Olivia let out a loud moan, her hand gripping the hair of the man who's head was placed firmly between her legs. His tongue bringing her to the dizzying heights of an orgasm. She pushed her hips into his face, not being able to be quiet as her fiancé's tongue worked her into a frenzy.

"Trevor... I need" she moaned, gripping the sheets with her free hand "I need you... Ohh Fuck!... Inside me" she said in between her groans and moans.

She didn't want him to go easy on her tonight, she wanted him to fuck her, she wanted to be fucked hard. Hoping that it would take her mind off the shitty day she had.

He kissed his way up to her lips and smirked when he saw her flushed face "what do you want Olivia?"

She bit her lip, pushing her hips up against his "I want you inside. Hard"

He obliged instantly, pushing into her roughly. He did everything she told him and by the midnight they each had four or five orgasms. Olivia laid her head on his chest, listening to his heart beat, hoping it would lull her to sleep.

She had no such luck. She tossed and turned for over an hour before going to the kitchen and making herself a cup of coffee.

It had been three months since she and Trevor got engaged and things were still going good. She just wished her job could get a bit easier, or maybe she was becoming nervous about her wedding. They agreed to get married at Pier Sixty, Chelsea Piers and even got a date for a month from now.

Olivia sat down on their large sofa and picked up one of the files she brought home from work and began reading through it, hoping to at least get some work done since sleep wasn't an option.

"Hey" he said as he walked into the living room.

She looked up at him "hey, I didn't wake you, did I?"

"Kind of. I'm used to having you in my arms, I can't sleep if you're not beside me" he whispered, sitting down beside her.

She placed the file on the coffee table and cuddled into his arms, both of them exhausted yet wide awake.

"What's on your mind, beautiful?" He asked.

"This case... It haunts me... those children" she whispered.

He kissed the side of her head "you'll get him babe, I know you will"

"How can you be so sure. What if he rapes another little girl. I feel like I'm failing all of those families Trevor."

"Okay... Why don't we try to get some sleep so you can be fresh enough to catch this guy, you haven't slept for a week Olivia. You're overworked and you won't be much help if you crash and burn now. Come on. I'll give you a massage and you try to get some sleep. Tomorrow you can be badass Benson again and catch that bastard, and then you and I can go away for a weekend and just relax... Maybe get a holiday house if you want" he said, placing a gentle kiss on her lips.

She smiled. She could not believe this man was even real, most guys would have gotten sick of her issues and crazy hours by now, but Trevor had a world of patience. He always did his best to make her feel better, he tried to show her everyday how much he loves her.

"That sounds great baby" she whispered.

He chuckled and pressed a kiss to her temple, picking up her exhausted form. He laid her down on the bed and grabbed Olivia's body lotion and massaged it onto her back. He rubbed the knots out of her shoulders and smirked when she let out a moan.

"You have magical hands" she moaned.

He placed a kiss to her shoulders "are you only realising this now?"

"No. I'm just surprised that you can do more than just give me a great release" she explained, letting out a groan when he hit a painful spot.

"You're so tense baby" he whispered.

After her massage Olivia curled up in Trevor's arms and allowed herself to relax, she fell asleep almost instantly. Her exhaustion finally taking over.

He looked down at her with a smile on his lips, running his hands through her hair "you really are the best thing that's happened to me Liv... I promise I'll try my best to take care of you. I still don't know why you chose to be with me, but I'm damn glad you did. I'll make sure you never have to question what it's like to be loved."

He placed a kiss to her forehead "I love you Olivia Benson."

...

Olivia woke up with a smile on her face, she felt refreshed and ready to take on a new day. She looked up at her clock and smirked "well done Sergeant Benson, you got more than two hours of sleep" she whispered.

"You were snoring" Trevor whispered from behind her, he placed a kiss on her shoulder "how are you feeling now?"

"Better" she whispered "a lot better"

"Well you have two hours till you have to leave for work, why don't we take a shower?" He asked.

She nodded, turning around to press a kiss to his lips "that's an offer I can't refuse"

He carried her into the bathroom, smirking as her loud laughter echoed through the otherwise silent house.

She was happy being in the arms of the man she loved and she wasn't afraid to show it. This was definitely not like her past relationships.

...

Olivia sat in the café with a young woman seated opposite her, she called a waiter over to their table.

"Sandy Do you want anything?" She asked.

She shrugged "a Flat White please"

"And I'll have a Latté and a chocolate muffin please." Olivia said, feeling a littlehungry because she didn't eat since breakfast.

Sandy sighed as she looked at the Sergeant "I don't know what you want me to say Olivia"

"I want you to tell me the truth. I want you to fight for what you know is right, to not let the man who did this to you walk." She said, her eyes becoming glassy as she thought about what the eighteen year old had gone through.

"I just want to forget it" she whispered.

Olivia took her hand and squeezed it gently "you can't just forget something like this, it haunts you and pushes it's way back up eventually. In order for you to move forward you have to deal with it. Because bottling it up won't help you in the future."

"How can you be so sure? She asked, her voice shaky. She bit her lip "have you ever been raped?"

Olivia bit her lip, not knowing what to say. She let out a breath of relief when she heard someone call her name. She turned to see Trevor and Casey walking toward them.

She smiled at them "hey guys. What are you two doing here?"

Trevor leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on her lips "hey yourself. We're actually working on a case together and I was asked to mentor ADA Novak over here... Why are you here?"

She motioned to Sandy "this is Sandy Douglas, Sandy this is ADA Trevor Langan and that's ADA Casey Novak"

They all said their greetings, not sure whether to join the women or leave them be. Olivia smiled over at Sandy "you asked me a question and the answer is yes. I was and for the longest time I blamed myself and bottled it up."

Trevor kissed Olivia's cheek "we'll leave you two to it. We have court in a few minutes"

She nodded "okay I'll see you later. All the best both of you. Cas I'll see you around"

Casey hugged Olivia "yeah that sounds great. Have a good afternoon."

Sandy greeted them and watched as they walked away "so you're second in command of your precinct and you're also with a hot ADA. That's got to be intense"

"It is but we make it work... He's the reason I'm able to tell you things I am today. I didn't deal with my attack and kept it bottled up and then one case hit close to home and another was exactly the same as mine. I broke down. I crashed and because of it an innocent girl died. If I had been on top of my game she would have been alive but I was distracted. He helped me get through that. He helped me deal with it and now I can help other survivors, like you." She whispered, feeling her eyes become glassy once again.

"But that's cause you're brave. You're not a teenager, people believe you easier than they believe me"

Olivia shook her head "no they don't. People have this misconception that because I'm Sergeant of the Special Victims Unit that I won't be in the position of the people I worked with. They forget that I work with the worst types of people on a daily basis. They assume that because I keep going back that my job is easy, that I deal with things that will never happen to me, but it did. Three times, I was at the other end of the room. I regret not saying anything because more girls and women were hurt by the people that hurt me."

She stared into the glassy eyes of the eighteen year old "you have the ability to put a predator away. To protect somebody else from experiencing what you did. Some teenager will be able to live a normal life if you just speak up. That's the only way I can get Gates off the street."

Sandy wiped her tears, her bottom lip trembling "I'll do it, but you have to promise me that you'll be there"

"I will be there everyday of the trial. I promise you that I'll be right by your side, plus my fiancé is the ADA so I have to be there" she joked, trying to lighten up the mood.

Sandy chuckled "well at least he'll be good to look at"

Olivia giggled "true. You can look but you can't touch"

"Noted. I won't mess with him, plus I'm pretty scared of you so don't worry..." She joked.

"We'll get through this together Sandy... Just like Trevor helped me overcome my demons, I'll help you overcome yours." She smirked "although there's a few things I won't do with you that he did with me"

Sandy burst out laughing "I don't need the details Olivia."

She laughed and nodded, typing a quick message to Trevor. She knew she needed to update him on the case.

'Liv - 13:30pm: Hey babe, meet me at the precinct after court. Sandy has agreed to testify. It seems we can finally go to trial. I love you.'

Sandy smirked "it's cute that you don't let your job stop you from loving someone. You work with a lot of bad people, I'd never be able to trust anybody if I did what you do."

"It takes time to get used to it. I didn't trust anybody at first either, but after some time I realised that there are still good people out there, I just needed to find out who those good people are and surround myself with them."

"You're very wise for your age detective, you don't look a day over twenty"

"Thank you. I guess it's all the trauma that makes me understand how to empathise with people."

"I have to get going, my mom should be looking for me by now. Thank you for the coffee and the talk. I feel a lot better. Like a weight is off my shoulders."

She smiled "no problem Sandy, it's my job to make sure you're okay and justice is served. I'll see you tomorrow for trial-prep."

She stood up "I'll see you tomorrow Sergeant, have a good day further."

"You too and don't do anything I wouldn't" she joked, before watching Sandy walk out of the café. She placed a few dollars on the table before grabbing her chocolate muffin as she stood up and left. She felt much better after speaking to Sandy, she was happy that she could help her. She loved helping people. Although her job was difficult from time to time she knew this was definitely where she belonged.