Chapter IV - The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage

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"So, what are we going to do?" Amber asked as she sat down on the floor.

"What do you mean?" I asked, leaning against the wall.

"Toriel said that she wanted us to stay, but that it'd be harder since there's four of us. Should we stay, or should we leave?" Lucas opened up the closet and there were just some shirts in it, along with a few toys. Rebecca opened a few of the drawers next to the bed. The top one just had some broken crayons and a pencil, then the bottom one had a notebook that she grabbed.

"I say we leave. There's no reason to stay here, and I still need to make sure you two get back." Rebecca sat down on the bed and opened the notebook, and Chara sat down next to her and read over her shoulder. I walked over and glanced at the page and…

"Wait, that's Monster. Rebecca, you can read that?"

"Huh? Yeah, it's not that complicated. There are parts that I'm guessing about what they say, but for the most part, I can read it. Can you.?"

"Not really."

Chara stared at the ground for a moment, then sighed.

"Hey, Rebecca, could you stop reading that? It's… it's kinda personal."

"Oh yeah, sorry." She closed it and everyone sat in silence for a bit.

Lucas still looked like he was on a bunch of caffeine, Amber appeared to be really confused about and invested in something, and Chara and Rebecca just sat next to each other in silence.

"Wait, oh my gosh," Amber said after about three minutes of silence. She looked confused and absolutely amazed.

"Chara, that's what you said your name was, right?"

"Yeah…?" Chara responded, staring at Amber in confusion.

"That's the name that Flowey s-"

"Asriel." Rebecca and Chara corrected at the same time.

"Yeah, sorry. That's the name Asriel said was the name of his friend, right?"

Chara sighed and stared back at the ground. "That was also the name he said as a family. Asriel was my brother, before…" Chara trailed off, a dark memory playing in her head.

"Before?" Rebecca asked.

I grabbed the notebook from next to Rebecca and opened it up to the first page had written on it. I held it out to Rebecca, "Read this aloud. It should be the right page." I said as I handed it back.

Rebecca looked over it for a moment, then started reading it aloud. "Day One: I'm afraid. But he can't find out. None of them can. They said they'd take me in, but for how long? How long until they regret that? When will they just kick me out and force me to go back? I don't really understand everything that's happening, and I'm really tired. I'll write more in the morning if I manage to get to sleep." Rebecca turned the page and looked up. "Keep reading?"

"Yeah," I responded.

"Day Two: I think I've gotten all my ideas and thoughts sorted out. Yesterday I finally made up my mind and ran away. I went up Mt. Ebott, and accidentally -okay, maybe a bit on purpose- tripped and fell. Then, he found me. Asriel Dreemurr. He brought me back to his parents. They took me in, but I'm concerned about when they decide they regret it. I mean, would they just decide to kick me out? I don't know. Oh sorry, gotta go. I think Asriel's waking up." Rebecca closed the notebook and turned towards Chara. "You ran away?"

"Yeah. Thought I could just run off and end my life." Rebecca looked up, surprised.

"You were trying to kill yourself?"

"Yeah. I um, I didn't exactly have a happy childhood before I ran away. It takes a lot to make a seven-year-old consider suicide."

"Wow. Gosh." Was the only thing Rebecca could say after a long silence.

"Let's just say, it was painful for me whenever I was around my father, and my older brother… well, he never really was a good person. We... fought a lot, the thing that pushed me over the edge was when we had the most WRETCHED fight. He started teasing me when I had enough and pushed him to the ground. He… didn't respond well. He took a knife, pinned me to the ground, and started cutting me all over my body, while my father just watched him. I was screaming in pain. Even though the village people didn't like me that much, they knew that this was too much. They started attacking my brother but he just kept attacking me. I kicked him off and hid in my room. I climbed out of my window that night and tore toward Mt. Ebott. Wanting to end my misery then and there, I planned to jump and expected to have a better life. I landed on a spot of buttercups. I cried for help out of pure instinct. Then Asriel came to my aid, he helped me up and his parents took me in. Azzy and I-"

Amber burst in, "AZZY? Oooooooooo-"

"Zip it!" Chara yelled, "It wasn't like that! As I was saying.." Chara said as she glared at Amber, "Azzy and I became close friends after a while, then I had an idea to free the monsters. I would eat some golden flowers that had enough poison in them to be fatal, causing me to pass away like I naturally got ill. Asriel would absorb my soul, cross the barrier, and obtain 6 human souls, then destroy the barrier, freeing the Monsters."

"How did you expect him to get the souls?" Lucas asked.

"He…" Chara trailed off, clearly not wanting to answer. "He would kill six humans."

"That would start a war! The moment the Monsters left the Underground, they'd all be murdered!" Rebecca said, looking at Chara in shock, "Surely, you realized that if you worked out that much of a plan." Chara sighed.

"Yeah, I knew. Back then, a war was exactly what I wanted."


Okay guys, sorry it's taken me so long to update. I've been procrastination writing more, and school is getting in the way of stuff again. Thanks for reading, follow. favorite, and review! (Please.)

Oh yeah, and sorry that the cover picture just became an Eddsworld thing for a bit. I changed my profile picture, and I still can't decide on a decent cover, so we're just kinda stuck with current one for now.

Stay determined!

-Rebecca Owens