I Don't Own Pokemon
It had been a few hours since we had set out from Nuvema and in that time, considering just how close the town is to Accumula, I'd say we were only about another half a day out from the town. It was late in the day almost night time, and while I was considering just pushing through until nightfall and then just return most of them all, besides Riolu of course as I didn't have a ball for her.
But I decided against it, after all, I didn't know yet if I would be getting any sleep tonight to begin with and if I did, judging from the, frankly put, nice streak of five to six hour sleep nights I've been getting for the last almost week. Well, I wasn't willing to risk one of the best sprees of sleepful nights I've had in probably at least four months, needless to say, while it might be nice to get to the next town, it was much more nice to almost be able to sleep normally.
Which led to me and everyone around me to be sitting in a neat little patch of grass in a flied that had a small river that ran across it. Which meant it was nice to see under the light of the setting sun, leading to a nice spray of oranges, reds and pinks splashing against the running waters. God that almost sounds like some kind of poetry. At least I think so, I actually no nothing really about poetry other than I both don't understand it and to be honest, don't like it, considering the amount of time I've had to spend in school trying to figure it out.
Anyway, I've lost whatever train of thought I was planning on using. Whatever, I'll think on it later, right now I focused back onto the events that was going on around me, looking between all the Pokemon around me, most of which were eating out of a bowl filled with food. I say most because I was expecting only one more addition instead two have joined.
As such Riolu was currently eating out of the bag itself though I made sure to make sure she kept count of the amount she had eaten. I gave her the reason that I didn't want her to waste my food, which was true, and the glare I got for it told me she knew I wasn't lying. It's surprisingly easy to manipulate a empath, after all they assume because someone isn't lying then it means that nothing is being held back, though that was mostly a side effect, not something I was actively going for.
Though this little coincidence makes her completely unaware to the fact that I also happened to not want her to get sick from over eating from the bag by accident. Though to be fair I'm probably not endearing myself to her, but I feel like nothing is going to change that for a while, until she become more use to both myself and my team so in the mean time I wasn't going to hold back in my snark and didn't care to try and convince her otherwise, she would have to decide that herself.
Moving on past that topic, I looked over towards the other new member of this little traveling Pokemon group. Snivy had taken to the group in a interesting way, he didn't seem to have much interaction with most of them, while only having some small conversations with Luxray, though he seemed to get along with Vaporeon pretty well. Mostly because both knew that they didn't have to fill in the silence, so they seemed to just enjoy the others company.
Which was good, I was actually a little worried about the over analyzing snake's ability to join into the group. Everyone already had such established presences in the team already, I wasn't sure how he's arrival would be integrated into the team, though he seemed to fit into the equation quite well all things considered. Which made me glad, I'm the last person to ever be the one to try and make someone be social with a group of new people.
Shaking my head away from that line of thought I looked up at the sky and noted that it was getting late, looking away from said sky, I instead turned my attention to the Pokemon around me and told them.
"It's about time you all got some rest, I'll wake everyone up in the morning when I think we should head out" I got some nods, as I walked around and began to pick up the emptied bowls and collected the box of food from Riolu. Placing the items away, I sat down and watched as everyone all started to sit down, some even already laying down and going to sleep, it seems that Snivy is going to take some time to get use to these day long travels.
"Aren't you going to go to sleep or are you going to stare at everyone all creepy like?" Looking away from the now resting form of Lycanroc to the source of the voice, I raised an eyebrow towards Riolu as she looked at me with a suspicious look. I let the frown appear on my face before I could decide otherwise, I hate my sleep problems, its led to some horrible moments in my life. I'm fine with joking about it, I'm fine with joking about anything really, but I really don't enjoy the idea that I actively choose not to sleep.
"I have some really horrible insomnia, at best I can get about six hours of sleep, I usually only get three to four, so no I probably won't be sleeping until at least a few more hours have past" She didn't seem all that concerned at my terrible circadian rhythm, and instead more seem to be shocked about something I wasn't sure about what, though I didn't have to wait long to find out.
"How do you function?" She actually seemed to have no clue as to how I can manged to work on such a low amount of sleep, which is a fair question, after all, the only reason I can function is because I've had a very sad amount of years to become accustom to working on about four hours less than the health amount of sleep. Still, I wouldn't say that, at least not in such words.
"By using my natural skill in adaptation and pure resilience with a small amount of experience" From her face I could tell that she could tell only the latter part of my statement was true, but didn't push on it and instead just shrugged before laying down as well. Rolling my eyes, I looked away from her towards my team, looking at them all, I made sure everyone seemed to be sleeping before closing my eyes as well, not to go to sleep, but to rest them, it isn't fun when they get to strained from overuse.
I almost let a frown form on my face as I noted with a very big ping of annoyance almost close to anger, as I could already feel my body reject the idea of sleep. it's something I've become use to understanding about my own body, changed into a Pokemon or not, I could already tell I wouldn't be getting any sleep tonight, I refused to let my annoyed sigh to be released into the air.
I wasn't asleep, but it seems that someone thinks I am, as I listened to the sounds of rustling as someone stood up, cracking my eyes open as I watched as Charizard stood up, looked around for a moment before slowly making his way over towards another part of the clearing, sitting up a little, I watched as he walked out pretty far. Frowning as I looked on until he was nearly out of sight before standing up, I could already tell this wasn't going to be fun.
Slowly moving my way forwards, I made sure to not make any real sound as I walked towards the area my Lizard went off to. Having a team, all of which had above average hearing wasn't always a boon when one wants to be sneaky. Though that just made it all the more impressive that a Pokemon with a flaming tail that also happens to weigh almost two hundred pounds.
Well, as I walked silently onward towards Charizard, I also happen to weight close to two hundred because of the average my specie weighs, which is a little weird to know as for someone who use to be six foot two and only weighed a little over one-fifty. To now be only five foot three without my illusion up, it's a a bit weird. Shaking my head at the surprisingly vain thoughts I moved myself behind a tree and watched as Charizard seemed to debate something before finally he lifted his head up as a torrent of flames was released into the air.
I sighed as my thoughts were proven right as I watched him start trying to train himself on his own, after a moment of deliberation, I made my way to my Pokemon. After a few seconds, as I approached him, he seemed to notice something but took a few moments before turning to look in my direction. I kept my face blank, holding back any of my more habitual expressions to appear as this wasn't the best time for misunderstandings, though that didn't stop the sudden look of shame and almost fear appeared on my Lizard's face.
"Don't worry, I'm not angry, just confused. Why are you out here?" He seemed hesitant to say anything, but after a moment be finally averted his gaze before saying, in a small voice that didn't suit my friend at all.
"I'm trying to get stronger Master" This time I did frown, and almost regretted it from the look on my Pokemon's face, but held my ground. Honestly, I should have done something about this a long time ago, but I never really trusted myself and my emotional understanding to handle this in the correct fashion. Now though, I'm just going to hope I don't mess this up.
"You're already strong enough, why do you think you need to do something like this?" He almost didn't seem to believe my words but , and if I didn't add as much forcefulness in my voice, something I didn't like as I prefer my voice's natural monotone to such a strict sounding voice as it had right now, he probably would have just dismissed them.
"But I'm not, if I was then maybe we wouldn't have lost" I made sure my face didn't change, something that took a bit more effort than I would have liked, as I felt the realization of just how much the lost must have effected him, much more than I thought it did, as I looked at the crushed expression on his face as he admitted something that must have been building up for the last week. I let myself sigh as some words came together in my head, I hope they were the right ones.
"We lost, it happened, and no matter how much stronger you get will not change that fact. Nothing will change that fact. What ifs are going to do nothing but just weigh down on you, you have to move on past our loses...For the last eight days since our battle with the Elite Four, I have thought of at least seventeen ways we could have have won, if I was just a little smarter, or more quick in my actions, I can see dozens of ways we could have won. So what do you think? Is it my fault we lost?"
It wasn't fair to do this to him, but I didn't know what else to do, playing on emotions is much easier and more reliable to me than having him come to his own conclusions from my words. Still, I felt bad as I watched him look at me shocked, before shaking his head repeatedly before saying.
"No! It's not you're fault, you did everything you could, you can't blame yourself for thinking of something after days gone by" Good, I hated it but I really did need him to say that, I really couldn't tell if what I was doing was fair, I'll be honest this is very clearly a form of manipulation, I'll think on it later, right now I'm mostly just annoyed at myself for not being better at this stuff.
"Ok, if it's not my fault for not thinking of a better way, then is it Luxray's fault? Lycanroc's? What about Mismagius? I mean if they were strong we wouldn't have lost" Charizard seemed shocked by my words, before shaking his head hard, denying my words very strongly. But this time I didn't let him response, instead I said to him, in a clam voice.
"If it isn't their fault for not being stronger, they why would anyone blame you for not being stronger either. You did your best Charizard, and while it might not have been enough to win, against some of the strongest in the world mid you, the fact of the matter is, I don't care about that. All I care about is that you and everyone else, did the best you could do. No one blames you, so don't blame yourself" He seemed to struggle for words for a few moments before saying after a moment.
"I'll try" I gave him a smile, which made him perk up at the first show of a sign of joy on my face, after a moment, I waved a hand in the direction of where the rest of the Pokemon were, then told him.
"Come on, lets get back to the others and see if you can get some sleep" He thankfully didn't mention that I didn't mention about the possibility about me getting any sleep. Though he did give me a look, one which I would have preferred to not have to be on the receiving end of. Still nonetheless, we walked back to the group, as I hoped I didn't mess up what I was trying to get across, well, either way, I'm sure my over active mind will spend the next seven hours until dawn going over what I said. I'm sure that'll be fun.
I haven't shown enough development in a few of the Pokemon, namely Charizard for the biggest example, something which I kind of regret but that's mostly what this arc in Unova is all about, character development and interactions everywhere. So this is the first main on for one of the long staying member of the group who really needed it, instead of continuing on with the focus on the two newest members.
I'm also thinking about a new story idea, well I say idea, I've already reworked the plot the main character's personality and the relationships about five times already because I haven't written anything down, so if any of you are interested, I might get a pilot chapter up some time soon, though I have no idea if it's going to turn into anything big, maybe just a one or two chapter story to work out a plot bunny, I'm only placing this here because I'm curois about what you all would think of a Harry Potter story. Anyway, See ya.
