There will be a flashback in the next chapter telling how and why Clary and Jace broke up and how she felt when she found out she was pregnant
Jace's Pov
The steady beeping of machines brought me out of a deep sleep I looked over to Mason who was sound asleep with stuffed animals all in his hospital bed, I looked over to Clary who was twitching in her sleep she was frowned and shaking I went over next to her and shook her silently and she gasped and sat up with tears in her eyes she looked over to Mason and breathed a sigh of relief. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah just a bad dream." She said and I looked over at Mason and then back to Clary.
"Can we go to the cafeteria and talk maybe?" I asked and she nodded and stood up and we left Mason's room.
"Is something wrong?"
"My coach says if I don't come back they will end up dropping me."
"Oh…" She said and stood up.
"Wait where are you going?"
"You're leaving and if Mason wakes up and you're just gone-"
"I'm not leaving."
"But you said."
"He thinks i'm just sitting at home doing nothing… But i'm gonna tell him about Mason if that's okay with you I mean I know that you probably don't want him in the spotlight with everything that's happening but-"
"You wanted this your entire life Jace and i'd never want to take that away from you… I mean do I want everyone up in our business especially when our son is sick no, but it's better to just tell them the truth instead of them snooping around and finding it out some other way and then it just makes you look like a dick in the end if you wait."
"Thank you that means a lot." I said and she nodded.
"Before you leave can you say goodbye to Mason though? I don't want him to think you just disappeared."
"Of course."
"Are you going back to Chicago?"
"No, we actually have a game here in Tennessee today so I won't be gone for super long only a few hours I didn't want to leave the state in case something happened." I said and she smiled.
"I'll text you and let you know how the MRI goes and everything." She said and I was thankful we were finally getting it done we were suppose to have it done the day after my family came but Mason had gotten really sick and didn't even want to get out of bed now he was feeling so much better so after a week and a half of waiting he was finally getting it.
"Thanks." I said and we ate breakfast silently together and went back to Mason's room he was awake and crying Clary rushed over to him.
"What's wrong bubba?"
"You and daddy were gone I was scared." He said and my heart sped up, he hasn't been calling me daddy for long so whenever he said it I couldn't help but feel joy knowing I was someone's father that I helped bring a precious life into this world.
"We are sorry buddy.. Mommy and I went to get breakfast." I said and he nodded and wiped his tears away.
"Daddy?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you and I go for a walk today?" He asked and I felt shitty for leaving now.
"Daddy has a game tonight." She said and I looked at her.
"Clary I didn't say I was gonna play today-"
"I'm not letting you give up everything Jace."
"I was going there to tell my coach I need some time off."
"And don't your fans deserve to give you a farewell for a little while?" She asked and I nodded but still felt really really crappy, I looked over to Mason and he had tears in his eyes again.
"I don't want you to leave us daddy."
"I'm not leaving Mason i'm never leaving you guys ever again.. Daddy just has to go to work today and then I will be back okay?" He nodded but I could tell he was still sad.
Walking into sports zone I was confused as to why Hodge would want to meet me here so when I seen him he ushered me onto a stage where cameras were in my face and there were interviewers sitting on the couch opposite of us. "We are here with Jace Herondale who has been MIA for almost two weeks."
"I figured since you said you had a good reason to be missing out on your career you would like to share this information with everyone." Hodge said and I laughed without a trace of humor I was pissed but I knew if he knew the truth he wouldn't be doing this, he thinks he can embarrass me because he thinks I have been sitting at home doing nothing.
"I've had a rough couple of weeks, I recently found out that I have this amazingly wonderful bright son who brings a smile to everyone he meets.. I've been getting to know him this week and I don't know how much more time I will get to keep learning about all the things he's experienced in the five years of his life because while i'm sitting here he's getting an MRI to see if the cancer in his body is dying, while i'm sitting here he's wondering why daddy isn't here to hold mommy while she cries. That's where I have been for the past few weeks." I said bitterly and everyone was stunned in silence the angry was radiating off of me.
"I'm so-"
"I'll be playing today but it will be my last game this season.. I need to be there for my family." I said and pulled the microphone off that was clipped to my shirt I left in a hurry so reporters wouldn't crowd me and ask questions but to my surprise they all kind of just let me go without any hastle.
I went to the gym to try and keep my mind off things but when I got there all I wanted to do was go back to the hospital and be with Mason and Clary I didn't even want to go to the stupid game I knew I had to go but I wasn't gonna do any good with all my focus being on if Mason was going to be okay.
I hit the home button on my phone and smiled at the picture of Mason and I even though he wasn't feeling good he was still making jokes and he said he wanted us to have a picture together so my mom took it he had his mask on but you could tell he was making a funny face under the mask because he was squinting with one eye and his other eye was big and wide.
I was in the locker room getting ready for the game when my phone vibrated I picked it up quickly.
C: Hope your game goes well
J: Is Mason okay? How did the appointments go?
C: I don't want to ruin your game i'll talk to you when I see you okay?
J: Don't do that Clary I won't be able to concentrate if you don't tell me
C: Be patient
I threw my phone back into the locker and some of my teammates just looked at me with a very sad expression I know they seen because half of them have come up to me and told me how sorry they were. I walked out onto the field and it felt like a foreign place to me it always felt like home but now it just felt wrong to be here when my son needed me. "Jace?" Hodge said and I snapped out of it.
"Yeah?"
"Listen I just wanted to say i'm sorry for what happened today I had no idea and-"
"You had no way of knowing…."
"You do have an amazing girlfriend though." He said and I raised an eyebrow and he pointed behind me I turned around and I seen Clary standing by the bench were the rest of the team was and I ran towards her.
"Is everything okay? Is Mason okay?"
"I wanted to tell you in person." She said she had tears in her eyes and I didn't know if that was good or bad.
"What is he okay?"
"The MRI went amazing, chemo is working-" before she could say anything else I pulled her towards me and kissed her she was frozen at first but then I felt her body relax and her arms went around my neck. "They are gonna be starting his first cycle in three weeks they want to give his body time to recover before starts and that's not even the best part."
"What's the best part?"
"Turn around." She said and I slowly turned and seen him in Alec's arms he had his little mask on with dinosaurs all over it and he had on a Bears hat with my number the tears instantly came as I walked over to my little man and took him from Alec and held him tightly, everyone was cheering.
"How are you feeling?" I asked him and he smiled.
"Great." He said and I smiled. Clary came over and took Mason from me and they went and sat down to watch me play and now I felt good about the game knowing Mason was here and he was getting better.
Clary's Pov
Jace's team one Mason had told Izzy it was because he was Jace's lucky charm everyone was hungry after the game so we were gonna go out and eat, Mason had a wheelchair since he still was too weak to walk but he asked Jace to carry him which Jace did without a second thought.
When we got back to the hospital Mason was out like a light Jace carefully put him back in his bed and took his mask off and sat back down and I looked at him and sighed. "What's wrong?"
"You kissed me.."
"I did."
"Why?"
"Because I-"
"You really hurt me Jace and I don't think I can ever forgive you."
"I'm not asking you to forgive me because I don't deserve your forgiveness not yet. I promise you I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you for everything that happened."
"I can't do this Jace we have Mason to think about-"
"So basically I just won't get to see him?"
"You can still see him but I just I don't think we can-"
"Do you really hate me that much?"
"Jace… I don't hate you but last time we dated-"
"We were young and I was a dick give me another chance Clary please baby."
"And how do I know this won't be different from last time Jace you broke my heart and then smashed it with a hammer and dumped it in a trash can." I said and he dropped his head.
"I'm sorry… Let me make it up to you."
"I'll think about it but for now I can't Jace how about we work on just being friend's first." I said and he nodded.
