Chapter 3
A/N: Hey guys so a quick authors note to ask you all to give this chapter a chance I went back and deleted the first version and have now made this new one that is sex free I'm going to have Anna's fear be shown by getting depressed and emotional instead I know a lot of you think I ruined the story with the other chapter but please give me a second chance and read this new version thank you all for reading and also who's hear from my first book torn between two fifties.
Anna pov.
It's been a couple of weeks since I visited Luke at Escala and discovered that his boss is also the owner of the company I work for and the man that I desperately want to fuck, it took all my willpower not to let him bend me over that night in his kitchen. I'm scared to go back and run into him again in case this time I can't stop myself, it's too risky I could effect my job, Luke's job or maybe both our jobs. I need to find a way to avoid Mr Grey but still visit Luke and have some much needed fun with him, maybe if I surprise him by already being there before they get home then Mr Grey won't know I'm there.
I rush to finish the rest of my work which is really just answering emails again then I clear up and head to my apartment, I quickly gather everything I'll need for the weekend and hop in my car driving towards Escala. When I arrive I punch in the codes needed and head straight for the staff quarters where Luke's bedroom is, I smirk happy with my plan as I strip off my work clothes and put red lacy lingerie on with garter straps. I put a red robe on but leave it open and lay down on the bed waiting for Luke to come in, as I wait longer and longer I slowly start to go crazy with anticipation. A knock on the bedroom door makes me frown because why would Luke knock on his own door, I call to come in and Taylor the other security guy comes in he quickly covers his eyes.
"Miss Steele I'm so sorry I just wanted to say that if you're here for Luke he's in Portland with Mr Grey I was allowed to stay behind because my daughter is sick and I need to be nearby in case she gets worse" He says.
"It's okay Taylor thank you for telling me when will they be back" I ask quickly covering myself.
"Not till the early hours of Monday morning Miss" He says.
"Oh okay I'll just go home then can you tell him to call me when he comes back" I ask.
"Of course I'll leave you to your privacy I'm in the security room if you need me" He says and backs out the room.
I sit down on the bed sighing in frustration because I'm soaking wet with no one to give me relief, I seem to be in this situation a lot recently what's wrong with me. I start to gather my work clothes off the floor and lay them on the bed, next I grab the weekend bag that I brought and start to rifle through it for clean clothes and also different underwear. I move quickly trying not to think about what just happened because I can already feel the tears burning my eyes, a mixture of humiliation and loneliness taking over me. I finally find what I'm looking for and quickly strip the lacy red underwear from my body swapping it for a plain white bra and plain white panties, then I pull on some jeans, a white t-shirt and black pumps.
Now that I'm dressed and ready to leave I realise that I might run into Taylor into again and I can't even look him in the eye after that, I can't believe he saw me half naked I hope he doesn't get fired for that. Maybe if we just be adults about this and talk about it we can be okay it was an accident and those can happen to anyone, with a heavy sigh I grab my bag and decide to pop my head into the security room before I go to sort things out and kill the awkwardness.
"Hi Taylor can I come in" I ask opening the door.
"Of course Ana do you need anything" He asks.
"No I'm okay I just wanted to thank you for letting me know about Sawyer and that I'm heading off home now" I say.
"Of course Ana but if you want to still surprise him you can come over on Sunday complete privacy guaranteed" He says.
"Thanks Taylor but I have work on Monday so early night on Sunday for me if you could tell him to text me on Monday morning and if you hear from him over the weekend tell him I said to have a safe trip" I ask.
"Of course Miss Steele" He says trying to bring the professionalism back.
"It's Okay Taylor you can call me Anna and also I just wanted to say sorry for the indecent exposure back there" I say in a joking way to keep it light.
"It's alright Anna I should've waited for a response not doing so defeats the purpose of knocking" He says and chuckling.
"True but accidents happen and I just wanted to clear the air and let you know it's okay" I say giving him a reassuring smile.
"Thank you Anna that means a lot, I will pass your hello onto Luke when I hear from him" He says.
I thank him then after saying goodbye head to the elevator and press the garage button, I almost hated saying goodbye because his friendliness distracted me for a minute and he seemed really nice to talk to. I exit the elevator when it opens and hopping in my car drive to my apartment the business of the roads are another perfect distraction and I forget about the emptiness for a minute, for a few minutes I even felt happy and sang along to the CD I had playing. But all things must come to an end and as soon as I open my apartment door my heart and stomach sink seeing how empty and hearing how quiet it is, I head to my bedroom and unpack the weekend putting everything away to distract myself.
Unpacking the bag makes me think of Luke which also reminds me of why I went over to Christian's in the first place and that familiar wetness returns, I go into my drawer and grab my vibrator while I strip my clothes off. Laying down on the bed I use the vibrator to give myself some sweet relief and yes another distraction, however it makes things worse because as I come down from my high panting I roll over instinctively to snuggle and realise there's no one beside me I'm alone. Hot tears pool in my eyes and I can't stop this time the dam breaks and I sob into my pillow, I end up crying myself to sleep and when I wake up the next day a feeling of depression washes over me. My ex leaving me has really broken me and instead of letting myself feel the pain I threw myself into work then sex with Sawyer thus creating my fear of being alone, I feel like everyone will leave me and never come back just like he did.
Since I'm letting my emotions get the better of me I don't eat any main meals or leave the house all Saturday and Sunday, I lay in my bed watching Netflix TV shows and eating pint after pint of ice cream I'm actually pretty sure Ice cream and Netflix are becoming my only friends. I really need Luke to come back now, I cry myself to sleep on those too nights as well, will I ever get through this never ending pain.
