Ch 4

Esmerelda just stared in awe of Jon. She couldn't believe he was lying to his girlfriend to be alone with him and that he had the nerve to kiss her again. So what if he wanted to catch up she was angry. And felt he needed to know how she felt.

"why did you beg hunter for me to work for you? After not talking to me for 3 years of being in the same company now you want me around? What the fuck was the fucking kiss about?"

"first off I went to hunter because I didn't know if it was truly you because you have changed since you were 16 and thought well they feel I need an assistant anyways why not go to one who knows me. Secondly why didn't you come talk to me if you knew? Your just as guilty and left me there in Cincinnati that night. The kiss was because I wanted to and I don't give a shit about the trouble it might cause me later. Now what happened to you that you left me."

Esmerelda just looks out the window with tears in her eyes remembering the nightmare that was everything with her mother's death. How much she wanted jon by her side through it all but he had to work that night so he never got to see the shit storm she was left with.

"what happened is that my aunt who I hadn't seen in 5 months told me after having me do DNA tests those 5 months before that they finally found out who my father was. So I was told I had no other choice but to get on a plan that night and fly to Texas to be with him in his home."

" I seriously forgot that you never knew who he was. So when did it come to be undertaker of all people?"

"he was wrestling for wcw then and met my mom who was a local ring rat who at the time when conceiving me slept with 5 different wrestlers from all over the place. So my aunt was given the information about which 5 it was and had me go due DNA test with all of them then told me nothing after that. He was the final one tested and it was a perfect match. So he decided I had to be saved and forced me to live there."

"why didn't you at least call me?"

"I did call you. Some girl answered telling me that you never wanted to speak to me again. I called your mom and she said you were off doing God knows who that day."

"You talked to my mom when?"

"last time was 3 days ago. I talk to her and your sister all the time."

Jon just shook his head in anger over the fact both of them have lied to him about talking to her at all.

"don't be angry with them I told them not to tell you because I saw how happy you were and never wanted to be the one to mess that up."

"happy? I was happy with you. I felt complete with you beside me. Someone who understood both sides of me. The only light I had in my life."

"Rene doesn't do that for you? Then why be with her? Why live with someone if they don't make you truly happy? What's the point of being in a relationship then?"

"not being lonely. Not having to feel like you are alone in your own thoughts anymore. The other side of the bed not feeling hollow and cold. She is great and makes me feel happy. But fully happy? I think I only found that with you."

"so is that why you kissed me tonight?"

"I kissed you because I wanted to. And I remember how me kissing you made you feel calmer after a panic attack. I don't know what caused this one hopefully you will tell me if not I am not going to rush you. But whatever you dad said affected the panic attack otherwise you wouldn't have ran away from me."

Esmerelda just looks at her phone at her wallpaper of a little girl dressed up for Halloween and smiles. Then looks at jon.

"somethings take time to discuss, not on the first night with you as my boss. Plus somethings are left alone and to not screw up anymore than they should."

They pull up to the hotel and get out of the car for the valet to take it. As they go stand I line to check in. Jon keeps bringing up small talk about the past between the two and loved hearing her laugh again.

"can I help you?"

"yes I am checking in."

"name please?"

"Esmerelda Callaway."

"thank you Mrs. Callaway here is your two keys room 315. Enjoy your stay with your husband."

"wait he's not my…"

"thank you so much sir and have a great night. Come wife to our room."

Esmerelda just pushes jon as she grabs her stuff and goes to the elevator. He quickly follows her.

"not checking in?"

"Rene already did. She told me what room number and everything."

"then why follow me?"

"same floor we are right down the hall from you. And I wanted to make sure you got there okay and tell you goodnight."

Esmerelda get to her room and sees jon still staying with her and sighs all she wants is away from him to actually think clearly. He follows her into the room as she tried to shut the door and she is mad.

"what jon goodnight now you can go."

He just grabs her arm and brings her back to him in a kiss. After trying to fight it her mind finally gave up what her heart wanted and kissed him back. As her pushed down her body to the bed. They make out for 20 minutes until his phone starts going off. He stops kissing Esmerelda breathing heavily. As he grabs his phone and gets off of her body she sits up and just starts crying. Sad that she just let him break her walls again.

"hello. Yes Rene I will be there shortly. I got sidetracked by fans wanting autographs and someone wanted me to stop and see them in the bar real quick. Give me two minutes and I will be there. OK bye."

He hangs up and looks over at Esmerelda. Lifting her head up he wipes the tears away and then kisses her on the head. She wipes her lipstick off his mouth and face before he goes to the bathroom to adjust himself. As he did that Esmerelda added her number into his phone so that he can get a hold of her. She went to her suitcases and grabbed a pair of pajamas. He walked out as she was bend over and had to look away before he couldn't control his feelings again. He went to her and grabbed his phone then walked out of the room. As he walked to his room all he kept doing was mentally kicking himself for not staying where his heart is pushing him. The love for her never stopped. He just learned how to ignore it with women like Rene.

As he got to his room he knocked as she opened the eyes and glared at him. He is a grown man who deserves to see people other than her all the time. They live together and travel together all the time. He is only away when he goes on the road for the house shows.

"where the hell were you? We were supposed to talk about the boy we pick up in two weeks and choose one and you refused to show up."

Jon just shook his head as he grabbed his stuff to jump in the shower. He figured he might as well as go get cleaned up to ignore his girlfriend and for the first time ever he locked the bathroom door because he wanted to be alone. As he couldn't get the Raven haired beauty out of his head. After 20 minutes of a shower he came out to see her passed out in the bed. He sighs as he grabs his phone and opens it smiling seeing the number right there as he hits the message button.

Hey you still awake?-jon

Yes I am still awake. What do you need jon?-Esmerelda

I miss you beside me. I wish you were here with me. We need to arrange something.-J

Like what jon? You are with Rene and I am in a relationship myself.-Esmerelda

We can talk about it tomorrow deal? I am going to go to bed good night sweetheart.-J

Good night jon.-Esmerelda