thinking about anything else. I know this won't be easy but I want to be with you. I think it's worth the risk, and I believe our friendship would survive so long as we're honest with each other, you're too important to me for it not to." He leaned in and kissed him again pulling him closer.

Hadrian returned the kiss and there was no more talking for quite a while.

-o0o-

Hadrian hadn't taken into full consideration when he kissed Tim the fact that they were already sitting on Tim's bed and at the end of the night he didn't quite know what to do with himself. He didn't want to go upstairs and sleep in his cold bed alone, but he also didn't want to move too fast and staying the night when they'd just spent the evening snogging was very different from falling asleep together while watching TV or sleeping over as a friend when one of them expected nightmares.

"I should go" he said reluctantly.

Tim seemed equally reluctant. "You could stay. I'll try to keep my hands to myself" he suggested.

"It's not that! I trust you!" Hadrian said, blushing furiously. "It's just I'm not ready for more than snogging."

"Snogging?" Tim asked amused.

"We'll what would you call it?" Hadrian asked embarrassed.

"I would call it kissing. I think snogging is a purely British word" Tim replied chuckling. "But you're right. I'm okay with taking things slowly. I'm asking you to stay as a friend the same as you usually do. I wouldn't have kissed you here in the bedroom if I'd known it would make you uncomfortable to be here with me. Your clean pyjamas are in the bottom drawer like always if you want them."

Hadrian pulled on the pyjamas and settled down to sleep faced away from Tim who rolled over and tentatively put an arm around his waist.

"Is this okay?" Tim asked.

"Yeah, we normally wake up like this anyway. I like it" Hadrian replied.

"Me too" Tim replied. "Goodnight Hades"

"Goodnight Tim" Hadrian replied.

They both lay there each too keyed up to sleep but trying not to disturb the other. Finally, Tim realised Hadrian was still awake. "You okay?" he asked softly.

"Yeah" Hadrian replied. "Though I think I could use a cold shower."

"Yeah" Tim agreed.

"Maybe I should have gone upstairs to sleep" Hadrian said.

"I'm glad you didn't" Tim replied. "Feel free to shower if you want to. There's a radio on the bottom drawer of the vanity if you feel more comfortable knowing I can't hear you."

"How long have you felt this way about me?" Hadrian asked.

"The attraction was there as I got to know you on the plane. But please don't think that's the only reason I invited you to stay. I genuinely liked you as a friend and I thought you were straight. If friendship was all you could offer I would have been happy with that" Tim replied. "You're the best friend I've ever had."

"I've liked you that long too" Hadrian replied. "I was afraid to lose your friendship."

"Are you still worried about that?" Tim asked.

"A little, we really have something special but now that our feelings are out in the open we're just as likely to lose what we have if we don't try as if we do. I want to be your friend forever. To spend our lives being close" Hadrian said.

"It is possible to remain friends after the end of a relationship, my bosses best friend married his ex-wife and they're still friends" Tim said trying to lighten the mood. "And while Abby didn't turn out to be much of a friend to me our friendship didn't end just because we stopped dating."

"Yeah you were her friend, but you were still in love with her for a long time too and she hurt you. I don't want to hurt you like that" Hadrian replied.

"I don't think you could ever be as selfish as Abby turned out to be. I want to know you'll always be in my life. And I think our chances of remaining friends for life are pretty good. Neither of us are petty or jealous people. Even if we try a relationship and it doesn't work out I think we could still be friends" Tim said earnestly. "But we shouldn't be talking about what will happen if our relationship doesn't work. It feels like we're planning for it to fail."

"No I'm planning on trying as hard as I can to make this work" Hadrian said fervently.

"Me too Hades" Tim said squeezing his new boyfriend a little. "Try to get some sleep though."

The seriousness of their conversation had taken the edge off their arousal and this time they both drifted off to sleep happily dreaming of their future together.

-o0o-

"Have you ever had sex with a man? Or maybe I should say boy?" Tim asked. He'd decided that they needed to talk about this a little before it came up in the heat of the moment.

"I've never had sex with anybody. Ginny is the only person I've dated more than once and she wanted to wait for our wedding night" Hadrian said honestly. "I'd never even kissed a man before you."

"Is she or her family super religious?" Tim asked surprised.

"They're not religious at all, just extremely conservative" Hadrian replied. "I was barely allowed to spend more than an hour with her unchaperoned except in public. She acted like it was a huge favour to be allowed to touch her breasts through her clothing once we got engaged."

Tim laughed. "I guess the fact you were content with that is one of the indicators that you are more gay than bisexual" he said.

"Yeah now that I think about it" Hadrian agreed. "But the whole community and all the kids at boarding school were like that, at least they pretended to be in public and I didn't hear any different, so it was normal to me until I moved here and into the real world."

"So you were chaperoned closely enough that you never had the opportunity to have sex and she still felt she had enough control over you to make you change your mind and marry her whether you wanted to or not?"

"Yeah. Not that that stopped her brother, my best mate, from believing her and punching me in the face when she told him she was pregnant after we broke up in order to try and pressure me into marrying her" Hadrian said disgustedly.

"But if you knew you hadn't slept with her then you would have known it couldn't be true" Tim said confused. "How did she expect that to work?"

Hadrian laughed bitterly. "She thought her family would believe her over me and pressure me into marrying her. The whole community they live in is super conservative and if she really was pregnant and we didn't get married we both would've been ostracised. She doesn't understand that I was prepared to leave our community and the rest of the world isn't like that." Hadrian was having trouble describing how insular the world he had lived in in England was, without being able to mention magic it just didn't make sense. "She thought that I loved her and her family too much to embarrass her like that even if I wasn't in love with her. And my job had morality clauses in it and she thought I could lose it if she made a big enough fuss."

"So she was trying to make sure you either took her back or she ruined your life" Tim said furiously. "That little bitch should be glad I'm on the other side of the world."

"Don't be too angry with her, it was her actions that led me to accepting the overseas posting" Hadrian replied smiling at his boyfriend. "She's the reason we met."

Tim chuckled and kissed Hadrian, "I should write and thank her for sending you to me" he joked.

"No she doesn't know where I am the postcode on your letter would enable her to find where I'm working" Hadrian replied seriously.

-o0o-

Now they were together neither man tried too hard to hide the admiring glances at each other's torsos and bums as they stepped out of the shower or changed for bed.

Tim grinned when he caught Hadrian checking him out making Hadrian blush.

"Hey it's okay to look. Thanks to your healthy cooking I haven't ever looked this fit before" Tim said blushing too.

"You looked good before, you weren't fat" Hadrian argued.

"I was nearly twice your size" Tim retorted slipping on a t-shirt.

"My cousin was about seven times my size and I'm not exactly a healthy weight anyhow, side effect of ten years and six summers of near starvation" Hadrian said casually.

"Seven times your size? I'm going to ask you about the starvation later" Tim warned him climbing into bed and taking Hadrian into his arms.

"They're kind of related. My aunt related feeding people with affection. She disliked me so I only got table scraps and food Dudley didn't like, like vegetables, but she adored my cousin so she almost force fed him everything he wanted and you can't expect a child to make healthy choices when offered unlimited junk food. I think for all they loved him and despised me I got the better deal. They screwed him up more than me in the end" Hadrian explained.

"You look healthy enough now. You obviously find time to work out without me" Tim replied smiling at his boyfriend and running a hand over his t-shirt covered abs.

"Yeah it's a struggle to maintain my weight when I get stressed though. To me eating is a conscious decision something I frequently forget to do when I'm busy and my stomach won't let me eat properly when I'm worked up about something " Hadrian replied. Most of his upper body muscle bulk came from the crazy way he flew a broom instead of the hours in the gym Tim was envisioning.

"Were all your scars from your aunt and uncle too?" Tim asked seeing hades was in the mood to talk about his childhood.

"A few, most of them are battle scars from school and the war" Hadrian replied.

"From school?" Tim asked horrified.

"My left shoulder was from a competition in fourth year as was the right biceps. The left elbow was from an incident in second year" Hadrian replied. They weren't bullying incidents, though there was some schoolyard rivalry which got a bit out of hand.

"So you weren't bullied?" Tim asked.

"I was in primary school, mostly instigated by my cousin but luckily we went to different secondary schools" Hadrian replied. "Thankfully the bullying never escalated to the point of leaving scars. What about you?"

"Every time we moved they put me up a year so by high school I was at least three years younger than the rest of senior year. It got pretty rough" Tim said. "Joining the wrestling team helped but kids don't like to be outdone by someone younger."

"Was college better" Hadrian asked hiding a mental wince. Tim had would think he was a real idiot to still be in high school at an age Tim had already finished his first college degree.

"A bit" Tim said. "I wasn't bullied but students did resent me for being top of the class and very few of them wanted to hang around with a kid so much younger."

It took a few nights for the couple to relax again about getting into bed together to sleep, but they soon got over it and as time passed their kisses got more heated and their hands started to explore each other's bodies. Hadrian was a little self-conscious about all his scars but Tim had kissed every one of them as it was revealed to him and promised that they didn't make Hades any less attractive in his eyes.

-o0o-

Tim sat stiffly waiting for dinner moving his head as little as possible.

"Are you hurt?" Hadrian asked noticing as he finished dishing up.

"Just stiff and sore. We had hand to hand training today and Ziva was a little rough on me" Tim admitted.

"Finish your dinner and I'll give you a massage" Hadrian offered.

"Thanks" Tim said smiling, he was feeling so much muscle pain that the thought of Hadrian massaging him wasn't arousing as it normally would be. He just wanted the stiffness to reduce enough that he'd be able to sleep without strong painkillers.

Hadrian helped Tim off with his shirt, surprised he wasn't wearing an undershirt. "I knew it would hurt too much to get off again to shower" Tim explained.

"Do you want to shower first? The hot water might help" Hadrian asked nervously as Tim started to unbuckle his belt.

"Yeah" Tim agreed. "Can you help me with my shirt.

Hadrian had helped injured friends and colleagues undress before but this was slightly different. He helped him off with his shirt then knelt to untie his shoes before sitting back to wait in case Tim needed help getting his feet out of his trousers.

Tim felt incredibly self-conscious taking off his pants with Hadrian watching him so closely. He blushed as he pushed his boxers down revealing his semi erection.

"Obviously you're not feeling too bad" Hadrian teased.

"With you on your knees in front of me like that I'd have to be dead not to react at all" Tim mumbled embarrassed.

Hadrian hurriedly got to his feet. "I'm sorry I didn't think" he said flushing.

Tim smiled and leaned over to kiss his cheek. "You were only trying to help I know" he admitted. "You're not responsible for where my perverted imagination went."

Hadrian grinned. "My imagination went there too" he admitted. "But your too sore to do anything more than imagine. Go shower and I'll massage your back so you can sleep."

While Tim was in the shower Hadrian carefully mixed a little muscle relaxation and healing potion into some cooking oil, after checking his potions and basic field healing textbooks to see it was safe to do so. Using the potion at full strength would work too well and cause suspicion that Hadrian was able to totally heal the muscle soreness within seconds of starting the massage, hopefully the small amount mixed in the oil would ease the soreness slowly.

Tim came out wrapped in a towel.

"Lie on your stomach" Hadrian said.

"Do you want me to put pants on?" Tim asked blushing.

"Only if you want to" Hadrian replied.

Hadrian had stripped the quilts of the bed so Tim lay down on the sheet and loosened the towel so it lay across his bum.

Hadrian smiled at the level of trust Tim had in him and sat on the edge of the bed starting to massage his sore shoulder. He soon got the worst of the stiffness worked out and moved to massage Tim's neck and the rest of his back enjoying the feel of Tim's smooth skin under his hands. He was glad Tim couldn't see him because his erection was making quite a large tent in his sleep pants. He finished the massage folding the towel back until he could just see the top of Tim's crack and dimples just above it. He was tempted to go further since Tim was showing no sign of stopping him but when he realised Tim had fallen asleep. He called Tim's name softly but the older man didn't rouse. Hadrian used a clean towel to wipe off the excess oil and covered him with the quilt so he wouldn't get cold and went to take care of his erection in the shower.

He realised now that he should have encouraged Tim to put his pants on before the massage, now he was sound asleep and it would be a shame to wake him but he wasn't sure if Tim would be okay with sharing the bed while he was naked. Hadrian knew he should go upstairs to sleep in his own bed or at the very least set up the blow up mattress in the other room but the thought of snuggling up next to Tim was incredibly enticing.

-o0o-

Tim woke reeling refreshed and comfortable, he was a bit disconcerted to feel Hadrian's hand wrapped around his penis and his pyjama clad erection nestled up against his naked arse but remembered making the decision not to put pants on before lying down for Hades to massage his shoulder. He was fairly sure Hadrian wouldn't have touched him like this deliberately without him being awake to consent and he'd woken up himself once or twice with his hands in places they didn't have permission to be so he wasn't upset by the position they found themselves in just a little embarrassed.

He brought his hand down to try to get Hades to let him go without waking him. Unfortunately, touching Hadrian's hand caused him to tighten it and flex his elbow slightly eliciting a loud moan from Tim. Tim froze as Hadrian started to wake.

Hadrian was still more asleep than awake as he stretched pressing his erection between Tim's cheeks as his hand inadvertently stroked Tim again.

Tim couldn't help himself he thrust up into Hades hand and came crying out Hades name.

Hadrian awoke with a start.

"Oh Merlin's I'm sorry" Hadrian said as soon as he realised what he was doing.

"It's okay" Tim replied still trying to recover.

"I knew I shouldn't have stayed" Hadrian said apologetically.

"What do you mean you shouldn't have stayed? I always want you to stay" Tim replied.

"You fell asleep during the massage and I didn't have the heart to wake you but I wasn't sure if you'd be okay with me sharing the bed while you were naked. It never even occurred to me that I'd end up groping you in your sleep" Hadrian explained anxiously.

"Hades it's okay. I was awake for most of it. I could have stopped you before things reached their conclusion if I wasn't enjoying it too much" Tim said blushing. "I need a shower."

He got up and turned back to the bed to see Hadrian turning his face away blushing and scowling at the bed.

"It's okay Hades. Don't beat yourself up about it. Things like this happen" he tried to reassure his boyfriend.

"I practically molested you" Hadrian said miserably, how can you still trust me?"

"You were asleep and I was awake. If anyone molested anyone it was me" Tim said coming and sitting back on the side of the bed.

Hadrian looked at him then quickly averted his eyes.

"You can look. We've both snuck enough peeks at each other that there's no point hiding. I've got nothing to be ashamed of" Tim said halfway between amused and embarrassed.

"You're sitting there covered in semen" Hadrian said astonished.

"Which is proof that I enjoyed your touch, again nothing to be ashamed of" Tim reminded him. "It was bound to happen to one of us sooner or later and it could have been worse"

"How?" Hadrian asked incredulously.

It could have happened before we got together. What if it had been that first week when I was too tired to notice you were there and fell into bed in just my boxers" Tim said.

Hadrian shuddered. "I would have probably moved to a hotel if that happened and we wouldn't even be friends" he whispered.

"Yeah but we are friends and more. I trust you Hades. Are we okay?"

"I guess so if you're really honestly not disgusted with me" Hadrian replied.

"I'm not, but we are going to be late for work" Tim said hurrying to the shower.

"It's Saturday. Do you have a case?" Hadrian asked.

Tim ducked his head out of the bathroom ruefully. "No. I just lost track of days. Do you want to go out for breakfast seeing as we're already up?"

"Okay. I'll just go and shower upstairs" Hadrian replied gathering up his clothes.

"No need. I'll be out in a minute" Tim called.

-o0o-

Breakfast out was nice, though Tim knew Hades could have cooked better food. It was good to get out of the apartment and be together in public sometimes to remind them both that their relationship wasn't totally secret. The only member of the team that lived anywhere near Tim was Ziva but he'd never seen her out in the neighbourhood they frequented so he felt comfortable walk

ing through the park holding Hades' hand on the way home. Hadrian had calmed down about what happened earlier.

"If it makes you feel better I can return the favour" Tim offered when he tried to bring it up again.

Hadrian blushed, "Um… Yeah okay… if you want…" he stammered.

Tim looked at him searchingly. "Yes of course U want to" he said disbelievingly. "I've been waiting until you felt ready. And obviously your subconscious wants to but do you feel ready to try it while you're awake?"

That's where we're going isn't it?" Hadrian asked.

"Yeah I thought so" Tim replied. "Isn't that what you want."

"It is" Hadrian said.

"We have the whole weekend. Is there anything you want or need to do?" Tim asked.

"No let's go home."

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