I'm really sorry for my long absence and for making my readers wait! II've gone from posting one chapter a week to taking over 3+ weeks to post Chapter 9. I've had a tiny bit of writers block, not to mention a ton of study with my final assessments, and of course those pesky health issues. Not long after I posted chapter 8' I found out I have to have surgery because of my PCOS. It's a condition that effects women of all ages and from all walks of life. It's a constant challenge but I'm working on it.

I'm really sorry for making you guys wait for this chapter but I hope it's worth it. I've spent the entire day writing it and avoiding resubmissions on assessments, but you have no idea how happy it's made me to get back to this story it's like coming up for fresh air and I feel so much lighter and happier just from being able to write it. It's the length of two chapters with over 7,600+ words.

I hope this chapter makes up for my absence and that those who have stuck with me continue to do so throughout the process of this story.

I HAVE NOT ABANDONED THIS STORY!
It is my perverted baby & I'm not sure what I'd do without it!

I can't promise that you'll get an updated chapter every week but hopefully it' won't be as long as this.

I'm technically supposed to be on break but I have resubmissions that I'm working on so we'll see what happens. I do have an idea of where to take the next chapter so depending on assessments and my schedule perhaps you'll get chapter 10 next week.

Again. I'm so sorry. Enjoy this chapter and PLEASE PLEASE Review!

Ibrahim 'Abe' Mazur

Dimitri Belikov

Rosemarie Hathaway

I smiled into my pillow as I felt Dimitri's lips trail down my spine as his fingertips caressed my skin. "Roza- I know you're aware." I bit my lip to stop myself from giggling as I felt his hand sneak around my stomach. "I wish you didn't have to go."

Reluctantly I rolled onto my back smiling at how close he was. "I'll be back before you know it."

"I'll miss you." Dimitri whispered lowering his lips to my neck. "You never did tell me what was in Paris." I tensed a little cursing myself knowing he'd notice. "Roza?"

"It'll mostly be business… Lissa and Adrian are attending business meetings with Tatiana, and if I know Tatiana there will be quiet a few parties to show off her niece and nephew and his new bride."

"And you'll be with Lissa the entire time?"

"Pretty much." I admitted searching his eyes. "Why?"

He smiled though it didn't quiet meet his eyes. "I'll miss you."

I threaded my fingers through his hair and wrapped my legs around his naked waist. "I'll miss you too." I whispered brushing my lips against his. "Why don't you show me exactly how much you'll miss me?"

"What time is your flight?"

I glanced at the clock seeing it was 5:43am. I should be at the airport already Lissa was going to kill me … "6:30."

"That doesn't give us a lot of time…" Dimitri purred seductively in my ear as my nails began digging into his back. "…It'll need to be a quick fuck."

I grinned flipping Dimitri onto his back as I straddled him. "No more talking…" I whispered capturing his lips with mine. "…I love you." Dimitri smiled cupping the back of my neck pulling my lips back to his as I slid my hand down between us wrapping my hand around the length of his cock.

"I need to be inside of you." Dimitri whispered as his hand wrapped around mine as he guided his length to my opening. "Roza."

I pressed my forehead to Dimitri's as I sank down onto Dimitri's cock inch by agonizing inch. The more of his cock that I took the fuller I felt… Our fingers intertwined as I arched my back sinking down onto his length completely. "Dimitri."

"Stay." Dimitri growled as his hands slid from my hips and up my ribs until they settled on my breasts tweaking and pinching my nipples between his fingers. "I don't want you to go."

I pushed down onto Dimitri's chest kissing his parting lips. "If I could I would… However it's not possible… I'm a Guardian don't ask me to choose." I placed my finger to his lips as I rolled my hips tightening my walls around Dimitri's cock knowing it'd drive him wild and push him over the edge. "Do you remember the first night we spent together?"

"I do…"

"Do you remember the promise you made?"

Dimitri's arm shot out around my waist flipping me onto my back pinning my hands above my head with one hand. "I promised you wouldn't be able to walk straight for a month- that every step would remind you of what it felt like to have my cock buried inside of your tight wet cunt- is that what you want now?"

"Yes." I arched my back as I felt Dimitri's hand wrap around my throat as his cock thrusted deeper and harder inside of me. My legs began to shake and I could feel my orgasm building. "Please- DIMITRI! Yes. Harder-"

"Rose- Are you ready too- Oh My God!" Lissa screamed from my bedroom door. "Oh My God! You're supposed to be dressed!"

"I'm working up to it!" I smirked at the embarrassed look on her face. Dimitri dropped his head to my shoulder chuckling- his entire body shook with laughter- before he pulled out and moved to lay next to me. "You could have knocked."

Lissa had her back to me but I didn't need to see her face to know it was beetroot red. "I assumed you'd worn each other out last night-! Arh- Get dressed. The car is waiting for us downstairs. You've got less than 5 minutes."

"I'll be out in a minute." I sighed falling back onto the mattress as the door shut. I smiled rolling onto my side as I snuggled myself closer to Dimitri. "It seems cruel to leave you in this condition."

"It is." Dimitri chuckled brushing my hair back. "I'd offer to join you in the shower but you don't have enough time for that." I kissed him biting his bottom lip before reluctantly rolling out of bed. "I'll take your bags out to the hall."

…An Hour Later…

I grabbed a bottle of water from the mini fridge and sat across from Lissa. We'd been in the air for an hour- Adrian and Sydney were pretending to watch a movie at the front of the Jet- giving Lissa and I a chance to talk.

"Thanks." Lissa smiled nervously. "About this morning…"

"It's forgotten." I smirked knowingly. "You could have waited another 5 minutes but seriously it's not a big deal."

"Are you sure?"

"Positive." I bit my lip as I glanced out the window trying to decide if I should tell her about Dimitri's proposal of moving in together. "Lissa…"

"…Rose." Lissa began at the same time causing us to crack up laughing. "I'm sorry. You go first…"

"No. It's fine… Are you okay?" I questioned unable to quiet shake this feeling that something was seriously wrong. Lissa looked exhausted like she hadn't been sleeping. "You look like you haven't slept in weeks."

"Oh… It's been a few days." She confessed picking at her nails. "I've just had trouble sleeping lately."

"Why?"

"You'll think I'm paranoid."

"Lissa… I promise you I won't." I insisted reaching for her hand. "Talk to me."

Her violet colored eyes flickered to mine with tears. "I'm being followed- at least I think I am- I'm not 100% sure I've never seen anybody but I feel like I'm being watched and it's messing with my head."

"When did this start?" I questioned moving seats so I sat next to her. "Have you been taking your medication?"

"A couple weeks ago… And yes. I'm still taking my meds but it's different this time. You have to believe me." Lissa's eyes filled with tears as her hand clutched mine. As I stared at my best friend I was reminded of the last time Lissa 'felt' like this.

When Lissa and I were 15' Lissa was paranoid that somebody was following her… Lissa was so convinced by this she wouldn't leave the girls dorm at Vladimir's Academy- the last panic attack she'd had was so bad she had to be medicated and hospitalized for 48 hours with round the clock care.

"You believe me don't you?" Lissa questioned searching my eyes.

The fear in her eyes was real and I had to treat it like it was. "Of course I do." I forced a smile as I held hand. "I'm glad you told me. It's going to be okay, Lissa. I promise. You know I'll never let anything or anyone hurt you; right?"

The fear in her eyes dimmed a little and I could see genuine relief. "I know." Lissa wrapped her arms around my neck holding me close. "You'll always protect me."

"Always." I promised wrapping my arms around her waist. "Close your eyes." Lissa nodded sitting back in her seat taking the blanket I offered her. "I'm here."

"I don't know what I'd do without you." Lissa smiled snuggling under the blanket. "I love you."

"I love you too." I smiled turning in my seat staring straight ahead. My mind was racing with the information given to me… I was torn. I was supposed to report information like to Lisa's doctor… But as her Guardian and Best Friend I felt like I was betraying her- yet a little voice in my head told me that maybe Lissa wasn't being paranoid this time.

…Maybe…

I decided to text my father's guardian and head of security.

Hey P- I know the old man keeps you pretty busy but can you do me a solid and check the surveillance camera for the last month around the building, parking lot, and across the street from the building? Also check the surveillance for our rental cars… Don't say anything to Christian but can you check the surveillance at the restaurant.

Rose.

What am I looking for?

Honestly, I'm not even sure if there's anything to look for. It's just a hunch. Lissa isn't feeling too safe and feels like she's being followed. I haven't noticed anything unusual but I've been a little distracted lately.

I'll look into it and let you know what I find.

I appreciate it.

I went back to staring out the window when my phone buzzed again. I looked down expecting another text from Pavel but smiled when I saw it was from Dimitri.

It's been over an hour and already I miss you. Think about what we discussed. Have a safe flight. I love you. Love D.

I smiled leaning back into my seat as I opened the text.

I'll think about it but no promises… I love you. I'll call you once we're settled.

Love Roza.

…Nine Hours Later…

By the time the jet landed in Paris it was 5:40pm local time… We'd all gotten a little sleep on the flight however it didn't take away the exhaustion. When the jet doors opened we all made our way to the exit coming to a stop when we saw a stretched limo waiting for us- but that's not what surprised us.

"Who is that?" Sydney questioned in awe as Tatiana stepped out of the stretch limo. "She's gorgeous."

"That's Tatiana." I informed her as I lifted my bag onto my shoulder. "Don't let her angelic looks fool you- she's a malicious bitch."

"You two are close then." Sydney giggled quietly next to me as Adrian and Vasilisa walked ahead of us to greet their Aunt.

"Vasilisa! Adrian! I'm so happy you could make it!" Tatiana greeted them both with cheek kisses and warm embraces. "How was your flight?"

"Wonderful. Aunty Tatiana I'd like to introduce you to my fiancé Sydney Sage…" Adrian reached for Sydney's hand pulling her to stand next to him. Sydney greeted Tatiana politely offering little in the way of conversation.

"She's certainly pretty." Tatiana smiled kindly. "It's nice to meet you finally."

"It's nice to finally meet you as well… Adrian has told me so many stories I feel as if I already know you." Tatiana laughed happily along with Adrian and Sydney before her eyes landed on me. I watched as all trace of happiness fell from her face.

"Rosemarie Hathaway."

"Tatiana Ivashkov." I greeted politely. "It's so nice to see you again."

"I wasn't aware you would be joining us."

"Where else would I be?" I challenged knowing she'd play the boyfriend card. "I'm Vasilisa's Guardian… I'm sure you can understand the importance of having your Guardian close by on trips abroad… Isn't that right Ambrose?"

I looked to the Guardian standing a few feet away from Tatiana. Ambrose tensed at the mention of his name- Ambrose wasn't just Tatiana's Guardian but also one of her many many lover. Though nobody ever discussed or questioned the ethics of that. It wasn't uncommon for a Guardian to get 'personal' with his charge but Tatiana was above such scandals.

Tatiana forced a smile though I could see a hint of smugness in her eyes. "I'm afraid I only booked enough accommodation for the 4' of us… There is a concert in town and I'm afraid the hotel is fully booked out."

"That's okay…" Lissa smiled linking her arm through mine. "…We'll share. It'll be like old times."

"Wonderful." Tatiana sighed clearly disappointed that she wouldn't send me packing on the next flight. Bitch. "Ambrose- Hathaway- you two can load the bags into the boot. Come. It's getting chilly I hope you're all hungry I've made reservations for us to eat before we got back to the hotel."

"It's okay." Ambrose took the suitcase from my hands. "I've got this."

"I'm sure you do." I smiled handing him my duffle bag. "It's been a while."

"It has." Ambrose smiled shutting the boot. "Tatiana has arranged for the rest of your luggage to be sent to the hotel." Ambrose opened the door to the limo gesturing for me to climb in first. "How have you been Rosemarie?"

"Excellent." I shrugged glancing across at him. "Yourself?"

"Busy." Ambrose smiled broadly. "Tell me about this new boyfriend of yours?"

"What would you like to know?"

"Does he treat you well?"

"He does."

"Good." Ambrose nodded to himself. "He makes you happy?"

"Yes?"

"What?"

"What's with the third degree about my love life?"

"I'm just curious." Ambrose refused to meet my eye. "Tatiana is curious."

"Perhaps Tatiana should focus less on my love life and more on her own." I pointed out making sure I said this loud enough that Tatiana herself would hear. "I'm happy… That does not affect my ability to protect my charge… Understood?"

"Understood." Ambrose smiled shaking his head. "I'll never understand you two."

I chose to ignore him and focus on Lissa… She looked genuinely happy to be here talking to Tatiana and Sydney about possibly looking at wedding dresses. My chest ached at the possibility of Lissa falling into another 'episode' she'd been so good- so happy- for so long I didn't want anything to ruin this for her.

When we arrived at the restaurant Tatiana, Lissa, Sydney, and Adrian were all taken to a table to eat while Ambrose and I checked the surroundings. "Aren't you hungry?" Ambrose questioned after meeting back at the front of the restaurant.

"I'm starving." I admitted glancing inside to check on Lissa. "But you couldn't pay me to sit through an entire dinner with Tatiana."

"She's not all that bad."

I rolled my eyes at his comment. "Says the guy whose sleeping with her."

"You don't have to be such a bitch about it." Ambrose sighed leaning against the wall next to me. "You can't help who you love."

Reluctantly I turned my back to the window and looked to Ambrose. "You love her?"

"I do."

"Wow." I shook my head in disbelief. "Does she know?"

"No… It wouldn't make a difference if she did. I'd probably lose my job and to be honest it's better to share her with the others then lose her completely."

Wow… "I'm sorry but it sounds like you've got the shitty end of this arrangement."

"Perhaps I do." Ambrose shrugged glancing inside.

…Two Hours Later…

I climbed onto the hotel bed wearing a bathrobe brushing my wet hair off my shoulder. Lissa had ordered room service while I was in shower and was now running a bath while she chatted to Christian.

I grabbed my cell phone off charge and dialed Dimitri's number. "You have no idea how hard my cock is right now."

I chuckled lying across the bed as I held the phone to my ear. "That's what I love about you, Comrade- No sweet talk to butter me up your straight to the point- Where are you anyway?"

"I'm at work."

"That's too bad I could have helped you with your situation." I grinned knowing exactly the kind of reaction I'd get from that. "It's probably for the best since I'm sharing a room with Lissa tonight."

"Why are you sharing a room?"

"Shortage of rooms." I didn't want to get into the reason tonight. I was exhausted and I had an early morning. "I wish you were here."

"Me too." Dimitri sighed. "It's been awhile since I visited Paris- and it's only a short flight to Siberia. We could have visited my family."

"That would have been nice." I smiled picking at the fruit in front of me. "Can you do me a favor?"

"I'm at work Roza-"

"No. I don't want a picture of your cock- perhaps later- but I was actually going to ask you to stay at my place with Christian? Keep him company and out of trouble. And just keep an eye on things."

"Why?"

"It's hard to explain over the phone." I admitted glancing at the bathroom door. "Lissa's not feeling very safe at the moment and I want to make sure she doesn't have a valid reason to feel that way."

"Does Christian know?"

"No… Don't say anything to him either. Please. I don't want him to begin worrying about Lissa if he doesn't need too."

"Why do I feel like I'm missing something?"

"-That bathtub is amazing! I almost didn't want to get out!" Lissa giggled throwing herself onto the mattress. "Hi Dimitri!"

"Hello Lissa." Dimitri chuckled though I could tell I'd piqued his interest. "I'll keep an eye on things here."

"Thank you." I sighed sitting up against the pillows. "I've got to go… I love you- I miss you… I'll talk to you tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow. I love you too. Sweet dreams…" Dimitri and I hung up leaving me to focus my full attention on Lissa. "How are you feeling?"

"Good. I'm really happy that you're here though." Lissa smiled next to me propped up on her pillows. "Wanna watch TV?" I nodded which sent Lissa on the hunt for the TV remote. We ended up watching season 3' of Orphan Black.

The next morning Lissa and I woke up and met Adrian and Sydney for breakfast. It was a gorgeous morning in Paris and the 4 of us were able to eat outside and watch the sunrise over the mountains.

"What's on the agenda this morning?"

"Unfortunately- Vasilisa and I will be sitting in on corporate meetings with Aunt Tatiana. But you'll be free to explore the city with Rose."

"I've got to stay with Lissa."

"It's alright." Lissa waved me off. "I'm going to be in meetings all day. Ambrose will be close by if I need him- Sydney hasn't been to Paris before it'd be nice if you could show her around."

"Actually- I was planning on spending the day at the spa." Sydney admitted sheepishly. "I've already booked my seat- I'm sure we could get you in as well- if you're interested in getting a facial?"

"Tempting." I sighed glancing at Lissa. "Are you sure you'll be okay? I do have a few errands that I'd like to do while I'm local."

"I'm positive." Lissa smiled picking up her juice. "Take the morning off and we'll have a late lunch at the café."

"Great…" I trailed off as Tatiana joined us. "…I'll see you this afternoon."

"Where are you running off too?" Tatiana questioned unfolding a napkin.

"I've got a few errands I need to run." I explained finishing my coffee. "I'll see the rest of you tonight."

I went back up to my hotel room and changed into a pair of faded blue skinny jeans, and a white blouse with my sleeves rolled up. I grabbed my black blazer out of my suitcase and pulled on a pair of combat boots.

I didn't look half bad. I pulled out my cell phone and Google'd the opening hours of the clinic. I waved down a taxi to drive me to the nearest rental car service and made the hour drive to the clinic.

I'll never forget the first time I made this drive…

I sat in the back of the little white bus with the blacked out tinted windows… There weren't many people on the bus- maybe 5' including myself- and the driver of course and a registered nurse perhaps?

I huddled myself into the corner trying to ignore the bumps in the road that made my skin feel like I had tiny shards of class beneath the surface. "Are you okay?" The woman next to me questioned with a knowing look in her eyes. The girl couldn't have been older than 15' but she looked like she belonged on a street corner. "I'm Beth."

"Rose." I answered scratching at my arm. "I'm fine."

"Right…" Beth eyed me side on as her knee continued to bounce. "…When was the last time you used?"

I flinched at the question. 'When was the last time I used' that's something you asked a Junkie- the harsh reality was that I was a junkie but I wasn't ready to admit that to myself let alone a stranger.

I felt vomit rise in my throat as I clenched my jaw shut and leaned my head back against the cool window. I ignored chatty Beth but the questions just kept on coming.

"Did your parents put you on the bus?"

"No." I shook my head.

"So why are you here?"

"I'm not too sure right now." I admitted looking down as I felt something wet on my fingers. I looked down and found my fingers covered in blood. We finally arrived at the 'luxury resort' aka the clinic aka rehab for drug addicts and alcoholics.

The bus slowly began to empty and I was the last to get off along with Chatty Beth. "Names?" The nurse questioned as we stepped off the bus.

"Rose Mazur."

"Bethany Jones."

"Wonderful… Bethany' Alexis will show you to your room. Rose please follow me- my name is Rickie- and you'll be staying with Amelia for the duration of your stay?"

"Um- Rickie- I think there's been a mistake." I said following the tiny woman in scrubs. "I don't want to share rooms... I like my privacy."

"Which is a problem, Ms. Mazur. You'll be sharing a room with Amelia for the duration of your stay. It's apart of our recovery program... I should warn you Amelia is a little difficult at times- but something tells me you can handle it."

I opened my mouth to argue but fell silence as we entered the clinic. The walls were white with 'inspirational' quotes written here and there. Walls had mirrors so you could view inside- other rooms didn't- some doors had names written on them councilor- doctor- gym, toilets, bathrooms, and kitchen ect.

The 2nd floor was where it got more busy women walked around freely either alone or in groups… I spotted another room with a window and saw women doing yoga and meditation inside… We eventually got to another corridor where the bedrooms were placed. We walked to the end of the hall and came to a stop in the doorway of a bedroom where a young woman a little older then myself stood dancing to none existent music.

"Amelia?" Rickie smiled knocking on the open door. "This is your new room-mate. Rose Mazur."

The dancing woman immediately stopped dancing and spun around. She didn't look at all happy to see me- her green eyes narrowed as she glared at me crossing her arms over her chest. "Like fuck she is! I told you I didn't want a roommate! The last twat you cunts placed in here tried to strangle me while detoxing! Put her in with Jenkins."

Rickie smiled as if Amelia hadn't been throwing a fit. "That's your bed… The schedule is in the top drawer of your bed side table- if you need any help just ask Amelia she'll eventually tell you where everything is."

"-Thanks." I trailed off as Rickie turned to leave. I looked back at a seething Amelia and stepped inside the tiny room. My dorm back home was bigger than this. "Hi."

"Shut the fuck up." Amelia snapped turning her back to me as she walked over to bed. "I have 3 rules- 1: Don't touch my stuff. 2: Don't talk to me we're not friends nor will we ever be friends. 3: If you bring any drugs in here I will cut you. I'm a surgeon so I know how to make it look like an accident. Understood?"

"Understood." I tossed my duffle onto my bed and laid down staring at the ceiling. "This is going to be the longest 90 days of my life isn't it."

"Shut the fuck up!" Amelia snapped from across the room.

I rolled my eyes but didn't push the angry little troll.

"Name…?" I looked up at the security guard as I drove up to the gate.

"Rose Mazur."

"Visiting or Patient?"

"Visiting." I pulled out my former Patient ID. "I'm here for a meeting."

The security guy waved me through and I drove up to the visitors parking lot. I grabbed my bag, and walked up to the double doors leading into the main area of the clinic. Patience walked around freely along with the staff.

"Rose?" I looked in the direction my name was called and saw one of the nurses from my last stay here. Rickie. "What are you doing back here? Are you okay?"

"I was in the area." I admitted returning her cheek kisses. "I looked up the site and saw there was a few meetings on this week- my boss didn't need me this morning so I thought I'd pop in- I hope that's alright."

"Of course!" Rickie smiled shaking her head as she looked at me. "It's incredible. You've been sober this whole time?"

"Yeah. No pills…"

"That's great." Rickie grinned gesturing for me to follow her. "You chose a great day to come by… She'll be really happy to see you…" I looked inside the room and saw Amelia standing at the front of the room with a few patients talking and smiling. Amelia wore a visitors badge identical to my own. She looked incredible compared to the last time I'd seen her. "She lives locally so she attends regular meetings- if a staff member can't take the session she leads it."

I smiled entering the room taking my time to look around at the once familiar room. I'd hated coming in here when I first arrived – it was a reminder of what I was and all of my failures. It took a lot of tears and screaming to finally admit why I was here.

But it was only after Amelia saved my life that I was finally able to admit what happened to me- what Mason did to me- the memory of what I did came back to me and I felt tears prick my eyes.

"It'll be quick." Beth whispered handing me the bag of pills and razor blade. "Do it while everybody is at dinner… It'll take away all the pain isn't that what you want?"

I stared at the bag of red and white pills and felt my hands begin to shake. It'd been 21' days and everyday was hell… I sat through 2 group meetings a day and a counseling session with my therapist… Today I had finally broken down and admitted why I had come here.

"I need help or I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself or somebody else… I don't want to be this person- I'm not this person- I'm weak but I want to be stronger."

"You're not strong enough, Rose…" Beth whispered. "…He made you weak. Remember? You'd have been better off if he'd killed you instead… Aren't you tired of the nightmares? The pain? This will make it all go away."

I should have fought her but I took the pills and razor blade. I waited until everybody had gone to dinner before I shut the bedroom door and sat down against it since I couldn't lock it. I write a note to my Dad' and swallowed the pillows.

It didn't take long before it took affect and I lifted the razor to my wrists but everything went blurry as I cut into my skin… I had attempted to cut the vein but my hands went limp and I passed out.

Next thing I knew somebody had their fingers down my throat and the shower was running and I was being held under it while several voices whispered and yelled at each other about what to do with my body.

"Shut the fuck up!" Amelia had screamed at them. "And get the fuck out or the only body you'll have to worry about is your own!" The women sprinted out of the bathroom and Amelia sat me on the floor of the bathroom as I began vomiting all the pills down the drain. "I got you."

"I broke the third rule." I laughed humorlessly after I threw up everything in my stomach. "Why did you do it?"

"Why did I save your pathetic life?" Amelia questioned kneeling in front of me. "I didn't want to break in another room-mate. At least you don't snore…" I started to laugh but instead vomited all over myself. "Jesus! Fuck- Rose seriously- at least my last room-mate never threw up on me."

"Sorry." I whimpered leaning my cheek against the cold tiles.

"Why did you do it, Rose? What happened to you that is so bad that you'd want to kill yourself, Rose?"

"He raped me." I admitted avoiding her eyes. "He made me weak, Amelia. I'm weak. Beth was right I'm not strong enough… I just wanted it to end."

"Rose." Amelia grabbed my face. "You. Are. Not. Weak. I haven't known you very long but I can tell you're not weak… In fact… You're probably one of the strongest women I've ever met but what you did tonight- was weak- you're better than this. Don't let him win, Baby. Fight through this and you'll never be weak again."

"Rose?" I smiled at the sound of Amelia's voice as she pulled me out of the memory. It was really nice to see her. "Holy Fuck! What are you doing here?" Amelia questioned as she walked over and hugged me.

I smiled at her foul language and returned her hug. "It's good to see you too."

Amelia smiled pulling back looking me up and down. "You look incredible! Recovery suits you, Babe."

"I could say the same." I smiled gesturing to her white skinny jeans and blue sweater. "I was in the area and had the morning free… I hadn't been to a meeting in a while and thought it would be a good opportunity."

"Indeed." Amelia smiled grabbing my arm. "I want you to meet some of the women… Tess and Elle- Vern and Gene- Bianca and Simone… Tuesday meetings are always the slowest but we'll have a few late comers from upstairs."

"Great." I smiled at her enthusiasm. "You seem happy?"

"I am." Amelia smiled taking a seat gesturing for me to as well. "It's strange but in a good way- you know? I'm happy… I'm even dating a woman."

"Wow." I had to admit that was a shock. "I wasn't aware you were a lesbian."

"Me either!" Amelia smirked. "You'd like her she's kinda wonderful."

"Hopefully I meet her before I leave."

"We'll have to do lunch." Amelia insisted. "She's a science teacher at the High School. She teaches rich brats… We've been dating 3' months and life is great."

"I'm really happy for you." I smiled unable to believe the turnaround but overwhelmed with how proud I was of her. "I'm seeing somebody as well."

"A woman?" Amelia winked nudging my side.

"A man." I chuckled at her teasing. "His name is Dimitri Belikov. He's 28' and we've been seeing each other for almost 4 months now. It's pretty crazy how fast we're moving but we're happy and I love him."

"Does he know about Mason?"

"Yes."

"Does he know about your recovery?"

"No… I'm not hiding it I just haven't told him."

"Rose!"

"I know!" I sighed knowing exactly what she wanted to say. "I'm going to tell him when I get home… I have too… He wants to look at getting an apartment together."

"Are you ready for that?"

"No- Yes- Maybe. I'm not 100% sure it's one of the things I have to think about while I'm here. I love him- I do- But I have a responsibility to Lissa and I feel like I'm letting her down if I move in with him."

"Maybe it's not the right time."

"Possibly…" I trailed off thinking of Lissa's concerns about being followed. If I moved out now it'd only make things worse. I need to wait or at least prepare a fair compromise for all involved. "...I'm a little worried about Lissa at the moment."

"Why?"

"She thinks somebody is following her."

"Is she right?"

"I don't know." I confessed. "Last time she 'felt' this way it was nothing and she had to be hospitalized for 48 hours. She's on medication to help 'mellow' her out. It's been 3 years since that happened – I've got people looking into her concerns but if it comes back with nothing then I'm afraid she's on the brink of another episode."

"Have you discussed this with anybody?"

"No- I'm putting it off until I know for sure. I just want to be 100% sure."

"Do you want me to talk to her?"

"No." I shook my head. "That'll just make it worse for her."

"Okay…" Amelia tilted her head staring at me. "…I'm proud of you."

I smiled returning Amelia's gaze. "I'm proud of you too."

…That Afternoon…

"I'm so sorry!" Lissa apologized as she approached our outdoor table. "Tatiana insisted that I stay for a cocktail!"

"Not surprised." I smiled watching as she shrugged out of her coat. Lissa was dressed in a pencil crème skirt, and baby pink silk blouse. Her hair was pinned back out of her face but flowed around her body. "How was your morning?"

"Long." Lissa sighed waving over the waiter. "I can't wait to go home."

"I'll drink to that…" I paused spotting a man across the street watching us from above his newspaper. I told myself I was being paranoid but when he saw me watching he got up and walked away- the rest of the afternoon I spent paying closer attention to everybody around me.

"Are you ready?" Lissa questioned pulling me out of my people watching. "You've hardly said 5' words."

"Sorry. Jet Lag." I smiled standing from the table gesturing for her to follow me to the rental car. "I don't know about you but I could use a long hot bath."

"That sounds magical." Lissa grinned linking her arm through mine. "Want to know something weird."

"Of course!"

"I miss Christian." Lissa giggled staring up at the sky. "We've only been in Paris a full day! And I'm missing my boyfriend! How insane is that."

"It's not insane." I assured her. "I miss Dimitri… I woke up last night and I just really wanted to hear his voice… So I called him and it was some ridiculous time but he answered and he talked to me for an hour. I just wanted to hear his voice."

"I didn't even hear you."

"He did most of the talking." I smiled opening the passenger door. "It's not insane to miss the man you love. If you didn't miss Christian then it'd be weird."

"I wish they'd both just get on a plane and come to Paris."

"It'd be nice." I agreed shutting the passenger door.

…3 Days Later…

After I spotted the guy at the café I refused to let Lissa out of my sight. I went to every boring brunch – corporate meeting – and family gathering that Tatiana forced her to take part in and by Friday my brain was fried.

All I wanted to do was sink into a nice hot bath and drown a bottle of wine. We'd just gotten on the elevator back at the hotel when Lissa's cell phone began to ring. "It's Tatiana. She wants to see me in her room… Go relax… I'll be a while."

"Are you sure?" I questioned not liking the idea of leaving her out of my sight, but not particularly liking the idea of spending another minute in the same room as Tatiana fucking Ivashkov. I wasn't entirely sure what her issue was with me but it was quickly becoming a real problem.

"Positive." Lissa grinned pushing me off the elevator. "I'll see you soon."

I sighed swiping the card to our hotel room… I made a beeline to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of wine, and a bowl of fruit before I walked to the bathroom kicking off my shoes as I went. I sat on the edge of the tub and turned on the water making sure it was the right temperature.

I stripped off my pants, shirt, bra, and panties before pulling my hair up into a messy bun on top of my head. I sank into the boiling hot water until my nose was just above the water. I turned off the tap with my toe and popped the bottle of wine taking a swing resting my head back.

It'd been a long week and I was both exhausted and horny. Dimitri had gone MIA in the last 24' hours and I was beginning to worry that something had happened. He'd mentioned that he was busy at work and Ivan was in town so assumed the boys had all gotten together doing 'manly' stuff or whatever it is that men do.

Truthfully I just wanted to hear his voice... I bit my lip as I imagined that he was right here in front of me… His hands sliding over my body teasing my nipples and kissing my neck… His hands wondering lower until he reaches my arching pussy and he slides a single finger inside of me as his tongue goes even lower teasing my ass. I moaned rolling my head back as I imagined…

"Roza… Roza… Roza…" I literally jumped 3' foot out of the tab at the sound of his voice. My head spun around that face I gave myself whiplash and water splashed all over the floor soaking the bathmats. "What have I told you about touching your pussy without my permission?"

I looked up blinking away the water droplets as I stared up at Dimitri. God- has he always looked this damn good? He wore dark blue jeans that seemed to hug every inch of his thighs and crotch- a tight black v-neck t-shirt with his hair tied back behind his head and sunglasses on top of his head.

"What are you doing here?" I questioned like a dumb ass… Instead of asking stupid questions I should be tearing off his clothes… Actually that sounded like a very smart idea the more I thought on it.

"Lissa invites me." Dimitri's eyes followed my every moment as I stood up and stepped out of the bathtub standing in front of him naked.

I reached out grabbing hold of Dimitri's shirt as I lifted it over his head and dropped it on the wet floor. I kissed his chest teasing both of his nipples using my teeth and fingers before I trailed kisses down his stomach until I knelt on the wet floor unbuckling Dimitri's tight jeans.

I didn't ask permission as I took his cock into my mouth stroking his hardened length with my hand as I sucked his length teasing his veins with the tip of my tongue. Dimitri's hand fisted in my hair picking up my pace but it wasn't quick enough for either of us as he lifted me to my feet and pushed me up onto the bench his cock at my entrance as he thrusted his throbbing cock inside of me.

I gasped holding onto his arms as his hand tightened in my hair angling my head back as his mouth attacked mine devouring it. "Mine… All mine."

"Yes." I gasped reaching for his ass pulling him deeper. "Please. Dimitri… I need all of you. Don't stop."

Dimitri lifted me off the bench and carried me out of the bathroom to the bed. Dimitri laid me down in the middle of the bed his cock still buried inside of me as his thrusts became shorter and more forceful as his mouth attacked my breasts sucking, biting, and marking my flesh as his.

"Roza…" Dimitri growled lifting his mouth back to mine. "…Tell me what you were thinking about while you fingered your pussy." I bit my lip feeling a little embarrassed as I avoided his gaze hoping that he wouldn't notice.

But this was Dimitri of course he fucking noticed.

"Tell me." Dimitri demanded pausing mid-thrust. "Roza."

I met his gaze staring up at him. "I was thinking of your tongue…"

"What was my tongue doing?" I could tell by the sound of his voice that he liked where this was going though I'm pretty sure he wasn't expecting my answer to be this…

"It was in my ass while you fucked me with your fingers." It was my turn to be cocky because I had rendered Dimitri speechless but it only lasted a moment before his hips began to move again faster this time as his mouth came down on mine.

"Dimitri…" I gasped reaching out to grab the sheet beneath me as his cock drilled into my pussy and his teeth latched onto my nipple. "Fuck! Please… Harder…" Dimitri pulled out and flipped me onto my stomach thrusting his cock back into my pussy as he lifted me off the bed pinning me down by the back of my neck. "Yes… Arh Fuck… Dimitri."

"So tight." Dimitri grunted in my ear. "So fucking tight! I've missed you, Roza. My Roza. Mine. Fuck. I need you- I –Cum- Roza." I screamed into the mattress as Dimitri's hand came down and slapped my ass as my back arched and I felt my orgasm expand and explode inside of me.

My cunt milked Dimitri's cock for every last drop until the two of us laid limp in the middle of the bed. I rolled onto my side as Dimitri pulled out of me and collapsed onto the bed next to me. "That was exactly what I needed."

Dimitri chuckled pulling me into his side. "I'm not done with you yet."

I grinned sitting myself up as I looked down at him. "…I'm really glad you're here." I admitted as I leaned down and kissed him as my hand trailed down his chest. "Tell me what you want?"

Dimitri brushed my hair back as he returned my kiss. "I just want you." Dimitri whispered staring up into my eyes searching mine. "What do you want?"

"You." I admitted sinking back onto the mattress. "I just want you but – I want you inside me, on top of me, behind me, above me, below me – I want all of you."

"You have all of me." Dimitri whispered as he kissed me while moving to position himself above me as his cock slid back through my sensitive folds. I untied Dimitri's hair running my fingers through it as his cock slid inside of me stretching my pussy to fit his length once again. "I'm yours."

"As I'm yours." I gasped lifting my hips to meet his thrust as my nails dug into his back. I wanted him deeper. I arched my back as I felt Dimitri's hand raise my legs higher on his back sending his cock deeper inside of my pussy.

Dimitri unwrapped my legs from around him and turned me onto my side straddling the leg that was on the bed and lifting my left leg over his shoulder- I gasped as I felt the head of his cock tease my slit and pussy entrance. My head rolled back as I felt him enter me with a slow and down thrust before his pace began to quicken until the only sound that could be heard in the room was Dimitri's grunts, my cries of pleasure, and the sound of our skip slapping together.

I reached down circling my clit roughly as I met Dimitri's eyes his eyes focused on mine as I grew closer and closer to my 2nd orgasm but before I could reach it Dimitri stopped and pulled out spread my legs as his mouth devoured my pussy his tongue and fingers fucking my aching cunt.

My legs were shaking as he placed them over his shoulders. I threaded my fingers through his hair riding his face as his tongue fucked my pussy… but just like that his mouth was gone but his fingers still worked my pussy over while tongue moved down lower and began to tease my ass.

I gasped fisting my hands tighter into his hair as I cries out in pleasure. There were no bad memories- there was no panic attack- there was only Dimitri' and pleasure. It was all becoming so intense I thought I would black out before I could come and then it happened my body jerked off the bed and I cum screaming Dimitri's name as an orgasm so intense rocked my entire body to the point of tears.

Dimitri kissed his way up my stomach and chest until he reached my mouth and kissed my lips sucking them into his mouth, and nibbling on my bottom lip. His hands cradled my face gently as he wiped away my tears with his thumb. "Are you okay, Roza? I'm sorry."

"Don't." I gasped focusing on his eyes. "Don't be sorry, Comrade. That was amazing… So amazing… I love you. I love you so much."

Dimitri grinned seeming quiet happy with himself. "I love you, My Roza. So much. So, so, much." He kissed me teasing my tongue with his giving me a taste of my own juices mixed with his own. "Close your eyes, Roza. Sleep. I'm nowhere near done with you but for now- sleep."

I closed my eyes as I snuggled deeper into Dimitri's naked chest tangling my bare legs with his… I listened to Dimitri's breathing and the sound of his heart beating… and for the first time all week I fell asleep quickly and I couldn't wait for Dimitri to wake me up in a few hours for round 2.

...To Be Continued...

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