I'm so sorry its taken so long to update life kind of got crazy my mom got into a really bad accident and she has been staying with my sister and I so we have been taking care of her she is finally doing well despite the fact she's in a wheelchair and has now been nicknamed 'hotwheels' by my sister and I she still has a scene of humor so I have been really busy lately and I apologize if my updates aren't as frequent as id like them to be but I hope everyone can bare with me for a little while.. Thank you
Jace's Pov
Mason was asleep and Clary was reading a book she kept glancing up at me and then back to her book I was gonna ask her if everything was alright when my phone vibrated in my pocket I looked at Clary who went back to reading and left the room quietly and answered the phone. "Hello?"
"Jace?"
"Yeah who is this?"
"Really it's me Amanda." Oh shit.
"Oh uh hey."
"Oh uh hey? Really?
"Look-"
"As your girlfriend it would of been nice to get a call and say hey I have a kid so yeah i'm gonna spend time with him and my ex." She said I could tell she was angry but I really didn't care, no one in my entire family liked her they all said she was using me for my money and I knew they were right but I was lonely and never thought i'd see Clary again.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about him."
"Can I meet him?"
"Did you listen to the whole interview?"
"No I did not, I listened right until you said you had a son and I turned it off."
"You don't even like kids so why would you want to meet him?"
"Well because he's your son and I feel like if we are gonna be together I should get to know him."
"I don't think his mother would approve." She said and I seen Mason get up and look around for me. "I have to go."
"Wait-" I hung up and walked back into the room.
"Where did you go?" He asked me softly.
"Just had to answer a call that's all."
"That rhymed." He said with a smile and Clary laughed.
"Is everything okay?" Clary asked.
"Yeah just normal stuff."
"Daddy?"
"Yeah buddy?"
"Can we go for a walk?"
"Mas, you shouldn't be walking you know they said you need to save your energy."
"I know mommy but I really wanna go for a walk I haven't been outside since the zoo please?" He blinked his golden eyes a few times in her direction and she smiled and nodded.
"Please if he walks hold on to him he's still really weak."
"I know Clary."
I carried Mason outside and we went and sat down on some benches since he couldn't really play he just wanted to enjoy the fresh air. "Do you still love mommy?" He asked looking at me I couldn't see his mouth because of the mask but I knew he was frowning for the sad look in his eyes.
"I loved your mother very much but I hurt her really badly before you were born."
"What did you do?"
"She never told you?"
"She didn't like talking about you."
"I guess I didn't deserve it and I definitely didn't deserve how nice she was to me when I seen her for the first time."
"I want you and mommy to be together and we can be a real family."
"Mason-"
"We live in New York, you live in Chicago, I won't ever get to see you." He said and my heart started to race i've never really thought about it that way until now I looked at him and I could see how sad he was.
"No matter what happens I will be there for you and i'll still get to see you not as much as i'd like but I will get to see you."
"So we won't get to see each other that much?"
"Unfortunately."
"Can't you just tell mommy to move to Chicago and we can all be together."
"It doesn't work that way Mason."
"I know…" He said and I could tell there was something on his mind.
"Is there something else you wanted to say?"
"I want you to promise me something."
"O-okay."
"If I die-"
"You're not."
"If I die, promise you will take care of mommy for me."
"Mason-"
"Just promise me." He said and my eyes got watery but I nodded.
"I promise."
Clary's Pov
Mason and Jace came back in the room and the nurse took him to get some test done, Jace was staring at me I finally couldn't stand it. "What? Why do you keep looking at me?"
"I want joint custody when he's in remission I want him to know I will be in his life."
"Jace-"
"No Clary I want him to-"
"I didn't put you on his birth certificate."
"What?"
"You hurt me Jace and I never wanted my son to feel that way so I just left you out if it, you have no legal rights to get joint custody."
"So you're saying you hold the power over me if I get to see him or not?"
"I'd never do that to him or you i'm saying that you need to establish paternity before we can agree on custody."
"So I can have joint custody?"
"You can get him in the summer and when you are in New York you can take him."
"We can talk about all of this at a later time i'm just telling you I want to be in his life."
"I know you do."
"And in yours."
"Jace-"
"One date that's all i'm asking for."
"Why is it so important to you?"
"Because I still love you."
"Don't do that."
"Clary-"
"The last time you said you loved me you broke up with me because you wanted to become famous and sleep with whores you got your wish."
"I never wanted to hurt you."
"You made your bed now sleep in it."
"This isn't how I wanted this to go."
"Then prove to me, be a man and show me that you have changed that the second things don't go your way how do I know you will stay? I don't because that's what you do best Jace you run away and if that's how it will be you can just leave because I will not put my son through that."
"I will do anything to make you see that i'm not that guy anymore I love you Clary I really do and I want to be with you."
"Why don't I believe you then?" Before he could respond the nurse wheeled Mason back in and I didn't want him to see Jace and I fighting so I smiled and kissed his head and Jace helped him back into bed.
"Mommy?"
"Yeah bubba?"
"I'm hungry."
"You are?"
"Yeah."
"Does this mean you're gonna eat real food?"
"Yeah." He said with a huge smile and I pulled him to me.
"How long has it been since you ate real food?"
"A very long time." He said and I smiled.
"I love you Mas."
"I love you too mommy."
